I am crazy, indeed incorrigibly crazy, and the white cloud in the sky must also be crazy, so that I want to deviate from my own trajectory and float, and throw myself into the arm of another white cloud; The shadows of the trees on the side of the street, the mottled spots of light all the way, must also be crazy, and the death that swayed with the wind will be superimposed. Lose your marbles! It's all crazy! Du Ruo shook his head, took one last look at the scenery and the flow of people on the overpass in the center of the street, and walked to the street of the Provincial Art Exhibition Hall......

The storm is coming!

The sky was first a bright and shining fish scale cloud, and then there was a cloud of fog and not fog, a large black ink cloud from the side of the mountain, a long cloud belt galloped overhead, the blazing heat and the scorching heat wave of the mountain col suddenly turned into a damp and slightly windy coolness, the distant mountains were gradually covered by the clouds, the shadows around them quickly became thicker, and only ruminant cattle and low-flying swallows were still hovering leisurely in the mountains......

Du Ruo stood quietly on the mountain road, watching the red lotus wearing a cloak and driving the cattle from the mountain road, hurriedly put a package on the mountain rock on the side of the road, and then hid behind a tree with a sigh. Look at the red lotus coming to the front in a broken step, waving the bullwhip in a foreign manner, and there is still no sign of going over to get the package after half a day. Du Ruo suddenly felt ashamed, disheartened and walked out from behind the tree, looking at the red lotus humming a little song leisurely, walking past the package as if nothing had happened, and the slender body like a willow disappeared on the side of the mountain. Du Ruo was even more ashamed and indignant, swallowed his anger and took back the package, and unconsciously sat on the mountain rock again, a kind of self-blame for regret and a kind of helplessness that made him fall into deep pain again......

For nearly a month, Du Ruo came to this col almost every day, sometimes when the morning sun sprinkled countless lights and shadows from the high cliffs, the green carpet-like plains and dewdrops shone mottled in the shallow grass by the stream and the high places of the cypress on the bank, and the red lotus walked out of her low house with a basin of clothes, and left the little sisters who were chirping like a herd of in a gloomy manner, squatting down at the end of the stream far away, and her smile like a summer cuckoo could not be seen on the golden water. Sometimes when the sun sets over the towering peaks in the west, and the sunset dyes the mouth of the pass red, and the red lotus drives the cattle into the door of her own well-lit house, and the calf that is like a mountain eagle scattering joy cannot elicit her low smile, like an old cow that has taken off the reins and refuses to return to the pen cannot make her laugh as crisp as a silver bell. Du Ruo's heart was like thousands of steel knives rolling at this time, who was like him, half of his body was lying in the coffin, he had been looking forward to half his life, and he had finally looked forward to the marriage, only because of his rashness and stupidity, like rashly crushing a small flower, stupidly trampling on a small grass, crushing her girl's self-esteem, trampling on her girl's delicateness, and also turning all her dreams into powder. The back of Wanghonglian disappeared after she walked into the door, and the reckless peaks of the mountains were quiet and solemn after the clouds faded, and the cool and fresh scent of wild grass happily went straight to the nose.

Du Ruo suddenly felt that the most solemn emotion and the most vivid love came out of his chest.

