The ups and downs of Beyoncé's "IfIwereaboy" repeatedly hit the silence in the darkness, repeatedly colliding with the enchanting moonlight thrown in from the window.

The moonlight poured in, pouring tassels on the floor in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows.

Sitting in the lounge chair in front of the window, sipping vodka in a goblet, Su Qing's eyes looked blankly at everything in the night.

Countless times I sat in front of the window, and countless times I looked into the distance. Countless times repeating the time of a person's reverie.

The bitterness of vodka numbs the tongue, but the subtlety of the mind is hard.

Complex ripples still ripple in my dull mind from time to time.

"My dear. It's the dead of night again, and it's the time to fall asleep. The sweltering heat and humidity of the summer nights reminded me of the coolness of the Los Angeles nights and reminded me of you.

In terms of time, you should be preparing for the exam. You've been living a quiet life on campus for the past two years, and that life is a good fit for your transition in the U.S. What's next? Do you already have a plan of your own? I'm sure you're already in the know. My girl has always had quirky elf ideas, and I never doubted your grasp of herself. Do what you want, you are always our pride.

I've been busy lately, and I've been away from S City for a month. Just returned to S City today. I can finally send you a greeting in a quiet state.

When it comes to quietness, it's actually just self-comfort. There is no place where people can be quiet, there is always constant distraction, and there are always people and things that will make the mind fall into chaos. Do you know? Xiao Yue is a big trouble that makes people cry and laugh. Hehe, when it comes to Xiaoyue, there is always something to say. This child is always overwhelming, but always pitiful. During the days I was away from S City, she always called me at night. She told me that she had returned to S City, and that she was going to live in S City for a long time. She also told me that she was going to take care of me in your place. Listen, what childish words. But... But it's very moving. I now think back to what she did in S City last summer, and I can't help but feel a headache. With her future, it will definitely be more of a headache.

It's interesting to think about, every time I'm with Xiaoyue, there's always a kind of cordiality. There is also a responsibility. I couldn't help but think of her as a child. I always couldn't help but want to spoil her. She always reminds me of you.

Are you all right? Do you think of me? I'm all right, it's just... I have you in my heart, my future and yours.

Soon it was the second anniversary of our separation, and I told myself countless times not to go to Los Angeles, not to try to break the peace of your mind. However, I want to know more about your peace of mind in my absence. Are you truly happy?。。。

Whenever there is a dead of night, I always ask myself, do you love Su Qing?

Each time, I smiled wryly and shook my head, refusing to allow myself to answer the question. Because... I still can't completely separate Su Qing and Ke'er. But when we met, we were already destined to have this fate. It is also destined for us to have this love. Maybe I won't be able to tell you and Kerr apart for the rest of my life, but my love is real and doesn't need to be proven.

Su Qing, after two years and more than 700 days and nights, can you tell yourself, can you leave me? Can you start a new relationship without my bonds? Please let me know if you can. If not, then be brave, be brave.

Are you listening to the song "IfIwereaboy" I bought you? A girl who wants to be a boy must be brave once after all, and that is a kind of unscrupulousness, that is, a reality.

I've been looking forward to, always expecting the girl in my dreams to call me. Looking forward to the opening of your heart and the flight of your heart.

Love you! Kevin. ”

Lingering words flashed through my mind, swirling with music, swallowed with bitterness and burning with alcohol.

The music repeats Beyoncé's unrestrained and resolute melody, as well as a man's admonition.

"Aren't you tired yet? Don't you hate me? While you're insisting, I'm trying to forget you. I'm constantly trying to get along with different men. I just want to make myself forget you, I want to take revenge on your contempt for me, on your so-called perfection. I'm almost there. Just today, I can almost erase your monopoly on my body and mind. When I was warmed, I had faith that I would be able to overcome you. I'm going to wipe you out completely. It's just that.... I still need time, I still need to make the last struggle... Why do you torture yourself like this, I have already said that you are no longer in debt, you belong only to yourself. However, you are still so cruel, you still have to maintain that perfection and nobility. You're still so hypocritical. You just want me to take the first step, you want me to have more unease. I want to be uneasy for the rest of my life. You.... What's so much trouble with that?。。。 Su Qing sent out a resentment in the darkness, and sent out a depression that was suffocated in her heart.

Pour the wine into your throat and fill the empty glass with all your might.

"Why did you mention Ning Yue? What are you going to tell me? Tell me you're amazing? Tell me, are you doing your duty for me? You're ridiculous. I didn't ask you to do anything, and I even wanted to get the news that you no longer cared about me, even if it was a deception. Do you know? The pursuit of perfection is arrogance and selfishness. You are going to tell me that I, Su Qing, can only be at your disposal in this life. You are wrong, and I am here to prove ... You're ridiculous... Haha, ridiculous... Su Qing twisted in the darkness and erupted in the darkness.

The door was gently pushed open, and the light in the living room shattered the darkness in an instant.

The dazzling light made Su Qing's eyes squint involuntarily, and it also swept away her hysterical aftertaste.

"Serena... Su Qing involuntarily called out.

Serena turned off the music player and sat gently on the edge of the bed.

"Come, have a drink with me. Why did Xiao Chuying take the initiative to enter her employer's bedroom today? Hehe, you've always adhered to the professional principles of a bodyguard. Su Qing laughed, and there was mockery in her laughter.

