I had a chill down my spine and stared at him in fear, a black line in my head! It's over, it's over! I forgot that Azure Snow is a well-read, gentle and dignified lady, and Azure Xue categorically can't say crazy things like me! Chu Yan wouldn't really find anything, would he? Stabilization! Stabilization! His hand pinched me so tightly, I took a deep breath, glared at Chu Yan's scorching stern gaze, and gritted my teeth and said, "I was forced out by you madman!" Anyone will go crazy at you! You madman! Beast! Devil! ”

Thinking that he forced me to kill Wei Jinlan with his own hands, my eyes suddenly turned red. I closed my eyes, not wanting to expose my vulnerability to this man, to let him tease and humiliate me as he wanted, but tears still ran down the corners of my eyes and down my cheeks. I bit my lip tightly, feeling extremely aggrieved, why should I be allowed to bear all this? Why did I come to this plane? Why? Whimpering slipped out of my teeth, tears made me weak, I'm going crazy! If this continues, I'm going to go crazy!

The hand around my neck gradually loosened, and I waited for Chu Yan's next humiliation, but unexpectedly did not hear his mocking voice. In the middle of the night, a hand touched my cheek and wiped away tears from my face. My whole body was shocked, and I opened my eyes suddenly, and when I opened my eyes, Chu Yan's hand suddenly stopped on my face, petrified. There was no trace of sarcasm in his star-like black eyes, but there was a trace of pain, a trace of helplessness, and a hint of embarrassment, frowning at me.

I froze. If I can't see the change in his mood at this point, then I'm really a fool, I lived to a dog for the last thirty years. If a moment ago I was just speculating with a joking teasing, now I can be sure with the mind of a modern person that Chu Yan is not necessarily in love with me, but there must be some feelings that make him uncertain and unpredictable, which makes him panic, makes him uneasy, and makes him moody.

That's enough. I won't lose this game! I wanted to laugh, but I didn't dare. The laughter turned into tears, and I cried more and more sadly, and the tears were like beads with broken threads, and I couldn't stop it. The embarrassment and helplessness in his eyes receded, but the pain deepened, and with a long sigh, he bent down and hugged my body that was constantly convulsing from crying, and said in a deep voice: "Are you serious, hate me so much? ”

How ridiculous! What a ridiculous question he asked! I wanted to laugh, but I couldn't, tears burned in my eyes like strong wine, and poured out like a flood. If you hadn't forced me to kill, if you hadn't imprisoned me in the Red Mansion, if you hadn't forced me to sell myself, I might not hate you, but so many ifs are just ifs, if I could, I hope I have never seen you!

He hugged me and was silent for a long time. I didn't move, let him hold me, I didn't want to stop my tears, as if I had drained the tears of my life, and there would be no more tears in the future. He finally couldn't help but sigh, let go of me, and saw me fall on the bed crying heartbreakingly, without any image, and after a while, he turned around and walked out silently.

Listening to the footsteps that were getting farther and farther away, my crying gradually turned into sobbing, and then gradually disappeared into silence. I sat up with a blank face, got out of bed and went out of the inner room, washed my face in a basin with water, dried it with a silk scarf, and then went into the inner room to arrange my clothes and hair in front of the mirror on the dresser. My eyes were a little red and swollen from the cry just now, but there was no trace of tears in my eyes, as if I hadn't cried at all. I looked into my reddish eyes and sneered inwardly. Chu Yan, I want you to understand today that a woman's tears are not necessarily cowardly emotional vents, and sometimes they are weapons that are sharper than knives and more poisonous than snakes. See, it so easily dissolves your doubts about me and melts your cold liver and intestines. It quenches the poison of resentment, and today it has drawn a hole in your heart, and it will gradually suppurate, fester, and grow maggots, this wound only exists to make your life worse than death, and you have no way to heal it, unless you die! Unless you die!

