Since she was about to get out of bed in a few hours and awake again, Jenny didn't try to get back to sleep, but simply got up, turned on the elliptical machine when she walked into the gym, and sweated on the equipment. In the filming of "Monroe" for more than a month, her body shape has been maintained better, the original looming vest line has now been completely solidified, if it weren't for not eating some high-protein food, maybe the little mouse could be trained - no way, now only exercise can help her get rid of the nightmare in the shortest possible time and return to reality.

The sun rises late in London in winter, and even though Jenny is sweating profusely, the sky is still dark, and while wiping her sweat and replenishing her water, she returns to her bedroom, turns on the computer and checks her work emails, and sometimes replies to one or two letters; Big Dream is running healthily and efficiently, coupled with her current bad mental state, she simply handed over a lot of power to Cesare and Jim (mainly Cesare) so that they will be more efficient in dealing with many things, of course, things related to money Jenny has always been in the palm of her hand, although she is far away, but through the electronic signature system, she can still participate in the company's internal correspondence and leave her own signature.

"Woke up early today?" When Jenny sent out the third email, her Skype jumped, and Cesare's account greeted.

"Sleeping late today?" Jenny replied in the same way, she looked at the bottom corner of the computer, and corrected her statement, "Oh, it's not too late to bed, but you're working late again." ”

"It's commonplace." Cesare typed quickly, "Just about to go to rest - are you having insomnia again?" ”

Although the two are separated, Jenny's subtleties still can't be hidden from him, not to mention anything else, just that the time she sends out emails every day betrays her deeply. Jenny could feel Cesare's concern looming behind the short words, which made her raise the corners of her lips, "Old problem, nothing big, just the after-effects of entering the play." ”

"You didn't have that problem before," Cesare replied without thinking, judging by the speed at which he typed, he had been following Jeanne's 'old problem' for a long time, and knew all the details. "This 'old' problem is very new, and it only started to appear after you officially filmed 'Monroe'."

He typed old in all caps, which was a very rare performance for Cesare, whose grammar had always been very standardized, Jenny smiled silently, and her fingers hovered on the keyboard for a moment before replying, "Maybe Marilyn's character is more special, I don't know, but there are no other symptoms other than insomnia at the moment, maybe it is because the acting skills have not been coordinated after the progress, don't worry too much about me." ”

She didn't talk about her nightmares, in fact, they were the main cause of her insomnia - Jenny didn't know if it was because of her new technique, she now felt that she had indeed underestimated the complexity of this mental disorder: this feeling of disharmony was like a tide, and it may have receded after being distracted by the outside news, and she naively thought that she had found the anchor and the problem solved. But in fact, as soon as she began to concentrate on the performance, the tide rose again, and the practical trivialities represented by Cesare, although useful for her not to think about them when she was awake, would be in a better state of mind, not to be completely moody and lose self-control, but the sense of dissonance was still waiting for an opportunity to find an outlet, and since it was guarded by the day, they began to wreak havoc at night, and she was always chased by many nightmares without logic, The quality of sleep was so poor that Jenny once again had to rely on the time flow rate of the acting space to regain her energy.

However, Cesare may not be able to do anything about this obstacle that is not caused by an imbalance of mentality, and he will not be able to show her the way through a conversation or two, as he has done before, because for Jenny, the path is obvious: don't play Marilyn. Monroe, everything is solved. All her incongruities can be solved with this trick, the method actor is like forcing a bird to swim in the water, and it is normal for the feathers to become wet and heavy, because the bird should not swim in the first place, and a normal person should not completely treat himself as another person.

That being the case, it wasn't a good idea to make Cesare even more worried about her, and Jeanne didn't want to pretend to be strong, but she was filming in London and was willful about the company, so she should be a little more considerate of Cesare now at the end of the awards season, lest he die of exhaustion in the office.

"It's hard not to worry about your current state." Cesare used another uncommon single quotation mark, but fortunately, instead of continuing to get to the bottom of the matter, he changed the subject, "How about working with Salvi?" I've heard that he's not a very kind director. ”

Mary...... Jenny had no doubt who his source would be, and she guessed that Mary would even tell Cesare about her MC cycle, if he asked. Especially at this time, the two must have teamed up to do a lot of things she didn't know, just to give her a good rest, such as declining interviews, filtering out some of the sponsors' requests—in the past, she would have been very controllative to figure it out, but now she only felt a vague unhappiness, like the dissatisfaction of a child at the mercy of his parents, but in general, she is still grateful.

