I am mad, indeed completely mad, who is like me, picking up a soap bubble as a hope, bewildered by its multi-colored spots, coveted by the morning and twilight, but in the end this hope is really bursting like a soap bubble; Who is like me, who pursues art with hard work and oppressive social opinion, life is also art, ideals are also art, but this art has really deceived me. The front is not the gate of the Provincial Art Exhibition Hall. Welcome, Mr. Du; Mr. Du, welcome. Cheers, noises, celebratory firecrackers. It is the girl with flowers and red who is flattering, and the reporter with a long gun and a short cannon is surrounded. Mr. Du, please sign; Mr. Du, please take a photo. Mr. Du, you are still the Picasso of contemporary China, Cézanne, who led a generation of painting style, please talk about your contribution to the art world, Mr. Du, the composition of your "Girl by the Stream" is bright and bright, and the image is radiant, can you talk about your thoughts on this? Mr. Du, Mr. Du; Cheers, noises, and a wave of celebratory firecrackers......

Alas, crazy, I'm crazy! Du Ruo shook his head, couldn't help but kneel on the steps, looking at the majestic door of the art museum, Du Ruo suddenly felt a black shadow flying towards him, and all the boiling cheers turned into hypocritical sighs that laughed crookedly and blew up his lungs; All the bustling noises of the past have also turned into schadenfreude laughter watching people drink water and stuff their teeth, and people fart and twist their waists. Du Ruo didn't feel that his knees were weak, he fell on the steps, lowered his head pale and weak, and couldn't stop the bitter tears flowing down for a while!

- Comrade Du Ruo, the organization apologizes to you! We think your "Girl by the Stream" is a serious work of art! When we oppose spiritual pollution, we are by no means opposed to all thoughtful and innovative literary and artistic creations! Some time ago, the organization was biased in dealing with you, so you were wronged, I hope to put down the burden and work hard after returning to the unit, good luck!

"Red Lotus——, I'm back—"

I can see the eucommia tree at the door of the house!

When the red lotus was pregnant, Du Ruo went to the old forest of Bashan to dig it back, and when he left, he slipped a half-person tall sapling, but now he is more than one person tall, and the green and white flowers are actually blooming in the sun, and they are spread out like a brocade carpet at the door of the house from a distance. Behind the house, such as pine towering green, such as cypress Mianting phoenix tail bamboo, can also hear the rustle of the branches and leaves, it is a rainy and windy morning, the red lotus carried Du Ruo from their own bamboo garden transplanted, when walking more than a dozen scattered young bamboo is now also a forest, a few pink butterflies dance among the flowers, a few kingfishers in the forest noisy.

What a simple mountain family......

- Sister Lian, the woman is not staying, and before the person comes, the heart will be married!

- Lotus sister, the mountain is good to look at from all sides, Master Du is a late bloomer, Lotus girl flowers first, as the saying goes: people are diligent and prosperous, and everything is prosperous. When the neighbors and folks arrive, the moon follows the head, and the lotus girl can't look at the same human feelings!

- Sister Lian, what a blessing, as the saying goes: If you are not a family, you will not enter a family. Sister Lian should be born with a blessed life!

"If you brother, if you finish painting, everyone will freeze to death!"

It was autumn and September in a mountain rain continuous, the stream wind was bleak, the rain silk was like an endless silver thread covering the watery mountains, the wind came from the valley over there, fluttering on the slope of the sparse branches and leaves of the trees, stomping off pieces of withered yellow fallen leaves in the rain, there was no trace outside, occasionally a few squeaky and noisy birds were still standing under the eaves of the rain, swaying and flapping the wings that were wet by the rain.

Du Ruo smiled apologetically, looked at the red lotus on the other side of the wall with a guilty face, and started to dye a few brushes on the canvas, and the red lotus had already walked awkwardly over with a bath towel. Look at the canvas is still not taking off his own appearance, the slightly disgusted eyebrows and eyes, the slightly plump figure, like a magnified negative, in addition to a light and quiet charm, is still alive is a realistic portrait of himself. Honglian sighed slightly, and saw that Du Ruo was still staring at the canvas intently, his face was gray, a layer of fine beads of sweat appeared on the tip of his nose, and his hands were dyed with black and messy colors like chicken feet. Honglian couldn't help but feel pity again, hurriedly put on her underwear, went to the kitchen to get a basin of water, and rested on the long table full of horizontal brushes and miscellaneous paint bottles, "Brother Ruo, wash your hands, look at you like that, dirty!" ”

Du Ruo snorted noncommittally, his eyes still staring straight at the canvas. The red lotus saw him bend down and pick up the pen from time to time, like an ear of wheat blooming in the field after autumn, shaking his head in the evening breeze of hunting; Sometimes he put down his pen in a low mood, like a spinning top that he whipped with a rope whip when he was a child, and swayed his body pitifully on the uneven mountain ground; Suddenly, he seemed to remember something, his brows were clustered, his fingers trembled, like when he walked more than ten miles of mountain roads to watch rural black-and-white movies in middle school, he watched the ups and downs of the image changes on the screen with relish, and he didn't know what to do with his visual image, and half a day later, he raised his eyes to look at the place where Honglian was sitting, as if he had just woken up from his sluggishness, stared at his eyes stupidly, and silently turned back and smiled at Honglian.

Honglian sighed lightly, turned around helplessly, and with an anxious look that could not be concealed, took off her underwear, and put on the posture that Du Ruo had asked to pose, sitting on the square stool on the other side of the wall like a puppet.

