"yes, it doesn't matter"

"She still doesn't know you too well." Lin Ran didn't speak loudly, "I know you won't handle these relationships, it's okay, I'll help you deal with it, Wang Liuliu, believe it or not, as long as I'm next to you now, no woman can enter your life." Including her. Not to mention. The two of you weren't a good fit either. ”

"No, you're being unreasonable."

"I can't be reasonable with you, and with you, I have to be domineering in this regard." Lin Ran smiled at me, "Don't say you don't have me in your heart." You just don't want to accept me. Actually, you still love me, and you care about me a lot. You can not admit it yourself, it doesn't matter, I'll wait for you, we're not children anymore, and we've all experienced so much together, my previous life was indeed a little depraved, but that's not what I wanted, I'm like that, you are also responsible, but you are no better than me, you are still falling, in fact, now it's okay, these relationships around you are all cleared, the relationship between you and Tutu is not feelings, not love, just a mutual dependence, you are just lonely and need a woman to accompany you. You also know it in your heart, so I will be by your side very quietly, and I will not find anyone to stimulate you, because through Shaochen's incident, I found out that I want to stimulate you, but it is not you who stimulates, but myself. Why should I bother, it's better to tell you everything, make it clear, but you can't mess around anymore, I won't allow other women to appear in your world, you should think about it, the ups and downs of the two of us for so many years, you should think about it, who is the girl who knows you best and is the most suitable for you, you should think about it, everything I have done for you for so long, you should think about it, whether you are right about me, you should think about it, I Lin Ran, is there a little bit of unworthiness of you, You should think about it, what is there in your heart that can't accept me again, besides, are there fewer girls you've touched? I have always been a girl who is extremely willful and stubborn to death, and I believe that the two of us are the most suitable, because in this world now, no one will always wait for you except me, and no one will always love you. Including the sunset, and, warm. Then Lin Ran looked up and smiled, "Did you say yes?" ”

I was speechless by Lin Ran, and speechless by Lin Ran. looked at Lin Ran blankly.

Lin Ran looked at me and stopped talking, smiled, and kissed my lips, "I'm going to take a bath." I'm tired today. You think about it," Lin Ran got out of bed after finishing speaking, and went into the bathroom.

I sat on the bed in a daze, picked up a cigarette, and fell into a habitual confusion, thinking about myself six or seven years ago, the eleven-year-old me, thinking about the present, thinking about all these things I have experienced. Some couldn't believe it. With my eyes closed, a feeling of tiredness swept over my body. When Lin Ran came out of the shower, he sat next to me and lay down without clothes.

I got up and went to take a shower as well. Lying on the bed, I don't know what to say, to be honest, I really feel sorry for the girl in front of me, so many years, I will never give up. She's right, I'll never meet a girl who loves me so much. I'll never meet a girl who is so willing to follow me again. I reached out and hugged Lin Ran, and Lin Ran buried his head in my arms. A faint sentence "What a familiar feeling." ”

I'm feeling a little uncomfortable. This is, after all, the first woman in my life, my first love. After all these years, she is still by my side. Thinking about what happened to her over the years, her good family was ruined, her mother who gave birth to her and raised her left her, her father was nowhere to be found, and she was hiding from debts. Such a thin girl, alone, so young and young, her face is often filled with a smile that doesn't matter what matters, in fact, how uncomfortable her heart is, only she knows, and she doesn't know how she survived these days. All of a sudden, I felt unusually uncomfortable, and I felt that I was too inhuman. didn't make any excuses for himself, didn't make any excuses for himself, just reached out and just hugged Lin Ran and kissed her forehead. Gradually, I heard Lin Ran's sobbing voice. It's a little depressed, I didn't stop it, cry, I have too much in my heart. It's time to vent out.

hugged Lin Ran tightly and slept all night. When I opened my eyes, the sun was hanging high, and I was full of energy, and I felt so comfortable that I had a good night's sleep.

I cleaned up with Lin Ran, looked at the time, it was more than eleven o'clock, it was almost twelve o'clock, and I went downstairs to eat.

Keep driving and go home.

At about five o'clock in the evening, the familiar small county town appeared again, I haven't been home for a year, very kind, the heart is super excited and difficult to express in words, and this time I came back, or drove back, my heart is still a little proud of the little show-off, rolled down the car window, all the way straight, almost to our house, I suddenly stopped the car, it was so excited, too excited.

