I lay in bed for half a month. The doctor said that my wind and cold were menacing, and the cold poison penetrated into the internal organs, plus my own physique was hot, and there was internal fire, which caused internal heat and stagnation, in short, I was forced by Xiaohong to drink bitter medicine for half a month, and every time I missed the Western pills of the 21st century.

During this period, Feng Ge came to see me every day, and with his piano, he would burn a furnace of sandalwood, and soothe my physical discomfort with his beautiful piano sound. Aunt Jin also came to see me, I gave her the patterns I had drawn before, and by the way I told her about the practice of cartoon dolls, I heard that her eyes were shining with golden light, and instantly turned into the shape of copper coins, looking at her expression, I knew that in the 21st century, cartoon dolls with great lethality to female surnames and children will have a very huge market here; Yu Gongzi and the great general Lonely Jingyun have been here, but General Lonely sent someone to send a lot of tonics and snacks such as pastries and preserved fruits, I have never liked snacks, and I don't like to eat sweets, so I gave them all to Xiaohong; Yueniang's "Super Oiran" contest has been in full swing and is very busy, but she still has to go around my room every day, and I have a lukewarm attitude towards her, and I keep my distance as always.

Chu Yan has never been here since he said he was driving away the poison for me, and for this man, to tell the truth, my thoughts are complicated. Sometimes I wonder if I put too much thought on him, as if when I came to this time and space, all my thoughts revolved around him, whether it was hating him, fearing him, defending him, playing games with him, it seemed that everything was caused by him. If you think about it carefully, my hatred for him is different from his hatred for me, I didn't bear his grudge against him for killing my father and mother, my hatred for him was only because he imprisoned my freedom and forced me to do something I didn't want to do. Maybe he has a deep hatred for Wei Lanxue, but although I occupy Wei Lanxue's body, I don't have that idea or need to avenge her. But can I really look at him indifferently? I was struggling in this time and space, I thought I could get out of trouble with the thoughts and wisdom of modern women, but in fact, it was my wishful thinking, my situation was good or bad, completely based on the thoughts of men in this patriarchal society, in this society where men can control women's lives, fates and bodies at will, they think I am good, my situation is good, whether it is Chu Yan or that Yu Gongzi, if they like and be happy, my life will be better, once they lose interest in me, my bad luck will turn back. In the final analysis, I am no different from the women in the Qinglou who lean on the Red Mansion, they are still showing people, they are selling their beauty, body, and talent, and what I sell is my thoughts, words and deeds, and my maverick surname for people in this time and space.

The most important thing for a person is to be able to recognize the situation and weigh his own weight. If I had to be attached to a man, I would have to choose the most powerful and powerful man for myself. The three prominent men I have come into contact with so far float in my mind, Chu Yan? Yu Gongzi? Silent clouds? It looks very beautiful, but Chu Yan's mind is too heavy, his surname is too ruthless and capricious, not to mention that he still has hatred for me in his heart, such a man is too difficult to deal with, I have fully realized this during this time, out! I didn't even know the name of Yu Gongzi, he seems to be either rich or expensive, and his identity is mysterious, but this person's vision is too intimidating, scheming, and too cunning, he is an out-and-out old fox, playing with him? I'm afraid that he designed it, and I don't know, out! It's the lonely general, born as a military general, with a straightforward and bold surname, a generous bearing, and a polite person, but a good candidate for a big tree, if you have a good relationship with him, ......? I thought about it, and thought that it would be good if the rumors in the market were true, if the lonely general really fell in love with me at first sight, seeing that I didn't do my best, he would be dizzy, but now that I have been covered by the young man of Yu, it would take a lot of hesitation to seduce the lonely general in front of him.

Said that the child calculated the past, since the illness I have been a little cowardly, this said that the spirit is good, Xiaohong wants to help me prepare a hot bath, I called her: "Just go to the bath room to bathe, every time the bath bucket is moved up and down, you are not too troublesome, I am also noisy." "Every time I have to carry things up and down, and I have to carry hot water, I'm embarrassed.