"It's good......" she looked at the letters in the dialog box and deleted them one by one, "Very good, I fit in well with Salvi - in fact, maybe a little too well-"

Before sending the message, she deleted the last sentence and added another paragraph, "Maybe it's because of this co-production that the impact of entering the film will expand, but this is not bad news, the filming progress is under control, we can finish it in March, and the sooner the filming is finished, the more we can return to normal." ”

Cesare's rational reasoning really pleased Cesare: since everything is going to be filmed, and if you want to shoot it, you have to make a masterpiece, so it is better to tolerate this situation for now than to fight this influence and prolong the whole thing, and try to get rid of it after the shooting is done sooner. ――This decision also shows that Jenny's sanity is still within the normal range.

"You're right, but you still have to take care of your rest," he said, "and sleep deprivation can make you age faster, and you're getting to think about ageing, Jefferson, go get some sleep now, it's still early in London, and you have plenty of time to take a nap." ”

He even sent a goodnight emoji, which was a wonder of the world, and Jeanne really laughed out loud this time, shaking her head at the computer screen for a long time: her state might be really worrying, or Cesare would not have put down her body like this to liven up the atmosphere and amuse her.

Flipping through the mail again, Jenny stood up and wandered for a while, she was by the window, looking at Hyde Park in the morning light, and put her hand on the cool floor-to-ceiling window, and the tiredness slowly crept up, but she didn't really want to fall asleep - in fact, she wasn't completely honest with Cesare, and there was an important problem that bothered her now besides the question of entering the play - no, in fact, this problem and the problem of entering the play should be said to be one and the same, and it was difficult to separate them......

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"My Week with Monroe" is a typical in-studio film, with only some natural scenery to be shot in the countryside, which is not only an economical option, but also almost the only option, because the street scenes of the 60s no longer exist in modern London, but in the studios, there have always been similar sets for period film crews. And this also makes it easy for the crew to use a timeline-based shooting method, which is also more convenient for Jenny to use new techniques to enter the scene, and also allows Simon to better adapt to the filming work. And after nearly a month of filming, the plot is close to the middle of the plot: during the shooting, Marilyn and Colin gradually become curious about each other, and the conflict between her and Miller is gradually revealed, the two have an argument, and Miller returns to the United States.

For the original "My Week with Monroe", Jenny felt some shortcomings, in addition to Michelle's lack of appearance, there was also the big problem of the temperament of the movie itself, she didn't know how the director communicated during the shooting, but in some fierce conflict scenes, the director's lens was not in place, and the editing could only be said to have occasional highlights. His intention may have been to make the film subtle and elegant, with a long aftertaste, but with Michelle's sometimes dramatic looks, the whole film feels a little dull for most of the time, not boring by the standards of an art film, but not to the point of touching people's hearts - considering that the film concentrates almost the best actor in Britain, Kenneth. Branagh, Judy. Dench, even the actor who played Marilyn's agent has won the Tony Award, which can only be said that the director's skills are indeed insufficient, and such a cast is wasted, so the original film can't be said to shine in the awards season, Michelle consumed a lot of public relations resources, and finally rushed to Ottie, and there was no competitiveness at all for winning the award, think about how many British big names starred in this film, and the British Academy Film Awards judges and Oscar judges overlapped more than 1,000 people, it can be seen how many love votes Ottili has, And what about the quality of the film itself. -- What really tells the story is that it didn't win any awards at all in the relatively less competitive British Academy Film Awards, and all of them were consolation nominations.

