"So, he knows." Maggie filled her cup with water, "And then, what did he say?" ”

"Didn't say anything." Jenny shrugged, "Let's move on to the movie." ”

Maggie showed her an angry and funny expression of helplessness, "Girl, if this happened in a TV series, I'm sure the audience would blow up the complaint call, after you have been annoyed by his feelings for him for so long, and finally found out that he feels the same way for you - maybe even more deeply - after he wrote you a love letter with a whole movie - you got this sentence right, and then start talking about movies as if nothing had happened?" ”

Jenny laughed at her exaggerated tone, "Is this what a professional counselor should say?" I mean, so much exaggerated rhetoric? ”

"Okay, then I'll take those five minutes off your hourly bill." "But still, I think it's a puzzling twist, and of course I've seen a welcome change in you, and this time, when something big happens, when something unexpected happens, and it's not something you expected, and it's not something you expected, and you don't choose to shut it up, ignore it, deny it, but talk directly to the person concerned, and that's a good signal, and I don't understand why you suddenly broke off the conversation and started to change the subject." ”

After the first two sessions of Qi Feng's prominence, Jenny and Maggie's psychological counseling smoothly turned into a normal rhythm, and she began to open up to the counselor, at least she would not feel uncomfortable talking about her personal matters, and she also felt the comfort of sorting out her emotions: people have a desire to express, and the factors that prevent a person from making friends are not in addition to the sense of trust, there are also reasons for worrying that the other party does not really care about it, and you can find someone to patiently listen to you explain your personal problems. And knowing exactly that this topic is not boring for her, and it will not cause a burden to the relationship between the two, this sense of relaxation is also a good relief.

"I don't think it's a disruption of communication." Jenny said, frowning as she struggled to articulate her feelings, "more like she's done talking." I mean, of course you can't expect him to tell you what's going on in your heart or anything, Salvi isn't that kind of person, he's the kind of person who is very ...... Very English character, you know what I mean, like the typical English gentleman in 19th century romance novels—"

"I can understand," Maggie said, "that the first characteristic of such people is that they don't talk about the sky, or they don't talk about their feelings. ”

"Yes, of course Salvi is very talkative on certain topics, such as film and art, but he is always very secretive when it comes to personal topics." Jenny thought as she spoke, "But the bizarre thing is that I can pick up his signals, like we don't need words to communicate, you can understand his attitude just by looking at him, and you will understand that he can understand you that way." I'm a terrible lover, and I don't want to be in a relationship, he knows, how does he know? Of course, you don't need to ask, it's a bit stupid to put all this into words, it's very obvious, isn't it? He certainly saw it in me, and these signals were not a secret to him, I was attracted to him, and he was attracted to me, but I had no intention of falling in love, and he didn't want to change that, because our lifestyles were so different, and he didn't want to force any of us to change. ”

"And that's what you feel from him," Maggie asked, "the messages read out of his face." ”

“yeah…… This is really strange. Jenny admits, "When we interact with people, we have a lot of energy guessing what the other person really thinks, and we have to use a lot of words to embellish our thoughts so that the other person doesn't misunderstand, but my communication with Salvi is never like this, it's like ...... It's like you can read the words straight into his heart: 'I know you don't want to be in a relationship, but I don't need your permission to love you', 'I know we don't know each other yet, but love is not a product of understanding, love is a product of instinct' - Salvi would never say it, but I can really read it......"

She shook her head and interrupted her conversation a little shyly, "It's a little too sensy to continue, but ...... That's really what I really felt, and after he said that, we looked at each other for a while, and we basically understood each other's attitudes, so I didn't think it was a broken communication, I thought it was a very successful, very complete communication, so -- we went to talk about the movie next. ”

Maggie had a thoughtful expression, and Jenny looked at her, her eyes wide open, waiting for her to do the next, and the consultation room fell silent.

After a while, Maggie said slowly, "I think it's a rare connection, you don't have a very personal communication, but you have established a tacit communication that has been a partner for many years, and this is not a relationship that everyone can have...... Have you ever met such a person before him? Whether it's love or friendship, is there a relationship that can be compared to him? ”

Jenny thought about it for a moment, and she thought of her ex-husband...... Dave...... Chris, and of course countless passionate suitors, Said, James...... Her friends, Lilian, Josh, Mary, Cesare......