Later, he rummaged through all the philosophical, aesthetic and psychological works at hand, and wrote more than a dozen enthusiastic and sworn letters to Honglian, but Honglian was still like a mud cow into the sea, and all his perfect enthusiasm was not reciprocated. If Du wants to get rid of the confinement of the wild moon in the mountains, pursue the urban lifestyle and material civilization, and be ready to give up the low-level enjoyment for the sake of high-level enjoyment, he must avoid the temptation of the surname, suppress the impulse of the surname, and exchange it with great mental effort, because human life is limited, and man's energy is not inexhaustible; It is said that love is the most tender state of mind and the most vulgar surname desire are mutually expressed, and the psychological love and physical satisfaction between lovers are the only moral standards for measuring love. The reason why Du Ruo confessed and couldn't help himself, and had a momentary physiological impulse, was the result of the accumulation of emotions in the long years of waiting, and it was the instantaneous beauty and love that caused the psychological diaphragm of the two surnames to be extinguished in the sense of knowledge and the freedom of action that was bred in a daze. Du Ruo talked about love for the first time, and within a few days of acquaintance, he had a physiological desire, which is incomprehensible, making people feel misbehaving, vulgar and boring, but who can be indifferent in front of the gentle trembling in the soul of the lover who suddenly plucked the heartstrings at the first love, and who cares about the worldly public opinion, afraid of the resistance of customs, and regards surname love as humiliated and humiliated, not embarrassed to treat surname love as a humiliated and humiliated thing, not embarrassed and not embarrassed, and nervous self-restraint, nervous and cold sweat. Therefore, please Honglian must believe in him and give him another chance, so that he can repent and reform himself and become a new person.

Du Ruo believes that their consideration of various selfish factors such as tickets, face, and position in addition to love, and is purely based on the common aesthetics and values of both parties, and love with lofty ideals and moral freedom will be the basis for beautiful love. The red lotus snow looks beautiful and beautiful, and it is beautiful in the face of nature; Du Ruo's moral articles, dignified appearance, and the beauty of the soul that integrates traditional virtues must be the evergreen tree of love, the flower of love, and the fruit of love. Who knows that the head of the red lotus elm ignores Du Ruo's logical and inevitable surname of the reality of love.

Du Ruo was sad, disappointed, and depressed. On a dying evening after dusk and the beginning of the lonely people, Du Ruo complained that Huang Ying'er was against Huang Ying'er and hated the pink butterflies in pairs, so he watched Hong Kong films to pass the unbearable time. Look at the Hong Kong brother and sister on TV who love the dark and surprisingly sincere and romantic, Du Ruo suddenly empowered and repented: it turns out that love is not only the beauty of visual perception and the aesthetic pleasure in the depths of the soul, it also needs some contradictions and barriers outside the reason, the Buddha said, 'Thirty-three days, the highest hatred from the sky, four hundred and four diseases, lovesickness is the most bitter,' once the satisfaction of ** is too easy, it will not have any beauty value at all, to make the passion of love undiminished, the flame of love will not be extinguished, and some surnames will not run in, Some customary resistance is essential. Red Lotus is dignified and pretty, smart and beautiful, a high school student with a surname and culture, the first kiss of the girl's holiness was roughly enjoyed by him, and the hazy longing for love at the beginning of a girl's love was also broken by him all at once. In the psychology of love, it is said that the kiss of the first love should be purely platonic, the embodiment of the spiritual union and connection of the lover, the intoxication of beautiful feelings and the enjoyment of pure virginity consciousness. Marx even made it clear that true love is manifested in the lover's subtle, humble and even shy attitude towards his idol, and it is by no means manifested in the casual expression of love and premature intimacy. Such sins, such shortcomings, can not be compensated for by a mere few hundred yuan, and can not be compensated by one or two obscure love letters? If Du Ruo is also like Brother Hong Kong on TV, buying some items that symbolize love and books symbolizing erudition and giving them to Red Lotus, what about the situation, after all, the enthusiasm in words and the excitement in action will only give people a false and frivolous feeling, and the most sincere words are accompanied by the most sincere actions, then all emotions will be perfect.

Du Ruo was smug for several days and never tired of it. Later, Du Ruo really searched for dry intestines, exhausted his efforts, and bought items and books for Honglian that were enough to show his elegance and knowledge, who knew that Honglian was like a god with an iron heart. Du Ruo sent the package to her from the post office, but she refused to pick it up; The Duruto people gave her the package, and she said that she had never known a man named Duruo; Du Ruo put the package on her way home like today, and gave her the noodles, but she walked by the package generously as if she didn't see it, deliberately shouting at the herd......