Xiaohong answered crisply, helped prepare my change of clothes, and led me downstairs. Yihong Mansion is still out of business, and there are no men who come to spend time drinking, some of the girls stay in their rooms, some play cards in the hall, and some are helping Yueniang to be busy with the "Super Oiran" competition. Yueniang's notice has already been posted in the streets, the people feel very novel about the "Super Oiran" competition, and have invested a high degree of enthusiasm and attention, the girls' charity performances and qualifiers have been completed, and ten girls have entered the finals. Now they go to the streets during the day, and the streets are full of fans who help them canvass for votes. The ten girls also rubbed shoulders and had the posture of making a name for themselves.

I followed Xiaohong downstairs, and suddenly felt that everyone's eyes fell on me, some were jealous, envious, curious, and inquisitive, this Carmen girl who became famous overnight in the Red Mansion but stayed in the house and did not want to go out, seemed to them a legend and mysterious. Except for the day of the stage, this is the second time the girls have seen me, and I am not powdered today, and I am dressed normally, which is very different from the beauty of the day I took the stage.

"Look, she's the Carmen?"

"It's really her, she's really thin and ugly when she takes off her makeup......"

"That's it, those lord's eyes don't know where they have grown, and they actually spend a lot of money for such goods......"

"People's charm is amazing, haven't you seen her on stage?"

"She hid in her room all day and didn't come out, she was practicing those kung fu, right? Hee-hee......"

……

There were murmurs along the way, and I turned a deaf ear and walked out without squinting. I thought that these girls taken in by Yueniang were all hard-working people, and they would inevitably sympathize with other people with miserable backgrounds, but they never wanted to stay in this Fengyue place for a long time, and they were all greedy for profit, mean and jealous. I shook my head, what is the old saying? The wretched will have something to hate.

When I went down the stairs, there was a sudden sound at the top of the stairs, and I felt that a white figure was already coming towards me. The woman's facial features were already beautiful, but her temperament was cold and lonely, and she only felt that she was cold and glamorous, extraordinary, like a fairy under the moon.

"Yuzhu girl." Xiaohong blessed her, and the woman glanced at us lightly, but she didn't make a sound, with some disapproval on her face, and turned her head to pass by me, leaving a fragrance in the air.

I couldn't help but laugh out loud, such a tall and arrogant person. I heard Xiaohong talk about this girl Yuzhu who is just red in the red mansion, and I heard that she is the No. 1 seed player who was held by Yueniang to replace the good Oiran Purple Hibiscus, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, blowing, playing and singing, all of which are fine, and she is also a Qing Qi who sells her art and does not sell her body. Before I took the stage, she was the most popular girl in the Red Mansion, and she had already entered the top 10 in this "Super Oiran" competition, and she was also the one with the highest call to win the championship. Yueniang has been rolling in Fengyue Field for many years, knowing the man's flowery intestines, looking for girls in the Qinglou, and I like to find some women with a cold temperament, who look as noble as a fairy, and who are not stained by mud like a clear lotus. This kind of girl is the top grade of the Qinglou girl, and she has captured the hearts of some literati and writers the most, and helped them fill in a few lyrics and songs, and her reputation has risen.

I don't like these tones, the Yuzhu girl's face is arrogant and cold, although it is different from the sycophant general Qinglou woman, enough to make the man who comes to the Qinglou to find Fang amazing, but this kind of person seems to be heartless, indifferent to the world, in fact, the heart is extremely sensitive and suspicious, self-esteem, and has an inexplicable self-pity for himself, extreme conceit and extreme inferiority, I have never had a good impression of this kind of lonely heart, a sullen person who longs for a good friend.

Seeing the mocking smile on my face, Xiaohong asked curiously, "What is the girl laughing at?" ”

I looked back at her and said with a smile as I walked: "Xiaohong, in their eyes, I am really a fox with a smoky eye, right?" ”

Xiaohong was already angry when she heard the rumors just now, and when she heard me ask her this, she said angrily: "What kind of foxes, they don't know the girls at all, they chew their tongues there one by one, where are they going!" ”

I smiled and patted her on the shoulder, and said, "You know that I'm not such a person, what's annoying, they are not me, what does it have to do with me?" ”

The front is the bath room, Xiaohong has notified the mother-in-law in charge of the bath room to send hot water to the bath room, pushed the door in, saw a chair outside the bath room, a little girl who is about the same age as Xiaohong is sitting on the chair and knocking melon seeds, seeing us come in, quickly stood up, smiled and blessed us: "Hello Carmen girl." Sister Xiaohong, do you want to bring the girl over to bathe? ”

"Hmm." Xiaohong asked her, "Xiaoxia, your girl is also inside?" ”

"My girl has been washing for a while, and she should be coming out soon." Xiaoxia replied while sneaking a glance at me.