"I want to congratulate you. You've fulfilled your wish. And you seem to have a new plan for the future. I'm not here as a bodyguard, I'm here as your best friend. Serena's tone was emotionless.

"Girlfriends?。。 Ah, yes. You are indeed my best friend, we are inseparable, you are like my shadow. We seem to be closer than best friends. How? Are you planning to leave me? Su Qing still maintained a mocking tone. She looked each other up and down with defiant eyes.

Serena, who was sitting on the edge of the bed, was still wearing her uniform, but the black uniform top had been taken off and she was wearing a white shirt.

"I take your will as my will. You're about to finish your studies, you're probably leaving the U.S., and I need to know what you're going to do. And if I don't renew my contract with you, we'll be best friends. You seem to be able to be honest with me. Serena remained serious.

Su Qing looked at the other party's eyes, and gradually became interested and teasing.

"Haha. Are you tempting me? You've finally been exposed, and he's sent to spy on me. What bodyguards? It's spying on me, spying on me. But don't worry, I'll cooperate. Su Qing finally laughed unscrupulously.

Serena frowned, and quickly returned to normal.

"Ivany, don't always treat me with such a mocking tone. I wasn't sent by your lover who couldn't meet you. He had already left the company when I was hired. I was just picked and recommended by him. My uncle is Jia Zhiguo, I used to be a national women's fighting champion, I served in the U.S. Navy, I belong to a regular bodyguard company, and I have a legal bodyguard license. Most importantly, I am a person in this circle and I can put everyone in the company at ease. It's you, on the other hand, who rejects him and lives in his house. See for yourself, those footballs, those clothes, those honors. They've always been there. I know you hate him for cheating on you, but if you keep having boyfriends and giving them up, is this revenge on him? You can't tell what your feelings are for him, so you're not qualified to be angry with me. I'm your bodyguard now, and if you're going to really break your mind about him, well, throw all this stuff away and fire me too. And then go live a good life with that Song or something. He's the guy you've been dating for more than three months, maybe he's really the right fit for you. Serena poured out her disdain word for word.

"You... Sorry, I didn't mean to. I just want someone to vent to. Su Qing gradually retreated, and gradually became discouraged.

"Ivany, you're lucky. You are entangled in happiness, I am not as lucky as you. I'm only 27 years old this year, but I have to keep my life busy. I took advantage of the opportunity to come to the United States to participate in the competition at the age of 19 and did not return, and my reason was that I avoided politics. However, there has been no way to legalize my identity. I gritted my teeth and had no choice but to go to the United States for military service. I quickly gained U.S. citizenship because of my military service, but you know what? Is it easy to be an American GI? On the surface, we almost travel the world. But it was on the cruiser, it was at sea. Moreover, we have to go to war. I had to stay in the Persian Gulf all the time, cruising in Iraq all the time. That's a state of war. Also, being harassed by men on warships. Especially Asian female military personnel, they like to harass us. Do you know? It was because I couldn't bear it anymore that I shot and injured a mongrel's lobe. I was forced to retire early. That bastard was even worse, not only was he expelled from the military, but his lobes were permanently atrophied. Ivanie tell you this to show you how dedicated he is to you. He knows what kind of environment the United States is like, so he arranged for me, a bodyguard who is familiar with the United States. He knows your state of mind, which is why he is looking for a girl from China to accompany you. He's your luck. But you... Think for yourself. Serena's disdain was mixed with bewilderment.

Su Qing looked at each other in a daze, her eyes filled with anticipation.

"Thank you. Thank you for your concern for me. I was lucky. I have a man who is so good to me. But he was my brother. He loved his sister. I'm just one of his works. A piece that showcases his filial piety and morality. He writes to me almost every week, in which he cares about everything about me, and in which he asks for my forgiveness. But who am I to forgive him? I was a humble girl, and I had nothing but his sister. Serena, I am a person who has been abandoned by my parents. I don't deserve this kind of attention and such happiness. Su Qing's eyes were hazy.

Serena stared at the girl in front of her, searching for words of comfort, but she quickly gave up.

"Su Qing. Do you know? You remind me of a song. You must have heard this song and you must have liked it. Serena stood up, and she stood up to the window.

"Really? I've heard it too?。。。 There was expectation in Su Qing's eyes.

"Hmm. Every girl will love this song. I'll sing it to you, and I'll sing it to the one who is far away. I envy you. Serena's eyes didn't turn, she kept staring out the window at the night.

"The grass is pale and the fog is vast. There's a beautiful woman on the water side. The green grass is green and the white mist is blurred. There was a beautiful woman who lived by the water. --I would like to swim against the tide and snuggle up to her. There is a dangerous beach in front of me, and the road is long and long. I would like to go down the river to find her direction, but I see that she is vaguely like she is in the middle of the water---- I am willing to go upstream, and talk to her softly. There are dangerous shoals ahead, and the road is tortuous. I would like to go down the river and look for her traces, but I see her standing in the water------" Serena's dark voice sang a gentle melody.

Su Qing's tears flowed, her lips moved, and she was also singing this song from her childhood.

The two girls standing in front of the window held hands and cast their eyes on the sky in the night, into the ocean in the depths of the night. Cast into the depths of the infinite ink.