"If you're going to ask me if that's the most convenient option, it is."

Cesare was silent for a moment, as if pondering Jenny's question, and as if trying to figure out her heart, and after a while, he said in a calm tone, "This is also the career path that Virgilia and I discussed, and she thinks that it will best benefit both of us - as you can see, she has always wanted to find an heir in her career, and Aiden is undoubtedly a little younger." ”

Jenny's lips twitched, but Cesare didn't give her a chance to speak.

"But if we're talking about what I thought I was...... Yes, the reason why I accepted Virgilia's offer and even started working as an agent while still in college was because of my interest in the media itself. There are a lot of real industries in the world, and yes, I can be in politics, in trade, and even in high-tech, because the work I'm doing now is essentially buying and selling, and working in those industries is probably more lucrative. I really chose the film industry because I was fascinated by it. ”

"Fascinated." Jenny repeated, she thought it was a little funny, "I'm sorry, but I'm having a hard time associating the word fascinated with you—"

Cesare calmly let her laugh, but had no intention of sharing, as if the conversation was over. Jenny looked at him questioningly, "Why don't you go on?" ”

"There's nothing more to say," Cesare said, "I'm fascinated by the media industry, and I happen to have an advantage, so I became an agent with the help of my family – and you know the rest very well, otherwise what else would you want to know?" ”

"I don't know if there are any emotional stories, why you are fascinated by movies, what does it mean to you......" Jenny thought to herself, "could there be a story such as a lonely child who loves to watch a certain movie - this should be the standard configuration of many literary and artistic youths." ”

“…… I can make up a similar story to satisfy you if you need to," Cesare's voice also smiled, and the atmosphere became more like small talk, "but unfortunately there is no such touching story, and I am fascinated by the media, not because of my personal experience - or because of my lack of synaesthesia and my ability to connect my interests with my personal experience, you know, for some sentimental literary and artistic people, watching it on a thunderstorm day when I was a child...... I don't know, the ordinary afternoon of "The Sound of Music" can be described by them as great as a great change in the world, as if his whole life has been changed because of that afternoon, generally speaking, this kind of person also has a strong empathy ability, can try to create, perform, only people with this quality, can really enter the role. For people like me, nothing changes happen overnight, and even few decisions are the result of emotion, I chose the media industry, which is the dual role of emotion and reason, and my interest in the media industry comes from years of observation and experience...... There's nothing romantic and touching about it, sorry if that's what you're looking forward to. ”

"I don't need a romantic story," Jenny laughed, wrapping her cardigan tightly and looking at the big, yellow moon in the sky, "that should be Salvi's patent - if I ask him, he'll give me a romantic story, I promise you-"

"--I will never question it." Cesare said.

They both laughed, and Jenny said, "Then why do you find the media industry fascinating?" Because it affects the ability of the person? ”

"Indeed, because of its power," Cesare said, "why does it attract the best talent?" It is one of the lower yields of several industries – at least with lower pay, but why do so many people still work in it? I even had to use harsh barriers to entry, low salaries, long hours, and difficult upward paths to screen job applicants, because it gives people a lot of power, which is the biggest reason why I am fascinated by the media industry...... You will find that when you gain attention, you also gain incredible power, when they are watching you, you seem to become their master, you can drive their emotions, influence their thinking, and even more extremely, have an impact on their lives - behind every filmmaker who has been influenced by a film for a lifetime, there is another successful filmmaker, which is a fascinating phenomenon, of course, it exists in all cultural products, but you can't help but admit that movies, and TV series, Compared with television, news, and music, movies have a stronger ability to break through the barriers of time and space. That's why I chose to become a film actor agent...... Unfortunately, I didn't have what it took to be an actor, but I was able to get involved in the industry with a bit of a twist and turn...... Yes, this is one of the reasons why I chose to become a broker. ”

"It's a pity that you don't have the talent to be an actor." Jenny said - she couldn't help but snicker, "So it's a pity for you - that sentence seems to mean that you tried to be an actor?" ”

Cesare responded with a meaningful silence, and Jenny straightened up and asked, "Wait, wait—don't tell me you really tried?" ”

"You need to know...... I've always been in private schools — and of course they have a lot of extracurricular activities," Cesare said, "and when your whole family is in the film industry, and you have a good memory, and it's fairly natural to memorize lines, it's only natural that people will put you in the lead role of the festival, at least initially, and they will try to do that." ”

Jeanne laughed at the thought of Cesare reciting Shakespeare's famous phrase on stage, "Don't tell me they gave up on this idea after a big fool's errand." ”

