Xu Deyu stayed at Lu Qi's house until late before returning to his nest. When I got home, I remembered that I still had a manuscript to finish, and when I looked at the time, it was almost eleven o'clock. So she set an alarm for herself and decided to go to the office early tomorrow morning.

This house was left to her by her parents, and when she divorced An Guoqi, she left the house with only her clothes and books, and she didn't even bring the jewelry that her in-laws bought for her. Many people say that she is stupid, and she is indeed stupid, in order to completely cut off the marriage that brought her endless harm. She thinks she has a salary enough to support herself. Her parents have a salary, and they don't need her financial support, so what do you want those things outside of her body?

My parents' house is an old three-room, built in the eighties of the last century, with a construction area of eighty square meters, said to be a three-bedroom and a living room, but in fact, the living room is just an aisle. Fortunately, she was the only one who lived, which was enough.

For so many years, in addition to going to work, Xu Deyu has lived in this space, she has always occupied the smallest bedroom on the dark side that she used when she was a girl, and her parents did not let her parents move the house after her brother's death, and there are still her brother's textbooks and reference books on the shelves. After her parents left, she didn't want to touch everything her parents left behind...... Every time they walk into the house where they once lived, it seems like they just went out and will come back...... She has repeatedly read Mr. Yang Jiang's "We Together", and there is a sentence in it that always stings her: We are separated......

The four of us, she thought, have also been separated on the journey of life. Every time she took a picture of the whole family on the wall, she felt the urge to cry, and every time she convinced herself that her parents, mother, and brother had just gone to another world, where they were waiting for her to be reunited. Maybe in another thirty years, or twenty years, she will be back with them. This time, up to her. After the last loved one left, she chose to commit suicide, she thought that her mission in this cold world was complete, and she did not attach herself to this cruel world. She calmly chose the way to leave this world, all the methods were learned from books, but the actual use was not so simple, she couldn't cut her wrists, she couldn't find a place to tie the rope on the hanging beam, and finally decided to use gas. It was a Saturday, and she took a shower, changed into specially bought clothes, closed the doors and windows, and quietly waited for a pass to another world. In a daze, she saw her critically ill mother, still lying in that room, and her skinny mother took her hand and said to her, Xiaoyu, you have to live well, otherwise I won't die...... Then she heard a knock on the door, she thought it was death knocking on the door, she didn't move, still lying on the bed, but the knocking kept knocking, and finally called him up, it was the grandson of the neighbor Uncle Wang, a boy like a dough, "Auntie, grandma asked me to send you ribs, why do you sleep in the daytime......

She felt that the boy was the embodiment of her mother, and it was her mother who stopped her, and at once she was discouraged from dying. Later, the wooden windows in her kitchen were too old to be closed tightly, and the gas that probably escaped was pumped out of the house due to the air pressure.

This matter is Xu Deyu's permanent secret. She didn't gain anything other than a little headache. On Monday she went to work as usual, and no one knew what had happened.

Her office is on the third floor of Building 2, facing the square, and to the north is Building 3, where the company's core power department is located. Everyone has their own goals in life, or for fame, or for profit, Taishi Gong said, the world is bustling, all for profit, the world is bustling, all for profit. But Tai Shi Gong's words do not apply to her, she lives, she works, and she earns that meager salary, neither for profit, nor for fame. Her biggest distress was that she didn't know why she was alive.

Philosophy has three ultimate propositions, who are you? Where are you from? Where are you going? She couldn't answer anything other than that her name was Xu Deyu and she was born in September 1973. Xu Deyu's three words are just a symbol left by her parents for her to identify others, and they do not really represent her. She checked the Internet, and there were many people with the exact same name as her, and they had different identities: the legal representative of the company, a lawyer, a gynecologist, and even a fugitive. If there is one less woman named Xu Deyu in the world, there will be no waves. There is a book that says that for our loved ones, they live because we live, and when we die, they die with them. The book also says that the only evidence that we have ever been in this world is children. But it's cruel to her. The people who cared about her were gone, her brother, her parents. She won't leave any evidence of her existence in the world, she doesn't have that ability.

