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"Six taels, I love you, I really love you, I love you more than myself. I gave up everything and went back to look for you, but I saw you and Cao Youmeng hugging there, and helping her wipe her tears. All my fantasies were overwhelmed at that time. When I inquired about you after I separated from you, I knew that the man I loved would definitely attract a lot of girls to like, and I know you, you can only have a girlfriend, you will not be abusive, you will not be ambiguous, as simple as ever, like a blank piece of paper, white only a bright smile on the cheeks. ”

"So I went to persuade Qin Lan, I want to go to the company with her to help you, I want to stay by your side and take care of you as a different kind of girlfriend, because I don't want to lose you, because the love in my heart has never been forked, and this love has always told me that my heart belongs to a man named Zhang Liuliang!"

"Liuliang, maybe you are still doubting and wondering when you see this, why do I have to tell you so much about the past, but not explain what I am going to do, where am I going? Please allow me to kiss you first, because I know you will shed tears, I know that you may have thousands of thoughts and thousands of curiosity at this time, but you want to ask, to find out what is wrong with me, so I ask you to be patient, I ask you to continue reading, because this letter is written by my heart, it is all the proof that I love you, the first man I have ever loved in my life, and it is also the last man that I have loved all my life, and it is the man I have been desperately caring for all my life! ”

"Six taels, what do you say is a woman's greatest happiness? Is it to form a family with a man who loves each other, have a pair of children, and teach each other husband and children? I think this is the most fantasical thing for a woman like me, I love you as much as you love me. So I want to give you a baby, what to call it, let's both name them together, and then watch them grow up. But I ignore that there is sickness in the world, and this kind of thing will take away the dreams of me, a sentient being. I am very sad, I can't give you a baby, because this disease I have has deprived me of my reproductive rights, and the deprivation of reproductive rights is not over, it is going to deprive me of my life. I went to the hospital many times, all quietly, but the result was destroying me again and again, I was helpless, countless times I hid in my own room, covered with a quilt to tell my unwillingness, I scolded fate for the injustice to me, but I still have to accept the fact that the level of medicine is not enough to save a woman with terminal uterine cancer. So I can only make myself happy with a good mood, and let myself really live as a normal person. ”

"Liuliang, do you understand what I wrote? If you understand, don't cry, really don't cry, because I've cried countless times by now. I remember you saying you like my eyes, I remember you saying you love my dimples, I want to always carry dimples, with natural dimples to make you look beautiful, to make you laugh silly, to make you hum brightly your happiness. So, six taels, you are not allowed to cry, you are not allowed to cry, because I have shed a lot for you. I can't have children for you, I can only love you, I can only love you as someone who is about to die. People say, there is love in heaven, six taels, I still love you in heaven! ”

"Six taels, I still have a lot of things to do. I want you to sleep in the same bed and snuggle quietly in your arms. I want to dedicate myself to you, I want to cook with you, go for a walk with you, I want to watch our children grow up, I want to cook every meal for you that you and I finish together, I also want to go and see your master, to see the master who used a coffin book for sixty-six years to help my man make a pure gold knife, I want to tell him that the old man, Master, you have taught a good apprentice. I still want Master to approve of me, but these are all my fantasies, they only exist in my dreams, and none of them have been fulfilled by me. ”

"You want to be happy, you want to marry Wanruo, you have to be worthy of everyone around you who loves you, because they love you more than me, and they are all trying to love you. Such as Xia Xiaoxuan, I know that she is sad, most of her substitutes are still mine, her name has Xia in it, her eyes are like me, her appearance is sometimes like me, you choose such a woman to transition your sorrow, transition your unwillingness, but do you know? If Xia Xiaoxuan is really like me, how can she not love you like me. Do you know what it was like for her to cry when she took the initiative to contact me in a foreign country? She said, Sister Chuxia, you are six taels in this life, no matter how much you can't get over it. I was very happy to hear this, but she also said, Sister Chuxia, it is very likely that you will not be able to go with you in this life, because you, like me, are sad women who can't be her, because we all love, and the love is no longer ourselves! Xia Xiaoxuan actually doesn't regret it, she knows that her departure is just to avoid, she wants to be strong, just like Cao Youmeng chose to teach, they all want to stand in front of you as a strong girl, don't mention the pain of love, don't think about the hard work of love. ”

"Six taels, you know? If you really choose one of these women, that is to say, in no particular order, that is, we know you together, we appear in front of you together, maybe you won't be so entangled at all, maybe you will only follow your heart, but when we all accompany you through a period of time, you will be entangled, you can't be Chen Shimei, you don't like to let anyone down, so most of you are swallowing pain, swallowing the pain that you are slowly tearing. Six taels, you're so stupid! ”

"Liuliang, I really want to write more, write more about you, about the stories you don't know, but the more I write, the more heartache I feel, I don't know what I'm talking about, it's my unwillingness, it's my love, or the past we can never go back to. Six taels, you have to be good, you must be good, a whole family is watching you. Don't come to me, because you can't find me, because I was already in another world when you received this letter. I just don't want to see you grief-stricken, I don't want to be a burden to you. I have already seen you swallow the pain of Liu Yang leaving, and I have seen you grit your teeth and hold on to Han Lichuan's departure, so when I made this decision, I asked for leave, went home to see my parents, and then went to Tiandu to find Wan Ruo and talk for a night. We talked a lot, a lot, about the story of her and you, the story of me and you, the story of Xia Xiaoxuan and you, and even the story of Gan Second, Qin Lan and you. And, of course, your masters, your generals, and your parents. Many, many things, I can't get enough of it all night. If you promise me, she will definitely take good care of you, and she will accompany you to see all the flowers, because that is also my wish, and that is also the common wish of Liu Yang and Han Lichuan who left. They all want to watch you go through the prosperity of the world, and they want you to smile and look at life in this prosperity. ”