Jenny has always attached great importance to the conflict of the script when she and Salvi were grinding the script through email, and her biggest concern about Salvi is whether he will deal with the contradictory scenes lightly, and finally brought out a glass of warm water that is not exciting at all, but this worry has gradually disappeared as the filming progresses have gradually extended. In dealing with Lawrence. During the conflict between Oliver and Marilyn, Salvi paid great attention to the drama of the scene, even if it sacrificed a certain amount of authenticity, and he did not seem to have the same awe for Lawrence and others as the original director, who handled the real flaws of Lawrence, Vivien Leigh and others with great care and elegance, while Salvi did not care about the reputation of his predecessors at all. For example, Vivien Leigh's scene has been greatly changed, in the original work, Vivien Leigh and Marilyn are one-line contacts, only showing Vivien Leigh's jealousy of Marilyn, but not describing Marilyn's response to this, Marilyn doesn't seem to realize this at all - the original version does not explain why Vivien Leigh is so unconfident, perhaps to avoid Vivien Leigh's sore spots, but in fact this seems to be a bit of an over-exaggeration of Marilyn's beauty, and also writes Lawrence as a prodigal character, but distorted, Shallow the character archetype, because in fact, those who know a little about this celebrity couple know that Vivien Leigh was already suffering from mental disorders at this time, and one of the best actresses of British history has been completely dominated by bipolar disorder, she suspects that every woman who can talk to Lawrence, the relationship between the two couples is almost completely broken, and it was in the year of the filming of "Dragon and Phoenix" that Lawrence had an affair, and this is understandable to some extent, after all, Vivien Leigh cheated a few years ago, and even said, the marital relationship between the two was not so normal from the beginning.

Regardless of whether the original director avoided these elements or not, in Jenny's opinion, it would be too wasteful for "My Week with Monroe" to be simply made into a dream romance film and gently let go of all contradictions, she neither thinks that the audience will be moved by this somewhat unruly romance, nor does she think that the judges and critics will like this too light taste, so here, she and Salvi's adaptation idea is a hit. And Lawrence's adaptation of the love scene is completely his own idea: he ignores the truthful confession in the original book - at the beginning, Monroe has nothing but occasional attention to Colin, and it is not until Miller returns home and Monroe needs a pillar of spiritual support that he stands out - Salvi must adapt the movie to Monroe from the beginning of the attention to Colin, the spark of the two makes others feel it, and Miller's return is not unrelated to this matter.

"In this way, the structure of the film can be complete." He is extremely insistent on this point, "In this way, the film will have a theme that can stand up to scrutiny and aftertaste." ”

Jenny was persuaded by him, and Salvi worked with the writers to make changes to the script, which added another name to the list of writers for "Monroe" - and also led to the filming of many intense conflict scenes in the past few days, some of which she was a spectator and some of which she was a participant. In addition, she also filmed a lot of eye contact and conversation shots with Colin, and she had a feeling that Monroe seemed to be either arguing or flirting with someone, and it was this eyebrow flirtation that formed a ...... for her A certain amount of trouble.

“d！” Salvi picked up the megaphone and shouted, although he was still in a suit, he had rolled up his sleeves to his elbows, "But the camera in camera number two is not very good, go back to the original position, let's make up a few close-ups, Simon, you can rest for a while, but don't go away." ”

A scene is repeatedly reshot, which is commonplace in filmmaking, for example, in this paragraph, the audience sees Colin and Monroe's eyes looking at each other, first a medium shot to explain the position of the two, and then a few close-up shots for the actors to perform detailed expressions, the audience has no problem understanding, but in fact, in the shooting, Monroe and Colin look at each other in the close-up, both of them are looking at the camera, so that when shooting, they need to shoot the same paragraph repeatedly, and finish filming this scene several times - each shot is a word, And in the end, the editing connects these words into a complete sentence.

In order to help Jenny into the play, the actors all stayed in their positions, and Simon also stood in place, maintaining the posture of looking at Monroe: from the plot point of view, they had just encountered difficulties in filming, Lawrence once again couldn't resist the anger and ridiculed Marilyn, and Marilyn uncharacteristically swallowed her anger and did not quit filming, but returned to her chair and began to touch up her makeup. Colin was worried about her state, so he stood on tiptoe and looked at her with concern, Marilyn was originally very depressed, but after seeing Colin's expression, she calmed down a lot. She slowly smiled quietly and innocently - and the scene fell completely into the hands of her husband, Arthur. Miller's eyes.

