"You mean, traditional East Asian farmers tend to have a fanaticism for their sons? So they don't like their daughter? ”

"Uh, yes, you know, because for East Asians...... What do you mean by that? There are three kinds of unfilial piety, and the most important is the inability to pass on the bloodline, and as in the Middle Ages in Europe, daughters do not play the role of passing on the bloodline - I know what your expression is saying, yes, in this respect it may have been similar to the concept in East Asia twenty years ago as it was in the European Middle Ages - and that's because I...... Because they entered modern society relatively late! ”

"OK, OK, I'm not judging anything......" Cesare's face briefly flashed with a genuine sense of confusion, which was indeed quite rare for him - you know, he had always been very calm in what he was supposed to do, and even if there were moments when he was not good at it, he would hide it properly, and he would not be able to show it so honestly, but, at least in this regard, Jeanne had confirmed his authority, so he did not hide his curiosity, but asked curiously, " Is this a common feature in East Asia, or is it unique to China? ”

This kind of talking about the past as an outsider is also special to Jeanne - on the one hand, her emotions seem to be fermenting, but on the other hand, she is still discussing with Cesare in an objective tone about the patriarchal characteristics of the East Asian cultural sphere, bridging the cultural divide - it is almost like a direct experimental play.

"It should be the same," she said, glad they only had a small light on, so she didn't have to modify her expression, and Cesare shouldn't be able to see clearly anyway. "But in China, this phenomenon is even more obvious, because there are not many poor people in China, and in general, when there are abundant resources, the contradictions are not too acute, but if the resources can only provide for one child, parents have to face a choice, which extends a lot of contradictions."

"Logical." Cesare nodded, "Assuming that, because of poverty and the low level of agricultural mechanization, the peasants valued boys more than the workers, and this was a choice that had to be made in order to survive - this also coincides with the principle of infanticid drowning in the Middle Ages in Europe." ”

"Yes, and in China, the modernization is relatively late, and the emergence of workers will not exceed a hundred years, at least not on a large scale...... I think ...... "The more Jenny talked, the more she felt guilty: she really should have studied hard back then, but now she can't even figure out the history of her own country." In short, in the era when the story takes place, it is common sense to favor sons over women, especially if your previous generation came from the countryside, it is very strange that you don't value men, and the social environment at that time made this contradiction even more intense, because China has implemented a family planning system since that era...... Don't show this expression, it's not that if you conceive another child, you will be executed so horribly, in most areas, as long as you are willing to give up public office and pay a fine, you can still continue to have children. ”

This system has always been one of the main black spots in China for Western countries that have always encouraged childbearing, and Cesare did show a puzzled expression, although he did not express disgust or disgust, at least not on the surface, but Jeanne could not help but deeply feel the difficulty of this cross-cultural communication, and she even doubted that Cesare could understand the whole story, because it was so Chinese.

However, the narrative had already begun, and if Cesare gave up halfway just because he doubted that he could understand, it might also be a humiliation for his IQ and comprehension, Jeanne took a breath, "In short, this policy has a very strong positive significance, otherwise the number of 1.3 billion people who are now terrifying to you will become 2.3 billion, 3.3 billion, God knows how China will feed these people in a peaceful state, and when the time comes, the nuclear . War. The shadow of the controversy is going to be heavier, even for most girls, and I think you can understand the logic behind that. ”

"Of course, in the case of limited resources, if the girl is lucky enough to become the first and only child of the family, then she will receive all the resources of the family, and her fate may change dramatically." Cesare nodded, his reaction was of course very fast, "but this will also bring about a very serious gender screening phenomenon, and the public will definitely have a backlash against the national regulations - China must ban ultrasound, given the thirst for men from the huge agricultural population, once they retain their access to gender screening, in a few decades, the whole country will have a very serious gender imbalance." ”

"You're absolutely right – China did ban ultrasound later, but even then, the gender imbalance should be the highest in the world." Jenny couldn't help but smile bitterly, these unfamiliar words and familiar meanings made her feel a sense of doubt, somewhat diluting the heaviness of the past, but those nightmarish memories still filled her heart with heavy emotions, "However, in the era of the story - in the eighties of the last century, China had just opened its doors, and many people did not have the habit of doing B ultrasound at all, because this policy had just begun to be implemented, and most people were quite ignorant, at least the girl's parents were like this, They didn't screen them when they were pregnant, so that precious fertility places were wasted on their daughters. Soon, at the age of 6 months, the local policy was strengthened, and as public officials, if they wanted to keep their jobs, they could never violate the policy, which was not the case before. ”