"No," Cesare glared at her, but there was a strange quip in his tone, "Actually, my acting skills were pretty good for an elementary school student, so I was in the drama club until high school, which was good for college applications—but I could barely do it here, and playing another person in front of a crowd, or just being noticed by the crowd, was not an easy task for me, and they didn't give me pleasure, but rather a burden." All I can say is that although I have a great interest in media - I have dreamed of stardom, I don't have the talent to break my guard in front of the camera. ”

"Not so confident, are you?" Jenny understands, "There is too much self-awareness, and that was really the first problem to overcome in acting class." ”

"Yes," Cesare said in all seriousness, "it's a pity – imagine if I had acting talent, even if it was mediocre – I don't think the first person of the post-75 generation to win an Oscar would have been Christopher." ”

Jenny burst out laughing, "Yes, if you can have acting talent, connections, and the company you have at the same time - then you are the male version of me, maybe you will be better than me, because your connections are stronger and stronger than mine." ”

"But I'm also very satisfied with the current situation, from the selection of films, the progress of buying and selling films to the production of films, although it has not yet been recognized by the market, but this is more or less a progress." Cesare shrugged, "And up. . . The points are also higher than those of my peers, and in terms of my talent, I can be satisfied to have the current start. ”

Cesare is less than 35 years old this year, and he has already earned a net worth of more than a billion by virtue of his ability (although not starting from scratch), which is still called a start? Jenny couldn't react at first, but soon realized that he was talking about his direct production capacity for movies - from this point of view, what he was doing before really had nothing to do with making movies, at first it was star-making and marketing, and then it was company operations and business negotiations, and the real producers should still be "Marley and Me" and "Dragon Tiger Boys", and "Dragon Tiger Boys", which he controlled from project establishment to shooting, may be Cesare's first work as a filmmaker.

"So, managing a company isn't really what you want to do, is it? Do you prefer to make the film directly, with the company just to get as much profit as possible? "What if the two jobs conflict?" she speculated. I mean, you're running out of time, and if you had to choose, which side would you choose? Do you make a company, or do you make a movie? ”

Cesare was silent for a moment, then smiled wryly.

"I find you to be a very resilient person, and if you want to pass this on to me, you have to pass it on - this question should be asked to you by Salvi, right? I'm not the one who wants to star in a new movie, so why do I have to answer? ”

The light-hearted complaining in his words made everything more like a joke and made Jenny laugh.

"Because I want to follow your example," she said honestly, kicking Cesare in the shin, "and see how important you are—answer quickly—ouch! ”

Cesare quickly grabbed her arm and said warningly, "Don't sit too close to the edge, be careful, or you risk rolling down." ”

Jenny was also frightened, she leaned closer, but she didn't admit defeat, "Answer quickly, answer quickly, or I'll keep kicking, kicking, kicking—"

Although the light was faint, she could see Cesare roll his eyes.

"Okay, that's the quick answer - I'm not in a different situation than you." His tone was higher and tighter than usual, as if he was suppressing the urge to drink her 'shut up', and the tone of his reply was also suspicious of showing off, "Of course, the last six months have been busier than before, but that's mainly because international distribution and production are all about learning, and some things are enough to do once, and then you can let others do them - that's why you're called leadership, aren't you?" As long as I get through this difficult period, I can still handle the workload, and for me, it's not a single choice. ”

Because his tone was full of 'I won' superiority, the heaviness of the question itself was lightened a lot, and Jenny scoffed and kicked him again, Cesare 'Hey! But instead of dodging, he grabbed her arm again to prevent her from losing her balance and actually falling.

"Putting aside your unwarranted pride, it's a very person-specific question," Jenny stopped her childish catharsis and retracted her feet, she turned on her flashlight and aimlessly swept the vegetation on the hillside, "Maybe that's the case with anyone, when you start, you don't have too many options, you've been fighting for choice, don't people say?" The only meaning of affluence is that you can have choice, but many times, when you have no choice, the happiness may be stronger, because you can only and only need to do what is in front of you, and when you start to have choice...... When choices flood your world, you may be lost in it...... When you can do anything, what should you do? ”

The atmosphere seemed to grow a little sentimental, and then Cesare spoiled it all with a flat, homely 'um' sound—Jeanne couldn't hold back, almost wanting to kick him again.

