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In the minds of the children, the father probably plays a mountain-like role, all say that the father's love is like a mountain, the happy face of the man who opens his eyes in his life is your backer for at least the first twenty years of your life, and it is the man who may not have much achievement, how much money and how much power, but must wholeheartedly support a sky for you, give you everything, he works outside so that you can use the best diapers and drink the best milk powder, it is he who shelters you from the wind and rain outside, and can make you cry and coquettish in the warm home. He was sent out there to run errands to earn you semester after semester of tuition. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Li Qingcheng always felt that the word father was very distant to him, when he was a child, he even excused Li Shenwu, saying that a man's love is as calm as a mountain, maybe this man who doesn't like to express it is a typical of it, and he doesn't want to put love on his lips, but the man whose face is always white and pure, who speaks with a very smooth but stern voice, loves him, but it is like never putting him on his shoulders and letting him ride a big horse, saying these feelings, for a long time, Li Qingcheng thought so.

Even now, before no one comes out to completely shatter this sketch and no one knows whether it is true or false, no matter how fearful and tired Li Qingcheng's heart is, no matter how tired he is, he doesn't want to see this man, but it is undeniable that the fact that he is his father can be erased by no one, his imagination is still there, even he himself may not be willing to admit it.

Everyone will always deceive themselves, they know in their hearts the objective existence of a thing or an idea, but they don't admit it on their lips, Li Qingcheng too, if the previous fantasy is a subconscious that he may not be aware of, then the fact that he worships Li Shenwu is well known to him, although he has never admitted it for a day, and he feels that he will never say it in the future, but this is a fact.

He admired his father, since he was a child, this worship made him throughout the process of adolescence with a strong imitation of his father, not many memories but bits and pieces but very clear pictures are the source of his imitation, the most vivid is always clean dress, peaceful and peaceful but the strength of the strange tone, and not sharp but sometimes people feel that the eyes are pierced in the back, such as blunt knives, heavy swords without edges, at first not piercing, but the pressure is like a mountain of tides.

Li Shenwu just started, Li Qingcheng found that his curiosity was completely caught, and the previous anger or fear or something was all gone, although he deliberately didn't say anything because of the ridiculous face-saving relationship, and deliberately kept a straight face, but his hand had already picked up the glass of red wine, although he didn't drink it, but this subconscious action was undoubtedly a big breakthrough for the father and son, especially in such a tense atmosphere now.

"I stole your grandfather's money and I came back a week later, don't think that I came back with how many times the money, and you imagined the opposite, I lost, lost all my money, and I didn't bring back any of the money I stole from your grandfather, and when I got home, your grandfather was already sitting at home and ready a whip waiting for me, the whip at that time was not the bells and whistles of now, it was a whip used to drive livestock, and the cowhide whip was woven with vines, and I knew each other very well, A whip on the body is a blood mark. I was beaten by your grandfather for an afternoon, and finally I almost thought I was going to finish playing, and no one in the whole family dared to ask except your grandmother, your grandfather's whip didn't recognize people, and even took your grandmother to whip several times, and I didn't know how I passed out while pumping, anyway, I was recuperated at home for more than half a year before I recovered, and I was also angry in my heart, and I didn't say a word to your grandfather for most of the year. Li Shenwu took a sip of wine, in fact, it was the first time in so many years that he opened his mouth to tell another person about these things, and he didn't have much excitement or emotion, sighing and other things like moaning without illness, but he felt a little regretful, regret What he didn't say no one would understand.

Touching it on his body, Li Shenwu asked for a box of very delicate cigarettes, the English brand, which was not real, and threw one to Li Qingcheng, ignoring the dumbfounded son, and said, "Smoke, your mother has already told me about your smoking." ”

Li Qingcheng honestly put the cigarette in his mouth, hesitated for a while, and took out a lighter to light it for him and himself.