Du Ruo stared at the red lotus [***] intently, and the scene seemed to put the whole red lotus into his mind, and he seemed to be puzzled by the color configuration of the figures on the canvas. Half a day later, he tried to adjust the brightness of the room, turned off the lights hanging on the roof, and lit up a few orange-red bulbs on the four walls. Later, he tried to adjust the outdoor light source, and looked at the room for a while like a labyrinth of flowers and luster spots, a moment as black as the night and a hazy dark blue, and a while as bright as the day, the red lotus couldn't hold back a smile, hurriedly covered her mouth with her hands, and lowered her head with a smile. Du Ruo looked intently for a while, and Suo turned off all the headlights in the room, leaving only a trace of dark green light faintly shining on Honglian's body. Du Ruo tilted his head to think about it, leaning over to look at the canvas, as if he was not very satisfied with the beauty of the lines revealed by the combination of color blocks and shapes. Look at Honglian's eyes solemnly, with a demure smile on her face, and a few rays of light jumping around her irregularly. Du Ruo's heart moved, as if a ray of spiritual light suddenly flashed in his mind, he pinched his nose excitedly, hurriedly turned off the few remaining colored lights in the house, and then cautiously turned back, and the room was suddenly full of shadows like the last ray of light in the sky and earth when it was falling. After a while, he quickly shone two beams of intense confrontation on the red lotus's body, and instantly filled the house with brilliant brilliance like thousands of acres of glass, and the colors on the red lotus's body reflected the colorful lights on the ground, shining like roses for a while, and then flashing like an olive branch with a sparkling chestnut color that evoked people's reverie. Du Ruo's eyebrows fluttered for a while, and then he shook his head in disappointment, and unconsciously walked to the window, at this time, a kind of sorrow for the red lotus and hatred for his lack of talent were very strong in the bottom of his heart. He raised his eyebrows in disdain, a wry smile erupted from his lips, and a sense of guilt that he was impatient to destroy something made him pull the curtain open with a bang.

Honglian screamed "ah", wrapped the bath towel tightly around her body, and ran to Du Ruo in three or two steps, "What's the matter, Brother Ruo!" ”

Du Ruomu smiled, looking at the red lotus with a proud face, her cheeks were flushed, her lips were frozen blue, and the cool breeze outside the window carried the light raindrops, and she couldn't help but tremble slightly. Du Ruo couldn't help but sigh, closed the curtains, and felt a sense of loss, "Alas, I really can't find the feeling now!" ”

Honglian raised her eyebrows and immediately put her mind at ease, and a shy smile appeared on her smooth face, "If brother, then I won't paint today, look at the bitter gourd on this face, the three souls have gone to two souls, as if after today, people will not be good with you!" Honglian said, wrapped the bath towel on her body, and peeked at Du Ruo, who was bowing her head and bowing her head, and walked towards the bedroom while giggling.

Du Ruo shook his head in discouragement, and squinted his eyes in frustration at the lifelike [***] of the red lotus on the canvas, and saw that the red lotus had walked to the front of the foyer and pulled the slender back of the bath towel from time to time, and the snow-white body left a vivid silhouette in the light and shadow of the room, and the smooth skin revealed a ruddy flush that made people think. Du Ruo suddenly felt a dryness in his throat, and a wave of love instantly surged in his heart, and a clear love erupted from his chest like a tsunami, and he hurriedly took off his shirt, quickly caught up with Honglian, and waved his arms to hug Honglian's face-to-face on his chest, and his hands were still tightly squeezing Honglian's slightly chilly buttocks.

Honglian shrank her body with an "oh", stretched out her hand and hit Du Ruo's back, her slightly furious eyes were half coquettish and half disgusted and slanted at Du Ruo, "Hey, is there such a thing, look at this gluttonous cat who doesn't know how to be satisfied, his face is not washed, and his hands are not washed!" ”

Du Ruo smiled, and the little depression that had been stuck in his state of mind suddenly dissipated, and he hugged Honglian by the waist with a saliva face, "I can't wait to hold you like this for the rest of my life, I can't bear to see you for a while, how can I have time to wash my face!" ”

Honglian's cheeks turned red, her expression became even more cowardly, and she softly stretched out her two arms and hung them on Du Ruo's neck, "Oh, how can it be like this, look at this virtue, it's like a dirty monkey, you should be patient first, don't be so kind of rats can't keep overnight food, it's good to be anxious, and you don't pick an hour when you are gluttonous, so that people don't have any fun at all, or I'll wash it with you?" ”

Du Ruo's face was flushed, and he kissed the red lotus's nose, and walked to the edge of the sofa while holding the red lotus, "I'm a dirty monkey, what are you, beautiful female monkey?" A dirty monkey and a beautiful mother monkey give birth to a litter of dirty and beautiful baby monkeys! ”

Honglian didn't hold back her breath, her eyes slanted and she shouted, and the two wine vortex folds on her cheeks loomed, "Ouch, saliva and shame, don't be ashamed, is there such a bad abuse of your own family, obedient, go and lie down for a while, ah?" Honglian turned around, broke out of Du Ruo's arms, squirmed and went to the basin to pick up the towel, turned around and saw that Du Ruo had fallen on the sofa, and was laughing happily. Honglian was slightly stunned, and unconsciously held back a smile, pretending to be the boss unhappy and putting on her face, "Nerves, saying that you are a monkey, is it really on your face, just now the clouds and rain have caused people's heartache, and now the rain will be clear, such a big person is still like a monkey, you say, is it ashamed!" ”

"Red Lotus, look at your back, look at your pointed ass! ……”

Red Lotus turned her head to look, and then went to the mirror to take a look, and suddenly a wisp of shame floated up her cheeks, followed by a light laughter like mist that filled the room, and it turned out that her back was already stained with colorful paint at some point.

"This is a pair of dirty monkeys made in heaven!"

Honglian rolled her eyes in annoyance, and the hand holding the wet towel brushed Du Ruo's face like a dragonfly, "Laugh, laugh, you are so bad now, you don't have a serious image all day long, you haven't done the same thing, this humiliating thing has been done with a nose and eyes, you say, should you fight!" ”

Du Ruo smiled, stretched out his hand to take the red lotus into his arms, and then both of them lay down on the couch, "Red lotus, I don't know why, if my brother has been unable to settle down recently, for no reason, he always feels that there is a calamity, and there is always an indescribable sense of unreality in his heart, as if one day when you wake up, you are no longer by my side!" ”

Honglian suddenly felt sweet in her heart, her face was radiant, and she raised her hand to rub her hand back and forth on Du Ruo's chest, "How can this be, if you are full, there are many ugly people!" ”

"Red Lotus, do you remember the scene when I was a model again, I made you laugh, I couldn't laugh, I took off half of my clothes, and I had to put them back on, and I almost burst into tears, alas, since then, my heart is like a kite with a broken string, and I can't get it back!"

