Chapter 339: Unbearable Past
Liu Yuxuan pondered for a moment, his eyes burned, and he looked at Xiao Yu and said, "So, now and in the future, you have to steal time to teach me how to learn how to speak, walk, and so on!" If you, the master, are dedicated, and I, the apprentice, are smart and studious, do you still need to worry about the fact that this phoenix is difficult to distinguish between male and female? ”
Xiao Yu knew that he had made up his mind, and now he had no choice but to harden his head and teach him by hand.
After about half an hour, the two of them returned to the front hall one after the other.
That Gao Zhixiang had been waiting impatiently, and when he saw the two of them coming in front and back, he hurriedly got up to look, and was immediately stunned, and shouted loudly: "It turns out that the young master has long been on this precaution, and I don't know when and where to find such a peerless beauty!" ”
Liu Yuxuan secretly sighed, knowing that he could already deceive the world.
After successfully entering the palace, he didn't expect that Chen Deyong would make a hindrance from it, so that he didn't have the opportunity to see Chen Yu and was demoted to the Huanyi room.
All kinds of hardships have made him form a deep friendship with Na Xiaohua and Yu Feiyan successively, and he has also strengthened his determination to be unwilling to kill them all in the future.
As for the re-marriage and entanglement with Chen Xinrou in the future, it made me have to secretly have a deep love for her, which is unforgettable.
After he deceived Chen Yu's trust step by step and obtained all the rights of the forbidden military camp and the shadow camp, Liu Ziang secretly sent someone to send an order, when, where and how to enter the palace, and settle the grievances with Da Chen.
He was carried out in full accordance with his requirements and deployment.
And that night, Liu Ziang, who he had always trusted and worshipped. actually defected, crossed the river and demolished the bridge, and denounced himself as an illegitimate child. Do your best to show feelings of disgust and hatred for yourself.
At that moment, how disheartened I was, and I just wanted to die.
Now, after all these past came to his mind, he gradually woke up.
It turned out that Liu Ziang hated the status of his royal brother's only bloodline, and what he hated even more was the humble fact that he was just an outcast.
No wonder. For more than ten years, he has been so hateful and hateful to himself. It's no wonder that he ended up choosing to fake his identity. Instead of himself, he ascended to the high position of imperial power.
How can a person who has been resentful for more than 20 years be grateful for the kindness of his adoptive parents? This feeling of inferiority, which has long been in the bone marrow, has instigated him to become a terrible person with an extremely twisted heart.
Then, he is regarded as a thorn in his side. A thorn in one's flesh. Single-mindedly trying to force himself to become a ruthless and unrighteous villain, at this moment, there is the most reasonable reason.
Just imagine, a person with a noble status has become a villain who steals the country and kills the king. And another extremely humble person ascended to the high position of imperial power and became the proud son of heaven who reigned over the world. This extreme contrast can not make him want to ask for it. Do you want it all the time?
Liu Yuxuan thought of this, and his teeth were already creaking from his own bite. The lips have long been bitten and the flesh is blurred.
"How could I have hope for such a person, thinking that I would forget my hatred and go into hiding, so as to achieve the peace and contentment of the people? I'm so stupid! How can a villain like him be compassionate and benevolent to create an enlightened and prosperous world for the people? ”
Liu Yuxuan staggered to his feet, stretched out his hand to support his rumbling head, only to feel that his past self was really simple and stupid and ridiculous.
In the blur of tears, he thought of Du Chunxiao and Chen Xinrou again.
A person who devoted himself to himself and loved herself from beginning to end, but he ruthlessly abandoned her, killed her father, and became her father's enemy.
A woman who is consistent with herself and loves herself wholeheartedly, but she killed her brother, destroyed her country, and made her a princess of the dead country!
What a ruthless person am I?
He was full of remorse, and his heart was like ten thousand steel knives constantly cutting and stabbing.
"Xiao'er, you're really right. When I regained my memory, I really didn't want to die! ”
Tears welled up in the corners of his eyes, his hands were already firmly on the table, and his body was shaking.
He recalled the tragic scene of that night, Xiao Yu looked at his affectionate gaze before he died, and Fan Nianyu looked back at his attachment to himself before he was pulled away.
It turns out that the self-righteous self is actually the happiest person in the world. But he personally destroyed all these original extreme happiness.
Du Chunxiao hated himself to the core, and Chen Xinrou was afraid that she hated herself.
Xiaoyu gave his life for himself, and Fan Nianyu was taken hostage for himself. These women love themselves wholeheartedly, but they all become unfortunate people in the world because of themselves!
Liu Yuxuan only felt that the sky was spinning, and the rumbling thunder in his head continued to sound, making it difficult for him to withstand such a violent blow, and he fell to the ground and fainted in one fell to the ground.
Seeing this, a dark shadow outside the window hurriedly flew in, reaching out and holding it tightly into his arms.
"Yu Xuan, Yu Xuan! Wake up! ”
Liu Yuxuan's ears kept coming from a familiar call, making him gradually wake up from a blur.
He opened his sour eyes vigorously, but in his sight, it was Tiange's delicate little face.
"Sweet song! You...... It's finally here! ”
Hearing Liu Yuxuan's weak cry, Tiange was overjoyed for a moment, nodded hurriedly, and said with a tearful smile: "Yuxuan, have you finally recovered your memory?" Do you really remember who I am? ”
Liu Yuxuan struggled to get up and sat down on the chair with the help of Tiange.
He hung his head, tears streaming down his eyes.
"Although I have completely remembered the beginning, I am worse than dead because of this!"
"Nonsense! After all, the past is gone, and even if it hurts or is sweet, it can't be touched or seen. Why do you have to worry about being sad? Instead of hurting yourself like this, it is better to learn a lesson, take pity on the person in front of you, and start over! ”
Hearing Tiange's slightly angry words, Liu Yuxuan's heart slipped like a bolt of lightning, which provoked him to shiver all over his body.
"Yes, I've lived for nothing for nineteen years. After all this, instead of learning a lesson, I got lost and didn't know what the road ahead was! If I change my heart because of this, and become ruthless and unrighteous, wouldn't I be like that Liu Ziang and fulfill his wishes? Or am I depressed and decadent because of this, and I have become self-defeating, wouldn't I have lost my life and failed my parents' expectations? Today, it's really a shame that Tiange arrived in time, so that I can see the sun and be clear-minded. (To be continued.) )