Chapter 154: The Past Is Unbearable

Tomorrow begins the third volume - Dragon Soars

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Li Yang had that suffocating nightmare again!

He dreamed of sitting quietly in a bar in the middle of the night, looking through the window at the dormitory block of the bearing factory across the road.

Every time he sees the No. 4 building standing alone in the barren grass, Li Yang's heart will always be filled with a trace of sourness, his mother and Xiaoyue have never enjoyed a day of happiness with him, he owes this family too much, too much.

When he was in the army, he was busy with training and tasks for a year, and he didn't have much time to go home to see, at most he sent some money to his mother and Xiaoyue, but he knew in his heart that what his family needed was his affection rather than cold and emotionless money.

Since he left the army and embarked on this road of no return, he no longer even has the right to step on that door and call his mother. It can only silently look at the window of its own home in this place, bless its mother and Xiaoyue in its heart, and tell them to be healthy and happy.

Once he sets foot on some roads, he is destined to never turn back for the rest of his life, just like when he faced Wang Xin's muzzle, although he knew that there was too much reluctance and helplessness behind the muzzle, he still couldn't turn back.

This is fate, and once the wheel of fate is slowly turning, man simply has no power to reverse it.

Satsuki jumped off the bus and stomped on the ground, it was summer, and the temperature was not cold at all, he knew that it was a habit that Satsuki had developed since childhood. Every time I jumped off the bus, I stomped my feet on the ground. A chubby man jumped down and stayed by Satsuki's side, reaching out to wrap his hand around Satsuki's waist, Satsuki leaned his head on his shoulder, whispered something, and then stretched out his hand to pinch the fat man's ear, and the two of them walked towards Satsuki's home with a happy smile.

Li Yang stood up and drank all the mineral water in the cup, and there was a bottle of wine on the table, but it was not opened. He hadn't drunk since he joined the army, because military discipline didn't allow him to drink, and after he embarked on this road, he didn't know how to drink.

Because drinking hands will tremble, this road does not allow oneself to tremble, hands shaking guns will not be allowed, hands are one's life.

Killers are not afraid of death, but that doesn't mean that killers are willing to die! Li Yang doesn't want to die yet, he still has many wishes that have not been fulfilled: he has not seen his mother's last face, Xiaoyue has not yet started a family, and he has not seen Wang Xin's happiness yet. All of this makes Li Yang not die willingly.

"I'm not going to die, at least not now," Li Yang muttered silently in his heart, turning to leave.

A tall, square-faced, dark-skinned man stood behind him, looking at him with a smile on his face.

Li Yang stood still, just looked at him like that, and he also looked at Li Yang like that.

"You're here!" Li Yang spoke first, his tone revealing indifference.

"It's here, it's nice to see you again" Luo Xiao smiled and sat on the rattan chair. Li Yang hesitated, but sat down.

"You don't want to know my name?" Li Yang wondered why Luo Xiao didn't ask his name, and took the initiative to say the question in his heart.

"If you want to say it, you'll tell me, if you don't want to say it, what's the use of me asking" Luo Xiao looked out the window at the brightly lit street, surrounded by this strange friend who had only met three times: "Besides, the name is just a code name, what does it matter if you know or not?" ”

"Yes, come with the wind, go in a hurry!" Li Yang whispered thoughtfully, and then regained his composure: "My name is Li Yang." ”

"Luo Xiao" Luo Xiao said very casually, "I can see that you are a person with a very good story"

"What's the matter, I'm also a person, an ordinary person, don't you just sit down with me and talk!" Li Yang was very unimpressed by Luo Xiao's words.

"Yes, heaven and earth are unkind to all things, and the saint is unkind to the ant people as the dog, and the heavens are stronger than people" Luo Xiao's eyes were deep and empty, as if he had penetrated the universe and seen the secrets of distant places: "People always have too much helplessness and compulsion, they don't have the opportunity to do what they like to do, and what they do is what they don't want to do." ”

"I also thought like you, but what about the result" Li Yang snorted coldly, and glanced at Luo Xiao disappreciatively: "The sky is impermanent, not for ruin, not for Yu to survive, only the strong survive, if the sky is against me, I will also destroy it!" ”

Luo Xiao stopped talking, and the two of them were silent. After a long time, Luo Xiao stood up and walked towards the door. Walking to the door, he turned around and slowly spat out a few words:

"Actually...... You...... Should...... Go home...... See...... See......! ”

Li Yang watched Luo Xiao disappear outside the door, silent, and raised his head to look at the lonely No. 4 building opposite.

