"Oh my God, I know I should be glad that J.J is finally no longer riddled with rumors, but now all I can care about is what happens to J.J. Now, from the time the news was launched to the present, basically I haven't been able to eat! Seriously, I've lost a full 10 pounds -- my parents almost suspect I'm anorexic, but all I can think of is J.J., who was devastated when I saw the news that morning, and locked myself in my room and cried all morning-"

"Yes, I'm the same, from that day to now, I haven't had a good night's sleep, really, I have to wake up in the middle of the night and I have to turn on the computer to see if there is any new news from J.J, I wish I could see the news that she is awake when I open the news site, but every time I wait for it is disappointment. J.J, I am willing to share all the good fortune of this life with you, as long as you can wake up healthy. ”

"I tattooed J.J's name on my chest, hoping to pass on my heartbeat to it, it's a picture, and it's a little red and swollen, but the tattoo artist said it will be fine soon."

"J.J. Ten facts that touched us, number one: the girl was born into a broken family, grew up in a slum, but insisted on wearing the ring of innocence until she met the first important man in her life, Josh Blanche, who eventually became her fiancé. Second, her biggest dream is to go to college, and Oprah, another great woman, helped her achieve this dream and became her good friend and mentor, and J.J later donated money to set up several foundations to help girls with the same dream! Third, her love and persistence in her acting career ......"

"I am a parishioner in St. Ann's Church in New York, is there a church of parishioners who will go with me to pray for J.J.? I hope God will kiss her again and let her work miracles, she is such a good, such a good girl-"

"Remember, how sweet and happy her smile was at that time, how gentle Josh's eyes were when she looked at her, she and Josh are the pair I envy the most, God, it's their luck that the media stop talking about that now, otherwise I would be really pissoff and go do something crazy, now the only thing we can do is pray for J.J, she'll wake up, she will."

"Someone has seen Zadeh. Rupp? Seriously, has anyone seen him? They said he was a big fan, maybe we did meet him at some rallies, events, and the thing I regret the most is not killing him at that time! That worm! That demon! I've never hated someone so much in my life! ”

"The most terrible thing about Zad is that he wants to ruin J.J. from his reputation and distort our perception of J.J. with his vicious lies and rumors, but he will not succeed! Evil was destined to destroy itself, and he ended up in perfect proportions, and I heard they used several plastic bags to get him away - a friend of mine who worked in a café across the street from the police station overheard the conversation of the police, and it was said that Cesare had shot him so many times that his upper body was basically broken - well done! ”

"Let Zad cry in hell, J.J. will definitely survive, she will get better and better!"

Dragging the mouse expressionlessly, watching the forum posts - although several posts are obviously suspected of water stickers, Jon has no intention of deleting them: since Jenny was injured and hospitalized and fell into a coma The news spread, the number of posts on the forum has suddenly risen to a new level, and many Jennifer fans who usually don't come to the forum, or viewers who have a good feeling, now also feel that they need a platform to express their feelings and comfort each other. Online traffic has risen several steps in a few days, and in this case, the previous rules are inevitably unable to keep up with the changes, and the managers have also focused on deleting those malicious attacks and questioning posts, and they have turned a blind eye to these low-quality posts that are just briefly expressing feelings.

I miss every moment when I fell in love with J.J in the past, and I told how restless I was during this time, and even suffered from all kinds of disorders - there were more than ten students who ran home from class crying because of the news of J.J's accident), and scolding Zade, a coward and a liar, which are basically the three major genres of expressing messages, in addition to broadcasting news, passing on grapevine, there are almost hundreds of new posts on the forum every day, and the speed of page refresh is dizzying. The Administrator's group was ringing all the time, but Jon didn't get involved, she barely spoke in the Admin group, and netizens didn't question it - most of these close friends knew that she was the hapless hostage in the news, and given what she had been through, it made sense that she would want to stay away from the Internet for a while.

However, this is only between acquaintances, and for acquaintances, they can always get an answer, so patience will be more abundant, but for those strangers, the only way for them to know what is really going on is of course to ask Jon directly, and they will not be so sympathetic to her feelings - these days, Jon's forum text messages, K, Twitter and other messages have already exploded, The fans who posted in the forums nostalgic for J.J. and the battle with Zad were not ambiguous at all about the enthusiasm of asking about the truth of the mysterious half-hour, and no matter what words were used to embellished it, for Jon, there was actually only one core problem: we wanted to know what happened in that half-hour, and we happened to know a person involved, such a resource could not be wasted.