Du Ruo walked out of the bushes, the col was completely darkened, and there was a rumbling thunder from far and near, a strong light shone over the trees, and the dazzling lightning dragged a long band of light across the branches of the trees and disappeared. Du Ruo hurriedly picked up the package and walked under the tree, and saw the red lotus driving the cattle like a stranger, ignoring everything about him. Du Ruo drooped his head even more in frustration, suddenly stumbled under his feet, and squatted on the ground with a buttocks. Du Ruo smiled lazily, and fell into deep remorse with a smile that was more ugly than crying......

"Hey, let me tell you, when it's raining and thundering, you can't sit under a big tree, you'll be electrocuted!"

Du Ruo was startled, hurriedly raised his head, and at some point, the red lotus was already standing in front of him, Du Ruo smiled, a trace of panic flashed in his dull and godless eyes, and he quickly stood up.

Honglian pursed her lips and quietly took off the cloak she was draping on her body and put it on Du Ruo's shoulders, "Look at you, the wind and rain are blowing, why bother, I said no, you have to be like this, accept your things, and your heart will be comfortable!" ”

Du Ruo was stunned, hurriedly swept the red lotus with eager and anxious eyes, couldn't help but laugh at himself, and followed the red lotus to the open grass on the hillside, "Hey, red lotus, what have you been busy with lately?" Why don't you reply to all the letters I have written to you? ”

Honglian smiled lightly, raised her hand to wipe away the sweat sticking to her forehead with her sleeve, and squinted at Du Ruo, "Tell me yourself, how much do you know about me, and what you said to me, a few of them are your own, copy the book, and you won't be ashamed!" ”

Du Ruo let out an "ah", a sense of relief suddenly appeared between his eyebrows, he walked a few steps happily, and a fluttering feeling filled his body, "You guy, you have an opinion about me, you won't write a letter to say it, and you're a high school student, so you can't even write a letter?" ”

Honglian smiled indifferently, pouted her lips irrationally, and kicked a stone protruding on the grass with her foot, "Hey, let me tell you, don't write to me again in the future, many people in the wall are muttering jokes behind their backs, I'm still young, others are still in school and studying at my age, I can't understand the emotional life you said for a while, and it's impossible to say it's impossible, why bother!" ”

Du Ruo suddenly looked stunned as if he had been knocked out by someone, and suddenly he was poured cold water on his head, and the little joy that had just emerged was also washed away. Look at the red lotus with her head lowered, a few wisps of contrived indifference spreading on her face, while kicking the tree with her foot, intentionally or unintentionally. Du Ruo hurriedly stepped in front of Red Lotus, with an eager look that didn't believe that what Red Lotus said would be true, and looked straight at Red Lotus's endearing and dodgy eyes.

Honglian sighed slightly, her heart fluttered with fright, and she subconsciously took a step back, "Please don't do this, why do you have to be ashamed to catch ducks on the shelves, it's embarrassing for others, you don't need to beat the drum frequently, you still have to respect me!" ”

"I don't respect you anymore?" Du Ruo gasped, a desperate and unwilling look suddenly rose on his face, he grabbed Honglian's thin shoulder, his eyes flashed with a fierce and cruel cold light, "Honglian, you are too off-board, you say, when did I disrespect you!" ”

Honglian grinned her lips in pain, her heart was like a burst of stiffness that had been subdued all of a sudden, and she hurriedly used her hand to pull Du Ruo's firmly clenched hand to see if it didn't work, and twisted her body angrily, Suo let Du Ruo grasp it, and raised her head fearlessly, and a few traces of perseverance flashed in her eyes from time to time.

"Red Lotus, you have a calm conscience, stretch out your tongue and say, why is this!"