She paused, took a deep breath, and then exhaled a long breath, "This husband and wife are both from peasant families, and they are both lucky to become government workers, but the thirst for men is still written in their blood, and they blame themselves very much—for using up the first place hastily, and they also blame their eldest daughter, who would have had a son if it weren't for her." Of course, the basic humanity prevented them from doing anything about this little life - and this is what this girl should be grateful for, at least that's what many people say, because, you may have a hard time imagining, but in some families in China, parents can really abuse and kill baby girls in order to have a son. ”

"It is not surprising," Cesare commented in an academic tone, as if sensing Jeanne's concerns, "and it is a stress response in the context of limited resources, where the morality of society is often overestimated, but in fact, throughout human history, you will find that morality, human nature, and order are in fact a luxury." Especially under the base of 1.3 billion, when national policies and traditional culture conflict, the emergence of extreme events is almost inevitable. ”

"Yes, just like in the United States, where people are free to own guns, extreme cases related to guns are almost inevitable." Jeanne said that she felt a slight displeasure at Cesare's tone - but she also knew that it was hypocrisy, and she estimated that if Cesare behaved incredulously about China's ignorance and backwardness, she would have the urge to argue, but now that he began to calmly analyze the reason, she couldn't help but feel uncomfortable, "But it doesn't make the victim of the shooting feel better, does it?" It doesn't make sense to this girl how many people in the country are in a similar, if not more miserable situation, because it doesn't change the fact that she grew up in a very unfriendly environment. The difference between her and you is that as you said, your parents don't have any subjective malice towards you, they just don't care, but she ...... But the girl's parents were different, they did harbor ill will towards their child because she took away their chance to have a son. ”

Of course, the busier people are, the easier it is to forget, especially for someone as busy and crazy as Jenny, and even just the life she had just crossed over in 2001 - her life when she performed in the stage play "Chicago" gradually became a little blurred, but as the topic gradually deepened, more images that seemed to have long been forgotten reappeared, Jenny took a deep breath again, trying to suppress the choking in her voice, "What's worse, this girl's parents are public officials, She lives in a town and not in the countryside - unlike you, she doesn't live with her own kind, she doesn't live in a place where girls are inherently inferior: there is no inheritance, no homestead, and certainly no rights that male villagers can enjoy, and if she lived in the countryside, she would not have such a deep sense of misfortune, because all girls, almost all older sisters have to make way for their younger brothers, and according to the policy of the time, rural residents can have two children, so her parents should not focus all their hatred on her, After all, they still have one more chance. But she lives in the city, in an environment where most public officials are educated, and they are not so attached to boys or girls, and if they have a choice, they may have boys, but since they can only have one girl, that girl is of course their pearl. ”

"I suspect the girl must have had some kind of mental abuse." Cesare said, his tone a little heavy, and after a moment he added, "If there is no physical abuse." ”

"If the neglect you endured was a form of mental abuse," Jenny said, "then she would have suffered a little bit more abuse, not the exaggerated beatings, but ...... It's just...... In fact, children are the most sensitive, you will obviously notice that something is wrong, especially when your friends are obviously pampered, you will instinctively crave the same treatment, from this point of view, you are very right, you need to understand, you need to understand that you could have had, you need to desire you to get hurt, and for her, as she continues to grow, she also constantly realizes that there will be no response to her requests - she can't get what other children can easily have, a smile, a favorite dish, A new coat, an umbrella or even a word of advice, this neglect and disgust is all-encompassing, they did not abuse you, you can eat and dress warmly, if you don't pay attention to quality, but you will feel that any of your needs are a burden to your parents, they have too many excuses to resist your demands, the most common is probably to describe how difficult the family economy is, how tired the work is, how desperate life is, and all because of her birth. ”

Eight years of this life passed, and when the girl began to remember and began to understand that this was not the way the rest of the family lived except for her, and began to accept that her life would go on like this, her life changed, and by bribing her to become a ...... in law Intellectual retardation. "So that her parents may have a second child—"

"Wait, it's ......," Cesare interrupted, his eyes widening for the first time, "I think it's a very serious matter—let's not talk about why the family you described was able to do it by bribing them...... Feat, but the whole world should be the same at this point, and if you have an intellectual disability, you should go to a special school, or you should not be able to go to school at all—"