"Jon, remember me, I was AOD2011 at IMDB and it really frustrated me, my friends were very angry that the rumor letter was true, and it made me very angry......"

"Jon, may I ask you a question, of course, you don't necessarily have to, but I'd be glad if you could - about that half-hour, I heard that Zadeqiang. raped her, things aren't that scary, right? Can you tell me what happened at the time? I would never say it to anyone! ”

"Hello, I'm ......"

"About that half-hour ......"

In the dense letters, Jon was able to recognize more and more limited words - strangely, many people used 'pressured by the people around them' as an excuse to ask for the truth, as if this would reduce the guilt of asking about privacy, and of course, the replies that Jon repeatedly bombarded and even cursed because he didn't reply, also took a lot of share.

The phone vibrated slightly, she stopped browsing the machine, closed the browser, opened the phone and took a look, picked up the bag and walked out of the office door, several colleagues passed by her, and Jon could only force himself to nod and say hello to them, but he couldn't smile as usual.

"Hey." Judy. Ackerman said she was waiting for her at a Christmas tree in front of the building, the holiday season was over, but no one had come to clean it up, and half of the lights on the tree were off and the other half was lit listlessly. It's like Judy – she's still wearing her designer suit, but with sunglasses, of course, and her tone is a little listless.

Jon didn't speak, and walked straight to the parking lot, Ackerman trotting after her.

"There's no paparazzi to harass you anymore, right?" She didn't seem to mind Jon's coldness, but said in a familiar voice. "It's probably the same with Charles and Harry, we said hello to the media - they won't bother you anymore."

After Jenny's injury, Jon became the object of the paparazzi's enthusiasm, which made her a celebrity addiction for a while, of course, the number of paparazzi who followed her certainly couldn't be the same as Jenny's, but for a while, as soon as she showed up, the media guarding the door would try to talk to her and dig out the truth of those 30 minutes - after the rumor letter was exposed, the matter reached its peak, but from the day the media turned around, the number of reporters dropped sharply, and the next day it even disappeared completely, This made Jon guess the human factor behind it, so Judy's statement didn't surprise her.

"You want to talk to me." She said, "Why? ”

"Because we've spoken on the phone a few times before." Judy smiled and said that her attitude was still so professional, not arrogant or impatient, showing strong confidence, as if she owned the whole conversation. "But the conversation hasn't progressed - Jon, we need you, J.J. needs you, show up, talk what you think, give an interview, or make a voice in the forums - whatever you want, but don't stay silent."

This was not unexpected, for over the past few days, Judy had been a surprise to her. Ackerman made several phone calls, and behind the cautious rhetoric, her intentions were clear. Blanche, Chris. Hanks, and Claudia. Hansen, the Oscar chairman, even the Fox News producer — she wanted Jon to join them and fill the last gap, and she was the one who saw it, and that was her most unique identity.

And Jon has already made his refusal obvious.

"Why me?" She sighed a little irritably, "I mean, Charles and Harry might be a better fit—"

"But none of them are admins of Jennifer's biggest fan forum, and none of them are ifers." Ackerman said, glancing at Jon and leading her astray down a path that led to a quiet lawn that was almost untouched at this time of day, "Maybe they're more suitable, but we just need you." ”

Her high-minded tone irritated Jon, and for a moment, the emotions that had been piling up over the years were almost overloaded, making her feel dizzy - seriously, all of this, all of them, the posts on the Internet, the characters that drowned her, the ubiquitous media, the reports, the clarifications, the pressing, the recurring nightmares, the repetition of being locked in the house, and the haunting Judy. Ackerman gave her a feeling of imminent emotional breakdown, but she barely controlled herself, didn't scream at Judy, just said as coldly as she could, "I don't know - what are you going to make me think about repeating what I said to the police?" Not strong. Rape, there are no bad words, most of the time there is a conversation, and we don't hear anything? ”