401, three red Arabic numerals, is written on the wooden door, against the background of the miserable white wooden door, it looks so abrupt, so discordant.

Li Yang stood in front of this door, staring at the door that had been pushed open by his own hands countless times.

Mother was inside the door, maybe she was sewing torn clothes for Satsuki, maybe she was holding her picture and wiping it carefully, muttering, maybe she didn't do anything, she just sat in a wheelchair and stared out the window in .......

What would happen if the mother suddenly saw it, was it joy, shock, or anger? Li Yang suddenly felt very nervous, even more nervous than when he was on a mission for the first time, even more nervous than the first time he pulled the trigger of a sniper rifle on the criminal's head, and even more nervous than when he held Wang Xin's hand for the first time.

"Actually...... You...... Should...... Go home...... See...... See......! ”

Luo Xiao's words echoed in his ears, and a trace of uneasiness suddenly flashed in Li Yang's heart, as if something bad was waiting for him! His heart was pounding.

Calmed down his wild beating mood, and finally reached out and pushed open the hidden door!

If there is anything more painful in the world than parting from life and death, it is the deepest regret!

A kind face looked at Li Yang like that, with deep concern and longing in his eyes! But now everything is frozen in a flash. Frozen in Li Yang's heart.

Li Yang knelt on his knees, closed his eyes weakly, and tears flowed down his resolute cheeks and into the corners of his lips that were desperately pulling.

The tears were salty and astringent, just like Li Yang's mood was full of bitterness.

Step by step, Li Yang moved his knees to his mother, stretched out his hand to hug his mother into his arms, and his cold cheeks touched his mother's equally cold cheeks.

The mother was still smiling kindly, and looked at her son kindly.

"Mom" Li Yang trembled his lips, and squeezed the word out of his throat with all his strength, and a low choked voice sounded from his throat.

Who says men don't have tears? Who says men don't have tenderness?

Li Yang felt as if his chest was pressed by a thousand pounds of boulders, it was so difficult to breathe, his head was empty and blank, he didn't know what he was doing, he only knew that his cheeks were against his mother's always cool cheeks.

He wanted to scream, but his throat seemed to be blocked by something, and he couldn't make a sound, only a low whine like a beast. Kneeling on the ground like this, Li Yang had forgotten how much time he had, and he wanted to hold his mother like this, forever, never, never leave her.

Xiao Yue didn't know when she stood at the door, looking at Li Yang, who was kneeling on the ground and whimpering in a low voice, she had already burst into tears. The tiger on one side raised his head, trying to hold back the tears that flowed out. The two of them stood silently behind Li Yang, waiting silently.

After a long time, Li Yang finally stopped whimpering and asked in a low voice, "Are you back?" There was a hoarseness in his voice.

Xiao Yue looked at Li Yang deadly, biting her lower lip hard, she walked to Li Yang silently, snatched the frame containing her mother's posthumous portrait, hugged her tightly in her arms, and shouted hoarsely: "You go, I don't want to see you again!" ”

Li Yang stood up and took a step forward, and said to Xiaoyue with a trembling voice: "Xiaoyue, I'm my brother!" ”

Xiao Yue's body trembled, took a few steps back, and retreated to the wall, shaking her head while shouting frantically: "You go, you go immediately, it's all you, you killed your mother, I don't want to see you, you get out of me!" ”

Li Yang stopped, he looked at the girl who was like a mad tiger opposite, his heart was like a knife, and he muttered an explanation: "Xiaoyue, you listen to me, you listen to me!" ”

"I don't listen, I don't listen, you get out of me, never come back!" Xiao Yue slammed into Li Yang and knocked Li Yang to a stumbling ground. Li Yang took a few steps back and looked at Xiao Yue blankly. The tiger on the side saw the current situation and didn't know what to do.

Seeing his sister's hysterical appearance, Li Yang felt very uncomfortable, he knelt on the ground, kowtowed three times to his mother's portrait on the ground, stood up and turned around and walked out the door.

From behind him, Xiao Yue's roar with all her strength was heard: "Li Yang, I hate you, I hate you!" ”

Li Yang strode out without looking back, and a drop of shiny water fell, splashing the floor of the corridor that no one had cleaned for a long time.

"Brother!" Satsuki sobbed, her body went limp, and she passed out in the tiger's arms.......

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