"So, it's actually an emotional choice," Cesare said in a 'you're making a fuss,' "— I thought you were worried about you playing mental disorder again—hey! It really hurts! -- OK, OK, that's a very important question -- but I don't think it's an either/or choice, is it? It's nowhere near that urgent, is it? I understand that Salvi may require absolute dedication and dedication during the shoot, which is a basic requirement of the experiential school - but I can take care of the company's affairs during this time, and since it survived the filming of Monroe, why not this time? Logically, it doesn't make sense. ”

"It's not that I don't worry about my mental disorder—" said Jeanne, then pursed her lips, and her conversations with Cesare often gave her the feeling that there was no escape—that in his presence you would think it was a terrible and stupid thing to run away from yourself," but ...... Rather, it's not necessarily a successful movie, you know? If I were an actor and all I had to think about was the quality of the film itself, then I would probably not hesitate to say yes, but when I was a star - the next literary film was very important to me, when my time, my energy was very valuable, and it was needed for many projects...... Spending half a year or a year to produce such a film may not be a box office and critical success, and perhaps not so many people can appreciate it - a film that even the director himself is not sure of, just because I was attracted to this project, just because of one possibility...... Would you hesitate if you were me? It will also be difficult for you to choose, it is not about the success or failure of a movie itself, nor is it how you balance business and performance, it is related to your pursuit, your direction...... Your final choice ......"

Words could not express all her thoughts, and Jenny paused and said with some difficulty, "There is something metaphysical at stake...... **, I don't know what to say." ”

"In general, you are timid," Cesare said, "and you are frightened by the risky nature of the project." ”

"No!" Jenny instinctively dismissed this weak speculation, "I am - I am not comfortable making a film that is not at all commercially unfavorable, not even myself, although I am also attracted - yes, this is what I want to ask you, I think it may not be too profitable, for Jennifer. For Jefferson, it's going to be a detriment, and of course it's going to have an impact on big dreams, even if I'm — even if I want to be there, will you support me? Will you blame me? We've just made a decision, and we must choose our next art film carefully, and we must not get carried away-"

She stopped talking, and Jeanne had the feeling that Cesare was now in a state of thought—perhaps it wasn't an easy choice for him, and there were too many factors to consider, not just the opportunity cost of a film, the time cost, but the whole 'Jennifer. Jefferson's brand values ......

"Do you like acting?" When Cesare asked, Jenny barely came to her senses - she was already stuck in a labyrinth of her own mind, haunted by the puzzle again.

"I ...... Do I like acting? She repeated the question, a little caught off guard.

"Yes, do you like acting? ――How did you feel when you first came into contact with acting? Cesare asked—he laughed again," and strangely enough, "it dawns on me, when I look back, that in the nine years we've known you, I've never asked you that question. ”

"Maybe that's because when we first met, it wasn't an option in itself, it was a craft, a fast upward path." Jenny said she couldn't help but smile — it was her first real encounter with the profession of an actor, but certainly not the first time she had been exposed to acting.

"Do I like acting?" She repeated the question in a low voice, "That's a great question, when I first got into acting, did I like it?" ”

She looked at the manor at her feet, this sleeping, modern technology beast, and at one of the possessions she had obtained through performance, and a faint sense of accomplishment rose up, making the corners of her mouth slowly upturn: the successful present makes looking back on the past less painful, and even a little reminiscent.

I thought...... Yes, I love it, and when I first got into acting, I loved it...... It makes me feel special, it gives me hope to get rid of my troubles, it's a way to adapt my fate, it's a ...... A fast ascending channel. She said, smiling more and more as she thought about the past. Can you imagine? A girl who has just arrived in Beijing, her whole world turned out to be just a small remote town, and suddenly came to one of the largest cities in the world, she carries a few pieces of possessions, everything she has can't even be exchanged for a meal of our food, she just walks in one expensive store after another, checking those tags, she is not timid at all, all she has is longing, she wants to prepare a decent dress for the interview, no longer the old clothes that don't fit well, and everything she can rely on, Aside from her looks, she was only talented in acting - at that time, of course, she loved acting very much. ”

"But that's just a utilitarian love," Cesare said in a low voice, "and her love is only because the performance does it for her." ”

"Yes, after that - she entered the university and began her busy college life, and she had a lot to do besides her studies, to earn some living expenses for herself, and to find a suitable golden beetle son-in-law...... She has so much to think about that acting is no longer her only hope," Jenny whispered, "and she also realized that it was a naïve idea to change her destiny through acting - to gain a foothold in society by virtue of this skill, and it was far less realistic than finding a golden beetle son-in-law, as you said, the threshold for an actor is very high, and if you don't have connections, you can only count on your luck." Of course, there is one exception, and that is to use your talent to conquer it all. ”

