Although after watching "Michael Clayton", Jenny also admitted that this is a good script, Karen is a character with a lot of room to play, she can be said to be a dark version of Miranda, who completely gave everything she had for her work, private life, personal conscience, respect for the law, all of which were bought out by pharmaceutical companies with huge amounts of money, while she was about to become the company's legal director and reach the peak of her career, Karen's last humanity was also dying, reminding Karen through various signs, Her ego is about to be completely killed - if "The Devil Wears Prada" wants to win the Oscar, then Miranda may also have to face these problems, yes, Karen is a very chewy character, although her roles are not too many, compared to George Clooney, she can only be regarded as a supporting role, but several scenes are very brilliant and skillful.

However, admitting that Karen is interesting and the script is brilliant does not mean that Jenny really has something that resonates with Karen from the bottom of her heart, and she is really eager to play this role. To be honest, she has some vague fear of this role, just like playing Andy at the time, under the premise that there is no finished product to refer to and empathize with, she is indeed a little afraid of joining the group to shoot. Looking back now, she could understand why she had stepped in to embarrass George Clooney. On the one hand, of course, because she doesn't like him, but on the other hand, there is also some secret psychology, hoping that the film can have some twists and turns, so that she doesn't have to face herself, admitting that she doesn't dare to join the group like this, because she doesn't have the grasp of being able to perform Karen well - although on the psychological surface, she doesn't admit it, and even thinks too confident that she can suppress George Clooney's play with the help of Goldfinger.

This may be the problem she must deal with in her future development, Jenny can't help but regret the vulgarity of her previous life, although she is an insider who pays attention to the gossip of the North American entertainment industry, but at that time she was also affected by the Oscars and the commercial mainstream gradually drifting away, and she has a slight aversion to Austrian films, almost since "Avatar" failed to be selected for the Oscars, all kinds of award-winning films, except for those who like actors to star, and those who have won heavyweight awards, otherwise he and she are almost indifferent and unimpressed. And this has caused her to use Goldfinger to empathize with those commercial blockbusters, and to interpret these roles that are not much difficult to interpret vividly, and they are extremely brilliant, but in the art films that really need Goldfinger, she is a little helpless - this may be the best annotation of the young and strong do not work hard, and the boss is sad in vain, or to use some Western expressions, that is, her laziness back then finally turned back and bit her......

The role of art films is often unique, unless she only plays the new biopics of old characters in the future, she will definitely have to pass the hurdle of playing difficult roles by herself. No matter how much you want to escape, you have to force yourself to face it, although Jenny didn't realize her fear of difficulties before, but she didn't slack off on the pace of practice, but it wasn't until her outlook on life was shocked again that she suddenly found Karen's feeling - or rather, she suddenly found pleasure in the process of playing Karen...... "It's an honor, I'm an honor, it's my honor to be here today." In the pale scene simulated by the space, Jenny wiped her face in the blurred mirror, her image was even a little blurry, because the space didn't know what the image designer would do with her hairstyle and figure, but her expression was very clear in the mirror - it was a pale and confused face, no makeup, red eyes, unnaturally round, like a rabbit hit by a car headlight, her eyes unnaturally revealed unjustified despair, as if her intuition told her that her end had come- This is a woman who is unjustified, very desperate, and can even say that she is experiencing a nervous breakdown.

Jenny took a deep breath, "I'm honored to be here, as we all know, the company is a huge pharmaceutical company, the company is huge. ”