"What else do you say, is there such a thing as you, I didn't get a word of affection when I met, and before I could take a breath, I asked someone to take off my clothes, and I couldn't draw breathlessly, and then I changed my way to bully people, count my fate thin, I should meet a magic star like you!"

Du Ruo smiled proudly and ambiguously, stood up calmly, hugged the soft and boneless body of the red lotus on his body, and put the trembling rufang of the red lotus like a bud on his chest, and saw the peach halo on the neck of the red lotus hanging slightly, and the oblique face became more and more delicate against the bright light in the room. Once upon a time, the red lotus was still a wild lily in the thorny bushes in the mountains, and it was really difficult for Du Ruo to climb and tear it down, but now she has become a lily in a greenhouse, and the joys, sorrows, and sorrows of every time are born with Du Ruo's state of mind. Earlier, when the red lotus was like a wild lily, the stiff hair and the hungry yellow vegetables on the face were now more and more black and shiny due to the moisturization of rejoicing and elegance, and the white was white and red; The hands of the red lotus, which were rough and rough in the past, are now also devoid of the abrasion of heavy rural labor, and the texture of the ten fingers is as delicate as a slender warm jade; Earlier, Honglian was tightly wrapped in rustic ragged clothes, and she was too shy to go out when she showed her back, but now she has also begun to talk about her demeanor and beauty, like a working girl who has returned to her hometown, a set of clothes a day, and she shouts that she has no clothes to wear all day long. Earlier, the red lotus did not leave the desolate and filthy square inch of land in the mountains, and the words did not leave the rough and mediocre slang sayings in the countryside, and they would lose face when they were unhappy, and now they are like rushing to the market to buy the street, and they will wander around one shopping mall after another, and they will bargain with people in a quarrel, and the words they say are elegant and decent, and even Du Ruo feels that his value has doubled. And all this is brought by Du Ruo, the red lotus is as radiant and radiant as a gorgeous lily, it is the product of Du Ruo's love and affection, and it is the result of Du Ruo's careful care according to his own aesthetic taste and emotional logic! And who knows if there will be a good result in all this, whether there will be a good reward for good intentions, maybe it is purely thankless!

Du Ruoxin smiled impetuously and coldly, and without saying anything, he pulled over the cheeks of the red lotus, and kissed the red lotus's blurry drunken eyes, the slightly cool nose tip, and the white and red cheeks all the way like a broken bamboo.

Red Lotus twisted her waist again and again, her silky eyes shielded a faint sense of shame, and her bright silky hair was scattered and fluttered on Du Ruo's shoulders.

Later, Du Ruo kissed the red lotus breast more violently and more strongly, kissed the delicate ** like the lotus stamen spit in the summer pond, kissed the smooth and delicate milk peak like the snow on the cloud cliff of the winter Yuba Mountain, kissed the warm and soft milk valley like the spring mountain stream, and then reluctantly stayed at the bottom of the valley for a while, smelling the fragrant ** of the full valley like an orchid and musk, and listening to the heart of the full stream like a spring breeze and rain. Du Ruo suddenly felt a kind of disgrace hidden in his heart, a kind of sad feelings that must not be separated for a moment, which made him suddenly tremble like a swing, and he actually opened his mouth to bite the red lotus room.

Red Lotus screamed violently, and her body writhed desperately. When Du Ruo's mouth was full of blood and regret raised his head, the red lotus had already slapped Du Ruo's face. Du Ruo stared blankly, looking demented and overwhelmed, and the red lotus fell on Du Ruo's shoulder with a "wow" again, wiping the bloody tooth marks in pain, and sobbing and crying.

Du Ruo felt guilty for a while, sighed deeply and painfully, slapped himself twice, and a few hot teardrops instantly overflowed from his eyes, "Red Lotus, don't blame Brother Ruo for being ruthless, if Brother Ruo doesn't know how this can happen, if Brother is boring, selfish, and confused for a while, if Brother wants to leave a mark on you, I want you to think about ......Brother Ruo for the rest of your life."

"I can't change this ** appearance, give a good face for three days, I have to go to the house to uncover the tiles, and if I don't get hurt for a moment, I have to kick my nose and face. Did you go to my house to propose, lose your face, and want to get it back on me, if that's the case, it's too late for you to regret it now, don't think of a finger to cover your face, treat the red lotus as a lump of wood, this time you bullied people, and you also found something to say in a crooked way! ”

Du Ruo stretched out his arms stupidly, hugged the red lotus by his side, licked the red lotus's bloodstained room, and kissed the red lotus's tearful eyes, "Red Lotus, if my brother promises, if my brother makes you unhappy for the first and last time, if my brother says that if you trample on Red Lotus so viciously in vain in the future, you will be called if your brother was crushed to death by the train when he was patrolling, and he couldn't see anyone alive, and he fell into the pool and drowned in the water after breaking work, and he didn't see his body!" ”

"I will open my mouth to gamble, full of dead and alive nonsense, next time I will be such a dirty and rotten slut, three days will not hurt people, my muscles and bones hurt, I will not hurt you, I will ignore you if the sky is broken, follow the example of the beauties in your city, and take my son alone!" Honglian choked and sat up, her teardrop-covered cheeks condensed with a look of being insulted and unwilling to be humiliated, and her nose twitched aggrievedly.

"Honglian, you don't know, you are now Brother Ruo's heart and soul baby, the only hope for Brother Ruo's life, if Brother Ruo can't live without you for a day, I don't know how I got rubbed over these days. Every day when I go home from work, I look at the chickens and dogs barking in other people's houses, and the family is talking and laughing. I don't know why you didn't come home, it's not that Honglian is narrow-minded, why is it a little unspoken, like a brother; Could it be that if his brother was a detour, he neglected the red lotus; Could it be that the red lotus is sick, and the stammering country life has withered the delicate red lotus like a flower. I have been worried all day long, restless, I have asked someone to go to your house several times, but there is no response, I have snooped in front of and behind your house several times in the dark, and there is no one.