In the afternoon, Yueniang came again, and brought a chubby woman who measured clothes, saying that she wanted to measure my figure, and by the way, asked me to explain the method of the skirt carefully to the woman who measured the clothes. Yueniang and the woman were surprised by the strange dress I had drawn, Yueniang didn't know what I wanted to do, so she pulled me and asked softly, "Miss Wei, do you really want to wear such a dress?" ”

"Don't worry, Mother Yue, I will never smash your field on the day of the stage." I sneered and hooked the corners of my lips, "Not only will I not smash it, but I will also let you bid me for a good price." ”

Yueniang was a little embarrassed and didn't say much. I unfolded the drawing on my desk and explained to the woman carefully the materials and methods of the dress, and the subtleties of the decoration. Suddenly remembering something, I took out another piece of paper, drew a rose on the paper, and asked Yueniang tentatively: "Mother Yue, can you help me find this flower?" ”

Yueniang glanced at it and said in surprise and surprise: "What kind of flower is this?" I've never seen it. ”

I have never seen it again, and there are really no roses in this dynasty, so I sighed: "This is a rose, which symbolizes love, and some people call it Yueji." In the far, far West, people used it to give it to their lovers and express their affection. ”

"Roses?" Yueniang glanced at me in a daze, and sighed in surprise and admiration: "Miss Wei was born in a famous family, and she is really well-informed. ”

Does she think I'm really the prime minister's daughter? It's a pity that even Blue Snow, who was born in a famous family, may not have seen roses, I snorted coldly, what about being a noble, if you can't grasp the power in your own hands, it's not the same as falling into a green building and letting others do it. I turned to the woman who was measuring the garment and asked, "If you make a flower of this shape, can you make it out of silk?" ”

The fat woman glanced at it, and her eyes lit up: "The girl is really skillful and paints such a unique flower." Rest assured, although my Aunt Jin has never seen this flower, since the girl can draw it, our Jinxiuzhuang will definitely do it. ”

"Very well, I want silk flowers of this shape here, here, and here." I look at the arrogance in the eyes of Aunt Jin, presumably this splendid village also has a great background in the capital. I added a few strokes to the drawing of the dress, "And make me a few more separate flowers, and make the stems a little longer, and make the leaves." The stems should be stiff, and the flowers should not hang down when held in the hands. ”

I drew a few more strokes and drew a long-stemmed rose: "The petals are made of red silk, not too bright red, the color is darker......" I rolled my eyes and pointed to the belt embroidered with black and red peonies on Yueniang's waist, "This color is about the same." Can this skirt be done in three days? ”

Aunt Jin nodded, and a hint of arrogance flashed in her eyes: "No problem, I can give it to the girl to try on the morning after tomorrow, and we will speed up the correction if there is something inappropriate." It's really a girl's style of clothes is a little ......, peculiar, I'm afraid there is a difference, if we often wear clothes, as long as we take over the business in Jinxiuzhuang, there has never been a rework. ”

The golden lady took the drawings and walked away, I turned to look at Yueniang, and said with a smile: "I still have to trouble Yue's mother to help me prepare some things." ”

Yueniang has been looking at me deeply since she was just now, and when she saw me smiling, she shook her head and sighed softly: "Miss Wei, sometimes I really can't understand you. ”

I raised an eyebrow, didn't answer, and looked at her with a smile.

She stared at me quietly and said word by word: "You are obviously intelligent and smart, but you are innocent with a child, saying that you are a child, what child has such a tenacious heart as you?" Forced to fall into the Qinglou, he doesn't cry or make trouble, he is calm, and he knows how to calculate, and he knows how to protect himself with his outstanding knowledge and talent. Even if you know you can't get out of it, think about what best you can do for yourself in the worst case. Such intelligence, sharpness, and courage sometimes I can't believe that you are a woman. Such a city government scheming, how many years of experience and accumulation it takes ordinary people to, may not be as good as you, and people can't believe that you are actually not yet seventeen. ”

Uh, Azure Snow is only twenty-eight years old? Flower girl, I've really picked up a big bargain. However, is it me who is talking about this month's mother's mouth? I'm a little sweaty! That's how I felt for her? This, this, this sounds like how different I am? Put on me such a big aperture and I'll be dazzled by rhetoric, okay? Please, what you're talking about, is it okay for any modern person to do this in the face of this situation? Maybe they're better than me, stronger, not as confused as I am, but having fun.