Lin Ran looked at me from the side, "What are you doing, you, why did you park, could it be that your house has arrived." ”

I ignored Lin Ran, pulled the handbrake, got out of the car, and ran to the side of the road. Sniffed hard. I felt quite comfortable, and I made a "Ah~~" sound.

Lin Ran followed me out of the car, looking at my behavior, obviously very incomprehensible, and even a little surprised, "What are you doing?" ”

I looked at Lin Ran, shook my head very deeply, "You don't understand" and sniffed again, "Ah, this feels so good." ”

At this time, an old lady appeared next to me and said slowly, "Young man, are you alright?" ”

I turned my head, and then I saw this old lady, hunched over, very low, and there was a little poodle around the old lady.

I smiled, feeling quite comfortable, "Hello grandma." ”

The old lady stretched out her finger and said, "The one you are holding in your hand, does it smell good?" ”

I nodded vigorously, "It smells good, it has to smell good." ”

The old lady was a little surprised: "What you said is true. ”

"yes, either you smell it too, it feels so good to be home. Even the sand smells of home."

When the old lady heard it, "Can this thing smell home?" ”

"yes, you can ask too." I held the sand and stretched out my face to the old lady, "Do you smell it?" ”

The old lady shook her head, "I really don't smell home." ”

I sighed and said solemnly, "You won't understand, I haven't been back for more than a year." Now that I'm back, I really like the feeling, the taste. ”

The old lady looked at me suspiciously, leaned her nose over again, sniffed it, and then reached out and slapped her nose in front of her, "I still only smell the urine of our family, and I don't smell any home." When she had finished speaking, the old lady looked at me, turned and left.

The puppy behind him shouted twice, and followed the old lady to the side.

I suddenly felt bad, and looked around carefully, only the handful of sand I was holding in my hand was wet, and the sand around me was all dried by the sun, all of which were sand-colored, and only I was wet. I sniffed it carefully, then threw the sand from my hand to the ground, and then hurried to the sand pile and rubbed my hands vigorously.

"Haha" Lin Ran laughed very exaggeratedly on the side, leaning back and forth.

I was fucking depressed and ran to the side stall again. I bought two bottles of mineral water, poured it hard, washed it, felt that it still smelled after washing, and ran to the commissary, bought a piece of soap, rubbed hard, rubbed hard, and bought mineral water, washed hard. The uncle who sold the water was blinded, "Young man, what's the matter, why are you washing your hands so desperately?" ”

I ignored him. Lin Ran's tears of laughter came out, and he had already reached the ground, and he didn't forget to reach out and pick up a handful of sand, "Ah, the smell of home" and then laughed again "haha".

I originally planned to go home directly, but Lin Ran resolutely refused to do it, and strongly asked me to take her to a big shopping mall on our side, in the mall, Moutai, Wuliangye, Zhonghua, bird's nest, all kinds of things, take them at once.

I was pushing the cart on the side, looking at Lin Ran, "You won the lottery?" ”

Lin Ran ignored me and continued to take things.

"Hey, I said did you win the lottery secretly, if so, in addition to taxes, there are still four million, you see that I have followed you for so many years, you can give me one million." Lin Ran ignored me and continued to take things, taking a lot.

"Today's supermarket won't be without money, it shouldn't be, even if it doesn't need money, I don't know how you know. That's not right."

"Okay, you." Lin Ran scolded me, and then continued to pick out things, after buying so many food and supplements, he went to the gold jewelry counter and bought a white gold necklace, plus a pendant.

"Fuck, you're really hairy. I said, sisters, what are you going to do?"

"Buy something for your mom. And your dad."

"Holy shit, you don't need to do that much, you're crazy."

"You don't care."

"No, I really don't need to."

"Less nonsense." Lin Ran said to me, "You stay on the side, don't talk nonsense." Just help carry things for a while. ”

I sighed, "I thought you were really rich, sister, it's not easy for us to make some money, don't you invest blindly." What if there is no return on the investment?"

Lin Ran turned his head and looked at me fiercely, "Can you not speak, is that your mother or my mother." ”

"Didn't I want you to spend money indiscriminately?"

"Go aside. Before you talk about others, think about yourself, and besides, do I call this indiscriminate spending? Look at your parents, how can you be afraid of spending money"

"That's my mom. My dad. ”

Lin Ran turned his head and glared at me fiercely.