It wasn't until that afternoon that he returned to work that the lame director of the work area suddenly led two people wearing railway public security uniforms to come to the door. I haven't seen him for a few years, and the old cripple still has an official face, like a dwarf, and his limbs are holding the posture that he is used to training people in a special period, "According to the masses, you are painting [***] paintings, and you are spreading hooligans in the name of talking about friends, which has caused a very bad impact on the road, you have a good explanation to the organization, what is the motive for the crime, and what are the criminal facts? I was so angry that I jumped three feet high, spat on the ground, and jumped in front of him in a few steps, "The old immortal dares to spew blood, there is that royal law that stipulates that men and women marry are hooligans, fuck, the unlucky weasel is bitten by a chicken, Lao Tzu, a railway worker, does not steal or rob, does it mean that there is no basic right of a citizen of the republic!" ’

"The old lame man was violent, his two ugly eyes were as wide as pig urine bubbles, and he slapped the table with a slap on his face, and the two police officers quickly pressed me down on the chair, 'You don't have to be lucky, and you want to hide it from the organization, we have mastered a lot of the facts of your crime, and we are looking for you to come to you just to fulfill the policy procedures of confessing leniency and resisting strictness, don't think that we can't hold your fox tail and catch your pervert handle, why, I painted a few pictures and made a little money, Is it superior? Everyone is equal before the law, and only the devil believes that you have always despised the bandit habits of the leaders as you have always been a child and a gentleman, and you have always despised the banditry habits of the leaders! ’

"'Isn't this a presumption of guilt, you keep saying that I am a scoundrel and bring evidence! Catch the thief and catch the stolen goods, and force out the evidence by coercing confessions! Lao Tzu didn't do anything wrong, so I'm not afraid that you, a lame ghost, will come to the door, measure you as a little silent sesame official, and don't dare to take Lao Tzu to the police! I scrambled to my feet, pursed my lips contemptuously, and two sneering glances fixed on his face.

"'Okay, even if you kid has a hard mouth, the palace of Hades supports a good man, closes his eyes and waits for death, don't talk about it, you want to resist the organization to the end!' The old lame man was arrogant, limping his legs, and his cheeks were biting in the anxiety of not being able to confess, "Then I will point it out to you, there is no facts as a basis, there is no law as a yardstick, and we will not look for you. You took advantage of the fact that the woman had just left school, was not deeply involved in the world, despicably created a righteous and courageous incident to win favor, and then followed her to Shenzhen in a bad way, luring the woman to live together in the name of opening a store, and what is even worse is that in order to fulfill your own desires, you induce the woman to destroy her future, and you will not go to college, and you will be a model, and finally under the worship of the decadent ideas of bourgeois liberalization, you will draw [***] paintings, so as to embark on the criminal road of being enemies of the people! ’

"'Isn't this a weasel's belly, unable to let out a good fart, this is the accusation that the organization you represent has fabricated against me!' I didn't laugh angrily, I turned my head and spat on it, two scornful sneers of disdain rose on the corners of my mouth, and the two police officers let go of their hands disapplausively.

"'Are you human, you're scum, you're a pitiful and disgusting shameless!' The old lame man snorted hoarsely, pointed at my nose with trembling hands, and rolled his eyes with a mouthful of phlegm, "Let me tell you the truth, a person like you should be a bachelor for the rest of your life, and be a road maintenance worker in the mountains for a lifetime!" Your eyes are empty, your eyes are not respectful, your mind is full of judgmental thoughts, you don't have a good time, you don't work well, and you only think about painting a woman with a bare ass and a big titty bag all day long! Hundreds of people in the whole work area, if they are all like you, if they don't let the sheep go, scatter the stalls, or get into a car accident, causing heavy losses to national property! You are uninhibited, arrogant and untamed, a mouth of feudal remnants, the mud can't be on the wall, the rotten wood can't be made of beams, the mountain looks high all day long, you open your mouth to become famous and become a family, and you close your mouth to get ahead! We are a railway unit, the implementation of semi-military management, pay attention to safety and punctuality, selfless dedication, let you a grain of mouse feces break a pot of soup, half a crocodile urine drenched a room of people's brains! I told the woman's second elder a long time ago: As soon as possible, fold the temple and move the Bodhisattva, quickly cut through the mess, you don't have to be a kid and a villain, you can support the boat in the sand nest, and you can't think of good things; I didn't let our sister have a handsome bird with an ugly finch, and a flower was inserted in the cow. You kid is golden and jade, ruined, a bunch of brains and bones in the whole work area, and a bad heart; The hibiscus of the girl who came out of the water, the budding rose, and the pretty girl in the mountains who showed talent. This phoenix has a phoenix nest, the chicken has a chicken nest, and the marriage event of the two is not mixed, how can the girl's surname come from Hu, and use the stirring stick as an eyebrow pencil, how can you be full of Hule by your kid, saying that the dog's tail grass that has been beaten by frost also has a time to turn over. The second elder thinks about it, he coaxes our sister to model him naked, and then goes to the city to sell portraits and save fame, this is not an obvious indication that he didn't treat our sister as a person, and he didn't treat the second elder's face as a face. People want faces, trees want bark, such a big girl, parents don't even scold it, but people don't treat our sister as a person, and want our sister to be a model for him naked. People will have a face in the future and make a lot of money, where will the girl's face go, where will the face of the second elder go, and the faces of the five relatives and six relatives will not be lost! When the scenery is decent, will you think of the silly girls in our mountains? Not to mention the lack of family education and the shame of our ancestors, our neighbors live in the mountains with a lot of water, and they also feel that they wear bracelets around their necks - their faces can't go up and down! ’

"'Isn't this a blind dog that opens its mouth and bites, this is what you call the leader's care and love for me! Did I dig your ancestral grave, or did I sleep with the woman of your family, and I wanted to kill me, and then I ran to my fiancée's house to chew maggots! I suddenly became angry, and suddenly jumped up from my chair, and the two policemen quickly grabbed me by the shoulders and pressed me against the chair.