I was a little depressed, listening to her say so much, how different she was, but I compared myself with modern comrades, I was a bird! Immediately deflated.

Yueniang was not only not happy when she heard my sycophants, but was a little depressed, and even more surprised: "Azure Snow, Azure Snow, where did your talent, thoughts, wisdom, and courage come from?" Isn't it incredible that these things are concentrated on a sixteen-year-old girl? I know that you are the daughter of the Prime Minister's Mansion, and there are also a few teachers, but they ......" Yueniang sneered, her face showed disdain, "They can't compare with you, and they can't train such an excellent girl as you." No wonder Chu Yan ......" She suddenly closed her mouth in shock, glanced at me with a pair of beautiful eyes, and stopped talking.

It seems that she knows the teacher of Wei Lanxue, I smiled, well, ......, even if I don't know her, I must have understood, Chu Yan must have done enough homework before destroying the Wei family, so he must have some understanding of the previous Azure Xue, right? Maybe she is just an ordinary lady, even if she is knowledgeable and polite, elegant and dignified, she is just a woman who does her duty better, and there is no essential difference from all the ladies of this era. Is this what makes Chu Yan and Yueniang suspicious of me? I just hope that their attention to the previous Azure Snow is not as high as I imagined, when I am an ordinary daughter, I haven't done too much intelligence gathering, otherwise, it is really difficult to deal with their interrogation?

"Haven't you heard that 'rich families don't need to buy good land, there are thousands of bells in the book.'" There is no need to raise a hall to live in peace, and there is a golden house in the book. Don't hate to go out with no one, there are many cars and horses in the book. Don't hate unscrupulous matchmakers when marrying a wife, there is Yan Ruyu in the book. The boy wants to fulfill his life's aspirations, and reads the Pentateuch to the window. ’？ I smiled and said, "Since everything in this world can be obtained from books, what is my little cleverness and timidity?" ”

"I see...... Yueniang's eyes flashed, and she didn't know if she believed me, "It seems that Miss Wei likes to read very much, and the girl also has great ambitions in her heart?" ”

Alas...... it's endless! It's for Chu Yan to get information, right? I sighed and laughed at myself: "Yueniang thinks too highly of me, I am only interested in idle books and wild history, but there is no great revenge." ”

"That girl still reads?" Yueniang pursed her lips and smiled, obviously not believing it, "What is the use of a woman reading so many books just to increase her troubles?" ”

What's the use? In our 21st century, the competition for survival is so fierce that whether you are a man or a woman, you may not survive without reading a little book. In order for a woman to get a good job, she has to learn more than a man; Women have to put in more effort, sweat and effort than men in order to succeed in their careers, but they still can't escape the fate of being surrounded by discrimination and gossip. Human civilization has advanced to the 21st century, and the patriarchal society has never disappeared, but it is not as obvious and formalized as the ancient women, and the imprisonment of women's spirit and personality by men is probably even worse than in ancient times. I didn't have the same knowledge as her, and shook my head and said, "If it's really useless, will Yueniang still stand here and talk to me about this now?" "I'm afraid that they will be disdainful of me and abandon me, right? I sighed softly, "Since everything in this world exists, there is a reason for its existence. ”

The last sentence made Yueniang look uncertain, and finally stopped talking. Xu was that the ideas I instilled in her were too avant-garde, and she had to digest them well, so she didn't bother me these three days, but only sent me the things I gave her to prepare. Chu Yan went out of my room since that, and there was no trace, only Feng Ge, running to me every day, we have practiced that song very well, I imagined the situation on the day I took the stage, and I often couldn't help but snicker, Feng Ge asked me what I was laughing at, and I also smiled and shook my head. I was already thinking about the official reception of guests after taking the stage, and I was sure that I would change his mind after the performance. I have exhausted my thoughts, and if I make a mistake, I can only say that God will not help me. Chu Yan, I am reckless, play this game with you, you must not let me down!;