Yes, of course, through some social connections, she stayed in the city and finished elementary school, but after a few years she was sent back to her hometown in the countryside, because her presence would indeed affect her parents' public office, and, of course, her parents did not have enough energy to take care of her. She and her brother had only lived together for four years, and those four years had not developed much affection, and the girl thought she was a vicious person, because the whole world - you can imagine that the relatives of both her parents were ecstatic because of the boy - were emphasizing that the boy was the hope of the family, and that she had to love her brother as an older sister, but all she could feel was hatred for the baby, fear and insecurity about the future, and more than once, she hoped that he would die in an accident, And this kind of thinking puts a heavy psychological burden on her, she really feels that she is a bad person, and sometimes she feels that she is not worthy of living in the world...... Unlike your childhood, her childhood feelings were extremely intense, full of hatred, and even extremely dramatic, her mood was always up and down, she thought about dying more than once, and more than once wondered what the problem was, whether she was not worthy of love......"

Jenny closed her eyes and exhaled a deep, long breath - she suddenly realized that this was the first time in 20 years that she had talked about her childhood, and before that, this memory had really become taboo for her, and even she had forgotten that she had lived like this, "Ironically, when her brother was born, her life was better than before, her parents had a son, they were satisfied, the hatred for her was melting, and sometimes there was even a sign of regret that she began to have new clothes, Even being able to eat ice cream with her brother once in a while was an absolute luxury in her childhood, at least for her, and for as long as she can remember, every summer was an awkward time because ......"

Oddly enough, even though she can now buy almost a day's worth of ice cream in the world, and she no longer eats this fat-making junk food, she still feels so aggrieved when she mentions it, and she even has to bite her lip to suppress her urge to cry and continue to tell the story - of all those sad and bumpy pasts, the one that hits her the most is a popsicle. "Because every summer, people come and sell popsicles with bicycles, and all the children who play in the yard go to buy them, which is an affordable expense for their family, and she has to find a place to hide at this time, hoping that she will not be found by anyone, and will not be questioned by anyone...... Her parents never gave her pocket money because 'the family couldn't afford it', but when she had more brothers, when her mother was at home for a long time due to several miscarriages and the need to take care of her brother, the family income shrank and expenses increased, they had the money to buy popsicles for her brother, and the family could afford it, and from time to time, she could actually get such a reward......"

Cesare moved, but Jeanne stopped paying attention to him, she closed her eyes, immersed in her emotions, "Let me tell you one thing, the most hated food for that girl when she grew up was ice cream, and not only did she hate ice cream, but she hated herself very much for being happy with such a reward. ”

This was her childhood, and when she finished sixth grade -- by the way, there is only a sixth grade in primary school in China, and then junior high school, which is mostly the case in East Asia - and when she left home alone, she understood this: her life, for her parents -- the meaning of keeping her alive was that she could contribute to the family...... She can make her brother's life easier and better, and after his brother's birth, they will be nicer to her, because she is no longer an obstacle, on the contrary, she will be the one to take care of her brother in the future, so they should be better for her, and they are even ready to let her finish high school, even though it will be a burden on the family economy - hundreds of dollars a year in tuition is enough to buy a small bicycle for my brother. However, the girl who finished high school was more popular, and she was still very beautiful, which was enough to exchange for more dowry - her parents were very thoughtful, and they also expressed these considerations very clearly, she got on the bus home alone, and the mother who was supposed to accompany her did not go, because her brother suddenly caught a cold and needed to be taken care of, and she condensed these words into the five minutes before getting on the bus, and all the emphasis was only one meaning: the family has paid a lot for you, and you need to repay the family, You need to take on your responsibilities to take care of your younger brother and build up wealth for his future, and this is the price of your continued education. And when I ...... She cried when she got into the car and saw her mother's face out of the window, and it was the most desperate moment of her life - not because she had left home, no, not at all, but because she realized that although she had left that suffocating place, she had not left her life at all, and that she would never hope to escape from it...... She is willing to give everything, she even hopes that someone in this car can take her away, and hopes that no one will come to receive her when she arrives at her destination, but she knows that none of this will happen, she will return to her hometown, finish high school, and then find a job under the arrangement of her parents, marry someone, and use the dowry to contribute to her brother's future, this is her future, she can't find any way to escape, she can't even take the college entrance examination, because she is legally disabled, and with this first-class disability certificate, she can't be admitted to the university...... It was supposed to be the most desperate moment of her life, can you imagine? A woman's lowest moment comes when she's 12 years old, and it sounds like a joke. ”

Jenny laughed, and she spread her hands, "I know it's hard for you to understand, maybe you never thought that so many people in the world lived like this - but, anyway, this is her childhood, a story of tragedy, dreary and despair, that can dwarf your troubles, right?" - Indeed, just looking back like this, you can see that it does have an impact on her love life......"

