When I went to bed at night, my mother leaned on the head of the bed and suddenly asked me, "You, have you thought about it?" ”

I didn't know what I meant, but when I saw my mother's posture of wanting to talk for a long time, I couldn't help but feel weak in my heart, and cautiously asked, "What have you thought about?" ”

My mother looked at me and said calmly, "Jianjun told me." ”

There was a bang, as if a bomb had exploded above my head, and I was dumbfounded, and blood rushed to the top of my head at once, what can I say about this kind of thing?

"You, really think about it?" My mom asked again, in a calm and calm tone.

“…… Well. I snorted.

"Do you really think it's that easy to do business? We have never been a trader since our ancestors, but when you come to you, can you change it? Do you know who can do business? Those are all human spirits who can speak and understand the Tao, and the eyes are more than hair, which of you two can do it? It's you? Or is it the building of the army? ”

I breathed a long sigh of relief in my heart, it turned out that it was for this!

"It's not finalized yet!"

"Jianjun said that he was going to resign and quit, did he tell you?"

I nodded, "Yes." ”

"You two are confused, you can't buy and sell in the future, you both don't have a job, you can't find a way to eat when you come, cry!"

"What are you going to do?"

"What if? Where do you go to buy regret pills? ”

I stopped talking, and my mother continued: "Obedient, wait for the results of your matter to come out, and return our innocence, let's go back to work in a dignified manner, you are gone now, what is it?" The human mouth is bad, what will those people in your factory say about you when the time comes? Do you expect to say hello? You go back to work and shut them up! ”

When I heard Jianjun say it at noon, it seemed to be an idea, but now when my mother says it, it seems that we have all decided, I don't know what Jianjun and my mother said.

"Mom, it's still undecided?"

"Why did you go back and resign tomorrow?"

“……”

"You've been outside for a few years, and you don't tell your family anything, hide it! If you don't hide it, what else can you do? Not to mention it now, how much loss do you have to suffer to remember your surname? ”

Because Jianjun is here and there are outsiders, although my mother is getting more and more angry the more she talks, she still keeps her voice down, and I can't say anything more, for fear of stimulating her again.

"Jianjun resigned, his family knows, right?"

I shook my head.

"What's going to happen then? Such a big thing, if his family thinks it's for you, you have to complain for the rest of your life. ”

"I don't want him to quit either." I say.

"That's right, now there are people who do it alone, who are they, who are they who are not doing it properly, who don't want to contribute to it, how can there be serious people?"

In order to save a few years of tuition, I went to a technical school, graduated and became a worker, but the food stamps kept by my mother were invalid, and the money I saved was handed over to the party, I can't see where the value of my sacrifice is, and no one even needs to say thank you to me, after so many years, I want to be the master for myself, even if it is wrong, I admit it.

"I'm not going back to work!" I said dryly.

"Why? The state paid to train you for three years, and you said that if you don't do it, you won't do it? ”

"I've been doing it for a few years, and I've already paid it off."

"......" My mother had nothing to say for a while, paused for a while, and said arbitrarily: "No! ”

I looked at my mother and tried my best to suppress the anger, after all, I didn't want Jianjun to hear us arguing, but I still couldn't help but think that my mother's hand was too long, I had sacrificed it once, and I was not satisfied, and it still had to control my life.

"Mom." I put it another way, hoping to convince my mother, "I had my period that day, and I walked in front of the whole factory covered in blood, and how could I go back to work in that situation?" ”

"What's wrong with that? During the war years, when our large army crossed the Yellow River, the planes swept in the sky, and the enemy chased after them. It doesn't matter if you have a period or not? ”

"Can that be the same?"

"What's different?"

I suddenly felt that my mother's appearance when she was young was back, and these teachings I had heard since I was a child made me a little upset, and my mother always made herself look like the embodiment of justice. As soon as I changed my mind, I had an evil thought, I didn't have to take into account her feelings anymore, put the facts out, what kind of expression would my mother have?

"Mom, do you know what my high school classmates are doing right now?"