"'Okay, you are a dead pig who is not afraid of boiling water, you are like this poor and sour person who does not bend over, and you have the courage to continue to talk to the organization! Next, on behalf of the work district, I announce the punishment decision against you, suspend you for three months, and record a major administrative demerit! ’”

"If that's the case, brother, why don't we paint this picture? A hero doesn't suffer the loss in front of you, you have to suffer this sin, suffer this, and are willing to risk going to prison to paint this picture! Honglian looked up with her face extremely warmly, and her chest was intermittently filled with hateful, lamentable, and pitiful feelings, and the humiliation that she had always been deeply aware of slowly subsided, and the fear of fear came to her body, and she unconsciously snuggled her body more meekly into his arms.

"Later, I don't know how to leave the work class, a person ran to your house in a cloud and a fog, and another person walked on the way back to the work area, it turned out that our love was in danger, and the infinite admiration for love that I had been haunting in my heart became an ethereal dream! It turns out that you have a noble heart and deep affection, and you have been fighting desperately for our love for days! The little sister said, you don't eat or sleep for me, and you hide in the attic and cry alone all day long. It turned out that my uncle's parents listened to and believed it, for fear that their old face would be ruined for half a lifetime, and they wouldn't let you meet me anymore! I think I'm really a sinmaker! At the age of sixteen or seventeen, when I was dozing, hungry, and sad, I had no choice but to take on the burden of life, to earn wages for the family's life, and to spend my beautiful youth in this deserted ravine. At my age, others sit carefree in a classroom with a few windows, learn cultural knowledge, receive higher education, and grab capital to make a living. What can be done, people have to bow their heads when they go to the low eaves, just be happy to know their fate, get by and live a day, no oil in the pot, no rice in the tank, the poor bare, said that no one has to live. Later, by chance, the creation made people, the work area engaged in the youth culture study class, met Mr. Ren, this is a little absurd idea, with a little belief in climbing the dragon and the phoenix, I always feel that instead of being so nameless and money, rotting with the grass and trees, it is better to learn the toad to stretch its neck to swallow the moon, even if it is wishful thinking, even if it is ruined, in the end there is no loss, I am not still a penniless mountain road maintenance worker. Later, I really worked hard, starting from the first Chinese textbook, and climbing to the mountain of literature and history; Starting from "Mustard Seed Garden Painting", swim into the sea of painting art. Others at my age, is to sit in the office with a bright window and a face, catch up with the tide of the times, enjoy the material civilization, out of the lights of the red wine and green, into the wife and children with each other, what can be done, people to the bend over, have to bend their heads, who called me just a mountain road maintenance worker, a pile of dung like abandoned at the bottom of the society, hard work for more than ten years, no success, no fame, still is still a loach in the small ravine, can not turn up the big waves, shallow beach of the yellow eel, always can not become a dragon. Since I have such a bumpy fate and such a bad fortune, it is not a dream for me to soar in vain. Then I should always take a step back, as the saying goes, take a step back and open the sky, and the prodigal son will not change his money! I just tried to survive in the mountains, I was looking for love in the mountains, who did I provoke and who hindered whom, I settled in the mountains that I was destined to live in, and I harvested love in my bad year, which also blocked his financial path and defeated his gimmick. Could it be that a piece of heaven above my head obscures the draught well in his house, or that a piece of land under my feet has crowded the old grave mound in his house, and that I am guilty of such murder and bloodless harm and evil in the work area to the point of no return, and that I am guilty of such a lack of virtue and smoke in my fiancée's house? I'm not like him, I am sweat beads falling to the ground and earning a few life money, I am not like him, I am wearing a human skin in white and leaning on people's nose to breathe, breaking up my marriage, he is satisfied, watching me suffer and suffer, he can wake up laughing in his sleep. I can't just retreat, I can't just be stupid and cocooned to tie myself, the big living person is called urine suffocation, I can't pretend to be free and easy, I can't just give up and masturbate, and my arms are folded in my sleeves. I'm going to paint, to paint a glorious and original work of astonishment, to completely overturn the untruths that have been imposed on me; I'm going to propose marriage, begging Honglian to let me be her husband who loves each other, and begging Honglian's parents to let me be their son-in-law. It's not that I can't pull out a white cloth in the dyeing room, and I can't squeeze four taels of oil from buckwheat grains, so I have to do my best and do everything I have, in the case of the general poverty of the small station's family, pull the banner of a well-off family, and build a typical example of a scholarly family; It's not that it's hard for me to paint the skin and the tiger, and I don't know the face but not the heart, I want to confess with my heart, repay my grievances directly, and pour all my love into the red lotus, and let the red lotus live the most abundant food and clothing under the embarrassment of lack of food and clothing in the mountains, so that the parents of the red lotus can also live the most prosperous and healthy comfortable life because of the red lotus......"

"If brother, if this is the case, we will paint this painting wholeheartedly, you are not afraid of going to prison and letting people step under your feet, and I am not afraid of losing face and causing a gray nose, see who dares to splash dirty water on us at will, pointing at our backbone and spraying feces!" Red Lotus stretched out her fingers to press her lips in annoyance, and then bent her arm to fetch the bath towel behind her back, her whole face cynically pale like clotted cream.

Du Ruo's heart moved, got up and picked up the red lotus and ran to the easel a few steps, quickly moved the pen to paint the unyielding mood of the red lotus on the canvas, and stared at it for a while, and after a long time, he flashed his eyes unsatisfied, and both returned to the sofa and sat down without regret, "I made up my mind to go to the township to ask the township chief Yucheng, a night when the water and the moon are suitable, and the night is quiet, I brought a framed painting of flowers and birds, and knocked on the door of the township chief's house." After a moment of surprise and doubt, the township chief looked very hospitable, he had already heard that there was a painter in our poor ravine, and it was better to meet than to be famous! Sister Lian's matter, don't worry, I will take the time to talk to her father, don't enter the turtle gate, don't get angry, the children's family is free to love, as long as Sister Lian is willing, the optimism of being a parent, do you still need so much heart? You just said that public opinion is not right, there is a lot of resistance, I don't think it's a big deal, the people in the mountains, the ancient road is warm, the people are kind, there are two gossips that don't listen, it's also a very common thing. Look at your paintings, listen to your words, I can trust your character very much, why should I put such a thing of chasing wind and shadows in my heart! But in the future, you have to treat the lotus girl well, how can it be, be kind to others, the beauty of sincerity and benevolence! It's useless, you are willing to come, it is full of face, and I really deserve to give such a valuable gift, but it is disrespectful! When to do a happy event, a word, then I will come to the door to congratulate, where, where, a little joy, ask for a glass of happy wine to drink!