She meaninglessly adjusted the order of words, looking for better ways to express herself, forcing herself to focus on the choice of words and phrases in order to avoid what was really going on. Karen was about to be promoted, she would be the head of law at the great pharmaceutical company, the pinnacle of her career, but apparently she wasn't ready for that, and she even did everything she could to avoid the moment when she finally talked about it directly, because she knew what it meant: the dirty work, picking the right people for the company, nipped the threats in the bud, eliminating the danger factors, the people who could jeopardize the company's interests and make the company lose profits. Companies would rather pay law firms than plaintiffs, and Karen's task is to pick the right law firm and do whatever the CEO is too cautious to do. Every day of her career has taken risks, she has done countless illegal things, countless things that can even be said to be criminal, like the CEO is hiding behind her, through the heavy bills and purse companies, she is also hiding behind the thugs, she is an important element of an ongoing crime, she is the small boss. And Karen is scared every day about what she has done, and she can't be happy about her promotion, but she can't help but fight for this promotion. "I've dedicated my life to Green Leaf since Wright dug me into this company, and I'm honored for that, no, honored to repeat." In this performance, the drama is not in the lines, but in Karen's obvious loss of control and irritability, Jenny pacing back and forth in the scene, muttering nervously, immersed in Karen's mental world, she understands Karen, she understands Karen's panic very well now: just like her predecessor, she got promoted, one day she will be on the board, maybe she will become CEO, and that day is her real safe day, CEO doesn't need to do the dirty work, if she doesn't want to be scared like this anymore, Then the only way is to continue to wipe Green Leaf's dirty ass clean quickly and well, and then pray that all this will not slip through the cracks, not to bite her back, not to let her be abandoned by the company—to continue to live this fearful, brazen life, waiting for the day when she is promoted to a high enough position to leave this sludge completely. The day was far away, but she wasn't completely hopeless.

It was her only exit, and without a second way, she had gone too far and could never turn back.

Karen took a deep breath and wiped her hair off her cheeks, she turned her head and sniffed her armpits in disgust, she hated the smell of her sweat, Karen's body odor was not very strong, but the fact that she felt that she was sweating proved how weak she was, weak, it was a word she hated. "Personal life? I don't need a personal life, I mean, I love my job, I give everything to it, oh, dedication. Karen said, she looked at herself in the mirror: what you do is the industry convention, without you there will be someone else to do it, everyone is living like this, this is the social reality, and what are you afraid of? Technically speaking, you have never broken the law, all illegal things have been done by others, you just transferred some money to some suspicious accounts through secret channels, there is nothing that cannot be explained, even if the East Window incident happens, the company's lawyers will solve everything for you, you can't go to jail, all this is not out of control, not out of control. "As I said." She babbled on and on in lengthy legal jargon, precise but pointless, "Uh, as things stand, we can think of ...... Oh, crap, it's all. ”

Karen covered her forehead and fell back on the soft goose down quilt, Karen must sleep on the goose down quilt, she did not hesitate to use money, although all the information said that the more prudent choice was to save money for retirement, but she always couldn't help it. Karen was like a person about to drown, and in the eyes of everyone, her swimming style was very beautiful, but only she knew that her lungs were already filled with cold, salty water, and she was as heavy as a stone, and she could only keep sinking and sinking and sinking and sinking in the water.

She curled up in the shape of a baby on the wide king-size mattress, and in the center of this uneasy position, a low, chattering voice continued, "The right legal counsel means nothing to a company." Needless to say, the right legal counsel is essential for the proper conduct of the company's affairs...... Help Luye better develop new drugs and relieve pain......"

This is Karen's first appearance in "Michael Clayton", and most of the lines are muttered like this, her drama is in her expression, in her body language, and even in the message that her temperament conveys to the audience. The script of "Michael" is very restrained, there are no large monologues, no inner drama, the role of dialogue in shaping characters and conflicts is very low, and it can even be said to be a little poetic, the really cruel duel is shaped quietly through a large number of body language performances, and is completed in the audience's mind, like a dumb riddle, the audience and the director reach a tacit understanding in the movie, but no one will express it, and this restrained silence is maintained until the last page of the script. And Karen's role is especially so, unlike the protagonist Michael, the director can use key props, dialogue echoes and small plots to shape his character, Karen's first scene must be explosive, her character must be plump in the first scene, and convey enough complex information in the limited and meaningless dialogue to let the audience reach a preliminary understanding of her situation.

