When I looked up, it was Xu Fang. She took a overalls in her hand, didn't say anything, reached out, wrapped the overalls around my waist, tied both sleeves in a knot in the front, finished tying, looked at me, turned away.

I also continued to move forward silently, but there was something spicy in my eyes, and this girl, who had been at odds with me since school, became the only person willing to give me warmth at this time.

Everyone in the dormitory went to work, I scrubbed myself in the bathroom in the stairwell, washed Xu Fang's work clothes and my own clothes, hung them on the clothesline in the dormitory, and then washed a packet of soybean milk powder with water in a thermos, and sat on the edge of the bed with a cup and drank it slowly. After drinking a cup of soy milk, I got up and went to the bathroom to wash the cup, put it back in the corner of the table, and then, taking a bag, stuffing a few clothes into it, locking the door of the dormitory, and going downstairs. When I was doing all this, my mind was blank, I didn't think about anything, like a puppet with a full string, just following the habits that I should have, and I didn't have to think about why.

The way home that I was used to walking so much still greeted me frankly, looking at the tall locust tree in front of my house from afar, my heart beat suddenly accelerated.

My mother was very puzzled and suspicious of my return, and I told her that the equipment in the factory was going to be installed and commissioned, and it was all on holiday, and when would I resume work. I'm telling the truth, just a year ago.

I felt very tired, I ate some food and fell asleep, and slept until night, I opened my eyes and looked, it was dark, I closed my eyes and fell asleep, and I didn't fall asleep yet, my mother came in and called me to eat.

"Eat! I don't want to eat. ”

"What if you don't eat? Get up, eat and go back to sleep. ”

I turned to face the wall, my eyes closed and I didn't speak. My mom sat down on the edge of the bed and patted me with her hand: "Have you felt anything uncomfortable since you slept in the afternoon?" ”

"Nope."

"What can I tell you?"

"It's fine."

"Quarreled with Jianjun?"

"Oh, no."

My mother asked again: "Then you have a holiday, and Jianjun is not on vacation?" ”

"He does sales, installs equipment and they don't matter, what's the vacation?"

I was afraid that my mother would ask something again, so Suo turned over and went out to eat with my mother, and during the meal, my mother asked again, "Is it really okay?" ”

"Nope."

I drank the porridge in the bowl, not daring to look my mom in the eye.

After eating, I helped my mother clean up the dishes and chopsticks, said that I was tired, and went to my small bed to continue sleeping. After sleeping all afternoon, the body recovered a little, and when I slept again, the brain cells were no longer so peaceful, and the chaotic dreams came one after another, like pieces of torn photos, déjà vu but I don't know why, a fragment that I can remember a little, it seems to be a little bit of an activity, many people are performing on stage, I am also among them, everyone around knows each other, they are all those people in the machine repair class, it was originally a performance, but they were working with tools on the stage, and the squad leader also looked up: "Where is Gao Jun?" Didn't come again? "I turned my head to look for Gao Jun, but I didn't see it, and when I turned back, I was gone. Is it stepping down? I panicked to find the stairs to get off the stage, but the white stage lights pierced my eyes and I couldn't see anything, I was so anxious that I lowered my head and blocked it with my hands, but suddenly I found myself naked......

In the dark, I sat on the bed with my knees crossed, my heart pounding, and I couldn't wake up from the nightmare I had just woken up for a long time.

During the day, my mother went to buy vegetables and asked me to go with her, I didn't want to go, my mother looked at me, didn't insist, went out with a vegetable basket, and I followed over to plug the courtyard door.

In the small courtyard, except for the two chickens pacing peacefully, I am the one who can move and pant for breath, the familiar yard, the familiar breath, all of which makes me feel at ease. I stood in the yard and looked at the vegetables my mother had planted, and there were a few tomatoes that were already hanging with green fruits, and the eggplants were ripe and purple hanging on the branches. I suddenly remembered that many years ago, when my dad died, my mom didn't go out for almost a year, and I often saw her standing in the yard in a daze, not saying anything, doing nothing, just standing like that. At that time, I didn't understand, I thought my mother was mentally wrong, quarreled with my mother, and disliked her, but now I suddenly understand that my mother is also like me, hiding here, not wanting to see people, not wanting to go out, is slowly digesting the sudden changes.

From yesterday to today, I have changed from a material clerk to a thief now, my brain has been dizzy, blank, I didn't think about anything, I didn't even think about Jianjun, I didn't see him in my dreams, I have been used to loneliness, before leaving, I am not spoiled, still echoing in my ears, in addition to one beautiful clothes after another, I don't know what else can be called pampered, I said I wanted to live with him in the usual day, but he is like a wild horse, can no longer stop, I was disturbed by Liu Jihua that he was not there, I dragged my bloodstained clothes and was watched by onlookers, he was not there, he was busy in the distance but thought it was for my good.