When I saw her eyes rolling, I knew that this girl was also a clever ghost. I smiled and said to Xiaohong, "Since someone is using the bathhouse, let's wait." ”

When the two girls heard me say this, they laughed out loud, and Xiaohong smiled: "Girl, what are you talking about, the bath room is big, where to use you, not to mention that you have a separate compartment." As he spoke, he took me in, and when he saw the layout of the bath, it dawned on me.

I thought that the bath room here was just a bath bucket, but I didn't expect that the room was a very large space, and the three walls of the large room were all separate compartments, and there were some soft couches in the middle of the room. Xiaohong helped me push open a small compartment, and the cabin was full of bath barrels and bath utensils, and there was even a shower, which surprised me a lot. I didn't expect this to be full of attention to health and hygiene. Taking a shower can reduce the spread of dirty diseases, and I am quite satisfied with this bath.

At this time, the door of a small compartment opened, and a woman came out wearing a loose crimson robe, her long black hair was wet, and a sweet aroma came to her nose, I looked at her in surprise, but she was a charming and enchanting beauty, her skin was as white as snow, but she was not as cold and arrogant as Yuzhu, but she was charming, and her eyes were more seductive than Yuzhu. What a stunner! My eyes lit up, I have always loved this type of fox type of woman, probably influenced by too many martial arts novels, the demon girls in it are all true and true, and the holy fairies are all fake mouths.

When the woman saw me, she was stunned, and then a charming smile appeared on her face. The woman came up to me and smiled, "Oh, I'm lucky to have met Miss Carmen here." ”

Thinking that I was no longer known in Yihong Mansion, I smiled and said, "...... girl?" ”

"My name is Momiji." The woman graciously took my hand, "Thank you so much for giving Mother Moon an idea of 'Super Oiran' this time, I have long wanted to visit the girl, but Mother Moon said that girls like to be quiet, and Momiji is too embarrassed to disturb." ”

I know who she is. Red leaves, the second seed player who is expected to succeed the Oiran Purple Hibiscus, is also one of the top ten of the "Super Oiran", her talent may not be as good as Yuzhu, but she still hangs the top card of the Red Mansion with Yuzhu, it is said that because her most impressive thing is not the bright and moving snow muscles, nor those talents, but the secret art in the room, only a pair of spring onion hands can make the man who is looking for joy so happy that he is alive and happy, and there are not a few celebrities who worship under her pomegranate skirt. When I first heard about her stunt, I admired it from the bottom of my heart, she was really a strong man!

"Where." I smiled and said, I really can't help but be happy with such a wonderful person, "If Momiji is free, it's good to come and see me more." "I deliberately didn't call her girl, just called her name, close to the distance between the two, Momiji saw me so easy to get close, and her eyes lit up.

"That's good, I'm still trying to ask my sister for advice." is really a wonderful person who knows and knows, and immediately shouted more affectionately than me, "The song that my sister sang on stage was so happy, but she counted these stinky men well." ”

I can't help laughing, it's really a true love and real surname, if you change someone, you must say that I'm immoral, right? Xiaohong saw her pulling me to talk endlessly, and said impatiently: "Red leaf girl, my girl is going to bathe." ”

Momiji smiled, didn't take her attitude as a grievance, and said to me affectionately: "Then I won't hinder my sister, when my sister is free, I'll come to you." ”

I saw her go out in a graceful manner, and turned my head to look at Xiaohong with a smile: "Doesn't Xiaohong like the girl with red leaves?" ”

Seeing that I was seeing through my careful thoughts, Xiaohong glanced at me and said, "She is the real fox!" ”

I laughed, "I like her very much." ”

Xiaohong looked at me in surprise, and I didn't explain. Xiaohong, Xiaohong, this kind of shrewdness and trickery outside, is always much better than the kind of person who doesn't move anything and calculates in his stomach alone. You despise her fox, but you don't know that compared to those who are willing to sell their bodies but still feel ashamed, Momiji, who doesn't care about other people's eyes at all, and who really lives for himself is the real free and easy person, even if I, a person from the 21st century, holding the banner of a new female surname, still have many shackles in my heart, we are the people who really live the most awkward.

――2006、9、7