Chapter 378: Confession
She ...... I wanted to write a letter of resignation to send her back to Ye's house, but I didn't expect her to drink medicine and die, and my grandmother felt sorry for her and promised to give her the status of a flat wife at most. ”
"Flat wife?" Ling'er was a little surprised, Zhilan's temperament can accept the identity of a flat wife, of course she is happy and I am not happy, who wants to share her husband with others?
"Ling'er? Is it okay to go back, grandma is still waiting! ”
Ling'er squinted at him dissatisfiedly, and when he wanted to speak again, she pounced on him and blocked his mouth, the man couldn't stand the teasing the most, and they rolled onto the bed after a few strokes, and it was definitely impossible to go back tonight.
Ling'er didn't want to go back to the General's Mansion, so she deliberately stayed in the barracks and didn't leave, Jia Haoyang pounced on her as soon as she mentioned it, although this method was effective, but it was always herself who was tired and paralyzed every time.
She lay on her side on the bed, looking at the solid back in front of her, and thought to herself, it can't go on like this, I can't stand it if he can stand it, not to mention that if you do these things in the military tent all day long, most of the people outside will see themselves as the red face and disaster of the general, right?
Or...... Looking for a yard in town? Or move to Liao's house? Or just run away and let this guy accompany his grandmother for the rest of his life.
"What the hell are you trying to do again?" Jia Haoyang didn't know when to sit on the edge of the bed and pinched her nose: "Silly girl, don't have bad thoughts, otherwise I won't be able to spare you." ”
Ling'er flattened her mouth: "Haoyang, can you help me find a small yard and let me move out, I am always here with cholera and the army's heart, and my conscience is uneasy!" ”
Jia Haoyang leaned in front of her and laughed: "You also know that you are in the heart of the cholera army? You're just a little vixen that tickles my heart all day long. I can't wait to be in this bed with you for the rest of my life. ”
Ling'er blushed and sat up: "General, then please eliminate harm for the people." Send me away! ”
"Don't even think about it!" Seeing that he seemed to want to pounce again, Ling'er hurriedly avoided it: "Don't ...... Don't come again, I can't stand it, Haoyang, please, help me find a yard! Is it good? ”
There is no choice but to be cheeky and coquettish. Jia Haoyang couldn't resist her appearance: "Okay, I'll help you find it, but Ling'er." Why don't you want to see my grandma? My grandmother loves me very much, I told her that you have my Jia family's heir in your belly, and she will definitely offer you like a Buddha, okay? ”
Ling'er was startled when she heard this: "Heir? You...... You're so diligent and want this? ”
"Of course not. It's best if you have one. You know that my grandparents and parents are looking forward to holding their grandchildren earlier. ”
Ling'er couldn't help but think of Xiaobao, the poor child left his mother at the age of a few months and was left in the countryside, I don't know what happened to him? Are you hungry or cold? Do you have teeth? Will you eat? Can you walk?
"Ling'er, what are you thinking?"
Jia Haoyang habitually stretched out his hand to hug her, but she suddenly retreated and looked at him in horror. Jia Haoyang was stunned for a moment: "Ling'er, what's wrong?" ”
Looking at this face, I remembered the past with Wenxuan, and I was too favored with Haoyang. His love is so sweet and so sweet that you don't have the heart to think about anything. Just because you don't want it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Haoyang still doesn't know about me and Wenxuan, and he doesn't know about Xiaobao, if he knows, can he still do this to me?
"Ling'er, are you feeling unwell?" Jia Haoyang reached out to touch her forehead, she turned her head sideways, and said in a low voice: "Haoyang, help me find a yard, I want to move out now." ”
Her sudden change of attitude made him very puzzled and faintly uncomfortable, but he didn't say anything, got up and went out, and came back and said, "I have already asked the article to be done, and it will be done in the evening." ”
Ling'er silently got up and got out of bed and began to comb her makeup, she slowly combed her hair, and she could see from the mirror that he had been standing behind him, looking at herself motionlessly, she knew that he was waiting for her to speak, but what did he say? Where to start? She hadn't figured it out yet.
In the evening, Jia Haoyang personally sent Ling'er to the newly bought small courtyard, which was near the north gate, and the barracks were out of the city, and there were soldiers guarding them, so it should be relatively safe.
The yard is not big, the environment is quite quiet, and it is very convenient to get in and out, Ling'er is quite satisfied, watching the woman move her things into the house and put them away, Ling'er began to tidy up her things by herself, Jia Haoyang stood aside and watched her without speaking.
After tidying up the things, Ling'er asked the woman to bring hot water, rubbed the handkerchief and handed it to him, Jia Haoyang looked at her: "You plan to keep talking like this?" ”
"Say what?"
"That's what I'm going to ask you."
Ling'er washed her face, removed her makeup, braided her hair and climbed into bed, and then looked at him. Jia Haoyang was still standing in the middle of the room, and Ling'er said angrily: "Why don't you wash it up quickly?" Or are you going to see your flat wife? ”
The corners of Jia Haoyang's mouth smiled slightly, he honestly washed up, poured water, closed the door and got into bed, and held Ling'er in his arms: "Ling'er, tell me what you have on your mind, don't keep hiding it in your heart, you make me feel very uncomfortable like this, do you know?" ”
Ling'er took his hand and gently rubbed the calluses on his palm: "Haoyang, you...... Have you ever thought about where I went the year I left you? ”
Jia Haoyang's body was obviously a little stiff, and the hand holding her was slightly tightened, and his voice was a little stiff after a while: "I know." ”
Ling'er took a deep breath: "You know that Wen Xuan and I ......"
"Don't mention his name."
Ling'er bit her lip and was silent, if she didn't even mention her name, how would she say the rest of the matter? No, this matter can't be delayed forever, and the longer it drags on, the more it will hurt him.
Ling'er plucked up her courage and turned to face him: "Haoyang, you listen to me, I'm ...... I only have the courage to say this time, if ...... If you don't accept it, I'll leave. ”
"Don't say leave, I'd rather not know anything!" Jia Haoyang suddenly pounced on her and kissed her, the kiss was extremely bitter, Ling'er hugged him back, she was sorry for him first, she now wants to spoil him like a child.
After a long time, Jia Haoyang let go of her: "Ling'er, I don't care what happened to you before, don't say leave again, you are my heart, I would rather die without you." ”
Ling'er's heart stirred, and she kissed his eyebrows lightly: "Thank you, Haoyang." ”
She held his head and looked into his eyes: "Haoyang, I... I have a child with Wenxuan, can you accept it? ”
Jia Haoyang's pupils shrank significantly, he looked at Ling'er with blank eyes, there seemed to be despair hidden in his eyes, Ling'er's heart ached, and he hugged him hard: "I'm sorry!" I'm sorry, I should have told you earlier, no, I shouldn't have appeared in front of you, I shouldn't have recognized you in the first place, Haoyang, I'm sorry! ”
Tears flowed from the corners of Ling'er's eyes, she knew that he had hurt him, how could he accept such a result as a proud son of heaven, but she couldn't do anything, she could only keep saying sorry.
That night, they lay side by side in the same bed and did nothing, they didn't even face each other, they just stared at the top of the bed, no one spoke, and for the first time she felt what it meant to be in the same bed. (To be continued......)