She paused, then smiled to herself, "To be honest, before entering college, there was a short period of time when she was very eager to perform - she liked to be praised, she had been troubled by her incompetence until she found out about acting, acting gave her the first time that she was recognized beyond her looks, and made her feel her own ability, it turned out that she could really change her fate by her own strength - she also liked this feeling of showing her talent, she thought she could continue like this, and use acting to change everything...... Then, she enrolled in school and began to study acting in earnest, and then came the usual 'college loss', and she found that her talent was far from top-notch, and her level among her classmates was only mediocre at best. ”

Cesare didn't bother, so Jenny freely recalled, "There is no talent, no connections, and in Beijing, the opportunities are far less abundant than in Hollywood, and the competition is of course much more intense, and she has no capital to wait and try, so the wisest choice is of course to shift her focus and find an ideal husband for herself......"

"And she found it." Cesare's tone was affirmative.

"Yes, she did," Jenny said, "and she did shift her focus - but she still loved acting...... She loved acting classes, she liked her practical homework, she liked the feeling of leaving herself for a short time, pretending to be someone else, who had more troubles than hers, who was more suffocating and desperate than her situation, which made her feel a little relieved about her own life - the life of another person may be sweet and happy, but it was a rare escape for her, she never knew what happiness was, but in acting, she could allow herself to desire, to imagine - even if she had no talent, She still likes this feeling, she doesn't need the teacher's appreciation, the casting director's affirmation, she only draws happiness from the act of acting itself, does she like acting? I think she should love acting. ”

"Then I think she should be regarded as a real actor." Cesare said, his tone softened, like an invisible hug. "Only stars need to calculate their star gains and losses - box office appeal, award competitiveness, company leaders need to calculate their own influence and sense of authority, producers need to calculate a film's box office and awards, but for actors, only the film itself is important, she does not need the affirmation of the audience and film critics, for her, the performance itself is the result."

"But......" said Jenny, who hesitated for no reason, "but—"

"I know what you're trying to say - but I'm your partner and agent, yes, from a corporate point of view, the company needs your sense of authority, your never fail," Cesare said seriously, "this will help Big Dream grow faster, and as your former agent, I also hope that you can take on movies with a higher chance of success, which will extend your professional life and get you more awards - you know, Jenny, in Hollywood, stars don't lack friends, but actors are always lonely, It is impossible for them to have a professional team because they cannot produce enough profits to support it. So, as a member of your team, I serve you as a star and celebrity, and when we sit in Big Dream's office, I also have to be responsible for my position, and I have to tell you what negative impact this movie might have on Big Dream......"

He turned his head to look at Jenny, and suddenly smiled, "But now, we are wearing tracksuits and sitting on a big rock at the top of the cliff during non-work hours, and I think in this moment, I am just a friend of an actor, and I have to remind you how precious your talent is - there are countless people in the world who are willing to trade your talent and want to be an actor like you - maybe as your ...... I don't know, your partner, your friend, I should be worried about your mental health, I'm going to say '**it, what movie, I just want you to live healthy and rich', but as a pre-actor who lacks talent and can't embark on this path, what I really want to tell you is...... You are an actor, and an actor should act in the movie he wants to act. ”

After a pause, he added, "It's natural, isn't it?" ”

Jeanne turned her head to look at him, at Cesare in the moonlight, at his dark blue eyes, and at the gentle smile in them.

"You're right." She also laughed, "It's natural, an actor should act in the movie he wants to act in - regardless of success or failure, gain or loss, this is ...... Haha, this is ...... An actor's self-cultivation, isn't it? ”

A look of confusion flashed in Cesare's eyes, but he nodded anyway.

"At the end of the day, it's just a matter of finding one's identity," he said, changing his position, "Want to sit a little longer?" ”

"We're all going to wake up early tomorrow." Jenny stood up and patted her buttocks, turned the flashlight back on, and saw the beam of light, which had been significantly diminished, she stuck out her tongue a little weakly, "Before I run out of flashlight, go back." ”

“ok。” Cesare took the flashlight and got down the stone before Jeanne, "Be careful with your footing—the light isn't so good now." ”

"Well, be careful, the flashlight shines on the soles of your feet first, and then on me—" said Jenny, "by the way, remember that I'll pay you when you get back - tonight's Chicken Soup for the Soul will be worth at least a thousand dollars if Maggie charges it." ”

"Ha, ha." Cesare let out a dry laugh politely. "Then I thank you for your generosity."