I know that thinking like this, Jianjun is a little wronged, but I still can't help but blame him in my heart.

After dinner, my mother asked her and me to go to Wei Min's house, where Wei Min's tricycle was disbanded, and several of the older ones retired, leaving a few young ones at home, waiting to be rearranged. The original commune is gone, and the relevant rights are vested in the district government. When it was about the eldest mother, we called that family Guan Da Niang's house, but now we have to call it Wei Min's house in the same house. "You and I went to persuade him, he came two days ago, said that Wei Min wanted to learn to drive, and said that the washing machine could not be bought, and the two of them may have stumbled a few words."

"You go, I'm not going."

"What are you doing at home when you go out for a walk? By the way, help me persuade you, young people, to go together. ”

"What can I say? I don't know what's going on, besides, he's older than me, I'll go and say he's not suitable, you go, he treats you as an adult, you can do it. ”

"What's wrong with you? By the way, take a stroll and digest your food. ”

"I'm not going."

“…… Forget it, I'm not going either, let's do it another day. ”

"Go ahead, I'll be at home by myself."

"I don't want to go, let's talk about it another day, you finally have a holiday, and I will talk to you more."

“……”

"Xiao Nan, what do you think of Xiao Cui?"

Xiao Cui is Wei Min's girlfriend and the secretary of the Youth League branch of the electric fan factory, who is about the same height as me and looks average. I've seen it a few times.

"Okay."

"At the beginning, I also looked at the line, I was very capable at a young age, dressed plainly, and looked like a very pleasing girl, but as soon as something happened, the person's real surname was exposed, just because Wei Min moved the money to buy a washing machine for marriage, and ran to our house to complain to Wei Min, that momentum, and the general public is no different, and the secretary of the Youth League branch! It's not level. Not worthy of Wei Min. ”

"That's good, aren't they all registered?"

"That's what we're talking about."

"I think it's very good, two people go to work together, get off work together, get together every day, what are you afraid of when you quarrel a few words? Didn't you and my dad have a quarrel back then? ”

"The surname is different, we quarrel, that's a matter of principle, when did you see me and your dad quarrel over money?"

“……”

At night, it was very cool in the small courtyard, and my mother and I sat under the grape trellis in front of the door, and my mother took a fan and put it on the mosquito, and there was no word to speak.

"This grape trellis was built by Wei Min and his brothers, do you think this grape grows well?"

A few bunches of green and small grapes drooped under the dense leaves, "After a while, you and Jianjun will come back and you can eat." ”

“……”

"Do you sleep in your cabin or not? The room was not very ventilated. "My mom asked me.

"Okay."

"No, let's go to the big house and sleep, let's sleep in the big bed."

"Forget it, it's hotter when you squeeze it."

"What's hot? Open the front and back windows, and have to cover a small quilt in the middle of the night. ”

"No, I'll do it in the hut."

"Listen to me, to the big house."

“…… All right. ”

The long dark night, the dream still came unexpectedly after falling asleep, as if it was the backstage of the ballroom dance competition, Chairman Liu of the trade union held a lot of clothes and stuffed it to me anxiously: "Quick! It's our turn, let's hurry up and change their clothes! Fast! ”

I took my clothes and turned to run, thinking as I ran, where are they? Why didn't you tell me? Running and running, running into a building at once, I ran up the stairs as if the dancing people were staying in the building. However, I went up many stairs, but I didn't see a single door. I thought to myself, it's bad, I can't delay going on stage. Running again, I found that the more I went up, the darker it became, so dark that I couldn't see the stairs, step by step I groped and continued to go up, suddenly, vaguely saw a small door at the corner of the stairs, I thought to myself, I finally found it, I stepped forward and pushed the door open, and suddenly, a strong light shot out of the house, like a day. I stood where I was, unable to see anything, and I heard the voices of people in a hurry, and I didn't know where I had been. After a while, my eyes gradually adjusted, and I found Chairman Liu standing in front of me: "What's wrong with you, why don't you change it?" I'm waiting for you! ”

I panicked to find my clothes, but none of them were in my hand, what about mine? I looked up to ask Chairman Liu, but I saw that the room was densely packed with people, and Chairman Liu pointed at me with his finger: "You! Do you still want to be shameless? ”

I looked at Chairman Liu blankly, and Chairman Liu continued to point at me: "Look at it! Look! ”

I looked in the direction of Chairman Liu's finger, and I was naked, naked......

With a snap, my mom turned on the bedside light, and I opened my eyes and looked at her in horror.