In the previous auditions, Jenny was not very satisfied with her performance, she played Karen's hesitation, with the help of some similar roles' golden fingers, but perhaps the reference role was not good enough, Karen seemed a little too manic, she was too dangerous, too aggressive. And this is not consistent with her own interpretation of the script, Karen is actually a weak and broken character, she has been completely killed by reality, just muddy and drifting with the flow, at the end of the script, humanity does not exist, it is only inertia that dominates Karen, but she is long dead. But in her performance, Karen still has a life - she can't catch the feeling that Karen gives her in the script.

This time, however, when she finished the show and began to play back, began to watch the pale Karen ghostly wander through the gray scene, adjusting the order of words with a slightly muffled accent, smearing her hair again and again, and walking to the mirror to comb it again, Jenny finally felt Karen. She felt Karen's despair, Karen's final struggles and her confusion: everyone is doing this, successful people are doing this, I want to succeed, I have to do this. What I don't understand is why this incident makes me so painful and makes me so ...... I don't know, I was so numb, my brain seemed to be cut off in such a way that I couldn't even describe what I was missing, why I was desperate, and what I needed.

Karen was groping for her hair, she was so attached to it, but she was so obsessed with it, she was so desperate to escape, oh, she was so devastated. But she is so pitiful, and success makes her so pitiful.

Watching Karen start her wandering again, Jenny unconsciously touched her cheek, and suddenly realized that she had been crying silently for a long time, and even she didn't realize that she had already cried while watching her performance in this absolutely private acting space.

It was not a tear of tiredness, anger and sadness, but it made Jenny feel relaxed and fresh, as if her dusty soul had been cleansed, and she seemed to have a little more understanding and a feeling for herself, a problem that she seldom thought about. Before she really got emotionally involved and started acting, she used to be very afraid of the role of Karen, just like "The Devil Wears Prada", she was afraid that she would become nervous, depressed and tired if she played without the help of empathy, or like "The Fifth Sally", after the play, there was a kind of fatigue of physical work, because Karen was more depressed than both roles. But what she didn't expect was that playing the role of Karen gave her an indescribable pleasure, not tired, and even a little touched.

Before this, of course, she had moments of pleasure for her performance, but the joy of playing Karen was very pure, she was not happy because her performance conquered the audience, nor was she proud of her amorous style in front of the camera, she was happy for the performance itself, and the completion of Karen itself was enough to move her. Jenny didn't know how to put it into words, but in this moment, she really felt the charm of the performance - not because of the huge amount of money, fame and influence it brings, but because of the performance itself, just because of the moment when she abandoned herself to become Karen. It was a joy that satisfied the deepest hunger of her soul and answered the unresolved questions of her life that she had never even been aware of. By becoming someone else, she became more aware of herself.

Yes, after four years of studying in acting school and working as an actor for five years, Jenny finally realized this: she likes acting, it is not her tool, her shortcut. The performance itself is one thing that makes her happy and loves.

She sniffed, turned off the screen, and sat in absolute darkness for a while, sorting through her chaotic thoughts and reorganizing some of her thoughts, and Jenny suddenly thanked the presence of the acting space. She's been in Hollywood for a few years, but she hasn't had a property of her own - the events of the last few days have destroyed her dependence on a particular location, but that doesn't mean she doesn't have a place to relax, in fact, it's more important than empathy, where the importance of the entertainment space should be played in the years to come.

She sat in extravagant silence for more than an hour, before she withdrew from the space and returned to reality, and Jenny had the pleasure of regaining her energy after a long rest, which even an unfamiliar room and a clutter of business could not destroy, and she grabbed the phone and dialed a familiar phone number, which Cesare answered after a few seconds of ringing. ”yes？” His tone was a little confused, as he had just driven away less than two hours earlier, and given the traffic jams in Los Angeles, he might not have returned home yet. "I just thought about it for a moment," Jenny said in a brisk tone, "it's scary enough that we have to deal with the negotiations for Avatar and the release of Unlucky Eros, there's no need to press on Michael and make trouble for yourself, and since George has shown his sincerity, it seems like we can get out of the way, don't you think?" ”