She didn't want to say that she was a stupid person, or that she overestimated Maggie, but Jenny had to admit that at least for her, the counseling was quite effective, and before Maggie gave her homework, she thought it was all over, and she had long since left the past behind, but after this story, she really felt a lot more relaxed - maybe this is what Maggie has been emphasizing, and being able to say it is also a step in the treatment. And after listening to Cesare's story, she couldn't help but reflect on herself: Is it true that all this has not really passed? Is everything in her childhood still influencing her, is she, like Cesare, never succeeded in building a mechanism of feeling-return love, just as Cesare's relationship with Lillian eventually went astray, and has there never been a normal interaction between her and Chris? Did her cripple inadvertently hurt innocent Chris?

After a long time in her thoughts, she noticed that Cesare was not moving, and was clearly still staring at her, as if the conversation was not over, which made her a little embarrassed, but also couldn't help but be a little amused, "What? If there's anything you want to say, you can just ask. ”

"That's the story?" Cesare didn't make any comments on the whole story, but asked with some dissatisfaction - it seemed that this was the first time he had been so involved in the story after reading so many scripts.

"At least childhood is over—don't look at me with this expression, what more do you want to know?"

"You should at least tell me, huh...... Whether the girl really married according to her parents' arrangement in the end - this is obviously quite important. ”

"Why?"

"Because it felt like she was supposed to be well-educated—college-educated—and she didn't feel like she had always been in the burgher class...... Uh, fate. Her fate doesn't seem to be stuck in the original class forever......"

Seeing Cesare's rare look of embarrassment, and the care with which he chose his words, Jeanne couldn't help but laugh.

"Well," she shrugged, "there is a twist to this story—you can guess it, as I said before, it was the most desperate time of the girl's life. If she really obeyed the arrangement, she would have found odd jobs after she got married in high school, and then, by virtue of her good looks, she had found the best husband she and her parents could find in their class—according to her parents' arrangement, preferably the son of an official, which would have brought great convenience to her brother's future development in the local area."

But the story did take a turn, and in fact, after returning to her hometown, the girl's life was much happier, and she stayed at her uncle's house, and in East Asia, the uncle was more likely to love her niece, and would be less partial than her father's relatives, because the surnames were different, and for the uncle, the surnames inherited by the nephew and niece had nothing to do with her. Coupled with the fact that her cousin and cousin had gone out to work, and she was the only child living at home, those six years were a kind of healing for her, and she was able to not go further and further on the road of extremism, of course, the pressure was still there, and fate was still waiting for her, but she could enjoy a little relaxation and happiness for the time being--what she was most afraid of at that time was the winter and summer vacations, because that also meant that she was going home. ”

It was also during these six years that she was determined to change her fate, she didn't know how to do it, but she knew she was going to do it, and she even thought about running away from home after graduating from high school, going to the coastal areas, singing in song halls -- for East Asia, this is probably the equivalent of doing it here in the United States. Clothing. The dancer, though morally more criticized, didn't care about that, as long as she could get out of that life - she was like a demon at that time. ”

Thinking of the childish but firm determination at that time, Jenny couldn't help but laugh, "Girls can be very simple sometimes, she never thought about what she would become if she didn't become a singer, if she entered a complex society like that, she just practiced her singing voice day after day - and this did change her world, and her cousin found out about her hobby when she came home to visit her family, and joked with her, 'You're so pretty, Why don't you go to art school?' was the first time she knew that there were art schools in the world, and the first time she realized that she could still go to art school - she really had a safer way to change her fate. ”

"But with all the obstacles in front of her, her first-class disability certificate, the cost of taking the exams, the difficulty of getting into an art school, and the necessary support from her family, she knew she had to convince her parents to get support, but what should she do?" The corners of Jenny's lips curled, and she tapped her temples, "Think, she can only think about how easily her parents can be convinced, she must use all her wisdom to find clues from the limited information she knows, and think about what her parents value most-"

"She made a plan, and during her visits home every summer, she asked her parents to let her try it, telling them that it was easy for a girl in art school to meet rich people, and to think about how bright and easy it would be for her brother if she found a rich man, and how much of a difference it would bring to their future......"