"I mustered up the courage to go to your aunt's house and beg her for her tolerance. I remember you said that my aunt was strong and generous, but she had no children and no daughters under her knees. Your father was brought up by your aunt when you were a child, and you lived in your aunt's house when you were a child. Be reasonable, as long as your aunt agrees, your father will not disobey him, then our marriage will be inseparable. It was the time when the morning dew was wet and the mountains were green, so I got up early and took a pair of gold bracelets and a few sets of high-quality clothes that I bought from Jiangcheng. When I came to my aunt's house with a clumsy and apprehensive voice. My aunt is really kind, a pair of eyes that have been rusted by the hardships of life and lost their luster exude a wide and generous warmth, and a face that has been abrased by the wind and frost of the years shows an amiable smile. You came, go to the house and sit, you said what to do now, you touched the mold, encountered the trouble, the needle tip of the big hole made into a big wind, your uncle did not agree to this family business, the lotus sister is looking for death and life to make the surname, you are so good to talk about friends and live a life, you have to paint something, and it is not that you can't get by, so that the rumors of the four towns and neighbors are flying all over the sky. Your uncle can't stand the slightest anger in his life, this is good, and he can't speak clearly. You are a smart person, you don't need a hammer to sound a drum, you don't need a whip to whip a fast horse, you can't do anything, you can't do anything, you always have a fixed star in your heart, you don't have a foolish account, you can't get it from a small family like us. Sister Lian is young, just out of the school door, don't know the etiquette, you have crossed more bridges than she walked, why are you still so ignorant, get lice on the head, make some gossip to others! Do you want to get married, when? is the only way to stop other people's mouths. Your uncle came to me and said, it is not possible for this big girl to still have her surname, I am heartbroken for the girl I raised intimately and close to the flesh, it is not my aunt who said you, you still have to suppress your temper, pay a little attention, admit your mistake in front of your uncle, say no, lose face and lose face without going out of the house, what is it! Oh, you baby, what are you doing with this valuable thing, you have become a family, and you are still holding on to this false trick and fuss ceremony. My aunt is not old yet, and she can still move, when will my aunt be bedridden, my aunt will really only rely on you and my sister Lian!

"If brother, if we are really as my aunt said, after painting this painting, we will not engage in creation, be a painter in peace and stability, paint arts and crafts paintings, make some money in a dignified manner, and live a decent life, you have to do the Chinese dream, what kind of painter is embarrassing, the old saying also says: The tree is big and the wind shakes the tree, and the name of the person is lost, so that the family is worried about you!" Honglian echoed with deep feelings, stood up with a melancholy face, picked up the coat that Du Ruo threw on the back of the chair and draped it over his shoulders, and bent his arm again to pull the bath towel that fell on his back......

Du Ruo was slightly shocked, and suddenly felt a ray of spiritual light flashing in his mind, and he was busy concentrating his mind to capture the spiritual light, but in an instant, Tong Shan was wet, and there was no trace of paw prints as if Feihong was stepping on slush and snow, and there was no sign of even the auspicious light and feathers that were aroused. Du Ruo shook his head in frustration, looking at the image on the canvas with empty eyes, and then at the red lotus wearing a bath towel, and couldn't help but continue with a gloomy heart, "So I went to your house to propose marriage in one go, when I walked into your house with a large bag of seasonal gifts and bulging bags of fashionable clothes. The little sister innocently took the backpack, with a little surprise and a slightly shy smile, and said if brother, why didn't you come earlier, my sister is sick and has been lying for a few days, I went to the field to call my parents back, you are not allowed to be like last time, my parents are gone, and they are gone! I smiled embarrassed and uneasy, and ran into your room in a few steps. You turned your head crookedly and saw that you sat up from the bed with your sickly fluffy hair, and your dry and red eyes were filled with fine tears in an instant. I immediately felt a split in my spirit, on the verge of a breakdown, as if I had fallen into a bottomless abyss, dizzy and dizzy from time to moment. I stepped over to the bed, and hugged you tightly to my chest, and beheld your cheeks, which were as white as peach, and which were pitifully withered, and which were full of ruined and worried smiles; Look at your eyes, which are as bright as spring mountains and autumn waters, they are also pitifully dimmed, and their eyes are full of dull and unhappy brilliance. I said Red Lotus, if my brother is lowly and incompetent, I pity the worm, and you will suffer with you. You shook your head weakly and weakly, and your teardropping eyes flashed with perseverance, you said that if you brother, Honglian is not afraid of suffering and sinning, who doesn't have a big bowl and a small bump to touch the heart-wrenching thing, as long as we have a clear conscience, have a way to live, and have a pursuit, Honglian is willing to fall into the well and flutter all his life.