"Of course, that's not bad." Judy. Ackerman smiled politely, and she looked pleased with how things were going, "But we'd like you to do more — if you can tell the media, Zade. Rupp had been telling Jennifer about his fantasies throughout the abduction, and in his imagination he had been in love with Jennifer without mentioning the contents of the rumor letter - if you could say that, I'm sure J.J. and I would be grateful to you. ”

"Yes!" Jon almost blurted out, 'But that's a lie!' But she quickly held back - the irony of the sentence was too obvious, and she found another reason when she had already lied to the police, "But that's not what I said to the police-"

"The police won't be a problem." Ackerman said calmly, with confidence and strength in his words, as if that were the truth.

Jon shuddered slightly at the hint in her words, she pursed her lips and glanced at Ackerman - this woman was meticulous in her makeup, she looked close to the image of a celebrity on the Upper East Side of New York, but a little more pompous than New York - a little more Hollywood, yes, she looked really very Hollywood, flashy, hypocritical, smug, self-thinking that she was the center of the world, always looking condescending, as if she had everything under control, and that really aroused her anger.

"Is that what Cesare meant?" She asked, "Did he tell you to come to me?" ”

She stared at Ackerman tightly, and the other party couldn't help but show a hint of unnaturalness in her stare.

"Yes." She said, Jon let out a breath, and Ackerman revised his statement, "Well, no- but you have to believe it, I also have a very strong guy behind me, so it won't be a problem on the police side-"

“ok。” Jon said, for some reason, she was vaguely relaxed - if Cesare had orchestrated all this, the whole thing seemed to have gotten worse. "So what has he been busy with lately, and how is J.J's condition?"

Ackerman was visibly impatient, but still polite. "He is organizing a consultation, fighting for the right to sign, deciding whether to have a craniotomy, because J.J's situation is more complicated - she has a large amount of cerebral congestion, and usually minds surgery to remove, but the location is too sensitive, the operation risk is a bit high, and we want to arrange the best doctor to do this surgery - but on the other hand, her condition is getting better day by day, the amount of blood congestion is gradually decreasing, and it seems that she is absorbing blood clots on her own, so she is still waiting for further notice."

Jon was thrilled by the news, his heart constricting before he relaxed, "Whew, I'm fine, I hope she'll recover soon!" ”

"Yes." Ackerman chimed in, but Jon couldn't wait to bring the conversation back to her voice, "We're all doing what we can for J.J., and that's what I want to ask you, Jon - we really need you to tell the crowd to stop speculating." ”

She looked at Jon earnestly, "Let this stop completely, let Zad. Rupp is a complete failure - that's what you can do for J.J., really, Jon, J.J. needs you-"

"It's you who need me." Jon interrupted her, speaking quietly, "J.J. is still in a hospital bed, unable to say anything about the whole thing, and I don't think Cesare will need me ...... right now"

She thought for a moment, "I think it's you and the so-called big forces behind you who need me - and I'm sorry, my answer is no." ”

Ackerman sighed in annoyance, she looked at Jon with an expression like an ignorant child, "Jon, I don't want to insult you with money, I know you did all this because of your feelings for J.J-"

"Yes, I have a lot of faith for Jennifer. Jefferson has a deep affection for her - I've been a forum moderator for 10 years. Jon said, "I'm assuming you've been her PR for 10 years, right?" ”

Such years of cooperation seem to make Ackerman proud, and her lips raise a well-choreographed arc, not too big, perhaps because of Botox, "Yes, from the moment she debuted, I was her PR, her first Golden Globe, her first Oscar, her first Venice actress - I was there to witness it." ”

"Oh, that's a good feeling, and that's where everything has a place," Jon said, and every word Ackerman said made her angry, and she felt a slight dizziness as the forum posts popped back into her mind, 'I haven't slept well since I got the news,' 'I ran out of class crying when I got the news'—"I've spent 10 years of my time and heart and soul for her, and that kind of heart and emotion, even you can't imagine it—yes, of course I have feelings for her." ”

Judy. A flash of joy flashed across Ackerman's face, and Jon's softened tone seemed to give her a misunderstood understanding.

