Chapter 53: Nightmare
It seems that the prison can only be calculated by saying out and falling, I drew a horizontal bar on the wall, the fourth day, during this period, except for Feng Ge and Ping'an, no one has come, Lonely Cloud has not come, and Yu Gongzi has not come. I smiled, this matter, I'm afraid it's enough for them to have a headache, listening to Ping'an's tone, this case seems to be quite tricky. The court couldn't find any evidence in the Red Mansion, Yueniang refused to admit it to death, and the "Super Oiran" fans outside were angry, thinking of the riots in the finals, the court was also a little chilled, and I heard that the Royal Forest Army was finally dispatched to suppress the scene.
The scar on my face shows no signs of getting better. When Feng Ge came to see me, he brought a bottle of medicine and asked me to insist on wiping it every day. I put it under my pillow and didn't use it once. I don't know if I want to be abused or feel guilty about doing evil, I just feel that letting that scar remain, my heart will stop a little.
The jailer opened the door, I turned my head, and saw Aunt Zhou bringing Fusheng in, I stood up from the table in surprise and said with a smile: "Why is Auntie here?" "Ordinary people are very taboo about prisons, not to mention that Yi Honglou is involved in such a big case, and others can't avoid it.
"I've wanted to come to see the girl with Fusheng for a long time." Aunt Zhou blushed and said embarrassedly, "It's just that we can't make up the money collected from the prison visit for a while." When she saw the wound on my face, there was only a hint of surprise in her eyes, but she didn't ask much in a very sensible way.
I was even more ashamed in my heart, so I hurriedly asked her to sit on the edge of the bed, sat down next to her, and said with a smile: "I'm sorry to trouble my aunt, in fact, you don't have to come, I'm fine, how wronged I spent that money." ”
"What did the girl say, the girl is kind to us, we haven't repaid the girl, and now that the girl has an accident, don't you come to see the girl because you are afraid of trouble?" Aunt Zhou said angrily, "Besides, we also have to see the girl, so that we can relax and not save the money we should spend." ”
"Auntie has a heart." I laughed, "Are you getting better?" ”
"It's already good. Thank you, girl, for remembering. Aunt Zhou said with a smile, "The girl taught me to make that tofu and sell it in the market, which is very popular, and I and Fusheng will have a good life in the future." ”
"That's a good idea." I smiled, remembered the two paintings, got up and went to the table to take them, and handed them to Aunt Zhou, "If Auntie is free, help me take these tricks to Jinxiuzhuang and hand them over to Aunt Jin, okay?" ”
"What's wrong with that." Aunt Zhou spread out the pattern and looked at it, and said in surprise, "This is painted by the girl?" It's so funny, even snakes and tigers are so cute. ”
Fusheng came up and saw the Q version of the zodiac I painted, and I liked it very much, I smiled and said, "When I go out, send two to Fusheng." His face turned red all of a sudden, and he said softly, "Thank you, girl." Seeing me looking at him with a smile, I buried my face in Aunt Zhou's arms embarrassedly, and Aunt Zhou smiled at him and hugged him with a happy smile.
Mother and son are filial, Aunt Zhou has such a lovely and filial son, it is really a blessing. My hand slid to my lower abdomen, baby, if you have a chance to be born, will you be as cute as Fusheng, as distressed as your mother? For a while, my heart was sour and soft, if my mother left you ......, I suddenly remembered that when I inadvertently asked Fusheng's father that day, his expression of anger and pain, my heart was cold, no! No way! Although I don't know about Aunt Zhou's husband, but Fusheng is ...... like that, if in the future, my baby will also show that expression...... no! I can't let you suffer this!
Aunt Zhou saw that my expression was uncertain, and said softly, "Is the girl okay?" ”
I looked up at her and smiled reluctantly, "It's okay." ”
As if she remembered something, she patted her head and said with a smile: "Look at my surname, Fusheng, quickly bring the basket." She took the bamboo basket handed over by Fusheng, lifted the coarse cloth covering the basket, and said with a smile: "I'm afraid that the girl won't eat well in it, so I boiled a few eggs for the girl, and a salted chicken, which I made myself, don't dislike it, girl." ”
I smiled and said, "Look at what the aunt said, it's too late for me to thank you, I have to try the aunt's craftsmanship." As he spoke, he picked up the chopsticks in the basket and picked up a piece of chicken and put it in his mouth. The smooth texture of the chicken spread in the mouth, it tasted good, but it was a little greasy, just swallowed, I suddenly felt nauseous, I covered my mouth, rushed to the corner and vomited, so frightened that Aunt Zhou quickly put down the things and ran to my side to smooth my back. I vomited for a long time, except for a few mouthfuls of sour water, nothing came out, I was smooth, Aunt Zhou saw that I didn't vomit, helped me sit back on the bed, and said worriedly: "The girl's face is so bad, isn't she sick?" ”
I forced a smile and said, "It's okay, don't worry. ”
Aunt Zhou took out a silk and wiped my mouth, her face was a little solemn, seeing that I was relieved, she hesitated and said: "The girl is like this, it is similar to when I was pregnant with Fusheng, and I vomit as soon as I eat oil, does the girl have a body?" ”
I knew that I couldn't hide it from her, so I had to nod, and she said worriedly: "Ah, how is it good to be in this prison?" The environment here is so bad, the food is not good, your body is weak, if you don't make up for it well, the child will not grow well. ”
"It's okay, I don't plan to have this kid anyway." My heart tightened, and my eyes were sour.