Of course, the plan was not all smooth sailing, and her parents, who had basic experience, doubted that she could find an unmarried, willing rich man so easily, but it was not a problem, and she asked her cousin to tell them how easy it was for art school girls to make rich friends - knowing that all this was not her whim, but real, and she could tell that her parents were really moved by the reality of what was happening in Beijing...... What hinders them is the instinctive stinginess of money, their family has indeed not been rich, and the cost of going to Beijing is also a figure that makes people think about it. ”

When the summer vacation was over, there was still no response from her parents, and she knew that she had to find another way - she turned to beg her cousin to lend her money, and asked her cousin to persuade her uncle to acquiesce in her to go to Beijing to take the art exam...... And my cousin really agreed. Jenny smiled, "In fact, later she also understood that her cousin was more out of sympathy, and her uncle's family actually knew about her predicament, they didn't think she could really get in, but they couldn't bear to break her last hope and destroy her last struggle." My uncle really took a leave of absence for her, and hid it from home - it was not difficult - she put on a new dress given to her by her cousin and walked into the art examination class......"

"The art exam feels like it was completed in a dream, she doesn't know what she has done at all, her dream seems extremely ridiculous in front of reality, can she act? Her singing voice was not as good as that of other candidates, and when the examiner called her into the office and made it clear that she would be admitted, she even thought that she was dreaming - no joy or sorrow, because she had not recovered from the trance of the exam, she had really been admitted - although this was what she had been thinking about day and night, but when it came true, she could not believe it at all - she finally had a chance, a chance to change her fate. ”

"My uncle's family was happy for her, but there was still an obstacle to the whole thing: her parents were extremely angry because she had made her own decisions, and threatened to never support her to go to school, even though her uncle persuaded her many times, and even promised to pay for her the 'relationship fee' to revoke her first-class disability certificate, her parents insisted on not continuing to pay for her studies." I finally supported her to graduate from high school, and it was time to give back to her family, so she contacted a store and went to work next month, and she had to pay for another four years, where could the family afford it'. ”

"After several persuasions, my uncle was tired, my brother was playing computer games in the corner of the living room, the rumbling sound was so noisy, she knew that if she didn't do something, maybe this opportunity would slip away again, she would fall back to her current life, and never have a chance to escape - it was like being enchanted, possessed by some ghost, at that moment she was not panicked at all, she knelt down and kowtowed to her parents, she said that she was really very grateful, she knew that it was not easy for her family to support her, she wanted to take responsibility for the family,' I just want to give more money to my family, that's why I want to go to Beijing, Dad, Mom, you don't know, I saw so many good cars at the school gate, and there were some very young boys sitting in the cars, and I thought, when my brother grows up, I also want to give him a car to drive, and my sister is not a ...... in vain."

Jenny almost instinctively recalled the soft tone of her voice at that time, and she curled the corners of her lips and sneered slightly, "She never thought she had a talent for acting before, and she didn't even know how she could have been accepted into drama school, maybe because she was beautiful and hadn't had plastic surgery - anyway, on that day, she realized that she did have a talent for acting, and that she could really act very naturally when she needed to......"

Her words worked, she knew that language and performance could really change people's hearts, her parents gave in, paid for her tuition, and at the same time gave a death order: she must find a rich spouse in these four years, worthy of the cost of these four years, it is best to have a hundredfold, a thousand times the compensation, she has no way back, she went to an art college, in the perception of the general population in that small town, girls who go to art colleges are not ordinary people can marry, they are always with many big bosses. Ambiguous, so her parents were worried about her future and urgently reminded her that she only had four years to find a financier for herself. As for her, she agreed, she knew that her life had changed - of course she would find a spouse without being reminded of anyone, and she was confident in it, she knew that her luck had turned, and she had seized the opportunity to escape from that desperate life. ”

Cesare's eyes widened slightly, she clasped her palms together and smiled, "As she thought, of course she met a good fit in college - although she knew that someone would come after her, and it was a temptation for every classmate to face. Confused, but the man's conditions were much better than she had ever thought of, and she was ready to care about her marital status, age, appearance, and personality - these were extravagant considerations for a girl who was desperate enough, but that didn't mean she didn't want to have a normal identity and life, it was just too good for her, too far away, so she didn't allow herself to look forward to it, but when this opportunity came to her......"

