Chapter 440: Loneliness
I don't know if the carefully prepared evidence has been checked, anyway, in the evening, Yang Dezhu took Brother Wang's car back to work.
After that, I didn't see Ning Caiyun for three or four days, and Brother Wang didn't mention it much. Everything seems to be the same as before. It's just that Yang Dezhu clearly remembers the feeling of his warm little hands trembling to help him. This memory was extremely clear, he saw Ning Caiyun sweating on his forehead with nervousness, and he also remembered that at that time, all his attention was spent on controlling himself and not making excessive moves.
He suddenly believed that Ning Caiyun was different from other actresses in the entertainment industry who relied on selling themselves to the top. But despite this, there is no such estrangement in his heart, Yang Dezhu still feels that it is impossible for him and Ning Caiyun to live in the same circle, she is like a dream that Yang Dezhu had, although there is a memory, but Yang Dezhu knows that it is unreal. It's impossible to have anything to do with her anymore.
After the 28th of the lunar month, basically no one comes to the bar anymore. On Chinese New Year's Eve and the first day of the new year, the bar was closed for two days, so Yang Dezhu took two days off.
He is destined to live alone this big year. Prepared a few cans of beer and drinks, bought some marinated cooked food, and soaked the packed dumplings in hot water, this is Yang Dezhu's Chinese New Year's Eve dinner.
Firecrackers rang out outside, and Yang Dezhu knew at this time why migrant workers wanted to go home for the New Year no matter how far away from home.
In fact, this is not just a traditional custom, but a person is indeed extremely lonely on Chinese New Year's Eve, as if he has been abandoned by the whole world, and there is always an inexplicable feeling of sadness in his heart.
In the end, people are social animals, and some people may be quiet, while others love to be lively. But no matter what kind of person you are, you can't afford to be lonely psychologically. Especially on Chinese New Year's Eve.
While Yang Dezhu was drinking beer and thinking a lot, the door of the bar was smashed.
Yang Dezhu couldn't think of anyone who could come over at this time, although Brother Wang warmly invited him to his house for the New Year before the holiday. But Yang Dezhu knew that it was just polite. Who wants to have an extra outsider in the family during the New Year?
When he opened the door, he found that it was Ning Caiyun, a person that Yang Dezhu really couldn't think of.
Today, Ning Caiyun wore a bright red tweed coat. His face was pale, as if the weather was too cold to be bloodless. However, she was carrying an insulated lunch box in her hand, and she didn't know what was inside.
didn't wait for Yang Dezhu to let her in, Ning Caiyun squeezed Yang Dezhu away very well and went directly into Yang Dezhu's dormitory.
A stack of cans of beer was seen on one of the chairs that served as a table. Ning Caiyun cheered and said, "Yes, there is even wine." Come on, let's get drunk today. ”
Yang Dezhu, who followed in, saw Ning Caiyun pinch his hands, and while taking out the dumplings that were already cold from the insulated lunch box, he opened the beer and was about to drink it.
Yang Dezhu hurriedly stopped, poured her a cup of hot water and said, "You are not afraid of stomach pain, give it, drink a cup of hot water to warm up your body before drinking."
Warming his hands with a cup, for some reason, Ning Caiyun's eyes were a little red. In fact, no one knows that Ning Caiyun's life experience is not glorious. She was an illegitimate child, and her mother refused to tell her who her father was until she died. When she was ten years old, her mother fell ill and died, and she has been growing up in her uncle's house. Although her mother left enough money to raise Ning Caiyun until she was eighteen years old, her uncle's family still didn't want to see her and looked down on her as an illegitimate child. However, in order to live and grow up, Ning Caiyun had to learn to disguise himself and hide himself deeper and deeper.
barely finished junior high school, in order to leave her uncle's house early, in order not to be looked down upon for the rest of her life, Ning Caiyun made an important decision related to her fate. She wants to be a star, she wants to go to acting school.
I secretly reviewed for half a year, and secretly borrowed money to learn some basic knowledge of acting. Ning Caiyun secretly came to Shangjing City with a dream and applied for the Shangjing Film Academy.
Maybe it's talent, maybe it's fate. It really made her admitted. But then she has to face a huge tuition fee.
In desperation, she returned to her uncle's house, borrowed money from her uncle, and signed a contract, promising to return ten times after graduation, so that she could learn acting with peace of mind.
Ning Caiyun graduated with honors, and at the same time, time has also transformed her from a stubborn girl into a beautiful girl.
Due to the school's graduation recommendation, she acted in two films, and the response was also good. got paid, and I was able to live a normal life.
But how did she know that life was far more cruel than she imagined. Without the school's recommendation, no matter how well she auditioned, it was useless. The directors always looked at her with lustful eyes, and told her with hints that where he lived tonight could give her guidance alone. Then you can also add drama to her.
Ning Caiyun is very smart, where does he not know the Tao in this. Although many classmates who studied acting together persuaded her, women, that's what happened. Why bother with money, be popular for a few years early, and enjoy life early.
But Ning Caiyun is different from them, she is not for money, she is here to prove herself, in order to make people look good, and to live with dignity.
So Ning Caiyun would rather use half a year to eat instant noodles and play tricks, and did not give in. Now that she has graduated a year, the repayment date she agreed with her uncle is only half a year away. Although she relies on her diligence and acting skills, even if she pushes the plays of those directors with bad intentions. Now I can earn five or six thousand yuan a month. However, the original 30,000 yuan now needs to be exchanged for 300,000 yuan. But she didn't even have 100,000, and she didn't know what she should do then.
Today is the Chinese New Year, and she called her uncle out of politeness to greet the New Year. But her uncle reminded her that there was still half a year before it was time to repay the money. And persuaded her to find a rich and big money as soon as possible.
Is this ****** what my uncle should say? When I called at the moment, I cried. Ning Caiyun felt that she was so lonely in the world, and she really wanted to die, so that neither the money-greedy uncle nor the directors who coveted her beauty would be able to succeed. But another voice told her not to give in, but to live better.
The sound of firecrackers outside represents the reunion of a family, and this highlights its desolation even more. Ning Caiyun walked out of the basement where she rented, and suddenly remembered Yang Dezhu, and it was only in this man that she had experienced warmth. So at this time, she missed Yang Dezhu very much.
Ning Caiyun is sensitive, and this thought can no longer be suppressed when it comes out in his life. So she went back to put on her coat, took the dumplings she had prepared for herself, and hurried to the bar. Even though she knew it would be dark tonight and there would be no taxis.