Sometimes, people's mood can really affect their own form. In my normal life, I would never do such crazy things. But on this night, my heart was in turmoil. not only has the pain and despair of not being able to get Xu Shuai, but also feels ashamed and self-blame for what he has done, and his shameless disappointment is even more thorough.

All things considered, I don't know what I am. At that moment, I had the idea of giving up on myself. Anyway, I'll never get Xu Shu, anyway, I don't have the face to have a relationship with Qiu Jieqin anymore, anyway, I'm a shameless villain, anyway, I'm a unseeded man, anyway, I'm not a thing, so what the am I going to be a good person?

An evil fire in my body rushed up irrepressibly, frantically dispelling reason, just as Hua Jingjing's lips were pasted, I didn't care anymore, hugged her suddenly, opened my mouth and sucked her tongue in, and at the same time pulled up her underwear with one hand, trying to open a gap under her clothes so that my hand could get in.

Hua Jingjing! Come if you want to come! I'm going to eat you right now, I'm not a person anymore anyway.

I pulled it a few times and didn't pull it out, what kind of tenderness did I have in the frenzy? I pushed her away at once, grabbed her coat and pulled it hard, and I broke a button with a "snap".

Hua Jingjing's face flushed, she subconsciously reached out to cover her clothes, and said in a panic: "Tang Qian, here...... No, someone will see it. ”

I'm blind, so I don't care if anyone looks at anything! I forcefully removed her hand and continued to undress her with the other hand. Hua Jingjing's hand was painfully shaken by me, and she shouted, "Tang Qian! You've hurt me! I ignored her, and I couldn't take off her clothes with one hand, so I grabbed the hem of her dress and tried to lift it all with force. Hua Jingjing was an untrained virgin at the bottom, panicked and hurriedly dodged, pushed open the car door with one hand, and even stepped out of me with a rolling belt, not daring to turn her head back, and ran forward.

I didn't stop her, but burst out laughing.

It turns out that even Hua Jingjing is a fake enthusiasm, she really wants to do it, she is really scared!

My laughter turned into a wild laugh! Not bad! I'm a fucking scoundrel! Now Hua Jingjing finally sees me clearly, right? You're going to hate me, right? Hate well! Hate well! I'm a scumbag who doesn't deserve any woman's liking!

I burst into tears unconsciously in the midst of the laughter, and suddenly felt that I was really a failure in my relationship, the women I loved didn't love me, and the women who loved me hurt them one by one. I'm a bad guy!

By the end of the day, I couldn't laugh anymore, only the tears were still flowing. I don't know why I'm crying, I just know that the depression in my heart needs to be vented.

After a long time, I finally calmed down. I don't think I'm fit to talk about relationships, I won't bring happiness to any woman, I don't deserve to be with them. It's time to make a decision, and from now on, I won't be confused with them anymore.

I stepped out of the car and saw that Hua Jingjing had already walked back in the distance. I hurriedly reached out to wipe away my tears and waited for her to come. Hua Jingjing walked up to me, looked at me worriedly, and whispered, "Tang Qian, you scared me just now!" What's wrong with you? It's not that I don't want to give it to you, but this place...... No way! ”

I looked at Hua Jingjing, who had palpitations, and said apologetically: "Mr. Hua, I'm sorry, I lost my mind just now." I don't know what I've done, I'm sorry, if you hate me, I can sue me, I'm willing to be punished! ”

Hua Jingjing was a little scared and said, "Why should I sue you?" You...... What did you just call me? ”

I hardened my heart and said, "Tell me or not, whatever you want!" However, I don't want to see you anymore, you forgot about me. ”

Hua Jingjing was anxious when she heard this, and said, "Why? Is it because I just didn't? That...... That's going to be it, I'm ...... Promise you. ”

I shook my head with a smile and said, "It's not because of this, I'm a person who is not worthy of feelings, and I can't give any woman happiness." You don't need to waste time on me, I'll just say so much, I won't answer your calls again in the future, I hope you can forget about me sooner. Okay, go back, I'll go up. ”

As I spoke, I walked towards the staircase, Hua Jingjing hurriedly dragged me and shouted, "Wait a minute, you haven't made it clear yet, don't leave!" ”

I turned around and remembered something, and said, "By the way, there's something I need to give you a shot beforehand." I may do something bad for you in the near future, and I hope you don't blame me then. ”

Hua Jingjing was dazed and scared, everyone trembled, and said in a trembling voice: "What...... What's the matter? Tang Qian, don't scare me! The way you look, I'...... I'm so scared! ”

I sighed and said, "Don't be afraid, maybe that won't matter to you." It's just that everyone has their own aspirations, and shopping malls are like battlefields, and when the time comes, you will naturally understand, and now, I can only tell you so much. ”

I broke free from her hand and said, "Go back!" Don't waste your time here, I don't deserve your love. Then he turned around and strode up the stairs.

Behind her, Hua Jingjing shouted: "Tang Qian, stop!" You didn't make it clear! I don't understand what you mean! ”

I didn't look back, I went upstairs and went home.

My family went to bed early, so I lit a cigarette and inhaled it vigorously. In fact, I am also very painful in my heart, and I really don't want to hurt those women who love me. But I know that as long as I still love Xu Shu, it will never bring happiness to any woman. Instead of dragging it out so unclearly, it's better to make a decision early, even if they will hate me, it is better than loving me hopelessly!

