Sitting in the theater, Winona waved her hand and motioned for her assistant and makeup artist to all walk away and not disturb her conversation with Levy. She noticed that Levy also made the crew a little farther away, and this made her a little happier: Levy knows how to do things and knows how to be considerate of herself, which makes her a little silently happy in her heart.

Obviously, Levy knows how to understand people - and only such a person can be a good director and write a script like Angel Amelie, right?

Winona knew that she was out of control again today. She also regrets now that she had quarreled with Levy. However, if she was given another chance, she would still be noisy like this: Levy exposed her

The strength of the scar was too strong, which caught her off guard and was a little unbearable.

During this period of time, when did you not force yourself to smile before and after others? I think I am a good actor, and I always think that I can hide from everyone's eyes, but others may not pay attention to whether the smile on their face is real or fake, but the camera will accurately record every expression of themselves, and the camera will tell people whether they are really happy or pretending to smile, and this director of Levy noticed all this.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have been angry," Winona opened her mouth when she saw Levy walking back, and after thinking for a moment, she added, "I shouldn't be stupid and say I don't know how to act." Actually, I know what you said, it's just ...... I'm not in a good mood, I can't be optimistic - I'm not Emily. ”

"People's moods can be adjusted, and I really don't see any reason why you're in a bad mood. It's just that a few movies have been smashed. Is it anything to you? Trust me, as long as you're still pretty. As long as you're Winona Ryder, none of this counts. ”

"It's not these...... I don't really have a lot of ambition. Winona shook her head. I wanted to have my own career, but in fact, it was just because my life was a mess and there was no way to organize it at all, so I wanted to use my career to escape. ”

"It doesn't seem necessary to tell me these words, does it?" Levy smiled bitterly.

"Why?" Winona asked rhetorically, "Because you're afraid I'll talk about Depp, and you don't want to hear that?" ”

Winona could see that her words made Levy's expression a little embarrassed. It also made her know that Levy actually wanted to ask, but he was too embarrassed to ask.

These guys are all like this, they want to know, but they pretend to be decent.

"Actually, we don't have anything to say, and it's not the same as the media speculated," Winona propped her hands in the director's chair. Letting her body relax a lot, she raised her head slightly and let herself lean back in her chair, "I'm not unhappy because I left Depp." I left Depp because I was unhappy. ”

"He's the one who upsets you?"

"Of course not, he's a good boyfriend." Winona thought of the days of the past, and also of the person who had a deep influence on her. Although it's been almost five years since the breakup, she has avoided him all these years. So much so that he almost can't remember what he looks like, but he still has an influence on himself. "It's just that there are too many things in my heart, and he can't help me resolve them, and he doesn't want to watch me feel so uncomfortable, so we separated."

Too many things backlogged? Levy laughed. Winona has seen such a smile more than once: many people laugh at her like this: what can a princess who grew up in the palm of people's hands have on her mind?

In their opinion, their worries are also men, so they have always been keen to understand their love affair - as everyone knows, that relationship has long been let go, and the things in their hearts are much more important than love.

"You don't believe me, do you? You don't think I have anything to worry about, do you? You're not the first person to see it that way. Winona showed no mercy and directly exposed Levy's thoughts, "You people have always felt that women have everything as long as they have food and drink, and you have always felt that as a woman, the highest pursuit is to eat and drink without worry, and then having a man take care of you for a lifetime is over, right?" ”

"I didn't say that, but...... Happiness in life is the most basic pursuit of every human being, not only women, but also men want their lives to be happy and healthy. ”

"Maybe, but you would think that men can have more pursuits, and women don't have to pursue more."

"It's not discrimination against women, I prefer to understand that it's tolerance against women. It is very difficult to succeed in your career, and if a woman does not want to succeed, she can take a break. ”

"Nobody needs your tolerance." Winona stood up and looked at Levy with some provocation, "It's true that I'm a woman, but women can also have their own pursuits and choose their own paths." ”

"Of course, you have your freedom...... So, what path do you want to choose? ”

"I don't know."

"Don't know?" Levy asked rhetorically, somewhat surprised.

"I don't know. I don't know what I want, but I know that my current life is not what I want. ”

She has said these words to many people, and she has seen such expressions many times.

"A woman's heart......" Levy shook his head gently, "confused and decisive, this is a woman." ”

Winona ignored Levy's exclamations: there was nothing to hear from the directors' rambling exclamations.