I couldn't hold back the surging passion in my heart anymore, I suddenly realized that the momentary impulse for love and the empty enthusiasm for art that I had been worried about in my heart were right, I hurriedly told you that I went to the township to visit the township chief, and asked the township chief to match with me, and I went to my aunt's house to confess my relatives, and begged my aunt to become a jade from it. Your eyes widened with joy at that time, and a few strands of sad smile lines that had been condensed on your lips for a long time were gone, you said that if you are brother, you have spent so much money for Honglian, Honglian is really ashamed. I bowed my head in deep shame, my face was ashamed, I said Red Lotus, silly wife, it should be me who feels guilty, you are like a fairy in my barren heart sprinkled with the rain of love, so that I have wandered for many years The emotional boat finally has a harbor of love to rest, it is you who have lit the guiding light on the wrong path of my unconscious life, so that I can wander The car of faith is finally no longer sluggish, I love you all my life, thank you, it's not enough, how can you still have such unreasonable thoughts, And such unreasonable thoughts. You smiled charmingly and shyly, with two thin teardrops in the corners of your eyes, and then you suddenly approached the root of my ear, and your sweet voice was as delicate as a candied fruit, you said that if you are a brother, you will be a father, and the little baby is often naughty. I suddenly felt that my heart was full of joy, and after a moment of soul fluttering, the sorrow that had been stuck in my mind was completely gone, and then I only felt that the world was so vast, and my heart was so open-minded, I couldn't help but bury my face deep in your chest and abdomen, and wanted to listen to the kicking sound of the fetus of our love when it was restless in the mother's womb. You smiled and shrunk your shoulders to dodge, while struggling uneasily, you couldn't raise your head in shame for a while, and then you sighed faintly, and suddenly raised your tearful eyes with a touch of loss, you said if brother, what should I do now, if my parents really don't agree.

I suddenly felt a burst of panic in my heart, the six gods raised their heads without a master, and comforted you with a hesitant tone that I couldn't believe, I said no, red lotus, no, people are always bones and flesh, there are only unfilial children in the world, there are no unvirtuous parents, as long as we are benevolent to righteousness, love to courtesy, and what parents do not want their children to live happily. You shook your head softly, your face was covered with a layer of melancholy clouds, you said if brother, if only my parents thought like you, what can be done, one step and a hundred wrong steps, who told us to come to this point! I have already thought about it, when I am well, let's sincerely ask my parents to agree, if my father does not agree again, he just rubs his face with ashes and fills the black bread, and he refuses to turn around when he dies, then I will run away from home and go to you alone, just if he did not give birth to me and raise my daughter in this life. I felt a throbbing heartstrings at that time, and I was stunned all of a sudden, and the joy and pain that rolled over converged into a torrent that flowed through my eyes, I didn't expect your weak chest to beat with a loyal and unyielding heart, I didn't expect your immature shoulders to bear the weight of gossip like a mountain, I didn't expect your love for me to be so sincere, I didn't expect our love to go such a tortuous and rugged road, I can only hug you further, Tears of gratitude and sorrow poured down his eyes......

"'-Ouch, sister, it's really hard to say goodbye when you see each other, I haven't seen you for a few days, and I look like a tired person crying and crying, are you ashamed?"

I was shocked, and hurriedly stood up, and saw the little sister carrying a bamboo basket, stepping on the threshold with one foot, and bending her cheeks exaggeratedly and sarcastically. You laugh and curse in annoyance, tug at your crumpled shirt, and lift the quilt and rub it off the bed. The little sister smiled, and raised her pink smile in a sneer, yo, sister, this time the illness is also cured, this time you should thank me for being a matchmaker! You smile generously, twist the little sister's eyebrows and eyebrows, you have a broken mouth, a lot of sharp and thin tongues, you are about to read middle school, and you are so crazy all day long! The little sister grunted shyly, and her smiling eyes couldn't hide a cheerful look. You sighed gently and plainly, a few traces of confusion and loneliness flashed over your melancholy and haggard face, you said little sister, brother came to recognize his relatives, I don't know what you like, brother said to give you some money, keep it for future tuition, little sister, you have to study hard, don't waste this heart of your brother and sister, and strive to get into a university, my brother is because he didn't study, so he was hated, and my sister is also because I didn't read, so I am so unproductive, even our dad looks down on us! The little sister shook her head disapprovingly, opened her two eyes that became very bright in an instant, and glanced at me with a smile, sister, is it so cruel as you said, our dad is a little old and stubborn, my mom is still towards you, our family also comes to the open cooking centralized system, the minority obeys the majority, see what else our dad has to say! You smile and walk out of the room with an increasingly sad look.

"Then I saw that outside the house, in the jagged shadows of the foliage and the dome of the roof, your father and mother had returned from the field. I hurriedly left you, suppressed the slight nervousness and timidity that had risen in my heart, and stood at the door of the house with a sense of anxiety. Your parents have a cold attitude, and they both coldly deflect their heads and pretend to turn a blind eye. I wanted to take the dung bucket from your father's shoulder, and call out to my father, but your father walked in front of me without saying a word, and his gloomy face was like a dark halo on the ground; I wanted to take the dung basket from your mother's shoulder, and call Mom with a smiling face, but your mother said absentmindedly and passed by, her kind face like the swaying light and shadow in front of the door, suddenly adding a layer of mysterious gloom. Later, I staggered back to the house with a desolation in my heart like a black curtain, like a sleepy beast, your father sat on the stool next to the table of the eight immortals in the upper room with a blue face, your mother lowered her voice as if muttering something in her mouth, while rolling up her sleeves and wiping the corners of her eyes, while walking to the kitchen in a panic, you leaned heavily on the chair in the corner, glancing at me with resentment, while stubbornly gritting her teeth, the little sister was hurriedly looking for a teacup, and her red and hot cheeks showed a little relieved smile from time to time. I staggered to your father, and I wanted to call him with the most humble smile and the lowest of tones, but a terrible haze took over my mind, and I wanted to say no with the most reverent care, and in the most solemn tone, but a terrible fear swept over me. I only felt that my face was deformed, my heart was contracting, my legs were shaking violently, and I took out a cigarette from my pocket and sent it to your father with both hands respectfully. Your father snorted coldly, his face was gloomy, and he added a layer of disdain to the extreme disgust, he waved his hand to beat the paper cigarette, with a vicious and hateful look of resentment, and pointed at the tip of my nose angrily, look at your virtue, not silly and stupid, my lotus sister is blind, crazy, her parents are not blind in the sand, and the breath is in the sand, you quickly take your things and get out of the door, we are poor and small, we can't afford to be such a great god as you, stay away from our house in the future, Don't be a fly chasing the smell of stinking dead entanglement of my lotus sister, I just open the window and say bright words, don't dissipate any crooked brains, my lotus sister is so stupid that no one wants it, marry a deaf, blind, camel, and never go to your door with a dog's heart like a beast!