I thought about it for a while, grabbed the telephone in the living room, and called Qiu Jieqin. The phone went through quickly, and I said, "Hey, Xie Qin, have you slept?" ”

"No, I can't sleep."

"Really?"

"Hmmm! You're calling now, have something to say? ”

“…… Xie Qin, I've thought about it carefully, let's ...... It's better to separate, I can't be with you anymore, I'm sorry! ”

“……”

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, and I sighed and said, "That's it, you'll find a man who really loves you." ”

After saying that, I hung up the phone with a heavy heart. After a few puffs of cigarette, I picked up the microphone again and dialed the number, and after a few rings, it also passed: "Hey, manager, haven't you slept yet?" ”

"You didn't come, I couldn't sleep well for the past two days."

“…… Manager, I don't think I'll be here in the future, but you must not torture yourself like before, you should go and find a man who will really take care of you early, otherwise I won't be able to put my mind at ease. ”

“…… Is it? Finally...... Hate me? ”

"No, don't get me wrong, I don't hate you. It's just that I have another reason, and I may not be able to take care of you. ”

"It's okay, I'm mentally prepared, don't worry, I won't give up on myself like before."

"That's good, have a good time."

"Well, I will."

I put down the phone and sat down on the couch all at once, unable to calm the pain in my heart for a long time, I knew that I had hurt three women tonight. But I can't help it, if I don't do it, it will only hurt them more.

I sat on the couch and smoked cigarette after cigarette, as if I wanted to poison myself to death. I thought about it, I would never talk about feelings again in the future, and I would never provoke any woman again. Only by working hard to enrich yourself, men are husbands, and without women, you should focus on your career!

Suddenly, the phone rang in the silence of the night, startling me. In order not to wake up my sleeping family, I hurriedly picked up the phone and said, "Hey! Who? ”

Hua Jingjing's cry came from the phone: "Tang Qian! What you say is not clear, I am not reconciled! I'm still downstairs, you come down quickly, or I won't leave. ”

I sighed and said, "Mr. Hua, even if I come down, I can only say that." Forget it, you can find a man who is a hundred times stronger than me on your terms, why hang yourself on my tree? ”

"I don't care! I'm going to hang myself on your tree!" You can't get down? If you don't come down, I'll come up! ”

My heart was horizontal and said, "Hua Jingjing! Don't mess around, don't make our family uneasy! I'll tell you the truth, I don't like you, I'll never be with you, if you dare to come up, then don't blame me for tearing my face! ”

"Tang Qian...... You're so ruthless! I...... I...... Woo woo...... "Hua Jingjing couldn't help crying on the phone, I hardened my heart and hung up the phone. jumped to the window and looked down, only to see Hua Jingjing squatting downstairs, covering her face with her hands, shrugging her shoulders and crying sadly. My nose couldn't help but be sour, and I turned my head too hard to look at it again. said in his heart: "Jingjing, you hate me, hate me to death, I really don't deserve your love, it's really not my willingness to hurt you, but I can't help it, I really can't help it!" ”

But downstairs, Hua Jingjing's desperate crying still pierced my heart, I walked around the living room uneasily, smoking one cigarette after another, I realized that I really couldn't stand this torment, and I wanted to rush downstairs several times to comfort her. But I also know that as long as I go, it will be endless with Hua Jingjing.

When I finished smoking a pack of cigarettes, I walked to the window again and found that Hua Jingjing was no longer downstairs. I exhaled, sat down on the floor, smiled wryly and held my head, and grabbed my hair deeply, the endless pain scraping my heart like a knife.

Finally...... It's dawn! I sat on the floor like a fool until I heard my parents' door open and my mother yawned and came out. When she saw my strange appearance, she exclaimed, "Xiao Qian? What's wrong with you? ”

I got up and said with a forced smile, "No...... It's nothing, I accidentally slipped a little, and my butt hurt and I couldn't get up.

My mom was angry and funny, and said, "What's wrong with you lately?" Always getting injured, either falling or in a car accident, you are such a big person, why do you always worry about us! ”

I know that as long as I let my mother talk about it, it won't end in half a day. I had to shout, "I know, I know, I'll be careful in the future." I haven't slept yet, so I'm going to sleep first. As he spoke, he rushed into his room.

Closing the door, I sighed again and decided not to want to, sleep for a while, and stay away from those emotional disputes in the future. I pulled out my phone and plugged it in, and then I lay down on the bed, my mind cluttered and couldn't sleep. I don't know how long it took for me to fall asleep.

By the time I woke up again, it was two o'clock in the afternoon. I sat up groggily and grabbed my phone to turn it on. Not long after it was opened, there were constant text messages received one after another. I know that my phone has been parked for two days, and there must have been a lot of people looking for me, and I didn't look at it, and deleted them one by one.

I opened the door and went out to wash my face and brush my teeth, and I was halfway through the wash when my phone rang. I took it out and saw that it was a very unfamiliar mobile phone number, whose one? Fan Yunting?

I suddenly remembered that the business card Fan Yunting gave me was still in Hua Jingjing's hand! I answered the phone with a wry smile, and Xu Shu's angry voice came from the phone: "Tang Qian, you are too much!" How can you hurt Jingjing so much? You come over to me now, right now! ”

(To be continued)