"Have you ever thought about what you want to do that is completely different? Have you ever thought that sometimes, you can do things without any constraints? Perhaps, watching a concert and suddenly crying and laughing? Perhaps, it's a drive-around aimlessly, and after the drive, standing in the field and yelling? Perhaps, it was the money in his pocket, but he deliberately did not pay the bill and quietly stole things? ”

"You know it's illegal, right?" Levy's expression was strange, as if he had really done such a thing, "Winona, it's better for you not to have such thoughts, it's not good for you, you're a star." It's important to learn to respect the law......"

"The law, the law. The law or something, the most boring! Law. Rules, plans, I've lived in life since I was 13 years old, I'm a star, I'm an actor, I'm the luckiest person in America, I live under their eyes, but I never have my own thoughts. There are rules everywhere you go. Everywhere I go, there is a circle that I can't jump out of, and my path has always been dead. What else is the point of such a life, like a machine? ”

For some reason, Winona suddenly filled with a mischievous mood and shouted out all her thoughts, and her words stunned Levy for a while before she spoke again.

"But out of that circle. You don't necessarily have to be happy. ”

"No matter how unhappy I am, it's my own choice, and no matter how bad it is, it's my own path." Winona shook her head, "You know what. When I saw the ad for 'Winona is the luckiest girl in America,' I suddenly felt particularly funny: this luckiest girl was made by someone else. And I myself follow them like a marionette, I'm not a star. Not the lucky ones, not even myself. I'm numb myself, but I'm still the luckiest girl in America! ”

Perhaps this is the most ironic thing: when she was at her most popular, the whole United States thought she was extremely happy: she was beautiful, made a lot of money, was born a big star, and had a boyfriend who was extremely handsome, had a successful career, and loved her very much. At that time, Winona was almost the darling of the whole United States. Julie is still relying on all kinds of gossip to brush up on the tabloids, while Barrymore is still untying the playboy wide clothes, in Cameron. When Diaz was still filming some movies that couldn't be released, Winona. Ryder seems to have ushered in his perfect life, or rather a seemingly perfect life.

It's just ironic that she doesn't like such a life: such a life that others can't ask for, but she doesn't like.

"In Depp's eyes, I am a very perfect person, he always feels that I am the side I show, I am such a good girl, I am the perfect person in his heart. Unfortunately, I know that I am not like that myself. I can show a perfect appearance in front of him, I can make him feel that I am his goddess, but somewhere in my heart, I know that I have a side that is unwilling to go on like this. He didn't try to understand me, he just wanted to pull me back and make me who he imagined to be again. It's just that it can't be done, I really can't do it. ”

"So, you broke up with Depp?"

"Depp is a good boyfriend...... But he's so good. He always made me feel that if I married him, my life would have come to an end. It's like a train, now I'm running on top speed, if I marry Depp, then it's just a constant slowdown, deceleration, until the last day stops, in the whole process, everything is so dull, everything is taken for granted, there is no change at all. He got that tattoo and showed it to me and said he was going to leave it to his son -- I was terrified, I was only 20 years old, I was only a fifth of my life, and I was already thinking about what would happen after death? My life, this has been planned? ”

Levy could only be silent about this: Of course he knew about Depp's tattoo of 'Winona forever', but what he didn't expect was that Winona thought of this when she saw that tattoo.

Depp is really pitiful, he has never been a good boy, he was divorced before he met Winona, and he finally really wanted to fall in love, but he met such a rebellious girl wrapped in the appearance of a doll.

"Leaving Depp is to go my own way. Without the life that was planned for me, I could live my own life. It's just that...... I messed everything up. After leaving him, my own life became worse and worse, and I wanted to rely on my career to make amends, but it was also a mess. Winona smiled again, "It's sad, isn't it?" wanted to forge his own path, but the result only proved that he had achieved nothing. ”

"I don't think so." Levy whispered, "At least, you dared to take a brave step." You dare to leave your candy-box-like life, dare to say no to the life that has been arranged. Winona, I must say to this: you are braver than I thought. ”

Winona stood up, she didn't expect that after listening to her words, the other party was not persuading her to change her mind, not persuading her to be a good baby, nor flattering her to encourage her to succeed, but just appreciating her approach.

She had never heard such praise before—who would appreciate a seemingly wrong act? But this kind of praise makes people so happy - there are still people in this world who understand me. (To be continued......)