“cut，good！” Cameron picked up the guide tube and shouted with satisfaction, "Rest for half an hour, have another running shot, and we can call it a day!" ”

There were staccato cheers from the studio, and Jenny applauded perfunctorily, and then immediately walked to her trailer so as not to be disturbed by anyone—although Anthony had just fallen and seemed to need a little consolation, she really didn't want to talk to anyone now, no one. Just fall in love with WwW. LＷＸＳ５２０。 ＣＯＭ

"Hey." When Jenny opened the car door, Mary was crouching in front of the refrigerator picking fruit, and she turned around and greeted Jenny casually, "Would you like apple juice?" ”

Jenny waved her hand and collapsed on the couch, but Mary didn't receive the signal, and instead asked in a tone of feigned excitement, "Orange juice?" Mixed juices? ”

"Mary!" Jenny raised her voice and gave a snort, Mary stopped talking, and after a while she closed the refrigerator door and sat down beside Jenny.

"Do you want to talk?" She asked.

"I don't want to," said Jenny, who closed her eyes and rubbed her temples, "I just want to be quiet for a while." ”

"Okay." Mary said sympathetically, "Well, if you need me, I'm in the kitchen." ”

She picked up a few fruits and quietly walked out of the trailer compartment, Jenny felt a slight sense of guilt for her—she was usually polite to Mary—but there were too many facts to worry about, and soon the inconsequential thoughts drifted out of her mind, after all, Chris had only been yesterday after arguing and leaving, and she didn't have time to think too much about it now.

Contradictory...... Logical conflicts......

The question that had plagued her in the early days of the crossing appeared in front of Jenny again, and this time it was different from that time, at that time, it was difficult to say whether she could successfully enter the industry, entering the industry and working hard was the only answer to all questions, and it was not time to think about this at that time, and now, she could no longer avoid this question: if she could achieve the goal, then why should she go back?

Of course, a very straightforward and clear reason, a reason that has been reminding her through the logo of Big Dream: no matter how good her life is now, she is a person with children, she should go back for the sake of her son, and it is the mother's responsibility to raise the child. - However, such a simple reason raises more questions: if she went back to take on the responsibilities of her mother, would she also give up her responsibilities in this world if she disappeared after she achieved her goal?

Not to mention the company, these losses may be made up for with money, what about her friends in this world? Her sudden disappearance is also a harm to them, of course, friends may not be able to compare with their son, but what about her lover in this world? If there are children, what about children in this world?

This analogy can be stacked endlessly, but the core contradiction is always there: she cannot achieve this goal alone, and in the process of achieving this goal, she will have emotional and financial connections with all kinds of people, and generate responsibilities, and choosing one responsibility means having to give up another responsibility, there is no choice between the best of both worlds.

And the most idealistic thing to do - to keep everyone on good terms until you go back - has proven to be unworkable. Her current life is full of fatigue and stress, her instincts will make her constantly seek relaxation and comfort, Cesare and her were partners at first, if she hadn't taken the initiative to communicate with him many times, they wouldn't have become friends, in that outburst he had said that she had asked for more support from him than she should, so, it turned out that she was definitely going to seek support, she couldn't overcome herself, she couldn't overcome this survival instinct, and secondly, even if she could, Jenny felt that the direct result of struggling alone for long periods of time was that she might have a nervous breakdown.

So, either she has become a shameless emotional liar, coaxing the victim to support her, but refusing to marry him and have children, one wakes up and changes to another, and then returns with apologies after reaching her goal, or she stays here with similar apologies - considering that her current net worth and social influence are completely far greater than those owned by 'Chen Zhen', she still feels indebted anyway, and it seems more cost-effective to stay here and feel indebted.

Then she came to the second question: since she didn't want to go back, why did she want to? This represents not simple rhetoric, it represents countless nights of exhaustion, it represents countless orders to smile on her tired lips, her exhausted brain begins to work, her lead-filled legs begin to run, her itinerary is simply a delicate and lasting abuse for a normal person, if she doesn't want to go back, why do she want to continue with her current life? She has a lot of money that she can't spend until the next life, she has a very successful career, she is already a legend, and life should be a pleasure for her, not a ...... And not the way it is now.

There was no explanation, Jenny only knew that she didn't want to give up now, and she hadn't made the decision to stay yet, in fact, she had been avoiding thinking about it until Chris's outburst yesterday, and she couldn't help but think - did she want to go back or stay? Although she didn't know why she was thinking about it, she was completely at a loss in this matter, she didn't know what she should choose, how she would choose, and whether she would regret it after choosing - she had completely lost herself.

Closing her eyes and searching in vain for her son's disc once again, Jenny silently cursed in the empty and dark acting space: she had taken many home videos for her son, but none of them had been brought along. And six years had passed, six years of busy, full - she really couldn't remember what he looked like, and this fact made her feel guilty and sad, and made her ignite a long-lost stubbornness: she didn't know what force had brought her into this world, and gave her the golden finger and this incredible task, but—but she could at least maintain her self-esteem, she could at least try to challenge, try to overcome the obstacles it had erected, and go back to her own world, which was her home, even if it was not perfect, but still her home.