"The girl doesn't want this child?" Aunt Zhou was taken aback, "How can this be done?" ”
"Auntie, I'm not afraid of your jokes, this is a child without a father." I was very frightened in my heart, and I couldn't talk about my grievances with Chu Yan at all, "This kid didn't come at the right time." ”
"The child is innocent, even if he doesn't know who his father is, but the child is a gift from God." Aunt Zhou held my hand and sighed, "Killing the child is not good for the body, and the girl will have pimples in her heart in the future, so the girl should think clearly." ”
It seems that Aunt Zhou thinks that the father of this child is a benefactor of a certain Qinglou, right? She didn't know that the child's origins were worse than that. I smiled bitterly in my heart, lowered my eyelids, and was silent.
"Girl, when I was pregnant with Fusheng, I also struggled for a while. Fusheng ...... is also a child without a father. Aunt Zhou'er was shocked, and when she saw me looking up at her in surprise, she sighed and said, "But I never regret giving birth to Fusheng, is the girl willing to hear this story?" ”
I looked at her in a daze, nodded, and Aunt Zhou groaned for a while, and said, "I am originally from Jeju, and I only moved to the capital three years ago. Fusheng's father is an orphan, and he used to be a teacher at a private school in Jeju, and I ...... his father," she paused, and a blush appeared on her face, "My father and I are neighbors, and we usually take care of each other, so we get better." He was ten years older than me, and he was poor, and my family did not approve of me being good with him, so we secretly corresponded. One day, he came to me happily and told me that there was a dignitary in the capital who admired him and wanted to take him to the capital, and he promised me that he would come back to pick me up as long as he got out of the way in the capital. But as soon as he left, there was no news. Not long after he left, I found out that I was pregnant, an unmarried girl was pregnant with a child, and the father of the child could not find anyone, and I really wanted to die at that time. I also thought about killing this child, but when I thought of his father, I couldn't bear it in the end, and the family couldn't stand this shame and kicked me out of the house. I was out helping people do odd jobs until Fusheng was born, and when I saw his chubby little face, I was glad that I hadn't beaten him in the first place. ”
It turns out that Aunt Zhou is still an unmarried mother, I can't help but admire her courage, not to mention that in ancient times, even in the 21st century, unmarried children are criticized, and the bitterness in this is definitely not something that Aunt Zhou can say in a few words. Fusheng sat silently next to him, listening to his mother talk about the past, his face expressionless. Aunt Zhou continued: "Three years ago, Jeju was flooded, and everything was washed away, I took Fusheng to the capital to make a living, hoping to find out the news of his father, but for so many years, I have not heard anything, and I have gradually faded this thought, as long as Fusheng grows up in peace and happiness, Chengren, our mother and daughter will live like this, and it is also very good." ”
I saw that her tone was flat, and she said curiously: "Auntie, don't you hate Fusheng and his father?" ”
"I was also resentful at the beginning, hating why he didn't keep his promise and didn't come back to pick me up, and I was afraid that after he soared, he would forget about me, a country girl." Aunt Zhou smiled and said, "But later, I became more and more worried about whether something happened to him?" Did he also have a hard time outside, so he didn't have the face to come back? I believe that he will not come back because he has a hard time. ”
What an infatuated woman. I smiled, it's the mentality of an ostrich, it's much easier to accept that he has a hard time than to accept that he has changed his mind, and it's much easier for me to feel better. It's just Aunt Zhou, my situation can't be compared with you at all, you and Fusheng and his father, it's because of love that you have Fusheng this child, you have love for him, so you forgive him for never going back, so you can't bear to beat his flesh and blood. What about me? I only have fear and hatred for Chu Yan, how could I give birth to his child?
The jailer came to urge Aunt Zhou to go out, and Aunt Zhou saw that I was still silent, and sighed: "I don't persuade the girl much, taking out the child is a big deal for a woman, and the girl must think clearly." ”
At night, I have been having nightmares, first a chubby little baby tugged at my skirt tightly, crying heartbreakingly: "Mother, why don't you want me, why don't you want me......" I went to hug him sadly, but found that his face suddenly turned into Chu Yan's face, with a hateful expression, hateful eyes, gritted his teeth and said: "I hate you, it was you who hurt my father, I hate you......" I shook my head and retreated in panic, crashing into a hard chest, I turned around in panic, Chu Yan hugged me tightly with pain on his face, Begging in my ear: "Cher, don't hate me, don't hate me...... "Let me go!" I screamed and struggled in his arms, only to feel my chest tight, and I sat up from the bed screaming, covered in cold sweat and covered with tears.
There was a soft knock on the cell door, and I turned back in fear, and a masked man in black flashed in, and when he saw me, his eyes flashed, and I looked at his eyes exposed outside the face cloth in a daze, and froze!
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