My dad died in a car accident on September 20 of the lunar calendar......

I'm drinking now, I can't write......

Every night before I go to bed, I always think about when my dad was away...... I can't cry right now. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

I don't know what to say.

I was locked up in my room alone.

My family is left with my dad and my divorced sister with a child......

I feel like I'm lonely, and I don't have a home anymore.

What's the point of me living, what's the point of losing more money when my dad dies.

No matter how noisy and noisy the family is, it is better than being too much stronger than one less person.

If there is one less person, the family will not be a family. What's the point of my life?

But I have the only man left in my family, I'm not strong, I don't take care of my mother and my sister, what should I do?

My dad was sharp, he left suddenly, and he didn't leave a word, and there must be only three things that he couldn't worry about.

One thing is that I can't rest assured that my mother.

One thing is to rest assured that I am not married, I have not added grandchildren, I have not started a family, and I have not inherited fireworks.

One thing is that I can't rest assured that my divorced sister can't rest assured, and I can't rest assured that my sister is still living alone with a boy......

My dad is gone, the people are gone......

He drank and rode a motorcycle, hitting a pickup truck parked on the side of a curved road.

Primary and secondary responsibility.

My dad was drinking, driving without a license, driving under the belt.

He is primarily responsible, and the pickup trucks illegally parked on the side of the road are secondary responsibility.

In the end, the insurance company paid 238,000 yuan.

When my dad was there, he first took 45,000 yuan for the funeral expenses. In the end, the insurance was assigned, the traffic police brigade was assigned, and my sister went to find someone to argue with theorist.

In the end, the owner and driver of the car only lost 15,000 yuan. In the end, my dad was only worth 208,000 yuan......

My dad takes care of my milk's money, my dad takes care of my mom's money, my dad takes care of my money......

It's only worth 208,000 dollars......

What can I say?

No amount of money can be exchanged for a complete home.

Even if you ask for food, no matter how poor and tired you are, you can't compare to a complete family......

I went to school, only to finish my first year of high school, and then I went to join the army.

When I was a child, all my relatives and elders said that I was smart, but I was not sensible and could not study hard.

I have now come to the road of writing novels, whether it is relatives, friends, classmates, friends, or elders, I didn't expect it, including myself.

However, I have achieved nothing now.

I'm not married, I don't have children. When my dad left, I didn't start a family, I didn't inherit incense, I didn't achieve anything, I didn't get married.

In my life, I have never complained that my parents did not provide me with good conditions for living, nor have I ever complained that they were uneducated or that my education was not good.

I only complained that when my dad left, he didn't say a word, he didn't say a word......

I only regret that I didn't feel at ease letting him go.

I only regret it, I only have one time, and that was three or four years ago, when I went back to my hometown, I drank too much at a friend's house, and I was pulling my dad in front of our already deserted fishing pond and talking drunk.

I said to my dad, I said, I don't see you all day long and you can't say a few words and get annoyed, angry, focused, etc., I see you, I am ashamed, worried, worried.

I'm afraid that when I gain a firm foothold in society, you and my mother are old, in case you are gone, you let me have more money, you let me have the ability again, who do I respect?

The lamb knows how to kneel and suckle, and the crow knows how to feed in 30 days......

The babies are all almost twenty or thirty years old...... What don't you understand? What reason don't you understand?

Babies, just scared, just guilty......

If you are not there, or you are sick, you let the children have more money, no matter how much ability you have, who will you honor?

My dad didn't drink that day, and he said to me......

He said that people who have not died at the time......

Who doesn't have an old age?

I was drunk, I cried, I had no scruples, I said what was in my heart to him......

He just stood there, nagging me.

I looked at him, and his back was a little rocky.

The hair, at some point, turned pale.

People, unlike when I was a child, rode a bicycle and carried me.

When I was young, let me ride on his neck, lead me everywhere to play, catch birds for me, catch fish for me, tie cages for me and catch crickets......

The family's fishing pond has long been deserted......

The pond is overgrown with grass and sparse poplar trees......

We stood in front of a tattered, abandoned asbestos tile red brick house, on the edge of a deserted fishing pond......

I was crying, talking drunk, talking drunken to my sober father.

I cried, he laughed......

I'm sad, he's open-minded.

At least four or five years ago.

But in a flash, my dad was gone......

I don't know how many readers of my book have had this experience......

Maybe you haven't experienced such a mood and family feelings, or maybe you haven't had such a life experience......

I wrote a book, though not very good.

But I've always believed that open books are beneficial.

Whether it's an online article or a realistic article.

At the very least, reading some novels or reading cultural relics, people always have something to gain.

I, writing online novels, making money is one thing, but what I think is, even if I write these online novels, even if it is not orthodox literature, even if it is no matter how kind of garbage fast food it is......

But I want all those who have read my books to gain some life experience and insights from my words......

Therefore, my novel is not popular.

But, man, right is right, wrong is wrong. Success is success. A failure is a failure.

My book, although the grades are not good, but I have gone astray, I don't have the ability to earn money, and I don't have the ability to make many people admit and applaud, I admit it.

I'm not capable enough, I'm not good enough, I admit it!

But what I want to say, what I want to say.

People live for a lifetime, cherish the present, cherish the people and feelings around them.

Whether it's love, friendship, or love.

All have to be cherished.

Because maybe in a casual moment, the people around you, the feelings around you, if you say no, you won't be there......

I drank too much today, and I cried and typed these words and said these words.

It's not about gaining sympathy, it's not about playing the bitter card.

I'm just feeling bad, I just don't know how to express to you some of the reasons why I can't renew properly......

On the one hand, I didn't make much money from this book, and on the other hand, my family suddenly changed.