138 Treat you as before
Zhang Chaoyang subconsciously shivered, he really didn't know how to answer Sun Nan,
To tell the truth, before he didn't know Sun Nan's inglorious history, in his mind, Sun Nan was kind-hearted, optimistic and cheerful, gentle and lovely, enthusiastic and generous, and was an angel in his mind, because of this, he would unknowingly fall in love with Sun Nan, and fell in love with Sun Nan soon after breaking up with Jiang Xiaodie, and reveled in the splendid world of the two, if it wasn't for Sun Nan's transfer from Erdaoling back to Yiyang, if it wasn't for knowing Sun Nan's disgraceful history in the past, Maybe they are still wandering in the long river of love, and even have entered the palace of marriage, tied the knot, married as a loving couple, and lived a happy life.
But now, in his mind, Sun Nan is no longer the innocent, gentle and lovely, innocent, and pure-hearted Sun Nan who worked with him in Erdaoling, and now Sun Nan has become another person, becoming eager for quick success, greedy for fame, vain, fame, and selfish desires, and has become a woman who makes him feel strange, and now Sun Nan has no word love in his mind.
Otherwise, she would not have fallen for the sake of ethereal power and fame, as well as money, and would not hesitate to sacrifice her hue to sleep with an old man who could almost be her father, and be the mistress of that old man.
Thinking of Sun Nan's fall, his heart was broken,
Although Zhang Chaoyang's mood did not change much, he didn't answer his questions for a long time, Sun Nan still understood what he was thinking, and he couldn't help but feel a pain in his heart, and then an inexplicable loss and sourness rose.
However, she did not resent Zhang Chaoyang,
Besides, she has no reason to resent Zhang Chaoyang,
Because she knows very well that almost all men in the world can't tolerate the betrayal of their beloved woman, Hongxing goes out of the wall to sleep with other men, and is an unclean woman,
And now, she is still in contact with Ding Wannian, and she still maintains an innocent relationship with Ding Wannian, so she has no reason to ask Zhang Chaoyang to forgive her, and she does not continue to ask Zhang Chaoyang to continue to give her the right to love.
Thinking of this, she smiled miserably and said: "Chaoyang, whether you like me or not, I still like you, I still love you, when I was in Erdaoling, it was you who let me know what love is, let me really taste the taste of love, and it was you who made me taste the happiness of being a woman, so I thank you...... I also want to help you, for your sake, I am willing to go up the sword mountain and go down to the sea of fire,"
Zhang Chaoyang's heart trembled, and he couldn't help but say: "Since you still like me and love me deeply, why do you want to leave me and get together with the old guy, can you give me a reason?"
reason, many of the world's problems have no reason at all,
Just like the relationship between her and Ding Wannian and Zhang Chaoyang, if there is a reason, she will not continue to be entangled with Ding Wannian, just because there is no reason, she will continue to be entangled with Ding Wannian even though she doesn't love Ding Wannian, continue to sleep with Ding Wannian, and continue to maintain an ambiguous relationship.
If there is a reason, she will not leave Zhang Chaoyang, and she will not continue to pay close attention to Zhang Chaoyang's every move after leaving Zhang Chaoyang, it is because there is no reason that she will continue to pay close attention to Zhang Chaoyang's every move after leaving Zhang Chaoyang, and will secretly help Zhang Chaoyang in private.
However, what did she pay in exchange for, not only did not eliminate Zhang Chaoyang's misunderstanding of her, but made Zhang Chaoyang's misunderstanding of her deeper and deeper, and even hated her.
Maybe this is fate, fate is destined to be so, no one can change it,
Thinking of this, Sun Nan sighed again, and pleaded: "Chaoyang, don't ask this question, okay?"
Zhang Chaoyang shook his head very stubbornly and said, "No, I want to know,"
The life experience and tragic past that made her sad and made her feel humiliated for a lifetime, she really didn't want to mention it, especially in front of the man she loved.
However, if she always closes that experience in her heart and doesn't tell Zhang Chaoyang, it will inevitably make Zhang Chaoyang misunderstand her for a lifetime, look down on her for a lifetime, and despise her for a lifetime.
For this reason, she sighed again and asked Zhang Chaoyang softly, "Do you really want to know?"