At this time, Marilyn and Colin rarely even talked, purely two individuals who noticed each other, two lonely souls sparked a spark of kindness, Marilyn drew from Colin the peace she couldn't find, Colin's pure, selfless care moved her greatly, the chemistry between her and Colin and Colin, let her let down all her guard in front of Colin, showing a sincere, soft smile, this should be a smile that hits the heart, this should also be from the bottom of Marilyn's heart, from the bottom of Jenny's heart to show a smile - This is also a very difficult shot, for actors, especially experienced old actors, they can complete the technical actions meticulously, complex emotions, lengthy lines and unpredictable movements, this is not a difficulty at all, the real difficulty lies in breaking the inner barriers, dedicating the most sincere, the most red. Naked self, in order to evoke empathy with the audience, this is the dedication that any masterpiece requires, but it is also a risk that everyone instinctively avoids.

As far as Jenny's own feelings are concerned, this kind of sincere attraction, heartbeat, and resonance is a great difficulty for her, in Karen, she performs sincere fear and vulnerability, she doesn't care about presenting these in front of people, which instead gives her a cathartic pleasure, but these things that Monroe needs to show......

“！” Before she could even get her mood in her mind, Salvi shouted the word, and Jenny could scarcely resist the urge to be clever, and she instinctively looked at the sound source behind the camera - but after so many years of shooting, her response to the word had become a conditioned reflex, and before she could completely leave her Monroe, she leaned down again and embraced her into her arms, and she looked at the cold black camera affectionately, as if it were a friendly, young, talented and personable boy who knew her...... She had noticed him in the crowd for a long time, and they almost instinctively felt their attraction to each other, and this graceful and infinite spiritual resonance was so mesmerizing that she let go of all her guard without hesitation, trusted him without hesitation, sought his attention, and joyfully accepted her care, she was like a flower, blooming in his eyes, even if they almost never talked deeply, but the spiritual connection they had reached was so obvious that she could feel his gaze, through the camera, It was like a pair of tangible hands embracing her, she could feel his feelings, his self-evident love, and she gladly responded.

“cut。” Salvi said that after more than a month of filming, Jenny was no longer so difficult to get out of the 'deep play', like breaking free from the dream called 'Monroe', and with Salvi's familiar words, she suddenly returned to reality.

Under the studio lights, Salvi was just a tall figure in front of the monitor, she couldn't make out his expression, she couldn't even tell if he was looking at her, she withdrew her eyes from him in some embarrassment, and secretly hoped that her colleagues wouldn't find out: this was not the first time it had happened, maybe someone had seen something, but even if they did, they were smart not to put it on their faces.

“good。” As for Salvi, he didn't show anything wrong, but said fluently, "The second machine goes to Simon's side, and the rest can rest, but don't go away." ”

Jenny breathed a sigh of relief, and she seized the opportunity to take a sip of the glass of water beside her chair - Salvi may not have felt anything, perhaps she felt when she entered the play - it was just her delusion, or rather just Monroe's.

Jenny has always been quite rational and perceptive, she usually doesn't pretend to be sentimental, but she doesn't deliberately deny some signs of reality, however, behaviorally, Salvi has always been quite normal, their conversation is almost always about the film, never involving the private sphere, and Saeed has been sending flowers to the set lately, and Salvi has not shown any concern about it at all. So, that connection, that feeling...... It should be her delusion, although she is quite good, she is not narcissistic enough to think that everyone must like her.

She glanced at Salvi again, just in line with his gaze, of course she couldn't see Salvi's eyes clearly, but she could feel his expression - British silence, from his expression, you can hardly feel his inner thoughts and joys and sorrows, this is Salvi's usual expression when shooting, he is not an excited director, on the contrary, he is extremely restrained and introverted during filming, as if to put all the excitement. Love was put into the monitor in front of him.

Jenny barely smiled in his direction, and she told herself firmly: yes, this is an illusion, don't be affected by your dreams, this must be your illusion.

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"I want sixty million." A familiar voice came over the phone, and even though she hadn't heard it for years, Jenny recognized it at once. "Give me 60 million, take it to me immediately, and deliver it to my door in ten minutes."