My mother was stunned and asked, "What are you doing?" ”

"They're all in college, the pride of the sky!"

My mom looked at me and didn't speak, and I continued, "If I hadn't gone to technical school, maybe now I would be sitting in a university classroom like them, instead of being a female worker in a factory!" ”

My mother's face was a little ugly, but she still held on to a teaching frame, "Then why are you going to a technical school by yourself?" ”

"If it's good, can I go to a technical school? You work as a temporary worker to iron clothes one by one to earn money, don't I want you to be so tired? ”

My mom pursed her lips tightly, folded her arms to her chest, and leaned against the head of the bed.

"If I had known that you had saved up money to pay the party dues, I wouldn't have gone to that damn technical school!"

My mother blushed and asked me, "Xiaonan, what do you want to say?" ”

"I don't want to say anything, Mom, I want to tell you, I have money now, I can support myself, I want to be the master of myself, when you participated in the revolution, didn't you also don't listen to your grandfather's words and sneak out?"

"You'll regret it in the future!"

"Actually, I regret it now, if I had gone to high school and college with a clear conscience, maybe it would have been much better than now!"

I turned around, covered myself with a quilt and slept, and after saying this call, my heart suddenly felt a lot easier, as if I had squeezed out all the pus and blood in my heart, but I was worried that my mother would not be able to stand it, and the words were a little heavy.

My mother didn't speak, I stuck out my ears in the bed and listened, there was no movement at all, I listened and listened, and fell asleep.

The next morning, as soon as I opened my eyes, I found that my mother was not there, remembered the sin I had done last night, and I was a little worried, so I quickly got up. Before I could go out, I heard my mother and Jianjun talking in the courtyard, and when I pushed the door out, I saw the two of them eating breakfast around the stone table. There are fritters and soy milk on the table.

"Up? I was just going to call you! "Jianjun saw me and said hello, I agreed, washed on the faucet in the yard, peeked to see my mother, she ate fritters as if she didn't see me.

I washed up and sat down on the stool next to my mom. Jianjun handed me a bowl of soy milk, and I reached out to bring the kettle of soy milk and diligently filled my mother's bowl.

"Build an army." My mom spoke, "You're both here today, and I have something to say to you." ”

When Jianjun heard this, he quickly agreed and sat down on the bench.

"I also know that when people are old, they are annoying to talk." My mother spoke, insinuating, I lowered my head and didn't speak, "If you ask me for my opinion on resignation, I don't agree, if you both think about it, I won't say anything, just don't regret it in the future, rely on this and that." "I feel that my mother's eyes shine on me like a searchlight, I am not convinced, if Jianjun is not there, I will have a fight with my mother, was it for the family to go to the technical school back then, without me going to the technical school, how did she save her 300 yuan in party fees?

"There's just one thing, Jianjun, you have to tell your family about your resignation, you have to let the old know about such a big thing! Do you hear that? ”

"Uh-huh." Jianjun agreed.

"Also," my mother paused, "you two are not young, you have been talking for so many years, you have to grasp the extent of the relationship to what extent, I don't care what the outside society has become, I can't afford to suffer if I listen to the old reason." ”

"Uh-huh." Jianjun nodded in agreement, and I felt a little fever on my face.

"Auntie," Jianjun spoke: "I want Xiao Nan to go back with me today, her things are still in the factory, I will go with her to get them back, and then, since I want to do it myself, it will be sooner rather than later, let's go and ask, what is the way, do you think it will work?" ”

My mom looked at me, "You've got it all right?" ”

"Well, I've figured it out."

"Okay, you can do whatever you want!"

My mother stood up and went up to the house for a while, and when she came out, she had a cloth bag under her armpits, and she said as she walked out, "I'll go buy some food, and I'll be back in a while, you pack up first, and then I'll go when I come back." ”

Jianjun stood up and agreed: "Okay, auntie, we are not in a hurry to leave." ”

My mother left, and Jianjun and I were left in the yard, we looked at each other, and Jianjun asked me, "How is it?" Come with me, won? ”

I nodded, and my heart suddenly felt sour.