"Nope." She said, "Yes, no, he is...... This connection and attraction is...... Unique, probably I felt it from the first time we met, we didn't even have to talk and touch to realize it, if you know what I mean. ”

"So," Maggie nodded, "Salvi and you are attracted to each other, like you're attracted to him, in some way in love with him, and he loves you in some way, and it feels like fate, soul mate, but he knows that you don't want to enter a new relationship right now, so he didn't pursue you, he chose-"

"Dealing with this feeling alone," Jenny nodded, "yes." ”

"And how do you feel when you know about it?" Maggie asked, "Are you happy, satisfied, and moved, or depressed and upset?" ”

"I feel ...... Well, reassuringly," said Jenny, "because it proves that I'm not self-inflicted, which is important to me - but it makes me feel shallow to say it." ”

"No, it's normal, I guess it's important to anyone," Maggie smiled reassuringly, "I can overwhelm you with some psychological jargon if you need to, but we'll stop at that for now - it's a human instinct, and it's important for anyone to prove that they're not self-inflicted, and for you it has a meaning because it proves that your mental mechanisms are still functioning well." ”

"Yes, it does." Jenny nodded approvingly, "Of course there is joy, I don't think this needs to be explained, there are regrets, yes, I like him very much, he likes me too, it's a pity that we can't continue......"

"Why not?" Maggie asked.

"Because I'm not a good lover, I'm so busy - here's the truth, I'm going to keep busy, and Salvi isn't the kind of person who changes the pace of life for the sake of his lover, neither of us, plus ...... I don't know how to say that Salvi's feelings ...... Maybe it's paradoxical to say that, because he's British, and his personality has the characteristics of the extremely introverted British, but on the other hand he's an artist, and you get the sense that his feelings aren't as focused as those of an English gentleman," said Jenny, "I don't know if you can understand what I mean, he's not a playboy, the kind of guy who plays with feelings for fun, but you feel that he can love several people at the same time, and love is not a single-minded, passionate and lasting relationship for him, so in fact he is not suitable for developing a fixed and long-term relationship, And I feel that his focus is not here now, he is more concerned about his directorial career. ”

"And will you be disappointed that you can't continue with him?" Maggie asked, "Does recognizing his qualities bring you feelings of frustration?" ”

"Maybe it was a relief to me," Jenny mused, "and it was relaxing to know that he liked me too, and that I didn't hurt him." Of course, the loss is inevitable, but not so severe that it cannot be overcome, maybe I don't have a good opinion of him to the point where I want to spend time with him, maybe I'm too busy to think about it all the time - I don't know, maybe there are both. ”

"Right," said Maggie, "I've found some interesting questions, maybe it has something to do with your recent occasional insomnia and nightmares, so let's make a list of them together and let you decide which one we should discuss first, shall we?" ”

Jenny didn't want to talk about her nightmares, she didn't think the source of the stress was definitely the relationship - but she didn't know what to say to Maggie, so she just mumbled and Maggie looked at her sensitively - but she didn't ask anything.

"From our first consultation, you said that you don't want to be in a relationship and that you wouldn't actually develop a long-term relationship for the rest of your life if possible." "Not that it's abnormal, but I want to talk to you about the internal reasons for your decision, and maybe we can talk about your childhood, which you haven't dabbled in so far." ”

She wrote it down on the paper, glanced at Jeanne inquiringly, and seeing that she did not object, she continued, "Secondly, I find that you have a tendency to blame yourself, and that you use self-reproach many times when describing your relationship with Christopher, and it seems as if you have attributed most of the faults, if any, that ended your relationship to yourself, and that in your relationship with Salvi you are also worried that he will be hurt by you, and it seems as if you see yourself as a dangerous weapon to anyone who comes near you, there is a risk of injury. ”

"But I was really the one who broke up with Chris." Jenny retorted reflexively, but quickly resisted the urge to raise the bar, "Well, I see what you mean, the relationship ended because we wanted something different, and it's really not anyone's fault......"

She bit her lower lip and said hesitantly, "But I do feel ashamed of him, and I feel like I hurt him." ”

"Why?" Maggie asked.

"Because...... Emotionally, he opened everything up to me unreservedly," Jenny said, and she began to feel slightly uncomfortable again, "He sincerely invited me into his world, but I didn't, so I did hurt him." ”

"So you didn't, is it because you don't want to, or because you can't?" Maggie asked in a gentle tone.