"Although I lost the first time, I didn't give up, at that time we studied tuition were two yuan a piece, I didn't go to study again from a very early age, but saved up the tuition fees that your grandfather gave me, and when your uncle and aunt went to class, I secretly ran to the city, and didn't come back until the time was almost out of school, so I saved more than ten yuan, and then found a way to sell blood, so I ran to sell blood, and raised a total of twenty yuan, this is my second attempt, this time I succeeded. Twenty dollars became forty dollars and then a hundred, and I came back with two hundred dollars in two months and paid the tuition fees of my brothers, sisters, brothers and sisters, that is, your uncles and aunts, and took out the money in front of your grandfather, and I felt very satisfied when I looked at your grandfather's surprised eyes, and I was in a similar mood to you just now, but I was better than you, and I relied on my own strength to earn money to raise my eyebrows, You are thinking about how to get my family property and throw me to a nursing home to bask in the sun until you die, speaking of which you can be regarded as having a conscience, I was thinking about throwing your grandfather to the mountains and giving him a piece of land to fend for himself. Li Shenwu looked at Li Qingcheng, who was sitting on the chair with his head down, holding the wine glass in both hands, and saw that the cup in his hand was empty, so he took the wine bottle and poured it for him.

"You're not much better now." Li Qingcheng muttered.

"It's not much better, because your grandparents still live in the countryside, right?" Li Shenwu said lightly.

Li Qingcheng didn't speak, for fear of touching his head.

"You don't understand adult things." Li Shenwu said something that most parents would say to their children, without much explanation.

"Then I dropped out of school completely, I went to the city alone, it has never been smooth sailing for so many years, I have deceived people, deceived people, and later learned to deceive people, deceived people, deceived people, abducted people, learned to ignore others, bankrupt and wife, learned the sentence of success and ten thousand bones withered, blood has no return, poverty and desperation, has given people white eyes, spit on people, and developed for a while, too rich, too glorious, too honored, and flattered, to the present, I am no longer the stupid boy who came out of the countryside with more than 100 yuan and didn't understand anything, but I was arrogant and felt that no matter how big the world was, I could get it, but one thing has not changed, if I had nothing overnight, I would not have jumped off the building and would not commit suicide, and the next day I would go to the streets to continue to trick people and deceive people, and continue to start from scratch. Li Shenwu was meaningful, and gently spit out a puff of smoke, his smoking posture was very tasteful, which made Li Qingcheng feel a little ashamed of himself, he felt that compared with his old man, his previous little melancholy and self-righteous little temperament was disease-free and moaning, simple and ridiculous.

"I'm just trying to tell you one thing, being my son, you can be mediocre or unproductive, but no matter how much you squander, you only have twenty years to squander, and all I can give you is twenty years of worry-free and comfortable life, don't expect me to give you a little more. I want you to want the same thing, not to ask for it from others, even if I am your father, I will not give you everything, I didn't have a rich father back then, and now you have a rich but stingy father, he will not give you anything you want extravagant and excessive. Do you want, can, buy it yourself, money? I don't, don't ask me, you have to find a way to borrow it yourself, you can repay it yourself, your pit is your ability, it is also your ability to get the money yourself, it doesn't matter what means you can get. Of course, the responsibility and consequences are yours to bear. You don't go through this, and you'll never know why I'm treating you the way I do now. After Li Shenwu finished speaking, he put down the wine glass, extinguished the cigarette butt, rubbed his temples, and said lightly, "Today is over, I'm tired, you go and rest." ”

Li Qingcheng got up slowly, put down his wine glass, and walked out of the study.

When he walked out of the room, he happened to see the woman looking this way, and when he saw him, he hurriedly showed a slightly cautious smile, Li Qingcheng nodded coldly, didn't say a word, and went upstairs, what he didn't know was that this little action was very similar to his father.

After Li Qingcheng left, the woman entered the study, and soon she went out of the study with Li Shenwu, and the two went upstairs, Li Shenwu glanced at Li Qingcheng's room on the far side of the corridor, and said lightly, "You can live here today, but you must move out tomorrow, and go to the hotel every night." ”

The woman was a little aggrieved, but she still responded, very well-behaved.

"And which room are we going to stay in tonight?" The woman glanced in the direction of the master bedroom, and her heart pounded.

"You go sleep in the guest room downstairs." Li Shenwu said indifferently, didn't look at the woman after speaking, and strode towards the master bedroom where Shi Wanjing lived.

The woman looked at Li Shenwu's back aggrievedly and resentfully, and finally could only go downstairs silently.

Li Shenwu walked into the master bedroom, turned on the light to dispel the darkness, stood in the room, did not find any photos about him in this room, walked to the bed, sat down slowly, stretched out his hand on the pillow, closed his eyes and seemed to scatter his thoughts.

After a long time, Li Shenwu walked out of the room, and instead of going to the guest room downstairs, he picked an empty bedroom upstairs to sleep in.