"Ten years is more than one-third of my life, in this life, J.J has always occupied a very important position, she is my sister, my mentor, my idol, my pillar and my entertainment, all these emotions make me have no regrets about time and money, I treasure all her variety shows, her movies, her paparazzi photos, her news videos, and there is a special 'J.J cabinet' in my room." Jon said, she suddenly felt like crying, "If I can say a word to her, it's my holiday, I used to love her so much—and you want to know what happened in that half-hour?" ”

Ackerman looked a little panicked, she didn't seem to expect Jon's reaction to be so violent, but Jon didn't give her a chance to speak.

"Oh, you've heard what happened in that half-hour, didn't you, a confession tape in which Zad made us witness the fall of an idol - those lies, all the group photos I treasured, Jenny and Josh, all the dreams I had in high school that 'I was as lucky as Jennifer to meet a male co-star who saved my life and fell in love with him' - the tears I left at the Oscars, all my feelings-"

Jon said viciously, "It's all the result of calculations, it's all the product of public opinion marketing, I'm just a fool, I was involved in this so-called star-making industry to squeeze, my time, my energy, my feelings, all of them are the raw materials for you to squeeze money and power, isn't it?" The bright red lipstick on your lips comes from a lie, your designer bag, Ms. Ackerman, famous car, which one is not from our contribution? You've killed me for ten years of my life, by deception -- you and your team, and Jenny. Jefferson, Cesare. Vijri, Josh. Blanche conspired to kill a third of me. ”

Voices from all over the country, and even from all over the world, lingered in her head, telling of nervousness, fear, anger, concern, and blessings, and they gradually pushed Jon's emotions up and down until she broke through the fog of all PTSD reactions, and suddenly everything was clear, and she couldn't help but laugh, "And you know what is your most hateful thing?" Cesare and Jeanne will at least be ashamed, they are ready to pay for it, and you, you murderer, are still busy finding accomplices to make your debut, singing such a contemptible opera, and even going back to the biggest victim, hoping that she will speak up to cover up your crimes and dig up the earth for your own grave! A murderer looks at the corpse to testify against you, to cover up your guilt - you know what, not everything works this way, you act as such, and then things go the way you want it to, ethics are bent, the world goes on moving forward, boom, boom, you continue to get a good salary, you wear your bright lipstick, and the person you have deceived willingly gives your emotions and gives everything you need for you, this damned, shameless liar-"

She stared at Ackerman, leaned forward, held back tears, and said softly, "You know, after all of this, I really began to understand Zadeh, I began to understand his anger and extremes - in one way, he was indeed a pervert, but on the other hand he saw through everything, and I really understood his rage and powerlessness. Ms. Ackerman, you're a crazy, shameless, nasty, cold-blooded group, maybe you're so powerful and complacent about it, seeing everything that is going on as a great show, but in my eyes, you're all criminals, and it's all disgusting, this freak show -- Josh, Chris, Hawke, who's next, what's next? In addition to the celebrities, you plan to continue to desecrate the law? And you him. Mom is definitely the best in the group, Ackerman, I can see from day one - you're a cold-blooded pervert, and all this spending around J.J. is making you flutter and enjoy the highlight of your life-"

"Enough!" Ackerman exclaimed, the smile on her lips finally showing a flaw, her eyes staring harshly, her nostrils slightly open, and finally showing a hideous shadow under her mask of commercial pleasure - she no longer concealed her impatience and superiority, but looked at Jon with a high, shrewd and cold look, "How dare you speak to me like that—you spoiled, stupid-"

Unlike Jon, who gushes once the levee breaks, Ackerman bursts out with a rebuke, and then suddenly takes another breath, as if to suppress all her anger, she forcibly and tremblingly puts a smile on herself again, "Jon, I understand your anger, but I'm just doing my job, and so is Jenny—one day you have to know that not all lies are malicious, sometimes they are just ...... Out of desperation, there is a reason for what exists, and whether it is true or not, the happiness you get from J.J. is also real-"

Jon looked at her mockingly, she really wanted to laugh now, "Oh, yes, 'Anyway, this knife wound does look good', does it?" ”

The smile on Ackerman's face disappeared, and she said stiffly, "Anyway, at least I won't do this to an actor I've liked for ten years, when she's still in a hospital bed—"