"You let go first!" Honglian looked at Du Ruo calmly, stretched out her hand to wipe away a layer of cold sweat oozing from her forehead, and saw Du Ruo throw away her hand indignantly, her pale face turned into a piece of love after a moment of contempt and indifference, and then sighed with a lot of contradictions, "Why do you have to be like this, you are a scholar, you should always know that the twisted melon is not sweet, I don't blame you for everything you have done to me, you are a very talented young man, don't worry about the road ahead without a friend, within ten steps, there must be fragrant grass, within a hundred zhang, there must be Xie Niang, why rush for a while, I don't climb high, I still want to go out to work, I'm not as good as you say, I only hate myself......" Honglian said this, and suddenly felt a desolation in her heart, a tidal teardrop clouded her eyes, she hurriedly closed her lips, twisted her face to the side, and tried her best not to let the tears roll down her eyelids.

Du Ruo's mind was extremely confused in an instant, under the double pressure of extreme frustration and heart-wrenching remorse, the words in his stomach were suffocated and had nowhere to say, he couldn't help but sigh weakly, and walked slowly in front of the red lotus, and saw that the red lotus's flowing hair was scattered behind the head by the top of the hat, the delicate and transparent body was tied up by the shabby and short clothes, and the beautiful cheeks were also due to the blazing rain in the mountains due to adulthood. Du Ruo remembered that a book said: Women are like delicate roses, and soon after the flowers bloom, they wither in a blink of an eye. The red lotus is like a small grass on a precipice, struggling in the wind and rain, and more like a small flower that is about to abandon the branches. And the outside world is wonderful, where all the cultural achievements of human beings are concentrated, there are endless paradises, there are endless fashions, and there are endless city scenery. And all this is expected for Red Lotus, that is, as long as Red Lotus can make a promise to him, not dislike his infamy, drift away for half a life, and completely attach her pure heart of a girl to Du Ruo, build a love nest with Du Ruo, and build a happy home with husbands and wives, Du Ruo will be able to be affectionate because of Red Lotus, raise his favorite hope again, and run quickly towards his most brilliant dream. And Honglian can also be the happiest bride because of Du Ruo's share of the pie, and live the most carefree and prosperous city life for the rest of her life, which is no better than staying in an ignorant and destitute mountain village, marrying a stupid man, planting a little thin land, giving birth to several sons, and wrapping a few rags in a piece of clothing to wrap up most of her life in the mountains......

Du Ruo's thoughts fluctuated for a while, and he was full of emotion, and thousands of words were blocked in his throat. Look at Honglian's cold face pretending to be free and easy with a hint of smile, the stagnant eyes reveal two sorrows, a few wisps of pretended arrogance linger on the eyebrows, completely cold and innocent, and the mood is so naked in an instant, so undisguised complaining, and a living state of wanting to cover up. Du Ruo's soul was blessed for a while, and the tension that had been troubled for a long time immediately relaxed, and a kind of pity from the bottom of his heart made him reach out his hand without feeling the mixture of love and hate, and grabbed the slender waist branch of the red lotus.

Honglian was slightly stunned, struggled in vain for a while, then turned around and lay on Du Ruo's shoulder, trying her best not to let the tears fall in her eyes, and then gushing out like a mountain spring, her whole body involuntarily trembled gently in Du Ruo's arms.