Zhang Chaoyang raised his head and said sadly: "Yes, I want to know, where is that old man better than me, he is so old, in addition to money power and status, what else can he give you, can he give you love, can he give you happiness, can he give you the sweet life that a woman should have, is there nothing else in your mind except money power and status, in your mind, money power and status are so important, so that you betray love, betray your conscience and soul, He did not hesitate to sacrifice his innocence and youth to flatter that old man,"
Zhang Chaoyang's words seemed to anger Sun Nan, and she said loudly: "It's not like this,"
Zhang Chaoyang said: "What the hell,"
Sun Nan took out a tissue to wipe the tears on his face, then slowed down his tone, and said softly to Zhang Chaoyang: "You must be very puzzled why I came to this point with you, since you want to know, okay, I can tell you, tell you all,"
Next, Sun Nan endured the grief in his heart and told Zhang Chaoyang about the heartache, sadness, and humiliation of his life.
That experience is a woman's bitter past, which is full of a woman's blood and tears, and is also full of life's helplessness and humiliation......
Sun Nan cried while speaking, and after speaking, he was already in tears, crying constantly,
After listening to Sun Nan's story, Zhang Chaoyang knew that he had wronged Sun Nan, and only then did he know that the reason why Sun Nan did this was all helpless.
He never thought that Sun Nan would be so miserable when he was young, he began to sympathize with Sun Nan in his heart, and he loved Sun Nan.
Thinking of his misunderstanding and incomprehension of Sun Nan, he felt deeply disturbed and guilty,
Thinking of the harm that Ding Wannian and others had done to Sun Nan, he was furious,
He never dreamed that there would be so many wicked people in the world.
His heart seemed to have been stabbed by someone with a sharp blade, his heart was broken, and he began to bleed, bleeding not only for this society, but also for Sun Nan.
He stared at Sun Nan with his eyes and muttered to himself: "Sister Nan, I know, all this is not your fault, don't be sad, please believe, no matter what, I like you, I will like you for the rest of my life, but you have to promise me not to associate with them from now on, and I hope you can stand up and expose them,"
It was only then that he found out that he was still in love with Sun Nan,
Because of love, he began to sympathize with Sun Nan, and because of sympathy, he fell in love with Sun Nan again, because he also began to stop caring about Sun Nan's past.
As a certain philosopher said, love is tolerance, love is responsibility, to love a person is to tolerate everything about her, to love a person is to take on the responsibility of protecting her, he loves Sun Nan, he intends to tolerate everything about Sun Nan, and he also takes on the responsibility of protecting Sun Nan,
He can't tolerate these wicked people like Ding Wannian, he wants to bring them to justice, he hopes that Sun Nan can stand up and expose them, let them all accept the trial of the law, and pay the due price for their actions.
As if stung by a scorpion, Sun Nan subconsciously bounced back, and said in a panic: "No...... No...... No...... Such...... It's going to ruin you, not only you, it's going to ruin me, and it's going to ruin my family...... For the sake of me and my family, and even more for you, you must not be impulsive, you ...... You can't move them, their strength is too great, and there are more powerful forces behind them, they still have ** behind them, they are in a hurry, they even dare to kill people, so, you can't move them, really, Chaoyang, listen to me, don't touch the stone with an egg,"
"What, there are more powerful forces behind them, who are they, they are **," Zhang Chaoyang couldn't believe his ears,
Sun Nan said miserably: "Chaoyang, count me begging you, don't force me, don't ask me again, okay, I don't want to say anything now," Sun Nan pleaded painfully,
Zhang Chaoyang knew Sun Nan's pain, but a strong anger haunted him, making him desperate to know everything, because, he had fallen in love with her,
Especially after Jiang Xiaodi left him, he fell in love with her without scruples, and now when he heard that his beloved had suffered such an inhuman ordeal, he was indignant, he wanted to know everything, so he broke the casserole and asked in the end, but when he saw Sun Nan's miserable eyes, his heart softened, and he held Sun Nan in his arms again, and murmured: "Sister Nan, leave them, as long as you leave them, I will treat you well, and I will never let you suffer any more harm, and no one will be allowed to hurt you, promise me, okay, Let's start all over again, let's get back together,"
Sun Nan's eyes were full of tears, he smiled miserably, and said, "I already said it just now, it's too late...... It's all late,"
Zhang Chaoyang thought that Sun Nan was worried that he cared about her past, and rejected him because of palpitations, so he swore to the sky: "Sister Nan, I'm not talking crazy, I'm sincere, I still love you, since I love you, I can tolerate everything from you, besides, it's not your fault in the past, it's the fault of this society, it's the fault of those sanctimonious hypocrites, all this shouldn't be borne by you, rest assured, good will be rewarded, evil will be rewarded, they, wicked people, will definitely be punished, promise me, leave them, Come back to me, and I'll treat you as before,"