I felt a rush of blood rush to my head, and my face was as white as ashes in the indignation of being spurned. You screamed heartbreakingly, and suddenly slipped off the chair in a panic, and the little sister lost her voice and ran over like a fly, and you shook your head with a blank face, and fell sideways to the ground and cried. I tried my best to suppress the unbearable rage and despair in my heart, and to control the unbearable tremors that were sifting chaff all over my body. Your mother shouted in the kitchen, "O son of my wretchedness!" A handful of tears and snot flew out. Look at your father's stiff cheeks, the hatred and resentment in his heart completely frozen on his face, look at your mother and son crying in a ball of loneliness and sorrow, look at the tablet of your ancestors who are enshrined in the dim candlelight by the fragrant fragrance under the eaves, I suddenly feel a feeling of exhaustion from the heart that makes my eyelids astringent, my skull wooden, and I can't help but 'plop' on my knees on the ground. All of them kowtowed three times in a row, I said that the ancestors of the red lotus are on the top, Du Ruo kowtowed to the ancestors, Du Ruo married the red lotus as his wife, and hoped that the ancestors would be tolerant and blessed, Du Ruo would remember the kindness of the ancestors, and he would live up to the red lotus in this life, Du Ruo swore in front of the ancestors' spirits, and Du Ruo was destitute in the future, saying that there were no three meals, no night, and the red lotus should be happy for a lifetime, and the ancestors would have mercy on the ancestors! At this time, your crying stopped abruptly, and after a moment of hesitation, you struggled to break free from your mother's dissuasion, and also knelt down beside me in a panic, you said Dad, please forgive your daughter for the sake of your love for raising your daughter for more than 20 years! My sister also said Dad, you are a feudal idea, my sister is willing, if you don't agree again, you will violate the marriage law! Your mother wiped a handful of tears and walked in front of you tremblingly, Lian'er, you both got up, Mom saw it, your head was knocked down, you knelt down, you should have done your duty, Mom agreed with you, if this old ghost is afraid of losing face and losing his face, let him live alone, Mom will take my little sister with you, I don't believe it, the girl I gave birth to will be blind, and a mouthful of spit can drown people! Your father lowered his head helplessly, staring at me with hatred, a wry smile hung on the corner of his mouth, you two get up, Dad is also forced to fight, people fight for a breath, trees earn a layer of skin, as long as you are a bright and bright friends, worthy of the name of the marriage, do not make some right and wrong let people chew their tongues behind their backs, poke the backbone, I am too late to be happy, how can I bear to tear you apart, set a date, invite the five relatives and six relatives to the left and right neighbors, let's do the happy event lively, everyone has it for all to see, You haven't done anything unseemly, so get married! ”

"Brother Ruo, you should know now, it's so difficult for the two of us to start a family, and it's not brought by your past ruffians! We are the little people in the mountains, it's good to have something to eat, you have to swallow the snake and swallow the elephant and want to be a painter, you have to eat the tengu to go to the city to sell stupid! Leaders don't make it difficult for you, and parents don't worry about who you worry about! Listen to me, throw away this illusion, keep to yourself and paint well, earn some money to live in the mountains, and no one will be able to live with you! Look at this disgraced appearance, I don't paint anymore, I don't have any count in my heart, and I just toss myself to paint again! The red lotus walked over with a bath towel, and the two rays of sunlight shining mottled through the bright tiles of the roof shone on her, blending with the darkness of the surrounding dusty mist, like the green calyx on the branch clustered with white blooming flowers, which was very bright for a while.

Du Ruo suddenly realized, as if the spiritual light had passed away, his mind instantly illuminated, and he picked up the paintbrush excitedly. It turned out that he couldn't get out of the trap of realism many times and times, because he didn't understand the essence of freehand, and he couldn't jump out of the similar fence three times and four times, and he didn't grasp the opportunity of god-likeness. The affection is deep and long inside, the scenery is far and large, not limited to the appearance of the image, not stuck in the internal structure of the landscape, the pride of reading things, and the creativity of writing. The ancients Zong Bing said: Vertical three inches, when a thousand feet high; The horizontal ink is several feet, and the body is hundreds of miles. The painter Shi Tao also said: Ten buckets of vomiting blood are better than chewing snow. The old man Baishi even said: The beauty of painting lies in the similarity and dissimilarity. As long as the intention, taste, and style of the picture are expressed, and the characters' unwilling humiliation, universal love and simple spiritual outlook are displayed, why bother to stick to the elegance of the pen and the level of the gesture? Staying in the pursuit of technique in a daze, setting up misunderstandings for oneself in creation, the real one is the only way to succeed in the history of art!

Red Lotus bowed down and watched Du Ruo write and paint on the drawing paper, first the mountains are not like mountains, and the water is not like water to draw a rough outline, and then the mountains are dyed with light ink, thick ink dotted with moss, and the underwater is written with a pen, and the old brushes are draped, outlining several realistic pine strange stones, and then a dusty girl holding a lotus canopy appears on the drawing paper. The ink place is the strange and beautiful mountain light and material state, and the white place is the empty mountain valley that arouses people's reverie; When using the pen, there are "sharp, qi, round, healthy" categories, when dipping ink, there are "burnt, thick, light, light" ingenuity; Gradually, the mountains are green, the water is green, the people are alive, the paper is clear and clear, there is a texture, the color is harmonious and elegant, there is a contrast, there is a graceful and elegant taste, the whole picture is sparse and dense, and the face gives people a feeling of ethereal and moisturized......

"Brother Ruo, you are really amazing, you have painted this "Girl by the River" to life!"

Du Ruo put down the paintbrush in a daze, looked down in disbelief, and turned on all the lights in the room and looked up in a dream, and then walked quickly to the window and opened the curtains, squinting hesitantly, and finally flew up to pick up the red lotus with passion, and tears burst out of his eyes with emotion, "Red Lotus, we finally succeeded, without you, how can there be this painting, this is the crystallization of our two people's hard work, the fruit of our love, this life will be with you to grow old together, love for a lifetime!" ”