"You know, what's interesting is that you've been talking about Jenny, Jenny, hinting at me how much she doesn't want to be exposed," Jon interrupted her, "trying to kidnap me with emotion and the most basic empathy -- okay, then I'm going to make a quid pro quo now, I'm going to do an interview, I'm going to say what you want, and at the same time you're leaving the team, and you're no longer taking money from J.J. or Cesare, and that big shot behind you, and you tell the public about the things you've been doing behind the scenes all these years -- you can be anonymous about the actors, Focus on yourself. The one that buried J.J. completely with your confession letter -- can you do it, Ms. Ackerman? ”

Another trick failed, Ackerman's nose beaded with sweat, the delicate professional mask was crumbling, and Jon lost the mood to continue bickering with her.

"," she said calmly, "don't bother me anymore, or I'll post a video to tell me everything - don't tell me the police are going to trouble me, I inquired, two false confessions don't make a difference, and after all, it's easy to understand why I'm lying, after all, 'Anyway, this knife wound is really beautiful.'" ”

She put a double quotation mark, "Didn't you notice it before you pulled it out?" ”

Ackerman was watching her closely, chewing on her every turn and pause, judging her intentions, Jon could feel it, and her judgment was fast indeed.

"Okay, I can go." She said, striking another negotiating exchange, "My team and I won't bother you or Harry or Charles again - but you also have to give me a promise, Jon, a minimum promise, don't record that video, if you can't say anything, I understand, I can understand, it's not you who can say wrong, it's us, and I'm willing to apologize to you, so keep quiet, don't ruin everything—okay?" ”

"You don't need to apologize," said Jon, feeling the clarity of her mind, the confusion of the past days had completely faded under Ackerman's stimulus, and she suddenly saw herself, and for the first time since the incident, she knew what she was trying to do. "I know you won't mean it - and I won't give you that promise."

Ackerman's shoulders shrunk, and she stared at Jon as if she couldn't believe what she said. Jon shrugged and got up from the grass.

"I know you wanted to take the card, you asked Charles and Harry," she said, "you didn't ask me, but I can tell you that the card was destroyed, and none of us had a backup of it - it was an impulsive decision, including the next few confessions, which I guess were all contemptible inertia, and I still wanted to defend Jennifer. Jefferson, isn't it? I don't want her to be ruined by Zade. But it was you, Ms. Ackerman, it was you and your team, your so-called friends, who have been doing these few days to make me understand all of this -- in a sense, Zad is really right, and you really need some punishment. ”

She shook her head and looked at Judy with some sympathy, "You are not the real creators, Lady Ackerman, you have no power to manipulate the public, lie to everyone and get away with it all - I am carefully considering whether to tell the truth, and the only thing that holds me back is my feelings for Jennifer, although ironically, I know that she really doesn't care if it all comes to light." ”

Judy. Ackerman opened his mouth to speak, but Jon held out a finger, "Eh-eh, every word you say will deepen my resolve, so I suggest that you better keep silent for your own good, Ms. Ackerman, don't ruin everything—okay?" ”

She took a few steps back, watched Ackerman snap and close his mouth, then turned and walked towards the parking lot, picking up her pace, her heart feeling peaceful. Jon thought, "I'll turn on my computer when I get home, and record what I want to say - this one I've been thinking about in my dreams, and put an end to all the farce—and Jennifer doesn't care about it anyway, I know she really doesn't care, and in that room, even she faintly still looks forward to this, to end it all, to face all the consequences, to pay it back, and finally—to live calmly in front of everyone, and nothing to hide anymore." ”

She corrected herself again: not Jennifer, but Jenny, everything about Jennifer is a lie, and everything about Jenny-

“well。” Jon muttered to himself as he drove, "It's not useless...... Actually, she's pretty cool. ”

She pulled the car into the garage and parked it, went into the study, turned on the computer, turned on the camera, paused for a moment, trying to put together a sentence - to tell everyone everything, including her rebuttal to Jenny, and not to blame her for all this, Judy. Both Ackerman and Cesare need to be held accountable, and it may even be the unspoken rule of the industry, but in any case, this shameful deception cannot continue.