"Hey, Jane." There was a slight tug on her arm, and Jenny came back to reality, and Mary was looking at her with some concern, with a glass of juice in her hand, "Are you alright, Jane?" ”

"I ...... It's okay. Jenny shook her head, she was not unhappy to be interrupted, but the sincere emotion on Mary's face touched her a little, she took the cup from Mary's hand, "Thank you, didn't you give yourself a drink?" ”

"Mine is here." Mary said, taking a sip of juice, sitting down next to Jenny, and looking at her tentatively, "So, it's fierce, huh?" ”

Jenny couldn't help but laugh, and she chuckled until Mary began to look panicked before she said, "Do you think we're friends, Mary?" ”

It was easy to misunderstand, but Jenny's tone was soft, and Mary was not offended, she thought for a moment and said seriously, "yes, of course, we are friends - in fact I think we are kind of sisters." ”

She was a little embarrassed, stuck out her tongue, and realized that Jenny was not laughing at her, so she continued, "Of course I know it's funny and unprofessional, but really- maybe because of my relationship with you since I was 18, I feel like the sister I want to be, Jane, we take care of each other together, I take care of you, and you have been taking care of me-"

"I see what you mean." Jenny whispered, touching Mary's cheek, "Mary, yes, we're like family. ”

"Yes, I, you, Jim and Cesare, we're like family," Mary giggled, rubbing Jenny affectionately, "Jim is the annoying cousin, and Cesare is the more annoying governess—it's scary, but he's indispensable at the critical moment." ”

Her voice softened, "And we are like a family, we are always by your side to support you, you will never be lonely, dear, don't be depressed, you are here, we will protect you." ”

Jenny hilared to hide her other emotions as she said, "Wow, clever ghost, what did you guess?" ”

"I didn't guess anything." Mary blinked, "But I guess - Chris had a fight with you, and you broke up?" Something must have happened between you anyway for him to go crazy and run back to Los Angeles overnight. And I know you want the support of family and friends right now, that's it. ”

"It sounds like you know everything." Jenny said noncommittally, "You might as well guess whose fault is it for our quarrel?" ”

Mary burst out laughing, and she said smartly, "What, do you need some motivation from me if you want to get him back?" ”

Before Jenny could answer, she pointed at Jenny and blocked her reply, "If you were reasonable, you wouldn't have said that, dear, when a girl feels hurt, she will definitely find a friend to count down and denounce her boyfriend's badness, so this time it's your fault, you made him angry?" ”

"It's not that I'm mad at him," Jenny said, and she sighed, "Forget it, I don't know what I'm doing, I'll go to the studio." ”

"Don't." Mary smiled as she grabbed her, "I can give you the answer you want, and it's very sincere." ”

She blinked, putting on a very emphasis, sincere expression, "Chris has always been very nice to you, he loves you very much, dear, I mean really, his love for you can be seen by anyone - we all know that he has been accommodating you, and you are the one who enjoys." Give him a call, Jenny, long-distance love can't stand the cold war, I'm serious, give him a call. ”

Jenny was pulled back to the couch in some reluctance, she stared at Mary for a moment, and Mary raised her hand, "I swear I'm right, Jane, it's really my truth." ”

"You tell the truth without even knowing the truth of the matter." Jeanne said, and before Mary could speak, she shook her head and told her to shut up—and after a moment of thought, she finally decided, "Don't say it, I'm going to make a phone call—I need to talk to Chesa." ”

Mary, who seemed to sense her confusion and irritation, nodded, made a gesture of respect, picked up her cup and walked to the kitchen, giving up space to Jenny and her phone.

The bell rang, and Cesare picked it up.

"Say." His tone was calm and normal, as if he didn't know that Chris had returned to Los Angeles yesterday - and Jenny couldn't help but think that maybe he really didn't.

"Uh-" she said, not knowing what she was going to say, "did you know that Chris was back in Los Angeles yesterday?" ”

"Yes," Cesare said calmly, "and he seems to be in a bad mood, do you have anything to communicate with me about this?" ”

His tone was professional, a little different from the usual tone of the call, and Jenny guessed that he was in a meeting, and she could almost sketch what he was like now: in a suit, with piercing eyes, and always rushing forward tirelessly.

"I-uh-I ......," she said with difficulty, "something, I think I have to talk to you—"

Her words paused, for Mary suddenly walked in hurriedly, still holding a computer in her hand, her face was extremely ugly, and she brought it directly to a place where it was convenient for her to read.

The computer page was stuck on TMZ's website, and the bold title appeared to have her and Chris's names, but Jenny didn't pay much attention - her eyes fell directly on the video in the page: on a sunny Los Angeles street, Chris is intimately embracing a beautiful girl - tall and provocative and somewhat familiar face, no doubt this is a new supermodel - as the video plays, he tilts his head and leaves a kiss on her lips, and without knowing what to say, both of them smile.

In the background noise on the other end of the phone, at least six types of phone ringtones rang at the same time, and Cesare's tone was a little deep, "Jenny? ”

Jenny closed her eyes, then opened them again.

"There's something I think I'm going to trouble you," she said apologetically, "I need you to get my personal belongings out of Malibu, Chesa, and if possible, I want you to help me find a new place to live......

The author has something to say: updated, I must say, Chris is a character I really like very much, and the process of kicking him out of the game hurts while I write, really, 5555, there is a feeling of being sorry for him