"Red Lotus, dear, you should believe me, I love you, I'm almost thirty years old, "Zhou Li" said, "Thirty men, twenty daughters, and marriage together", I will be like a hairy young man who just wants to get a little cheap on you and sprinkle some hooliganism. Do you remember, the day we first met, I wanted to love you when I saw you, and I wanted to get you in every possible way. Do you really think I'm so cheap, beating a single person without virtue and no action, just invite girls to my bedroom to play, I'm not picking up rags, you don't believe it, hum, if your brother has always been above the sky, the average girl still takes the flowers and lazy to look back. Think about it, you are so beautiful, a delicate and beautiful lotus, cultured, and virtuous, last time in your house, the egg drop water tofu you made was really delicious, I almost got drunk, and my little sister called me if my brother. What about you, you've always been oops, I'm not surnamed hey, and I'm still laughing, this time it's a little more enjoyable, but you ignore people for a month, and you don't know each other, so you have to be ruthless. Let me see if your heart is made of stone, and you frown. Red Lotus, you can't be a little kind to me, a little gentle, the girls in the city kiss with their eyes closed. You can't just learn a little bit. I really don't understand, what good is it for you to be so stubborn and can't pull eight ropes. If your brother is full of poetry and books, full of wealth, the reason why he lives in the mountains like a dog, can't get love and is not loved, and even you look down on me, is not because we are from the mountains, cheap, with black nails, and you, not like me, are not from the mountains, I still have more money to buy grain in the city than you, and if you marry me, it is equivalent to leaving the countryside for the rest of your life. You are really willing to be a mountain village woman for a lifetime like your mother, so don't you read all the books in your more than ten years to the cow's asshole. Don't be upset, I'm all about your good. Look at yourself, you're only in your early twenties this year, and this is the same age as Huaxin in the city, and it's an ingenious way to decorate and dress up, and it's to catch up with fashion and go to a beauty salon. Don't be upset, I'm all about your good. Look at yourself, you're only in your early twenties this year, and this is the same age as Huaxin in the city, it's a time to decorate and dress up in a unique way, to catch up with fashion, go to the beauty salon, and try to show off your physical beauty. As for you, you don't have a single piece of good clothes, you don't have a single piece of gold jewelry, your face is tanned, and the wrinkles at the corners of your eyes are similar to those of an old woman who is almost thirty years old in the city. Red Lotus, you should also be realistic, put your pillow higher when you sleep at night, don't always think about the shortcomings of others, but also think about your own shortcomings. If it weren't for the fact that rats have holes and sparrows have nests, I really want to have a home now, and I want to have a gentle, kind, and virtuous wife. Where are you going, don't go, listen to me finish speaking, since you don't like to listen to it so much, I will ask for my surname to say it clearly. Aren't we all people in the mountains, aren't we all begging for a life in this mountain, as the saying goes: people are not close to the soil, the mountains are not good and the water is good, why can't we be happy with each other and love each other. Since I don't dislike you, I don't dislike your rural household registration, and your family is poor, then why do you need to dislike me. Don't you know what it means for a man to go high and water to a low place? No matter how bad I am, I'm better than your classmates in the mountains facing the loess with their backs to the sky! ”

"Enough!" Red Lotus turned around suddenly, her face changed, and a burst of fury covered her like a dark cloud, making her eyes dark, and she stood there pitifully, like a small grass struggling in the storm, as if her whole body was about to collapse, she tried her best not to let tears roll out of the corners of her eyes, this humiliation caused by sympathy and naivety made her bitterly disgusted with herself, "You have insulted me enough, please return the clothes to me, I'm sorry, I still have something!" ”

"I insulted you?" Du Ruo couldn't believe his eyes for a while, after a moment of stiffness, as if someone had viciously stuck his neck, an indescribable anger quickly rose in his chest, he grabbed Honglian's shoulder, his eyes seemed to erupt fire, and he glared at Honglian with a fearless sharp gaze, "You say, where did I insult you?" ”

Honglian was startled, hurriedly retreated a step, her eyes were still palpitating and looking at Du Ruo, the floodgates of feelings that had been controlled in her heart, at this time, she was suddenly broken by the surging tide of love, a chill that she had never felt before, countless sadness and grievances all came to her heart, and she fell into hysteria with sadness and resentment, "You can, you are ruthless, you have a kind, you will bully me, you go to find your city beauty, I am ugly, my nails are black, I have read all the books to the cow's asshole, my rural household registration, My family is poor, and I will stay in the countryside for the rest of my life like my mother, okay? ”

Du Ruo suddenly felt angry in his head, and looked at Honglian screaming as if she was crazy, her eyes radiated a terrifying viciousness, her lovely facial features were crowded together, and her jade-like white neck was covered with a layer of cyan veins, which looked like she was going to eat people, indescribably hideous and ugly. Du Ruo finally couldn't bear it anymore, and a long-standing violent anger rushed from his heart, causing him to raise his hand and slap Honglian's face full of tears and sweat.