Jenny chuckled, but soon concentrated on finding a place to stay, and now that the moon was on the other side of the mountain, the road was indeed not as easy as when it had gone up.

The two walked in silence for a while, this time breaking the silence.

"Speaking of which." "It's a bit strange that you're acting in this - maybe you can talk to Maggie about that." ”

"You mean?" Jenny asked a little strangely.

"From what I know of you, you've always been interested in acting, and you're going to take risks - according to your usual mindset, even though you're aware of the risks, you're still going to pick up on the idea that I can make it a blockbuster, because you've done this miracle a few times before." "For a very talented actor like you, and there is no shortage of certainty, your caution about this project is a little unreasonable - I even think you are a little intimidated and a little unconfident - but you have no reason to do so." Codename SHERO is also unpredictable, if it's just a bad prediction of the project's prospects, but you've always been confident in your performance, haven't you? ”

"Because "Codename Shero" doesn't have high requirements for acting skills, and-" Jenny rushed out, but bit the second half of the sentence in time: maybe this is the reason why she is really hesitant about this project, this is a project that cannot be assisted by a golden finger, the acting space seems to be useless, and, without a golden finger, she ...... Maybe in the presence of a director like Salvi, she ...... It does feel like a weak heart......

Sensing Cesare stop and look at her curiously, Jenny suddenly felt a sense of guilt rushing straight through her head: over the years, she had received so many rewards with her golden finger that shouldn't have belonged to her, and in the end she had even become a little accustomed to it, but - at this moment, when Cesare had just shared her ** past with her - she felt guilt and guilt again.

'To a talented actor like you', 'You don't know how many people are willing to trade your talent' – Cesare doesn't emphasize how much he wants to be an actor, but isn't his envy and approval already in his words?

And can she deserve these compliments? "The Fifth Sally" is opportunistic in the show space, and "Michael. Clayton" and "A Week with Monroe" can't be said to be purely acting - "Michael. Clayton" happened to have a real-life experience, and she 'bumped', and "Monroe" actually still has the help of the acting space, so she can quickly enter the role of Monroe, and now this project, there is nothing to 'bump', and the acting space can't help her enter the play, she can only rely on herself, under the guidance of Salvi, a discerning and discerning director, to shoot -

Are the many excuses just to cover up her fear? She...... Can you really play this role well? Without Goldfinger, is she really a good enough actor?

"And—" she repeated in a flurry, taking a haphazard step, "and I—ah! ”

"Whew!"

The cries of both men and women rang out at the same time - Cesare's left foot was a plague tonight, after being kicked several times, and then inadvertently stepped on by Jeanne, both of them lost their balance, and fell into the hill in the swing, and the flashlight was first thrown into the invisible distance, and Jeanne could only cover her face in the lightning and flint, for fear that the eater would be harmed--At one point she seemed to roll out of control, but fortunately Cesare grabbed her hat and pulled her into his arms, Kick the dirt down the shovel with him.

Fortunately, the slope was very gentle, and they did not roll all the way down the hill, but stopped halfway down the hill. But even then, the rocks at least caused them a large amount of soft tissue bruising - at least half of Jenny's back and ass were in pain, and she guessed that there should be a large bruise tomorrow.

Glaring at the moon for a moment, she struggled to move to the side—and snorted in pain from the action, before she said weakly, "Uh...... Sorry ......"

Cesare, who had served her as half a meat pad, snorted, his tone not very cheerful, but considering that he should have been hit harder than hers, Jenny shrunk her neck and lowered her posture, "Are you alright?" ”

"You'd better make sure your face is okay, or it's going to be the most ridiculous reason to hurt in history - and it will seriously undermine your prestige, if you still care." Cesare said, "-I'm all right, what about you?" ”

"I ...... It hurts a little in the buttocks......" said Jenny, "you get up first, let me lie down a little longer, I don't have the strength now." ”

Cesare's tone became a little serious, "Is it a sharp pain?" ――What exactly is the pain? Is it the hips or the lumbar spine—"

He had already sat up, and at this time he bent down to check on her, at least as Jenny understood in her vague mind, but at the same time she had gathered some strength to prop herself up—

Everything happened so quickly that she wasn't even sure if it had happened, a collision, maybe even a graz—Cesare jerked back a distance, and she was still a little dazed, sat up straight, and instinctively declared, "Probably not—"

Slowly realizing what seemed to have happened, Jenny pursed her lips and said in a daze, "-Big-oh-"

Cesare didn't look at her at first, and the atmosphere suddenly became extremely awkward.

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