"Because I ......," Jenny picked and chose her words, but she could still feel her boredom rising—not for Maggie, if anything, for their conversation: she was tired of the careful evasion and concealment of the central question, the constant restraint of not being able to relax completely. Her origin is a secret, she has a secret - but this is not the problem itself, the problem is that everyone does not know that she has a secret, the group of relatives and friends represented by Maggie really care about her and want to help her (of course they also benefit from it, but this is not the point), but because of this secret, their concern becomes a bit of a joke, Jenny feels like she is in the center of a maze, and others want to walk through the maze to help her, but she can only watch them explore the wrong territory. This feeling made her very stressed, even guilty, and felt like she had cheated on other people's feelings again, just like she had 'cheated' Chris at the time.

"Because I can't," she said, the desire to talk. Hope, the urge to tell the truth dominated her, making her speak her choice, "It's not that I have a barrier in this area, even if I want to, I can't do anything, I have the ability, it's just ...... There are a few factors that limit my choice. ”

"Hmm." Maggie said, in a calm tone.

Before she had time to regret it, Jenny said anxiously, "Because I ...... I have a secret. ”

"A secret." Maggie repeated.

"A very important secret," Jenny said, "is so important that it has affected almost my entire personal life, and I could even say that it has dominated my life...... I can't open my heart without revealing the secret, so I can't develop any intimacy while keeping the secret. ”

Finally spoken......

Jenny never conceived of revealing her life to anyone, not once, and when she played this sidekick, surprisingly, she did not panic at all, but felt happy and relieved - she simply explained the cause of her insomnia, "By the way, my recent nightmare should have nothing to do with my love life, it was caused by another secret of mine...... I can't tell you though. ”

“ok。” Maggie said, her expression gradually becoming a little serious, "May I ask why?" ”

"I can't tell you the second secret because it's risky," Jenny confessed, "as for the first secret...... I guess it's because we're not close enough that I don't trust you enough. ”

"And are you alone with these two secrets?" Maggie asked.

"The second secret is not." Jenny said she wasn't surprised to find Maggie: perhaps she had already guessed, after all, her clients were celebrities and could not have been without law-breaking little secrets. "But the first secret is really only known to me."

"And it's very important." Maggie said. "It's changed your whole life - let me guess if it's going to be one of your sources of stress, or even the main one?"

Jenny admits that the secret is indeed a source of stress.

"That explains a lot." Maggie said thoughtfully, "Your personality is not particularly closed, you are not particularly repulsive or communicative, but you are very resistant to counselling, even though you have come to trust my professional qualities, I can feel our friendliness and trust in each other, everything is going well, but I still find that there is a gap in our conversations at times, and you don't seem to be fully engaged...... I sense that you are still mysterious and reserved. ”

"And that's exactly what Chris thinks," Jenny said with a wry smile, "so you know why I always feel guilty and feel like I've hurt him." Of course he will feel hurt, and there are some things that you don't realize that don't exist, and they can still affect every aspect of the relationship. ”

"Of course." Maggie said, "From your tone, I sense that this secret is not a traumatic memory because you are talking about it in such an open tone. ”

"Yes, it's not." Jenny said that she was also trying to analyze her feelings about the whole story, and she said slowly, "Actually, it's more of an undecided choice, I don't know how to say it, but there is a possibility that I ......."

She glanced at Maggie, but didn't say anything after all, "I'm sorry, I can't do it, it's just...... To explain it is to tell you about it, and I ...... I don't think our relationship has come to this point. ”

"No problem, you don't need to force yourself," Maggie said immediately, "and can we try to discuss how it affects you without talking about its contents?" ”

After getting Jenny's permission, she went on to ask, "Will it bother you?" ”

"Sometimes it's very bothersome." Jenny admitted.

"Do you want to talk about it with someone you don't trust enough because it can hurt you?" Maggie asked.

Jenny thought about it for a moment - no matter who she talked about, she wasn't going to mention her golden finger, or that she might be able to travel back into, because it didn't seem to be a problem to her, but a help, and the latter she didn't think she had much chance of accomplishing that grand goal until now, because, after all, ...... What is called dominance?