Almost out of inertia, Jon opened her browser, and the last tab popped up, automatically refreshed, and all of that was suddenly back in front of her, flooding her with a swarm of screens, her text messages, new posts on the forums, comments on Twitter—

"Jon, do you know how Jennifer's injury is? God, I want to cry these days just thinking about it. ”

"You don't know me, I know, I want to say, I'm a single mom living in Detroit with my daughter -- we had a hard time, but when I learned Jennifer's story three years ago, my life took on a new meaning, and I hope my daughter can be like Jennifer in the future. I was really shocked and uncomfortable, but I'm sure she'll get through it. You've been at a party, you've been a forum admin, god, you're really good, so if you can get in touch with her, be sure to pass on my support, she's made all the difference in my life. ”

"We should organize a Twitter vigil."

Jennifer ...... Chris...... Zadeh ...... Defeat ......"

"I'm Amanda, and this is my first time speaking, and I want to say that I'm a middle-aged mom in a small southern town, and I saw that many netizens on the forum had the same experience as me, and after that rumor letter, my church canceled the vigil I proposed, and they said that Jennifer's reputation should be questioned and that she was not a good girl. I understand everyone's pain, we all want to support Jennifer and speak for her, and so do I, and for that, my best friend and I don't talk to each other right now, and that's really hard in a small town, especially since she's your neighbor, but I hope you keep going, Jennifer will prove it, and we all know it, and we'll all recognize it - she's the best girl in the world. ”

"Every time I fall into a low ebb, I will use J.J to encourage myself, this girl faces much greater difficulties than me, but she never fails in difficulties, J.J's honesty, affinity, low-key and courage are the lights in my life, I think this is the best thing that liking an idol can bring you, she has accompanied me through every low point of mine, this time it is time for us to accompany her, stop arguing, wait quietly, feel free to hand out our support, the most important thing is to believe! Keep the faith, keep the hope, Jennifer will wake up, she will recover, I firmly believe that. ”

"We all love Jennifer......"

"Jennifer is like an angel......"

Almost instinctively, she scanned the latest comments as if she were reviewing a fragment of the commenter's life, and Jon certainly resonated with them, how could she not understand? At every low point in her, didn't she look up at Jennifer's poster, at this beautiful girl who was only three years older than her, and reminisce about her efforts and struggles - watching her videos, admiring her smile, staring at the screen and laughing silly, feeling a little happier than the previous moment - for her, Jennifer was indeed the best girl in the world, and-

She shuddered and closed the page, returned to the recording screen, stared at herself on camera, and suddenly realized exactly what the video was going to bring - just as she had just realized what she wanted to do, and only now did Jon know exactly what her people, friends, and fellow human were expecting, and what the consequences of her actions were.

Jenny deserves the price, Ackerman and her gang deserve to be spit on and punished, and she's just- she's just-

Every time I fell into a low ebb—my life took on a new meaning—ten years, more than a third of my life—I haven't slept well since that night.

“ohgod。” Jon whispered, she suddenly realized what she was thinking, and she was stunned - she looked left and right, hoping to find some revelation, "Ohmygod, God-God......"

She burst into tears, threw herself into the palm of her hand, and buried herself in front of the computer screen, hoping that God would give her a little revelation, and she couldn't help but scold herself, as if she was confessing to the silent God, "You are so hypocritical, Jon, so weak—Jesus, you are so ...... strange"

Loud, loud sobs echoed through the spacious bedroom—it didn't take long for Jon's shoulders to stop twitching, she slowly straightened up, wiped her eyes with a tissue, did a light cleaning, and turned the camera back on.

"I'm Joanna. Tate's ifer. She said, snorting again, almost blankly, "I'm the administrator of Jennifer's forum, and one of the three hostages in that incident that you know, I recorded this video to explain what happened in the house that day, I know, there are so many people who care about this, I used to make up my mind to remain silent, but I find that after all the turmoil that happened, it becomes a little impossible, as a member of Jennifer's fans, as an old friend, I have a responsibility to answer the fans' questions, Not to the media and the public, but to the brothers and sisters of the forum, to the friends who also like Jennifer......"

She paused for a moment—it was so, so hard to speak out at this moment—and Jon closed his eyes, she didn't know where she had the strength to continue, but she did it, "...... that night"