Thinking of the story that followed, and the changes in her life that took place during that encounter, Jenny's smile slowly faded, leaving only endless melancholy: yes, at that time, when they first met, how beautiful it was, how contented she was when she finally met the prince who saved everything......

After graduating from college, she was going to get married, and she really did it - softened the attitude of her future in-laws, grasped the heart of her fiancé, worked hard, and didn't dare to slack off, she finally got this opportunity, she was about to marry into a wealthy family...... And the story of her and her parents has come to an end: she told her parents not to be too greedy in the dowry, and that everything depends on the future - and that after she gives birth to a son, this wisdom must be necessary, and a woman's position must be stable when she has a son. Of course, her parents also thought deeply of her logic, and they only took 100,000 yuan - she always had an account in her heart, the living expenses that the family sent to her uncle every month, the expenses sent by her four years of college, plus inflation, this is all the money her parents spent on her in the 10 years when she was 12 years old. ”

"She did not invite her parents to the wedding, her uncle was the representative of the woman's family, and then she sat down and wrote a letter to her parents, telling them that the alimony had been paid off, and that they should not come to disturb her life in the future, and that when they were too old to support themselves, they could go to court to sue, otherwise she would not give another penny, she changed her surname, preferring to add her husband's surname before her surname, and her residence in Beijing was not something they could get close to, and after that they and the rest of her relatives tried to enter her life several times, but never succeeded. Her only connection with her family of origin is with her cousin's family, and she does her best to help them, and she finally understands that she is not vicious, but she is very narrow-minded, and whoever treats her well, she will repay her a hundredfold, and whoever hurts her, she must also make the other party pay - and this is the story of her and her parents. ”

Seeing that Cesare seemed to mean to speak, she shook her head and preemptively said, "As for her married life, that's another story entirely—one we can tell next time." ”

Cesare was a little stunned, closing his mouth and not trying to speak, while Jeanne sat up straight, forcing herself to be amused by his attitude - indeed, when you approach this with a more detached attitude, even Laughitoff, the matter itself becomes lighter, "Well, even the sequel is said - what do you think?" ”

Cesare remained as calm as he had been on the night of the opening ceremony of the Beijing Olympics, and his mask cracked slightly, and he paused — and paused again — at Jeanne's question.

"Then I want to ......," he said slowly, "then I think if she could change even this fate, if she could really go out of that obscurant, I know it would provoke your protest, but I still say that the obscurantist, I don't know, terrible circumstances...... MMM, go, well, to an international stage......"

His rare incoherence was really entertaining, and Jenny bit her lip and watched expectantly as he searched for dry intestines - perhaps this scene alone would be worth the ticket price -

Then Cesare paused again, and he looked at Jeanne—in the dim yellow light, his blue eyes bright and gentle, and he smiled shallowly.

"Then she must be very, very lucky...... She truly lives up to her nickname, 'Miracle Girl'......"

Jenny was stunned - really, she was stunned, this was a response she hadn't expected, this was a pattern she was not familiar with, her past, her childhood, her family, it meant repeated attempts, failures, anger, unwillingness, monstrous hatred and incomprehension, it meant - it meant those dark things that she had never thought about -

Staring at Cesare's slightly curved lips, some narrowed blue eyes, staring at this faint but sincere smile, Jenny slowly, involuntarily, jerkily, raised the corners of her lips-

"Yes," she said, tilting her head back on the couch and laughing, "indeed—you're right—she really is—she's really a very, very, very lucky girl—"

Her words paused as Cesare leaned over and cut the distance between them, his hand took Jeanne's shoulders and led him into his arms, as in the last time, his movements were a little jerky and stiff, but ......

The familiar saltiness of the sea water came to my face, and the lukewarm body heat rested on my shoulder, which was indeed a hug.

"And, for some reason, I wanted to give this girl a hug," Cesare said, his voice unnaturally relaxed, as if he was trying to adjust the mood - as if he was actively giving up his coldness - showing emotion, expressing support, "I think it's her and me...... This is an element that is generally lacking in our childhood. ”

Jeanne wasn't so strange to hugs compared to him, and almost instinctively, her hand slid over his shoulder blades and buried her eyes in Cesare's polo shirt—

How strange, this is obviously a very touching and warm moment, but for some reason, she really can't help but want to cry...... I have a lot to say because my keyboard is back, my input method (pinyin) is back!!!!!!!!!

But...... I am so tired....................................

I went to sleep! We'll talk again tomorrow, everyone's nightnight!