Therefore, no matter who she talks to about this, she only intends to tell them that she has another personality and memory, and she can speak Chinese, is also very familiar with China, and can predict some major events, and it can be said that it is easy to prove that she is not insane, and even if the other party does not understand, most of them will not say anything to the media, and even if they do, it will not be big news without evidence-

"No, I don't think it can hurt me...... Or my career," she sighed a little helplessly, "I just don't think they're going to believe me and understand me, maybe it's going to make them change their opinion of me and ruin our friendship." ”

"But if you keep avoiding the question and keep it in your own mind, it will become a big obstacle, not to mention the problem of it preventing you from developing intimacy," Maggie said with a mysterious pause, "just talk about your nightmares and insomnia - back to that simple model, you are a strong man, and your bucket has a large capacity, but because of your secrets, the bucket seems to be in a state of imminent fullness, and as soon as you add another tap, such as your new secret, it will soon start overflowing again." Of course, this time because you are not filming at the same time, the symptoms will be simple and mild. ”

"Sleeping pills also have a certain effect." Jenny muttered, "And some of the tricks you taught me were pretty helpful in boosting my mood." ”

"Yes, it will get you through the troughs," Maggie said, "but it's not the solution to the underlying problem, and I hope you can still talk to someone about your secrets, if it doesn't hurt you." Let's look rationally - and I find this analysis particularly convincing to you - as you say, there are things that don't exist without knowing it, but it still affects your life, every aspect, so to speak, and it still has a negative impact on your personal relationships, and since the influence is always there, why don't you say it, to someone you absolutely trust, who you don't think he or she will use this secret to harm you - then at least you will have a good chance of feeling relaxed and relieved, and take a step back and say, Even if he doesn't believe it, if he doesn't understand, you won't be hurt too much, because, undoubtedly, even if you don't say it, it's affecting your relationship with him, making him feel uncertain and hurt at times, and after that, he'll at least get an answer, won't he. At least you can stop being guilty because you have done it with sincerity. ”

She glanced at Jenny and softened her tone, "Of course, this is always just a suggestion, you have absolute freedom to choose what to do or not to do, I won't ask you anything, even if you don't want to adopt this strategy, we can find some other ways to help you, you don't need to feel any pressure......"

The routine relief of these counselors did not have much effect on Jenny, at least now she has her troubles, but she is not too confused or frustrated, she does not need Maggie's care, on the contrary, Maggie is right, she just likes this kind of point-to-point analysis, which allows her to look at her problems from another angle. And one of the things she likes about counseling is that Maggie is completely on the side of the service, Jenny has the initiative, and she can stop when she feels uncomfortable, without worrying about frustrating the other person on the other side of the conversation.

"I'll consider your suggestion." She said, changing the subject, "But that seems like enough for today, can we talk about something else?" ”

"Of course." Maggie said she filled Jenny's glass, "Can you share your recent life and any events that have touched you?" ”

"A friend of mine, Lillian, maybe you know her, she's Chesa's former fiancée — I'm the kind of friend with whom you can go a long time without feeling unfamiliar — she's getting married," Jenny said, smiling, "We're talking about whether I'm the right bridesmaid, I don't want to steal the limelight, you know, and she's on the move, and she doesn't want to be the show, but she wants the Oscar queen to be her bridesmaid, and she's reluctant to give up the gimmick." ”

Maggie laughed, too, "Sounds so cute." ”

"That's true...... I envy her sometimes," said Jenny, "well, sometimes even a little jealous, but that feeling usually passes quickly, so it doesn't become a problem." ”

She exhaled, "Think about it, what other trivial troubles have been going on lately...... Oh, by the way, I started practicing my vocals for Rob's new film, but I was very worried about his script, and if it was according to the current script, I thought Nine would be his Waterloo, but I wasn't sure if I should give him advice because he was feeling good about himself right now, and I was just a supporting character, and I didn't seem to be supposed to do that, which might ruin our friendship. ”

"Uh-huh." Maggie said, "But I thought you and Rob were very good friends. ”

"He's been nice to me," said Jenny, who sighed, "well, but I feel distant from him, and maybe that's the problem with you going out socializing with a secret in your arms, and it's always easy to feel that your connection with others is breaking off, disappearing, and that they're guilty of their affection and help for you." ”

She struggled to pull herself together and made up her mind, "But you're right, I should go and remind Rob to say what I think." Should I have faith in our friendship - maybe I didn't have faith in him before, but projected my estrangement from him onto him - is that a psychological term, Maggie? ”

"It looks like you just need a little training to become a psychiatrist." Maggie said wittily.

Jenny laughed, "Well, what's more, oh, and I've been feeling poor lately...... Yes, I do feel poor, I just spent a lot of cash to buy a stake in Marvel and spent my savings, which also left me with no money to buy a house, so I had to stay in a hotel all the time. Did you know that when money reaches a certain value, it's just a number to you? - I guess the person who said this must not have run his own business, or I haven't had that much money, it's weird, if you count it by market value, I already have a net worth of hundreds of millions, but I still feel poor and can't buy what I want......"