Xu Deyu slept very badly that night, and before going to bed, she read a passage of "Wuchang City" by Fang Fang, the June issue of the "Novel Supplement", which she had just borrowed, and read it. Fang Fang is her favorite writer, and the first time she met Fang Fang was through her "Landscape", when she was still young, but Fang Fang's narrative style gave her a deep impression. But when she closed the magazine and went to sleep, the sleepiness was gone, and he began to think about Li Suyi, thinking that Li Suyi's choice was her choice, and it was more important to pursue the murderer and bring him to justice than to obtain financial compensation. She could feel the sadness and bitter hatred that Li Suyi had endured, the kind of hatred she had experienced, and she wanted to kill those bastards with her own hands. However, she knew that it was an impossible task, and she would not even kill a fish. When her parents were there, Li Suyi's husband once sent a catfish caught from the reservoir, which is a fish with very strong vitality, and it will not die for a long time when it is out of the water. That scene was very memorable, from Yu'er to her brother again, Xu Deyu found that her brother's impression was already very vague, and she hadn't seen her brother in a dream for a long time.

I don't know what time it was, but she finally fell asleep, but she was always haunted by one dream after another. In her dreams, she was always looking for her mother, as if she was still very young. She had been lost in Yanjing with her mother when she was six years old, and after coming down from the Great Wall, she was separated from her mother, she was so frightened that she cried, and she couldn't tell the tourists who cared about her where her mother was. Until her mother found her and slapped her, she covered her hot cheeks, but her heart was sweet. In the dream, she was looking for her mother, walking through the labyrinthine alleys, with wet stone pavements under her feet, just as described in the alley of Dai Wangshuyu, which she loved, but she was not the girl with the sorrow of lilacs, but an ugly girl with unkempt hair. Later, when she met a man, it was her brother, so she let go of her heart, held her brother's hand tightly, and never dared to let go again...... The scene changes to a lake with a dark blue color, but the man is no longer an older brother, but a bearded man. His gaze was deep and terrifying, and he looked straight at her, and he kept saying something, but she couldn't hear a word......

Xu Deyu, who was awakened by the alarm clock, suddenly realized that the man in the dream was Tao Tang! Except for the addition of Hessesen's beard, the eyebrows and eyes are the same person I saw yesterday afternoon. What's going on? She was confused, how could I take his hand and listen to his narration?

At seven o'clock the next morning, Xu Deyu went to the office. After the ministry was criticized by Mr. Tao, the factory newspaper was brewing a revision. Minister Cui and You Benling both talked about General Tao's requirements, and the ministry discussed and prepared to open two columns, one is a quality rectification column and the other is a front-line model column. In addition to being in charge of the press release, Minister Cui Jian entrusted her with the task of establishing a quality rectification column. Since the 13 branch of the quality of the on-site meeting, has received the quality department, the technical department, the eleventh branch, the thirteenth branch and the fifth branch of seven or eight submissions on the quality rectification, this issue of the factory newspaper will publish at least two articles from the grassroots, she has selected two of them, one is Lu Qi's husband Fan Yongcheng wrote the experience of learning Tao Zong's speech, although there is a suspicion of sycophancy, but she thinks it is good. The second article is written by Tong Zhengjie, deputy director of the 11th Branch, "Where is our gap? It is a dissecting analysis of the quality status of the 11th branch, which is very in-depth. In addition, she also needs to write an editor's note and publish it on the header of the special issue, which is also a common practice.

Xu Deyu's work is rigorous and serious, she is not because of her high consciousness, let alone to be appreciated by the leadership. Her main purpose in getting the job done is to kill time, and when she focuses on her work, time always passes very quickly.

She came to the office early today to finish the editor's note that had to be completed.

She didn't understand quality management, but she was called by Cui Jian at the quality site meeting of the 13th branch that day, and she also recorded Tao Tang's instructions with a voice recorder. After coming back, she sorted out Tao Tang's speech, and Minister Cui was going to leave to sort out the draft, I don't know if she was going to issue a supplement. Recently, Minister Cui has been very nervous, and his work has been much stricter than usual, and several colleagues have been criticized, which has made the personnel of the Propaganda Department, who have always been casual and comfortable, nervous. She was worried that Minister Cui would ask the editor to read it when she went to work, so she had to find out before going to work.