In fact, it had always been Jeanne who had decided to squeeze out Clooney through capital injections, and he would not have made this provocative decision at all if Cesare had followed him. Cesare paused on the other end of the line, as if to think about what she was crazy about, but finally replied, "No problem, you can talk to Clooney-" "No, I don't want to talk to him, you can talk to him, as long as it's acceptable to you, I'm fine." "I don't think Clooney wants to sit down with me for coffee, so he doesn't mind who's going to talk to him - because I really hate him - is it?" Cesare, please—" "I'm your agent, and that's my job, in theory. Cesare's tone seemed to have a hint of helplessness, but he replied calmly, "But why did you suddenly change your mind so quickly?" "I reread the script." Jenny replied, "It's a great character, and if squeezing out Clooney might cost me Karen, I'd rather put it off for later." ”

It's true that she still hates Clooney, but Jenny finally realizes the feeling of big stars dropping their own salaries and joining the group with zero pay, and now, her desire for Karen has overwhelmed everything, and she can't even care about the final box office and the prospect of winning awards - it's like an addiction, and she has to play until Karen refuses to stop.

Perhaps hearing her sincerity, Cesare remained intriguingly silent for a moment, as if to express his thoughts on her fickle temper, but he replied after a moment, "Well, I'll talk about it for you—anything else?" "Yes, actually, there is." Jenny hurriedly said to the phone, she took a deep breath, sorted out her somewhat chaotic thoughts, and thought of where to speak. "I'm so grateful that you got a private detective before I did, really, Cesare, and even I appreciate you avoiding some of the things that aren't suitable for ladies- but come to think of it, pretending not to know doesn't give me a sense of security, I'm just- I know we may have to face this one day, but we should wait until the day we have to, right? I don't want you to do this for me at this stage, I don't know what to say, it's just -- that's what the script told me, I don't want to be Karen, and the bottom line is important to me. ”

After a pause, she hurriedly added, "You too, some things have to be sold for a good price, even if they are going to be sold—that stalker just isn't worth it." ”

Cesare was silent on the other end of the line, and he said slowly, "Okay, I see what you mean." "And will you- will you change your decision?" Jenny asked worriedly, "I'm not against us dealing with him, we can do something legal, you know, but don't cross the line that far—" ...... This is your request, you are my customer. Cesare said in a slightly strange tone, "It's my responsibility to meet your request, so I have no reason not to agree, do I?" ”

This was a very rare statement for Cesare, and more often than not, Jeanne heard all that was - you're my artist, so you better do what I suggested -, and she wanted to ask him why he was so perverse, but vaguely realized something, and finally didn't ask, just vaguely said, "That's great, I- uh, I don't have anything else to do, we'll see you tomorrow." ”

She hung up the phone, staring at the phone screen slowly turning from bright to black, wondering if Cesare was also dealing with the gray area related to human life for the first time, and whether she also secretly hoped that someone would pull him - many times, she would forget that he was only five years older than her, but he had gone five years before her on the road of career, and many times she forgot that Cesare was also a confused, hesitant human being, and that Hollywood, which was drunk and gold-obsessed, was also a very dangerous amusement park for him. "He must have subconsciously wished that someone would stop him—oh, he absolutely wouldn't have been more cooperative than I had just said about Michael." Jeanne thought to herself—Cesare was usually so obedient only when she made a decision that he was happy with.

She shuddered suddenly, a little chilling. "What if I hadn't stopped him in time? Or what if I hadn't stopped me in time just now? What will he become, what will I become, and what path will we end up on? ”

Since entering the circle, there has never been a shortage of dramaqueens around her, for the news she thinks is normal and ordinary, there are always people who overreact, screaming how big it is for her occasional true feelings, Jenny's own bland reaction is often evaluated as calm and elegant, however, the most ridiculous thing is that in this big crisis that has just passed by them - Jenny thinks that maybe it is one of the biggest crises since she entered the industry, but it is so calm from beginning to end, maybe in the eyes of others except for the parties concerned, Cesare's decision was so normal that it wasn't worth mentioning.