The red lotus was caught off guard, her teeth bared and she was stunned like wood, her crying stopped abruptly, and a wisp of desolation quickly rose to the corner of her mouth. After that, she struggled to break free, reached out to wipe away the stained tears on her face, looked at Du Ruo with a hateful and mournful look unusually calmly, turned her back and ran out of the wild grass where the wind was still very strong on the side of the mountain......

"Red Lotus—"

The storm is finally here. Boom and thunder, pouring raindrops swept all over the mountains, the trees on the slopes of the mountain, the grass on the side of the stream suddenly twisted and rolled up, the wind and sand rolled up the fallen leaves in all directions, the split surface gave people a kind of pinprick-like chill, the dense rain feet made the cows on the mountain side moo in panic, the noise of birds and birds in the forest, suddenly faded away, and the bright signal lights on the line were only a mess of chaos. The raindrops became denser and denser, the wind became tighter and tighter, and the heavens and the earth were suddenly in a sea of water and vapor......

"Red Lotus, the train is coming-, watch out for the cows-"

Du Ruo was stupid for a while, looking at the staggering figure of the red lotus in the dense rain curtain at the foot of the mountain, there was only a blurry black dot, and the whistle of the train in the distance was about to pass through the section, and then it suddenly sounded, and the thunder above his head also exploded more violently at this time, and the lightning came again and again. The herd, which had been panicked for a long time, was frightened by the thunder and lightning and the whistle, and then they were like wild horses that had escaped their reins, and scattered all over the hillside......

Du Ruo was startled, hurriedly put his coat on his head, and ran to the foot of the mountain in one breath, and saw Honglian having fallen on the roadbed covered in water and mud, holding a cow rope tightly with both hands. A sturdy bull was holding its feet against the tracks, its bloodshot eyes full of terror and rage, and its mouth was mooing from time to time.

Du Ruo was taken aback, and a wave of incomparably terrifying emotions frantically passed through his mind, seeing that the train was approaching the mountain pass, and the strong cluster lights illuminated the line all around. Du Ruo hurriedly rushed to the roadbed and pushed the red lotus away. The bull suddenly lost his restraint, straightened his legs, and stood up, but when he saw the lights of the train coming from the splitting face, his legs were weak again, and he bent his head under his armpits in panic, and lay down on the tracks again.

Du Ruo was angry and anxious for a while, and his heart almost jumped to his throat......

Red Lotus screamed "Ah", and hugged Du Ruo from behind, pressing her face against Du Ruo's back as if she was living and dying together, and her frightened eyes were filled with excitement and remorse.

Du Ruo was shocked as if he had been struck by lightning, and he grabbed the red lotus with his backhand in confusion, and after a moment of ambiguity and despair, he suddenly became wise in a hurry, grabbed the tail of the bull tightly clamped, and while holding the lighter, the tail of the ox was firmly poked in the windshield of the lighter. The bull was in pain, mooed wildly, and suddenly opened its hind legs and jumped down the roadbed like a gust of wind. Du Ruo was kicked in the chest by the bull's jumping hind legs, and the huge tension made him involuntarily tumble a few times, and he also rolled down the roadbed with the red lotus. Looking at the steel dragon that whistled past a few seconds, Du Ruo breathed a sigh of relief, a violent dizziness made him fall to the ground, and saw that the red lotus fell a few meters away and then stumbled towards him, his face was full of love and grief, Du Ruo suddenly felt an unprecedented satisfaction and a kind of exhaustion that blended extreme joy, like a misty dark cloud attacking him, he actually closed his eyes and fainted...... (To be continued.) )