#

Jenny didn't lie to Maggie, nor did she mean to amuse her, and the problem of her residence was indeed a problem now: on the one hand, after taking out the cash she had saved for Disney's shares, and buying Disney's share of the Marvel Honorarium with Cesare, she did not have a large amount of cash on hand to buy the 30 million mansion, which made her feel very poor; Jenny, on the other hand, was suspicious of living in a mansion, which gave her little incentive to take out a bank loan and try to get the house - the Stalker, who had never been revealed, made her a little afraid of living alone. Although she intellectually knew that staying in a hotel would not make her safer, and that the mansion's well-established security system might be better protected, emotionally, Jenny felt an instinctive rejection at the thought of her having to live alone in that large house, where no one but herself would live in the main house (the bodyguards and staff lived in the podium, of course), and the problem was really difficult to solve, because she could trust the friends who had been invited to live with her.

Needless to say, Lillian is preparing for her wedding to Mark, and after that, she goes to Africa to see the great migration of animals, and by the way, provides medical assistance to East Africa (very Mark and Lillian). Mary's words, she was also frightened by the Stalker, Jenny felt that it was not a good idea to let her accompany her, and besides, she and Nicholas had already lived together steadily, and the residence was near Nicholas's new fitness club, and it was unrealistic for them to move to Malibu, which was more than an hour's drive away.

Claudia is also a good candidate, she is more composed than Mary - but this is not possible, because she is pregnant and preparing for the birth of a baby with a new boyfriend.

Josh is currently single and also in Los Angeles, and he and Jenny still talk on the phone from time to time and occasionally have dinner together, but inviting him into his house means a new wave of earth-shattering scandals, so the idea is definitely passing. - Even Jim, who didn't think about his willingness, because of the demands of his work, and the inconvenience of living in Malibu.

So, Jenny is embarrassed here now, she can't help but buy a house - the media has already begun to report that she has been 'evicted from the house by Chris, and has been living in a hotel as her home', asking her to buy a house in the city she is unwilling to, she is unhappy to continue to live in a hotel, and buying a house in Malibu is a double financial and psychological difficulty - she has not yet thought about what to do about this matter, but it seems that she does need to push herself and make a decision early in the near future.

Putting aside the matter of buying a house for the time being, and not thinking about how to talk to Rob about "Nine", after coming out of Maggie's clinic, Jenny drove straight to the airport, where she met Cesare and the team, and took a private jet to New York to attend Isaac. Bolmatt's welcome dinner, which was a gesture of goodwill to welcome her as a new shareholder to Marvel, was reciprocated by choosing to host it in New York instead of having a large number of people fly to Los Angeles, and on the other hand, the team also deliberately made the noise louder and made Warners feel more urgent pressure.

"If you want to play a superhero, why don't you just work with Marvel?" Kevin, who is obviously calculating. Faigie was gladly invited to fly to New York with Jenny's team instead of flying in business class on his own, and he was busy lobbying Jenny along the way to abandon the idea of working with Warner, "We have so many superheroes, Pepper has also put on armor, and we can also do a crossover with Iron Man......"

"Kevin," Jenny is now the good-natured girl again, she smiled apologetically, "I didn't tell you everything, I won't play the heroine of DC, this is Warner and our cooperation, the main body is a big dream, I think this kind of cooperation model Marvel may not be acceptable." ”

She didn't wait for Kevin to reply, she immediately changed the subject, "I've heard that some shareholders are also at the party, can you give me a little bit of air - you know, I don't want to be too arrogant and rude." ”

It can be seen that Kevin thinks she is very arrogant and rude now, but driven by good business etiquette, he still introduces Jenny, "Isaac is of course the main character, but there are indeed several major shareholders who are also sending representatives to get in touch with you, and I even heard that Carl and Ron will be coming - they seem to like your movie, and of course, Bill, he will definitely be coming......"

Isaac. Bormatt, CEO of Marvel, Bill Brown. Gemas, the creative director, these are all important management positions at Marvel, but for Jenny and Cesare, they are far less shocking than the two names Kevin mentioned earlier. Jenny and Cesare looked at each other, and both felt a little shocked.

Ron. Pereman, Carr. Icahn is a well-known rich man on Wall Street, a big man in the financial industry, and at the same time, they are also the largest and second largest shareholders of Marvel...... Unexpectedly, this was the first time they came into contact with Marvel's shareholders, and they encountered such two big fish......