In many cases, the speeches of the leaders are universal truths and empty nonsense. But Tao Tang's speech on quality management ideas is not. The manuscript was arranged by her own hands, and there was almost no need to polish the text, just record it according to the speech. She admits that people have said well, especially about the concept of high-quality products and the role of the quality system, which can be regarded as popularizing the knowledge of quality management for her. Her editor's note must be written according to the idea of Tao Tang's speech, Xu Deyu began to work on the draft after getting up, after turning on the computer, while recalling the speech, while tapping the keyboard, when the bell rang for work, her 700-word manuscript had been completed, ignoring the colleagues who greeted her, carefully revised and polished it, and then printed it out.

At this time, You Benling came in, "Sister Xu, have a meeting, right away." ”

Xu Deyu put the manuscript into his notebook and went to the conference room of the Propaganda Department. At a glance, she saw Tao Tang sitting there talking to Cui Jian and Vice Minister Xue Huimin.

As usual, Xu Deyu found a corner and sat down.

"Comrades, please be quiet, we have an impromptu meeting." Cui Jian cleared his throat, "Recently, Mr. Tao has continuously made important instructions on the propaganda work, and today Mr. Tao personally came to our department, and everyone welcomes Mr. Tao to give instructions for us......"

"I can't talk about the instructions, I just want to meet the comrades of the Propaganda Department and tell me some of my thoughts on propaganda work......," Tao Tang said.

Xu Deyu quickly recorded Tao Tang's speech in her notebook, she has an excellent shorthand skills, as long as she is not too professional, she can write it down word for word. But today her heart and hand are completely disconnected, the pen is recording, and her mind is flying away. I looked up several times to see Tao Tang, who was talking eloquently, and paid special attention to his cheeks, without a single beard...... Tao Tang, who was speaking, was shining brightly, and it was by no means a deep horror in a dream.

It wasn't until the applause rang out that her mind was withdrawn. I found that I didn't hear what Mr. Tao said at all.

"Which comrade is specifically responsible for the factory newspaper?" Tao Tang asked.

"It's Comrade Xu Deyu. Xiao Xu, stand up ......" Cui Jian looked at her dissatisfied.

Xu Deyu was a little nervous.

"Oh, it's you......" Tao Tang smiled and nodded, "It seems to be Meiling's classmate, right?" I didn't remember until I went back. ”

She nodded and sat down. It's true that she and Tao Meiling are middle school classmates, but they don't have much contact with each other anymore, and they don't have much contact with all their classmates.

"The factory newspaper should change its style, pay attention to the front line, report on the front line, but don't rush, take your time. The key is to go deep into the grassroots, go to the news and come back by yourself, don't eat the water, it doesn't taste good......"

Please rest assured that Minister Cui has organized two studies and decided to make a thorough revision of the factory newspaper. Recently, I am going to open two columns......" Vice Minister Xue reported.

The meeting lasted about half an hour, and Tao Tang left.

Xu Deyu handed over the two grassroots manuscripts he had approved and the editor's notes drafted by himself to Cui Jian, who returned the manuscript before leaving work in the morning and gave instructions for approval. The manuscript is very clean, and there are basically no changes, except for a few additions to the original words of Tao Tang's speech.

"It's just a matter of adding to the picture." Xu Deyu thought. But it doesn't matter, no one will scrutinize this kind of article.

Xu Deyu didn't expect that Tao Tang and Sun Dequan followed her to her dwelling at night.

"Mr. Tao? Brother Sun? She was taken by surprise.

"Deyu, Dunquan said about you, I wanted to come to see you for a long time, I'm really embarrassed, I didn't ......come until now," Tao Tang said to Xu Deyu, "Your brother used to be our mutual friend, and he was better than all of us...... Pity...... Deyu, I apologize to you, I can't live with you, and I can't live with your parents......"

"How many years have passed, don't mention it......" Xu Deyu desperately held back tears.

"Ah," Tao Tang stared at Xu Deguang's bright smile on the photo, "Deyu, I don't mean anything else, I just came to see you." He looked around at the extremely simple furnishings in his home, "Deyu, if you need my help in life or work, just ask." As long as I can do it, I will do my best. You're welcome. ”

"Nope. I don't need help, I'm fine......" She just wants them to go quickly.

Tao Tang seemed to see her coldness, and only sat for less than five minutes before leaving.