"Mom." She said irritably, suddenly realizing that her mother had kidnapped her child, anger, despair, betrayal, and humiliation immediately welled up in her heart, and the intense emotions made her voice tremble, "I can't take out 60 million!" Don't joke with me, Mom! Mother! ”

The phone hung up, Chen Zhen jumped out of bed, hurried out of the shabby room that kept shaking, she climbed up the low and cramped stairs of the tube building, looking for the house number of her hometown, the baby was kidnapped, she couldn't get 60 million - how could she get 60 million! She must get her son back.

After running tirelessly in her dream for a long time, I don't know when, the stairs under her feet have become a mountain road, Chen Zhen found that she was running in Beverly Hills, this is the mountain road before the house she had rented for three years, she has always wanted to come out in the early morning for a run, but this wish has never been realized, there are always too many factors to be afraid of, paparazzi, stalker-

She suddenly panicked, realizing that someone had been following her, unhurried, but not far behind. Jenny didn't have the courage to turn back, she just quickened her pace and ran forward breathlessly, she ran to the nearest building - the set, she was already late.

“*。” She couldn't breathe, she changed her clothes quickly, her makeup seemed to be ready in an instant, she was still in a hurry when she ran into the studio, but she quickly regained her form - in fact, it was the state that came to her, she was such a wonderful actress, and of course the state always came to her.

"Marilyn." Her husband exclaimed, and there was always some impatience in Chris's voice, "It's time for you to play! ”

"Wait, I-" Marilyn turned in alarm, but it was just her and Colin in the scene.

She took a deep breath and walked towards her male protagonist, the further she went, the more her joy grew, the more peaceful her breath became, she had completely forgotten the panic, and she had forgotten her desperate need for attention, she could certainly master the desires of men all over the world. But for now, she only needs the understanding of one person, who makes up for the missing piece of her soul, so that she is no longer so lonely-

"Colin," she said, smiling affectionately at him, and he, he replied with the usual restrained smile of gentlemen, he was so self-contained, but the look in his eyes said it all, Salvi was just as mad as she was for her, she was just as mad as she was for him, they were a match made in heaven-

A 'drip' sound abruptly woke her up from her dream, and Jenny reflexively rolled over and sat up, the aftertaste of the dream still vivid, and although the plot had faded rapidly with wakefulness, the emotional aftermath was still there—of course, she still remembered the last moments before waking up quite clearly.

"Do I need a boyfriend so much?" She whispered to herself, a little self-deprecatingly, "I'm not so desperate, am I?" ”

She was answered by a room of silence, only the electronic alarm clock beside the bed flickered as if in response to her, and Jenny glanced at it—it was wonderful, and at 5:30 a.m., it was another early day.

Today she was not in the mood to exercise, she went into the bathroom to freshen up for a while, Jenny dangled in front of the window, and sat down in front of the computer in boredom, she forgot to turn it off before going to bed, and the new email notification was the source of the sound that woke her up.

There were three or four unread new emails, Lillian forwarded a joke to her, Jim sent a report, Judy forwarded the latest sponsorship list, and the latest one was Cesare's email, informing her that Chris's itinerary was finalized: he was preparing to go to London for post-production of "Bomb Disposal Unit", the plane would arrive tomorrow, and Chris would be free to meet her that night, so that she wouldn't have to fly back to Hollywood, as long as both parties were sure that they could show up in a venue in peace and friendliness. They will be able to attend the Oscars at the same time.

Since both of them were too busy, this meeting was rescheduled at least four times, and it was not until this time that it was truly confirmed, until then, Jenny was not sure when she would see Chris again, of course, she knew that this day would come sooner or later, but always subconsciously avoided facing it-

Thinking of the dream just now, she couldn't help but have a bitter smile on her lips, Jenny muttered softly 'a mess', and stopped talking, she stared at the screen, her expression could almost be said to be a little sad, but in the end, she still took a deep breath, lifted her fallen shoulders, regained her mental sitting posture, pulled out the keyboard tray, opened the document, and tapped on the keyboard.

'Dear Chris,' she wrote, 'I'm so sorry I didn't have the courage to say this to your face, but I have to express my apologies to you, I'm sorry I hurt you that day, I'm sorry I've been hurting you Maybe you're right, in a way, I've been taking advantage of you......