Chapter 208: Escapism
At night, a round of bright moonlight rises, and the moonlight pours over the stables.
Inside the stable, a raunchy, bearded man bowed his head, his hands clutching his hair.
Under his hair, there was an extremely painful face, and even after dozens of days had passed, his painful color had not diminished by half a point.
Yesterday was still the same, and scenes from the past came to his mind.
That shadow was always in his heart, and he couldn't forget it.
In his hand, a dress was clenched tightly in his hand, the only thing left after the shadow left.
Even on this snow-white dress, there were some blood stains and dirty things.
But Ye Lin didn't seem to care about these at all.
Seeing things and thinking about people, his heart hurts, and the pain is already a little numb, even at this time, he doesn't want to believe this unacceptable news.
His eyes have lost the confidence and brilliance of the past, and at this time, he is like an old man with dry bones in the grave, and his heart is extremely fragile.
In the past, he thought that he didn't love Dongfang Ningxue, or that he didn't love it enough, but until the moment Dongfang Ningxue left, he felt heart-rending pain, and this kind of pain that he had never felt appeared in him.
Maybe only after losing will people know how to cherish, Ye Lin is like this, at the moment of loss, he suddenly realized how heavy Dongfang Ning Xue was in his heart.
Heavy enough to make him depressed, heavy enough to make him forget to sleep and eat.
If what he thinks in his heart is his belief, then the shadow of the white clothes in the depths of his heart is his life, his weakness.
In the past, he was firm in nature, not swayed by anything, and his temperament was even more debauched.
However, when he has emotions and habits, it is like being poisoned, and he is out of control.
Gently stroked the shirt, as if holding Dongfang Ningxue's hand.
Taking out the gourd on his waist, Ye Lin took a few big sips, and after a few big sips, his face became even more depressed.
The color of wine is the most hurtful to the body, at this time, Ye Lin doesn't care about his physical condition at all, he doesn't want to be in pain, he just wants to immerse himself in his dream.
His eyelids were shaky, and his eyes were ghosting when he was looking at things.
In front of him, Dongfang Ningxue seemed to be waving to him.
"What are you going to do, I'm not playing ...... this trip"
"This girl doesn't need your protection, if I deserve to die, I'll die......"
"Hmph, who is going to lie in your arms, I just have no strength in my arms......"
"This girl also owes you a big favor now, I really don't know when I will pay it off......"
"Go ahead, I'll take care of my ......"
In front of Ye Lin, Dongfang Ningxue seemed to be dancing, and the two just looked at each other and looked at each other.
"Ye Lin, do you have flowers on my face? If you don't have flowers, why are you staring at me like this......
Snow ...... Snow ......
Ye Lin's mouth kept shouting Dongfang Ningxue's name, and he tightly grasped the white dress in his hand, this dress seemed to be his only sustenance,
He was depressed, unable to distinguish between reality and illusion.
He has completely closed himself off, and he will never be able to go back to before, and he will never be able to return to the confident Ye Lin.
His heart, his everything, seemed to die with the passing of the snow in the east.
There is no greater mourning than death!!
Ye Lin took a few sips of wine again, the wine tasted spicy and spicy.
Draw the knife and cut off the water, the water is more flowing, and the glass is more sorrowful.
There is nothing more painful in the world than not being able to live or die.
Ye Lin twitched slightly, he was completely drunk, drunk in his dream.
If a person is left with only loneliness, then he must be lonely inside.
In addition to this loneliness, deep down in his heart, there was also a sense of powerlessness.
He just hugged this shirt and immersed himself in his own dreams.
He no longer has enough courage to accept his current self, and his heart is lonely.
If you are disheartened and have no real warmth, you will spend it in the cold winter like a walking corpse.
Where there is no temperature, it is just a road full of thorns, and a cold and cold place often does not bring any strength to people.
In the early morning, when the first rays of sunlight shone on Ye Lin's face, he only felt a burst of dazzling, and immediately messed up the hair that had been tied up again.
Carefully putting the dress into the mustard seed bag, Ye Lin curled up in the corner on the side, he was very anxious.
This was the case for several days.
Aqiu also came over and said a few times, but Ye Lin's eyes were full of emptiness, and he could only shake his head helplessly.
is also a fallen person at the end of the world, Aqiu naturally understands that behind every slave, there may be an unlucky story.
Looking at the appearance of this young man, he already understood that he was afraid that this young man had experienced the most terrible thing in his life before becoming a slave.
Especially his eyes that were afraid of everything and closed his eyes, made Aqiu have some sympathy for the young man.
He didn't hit Ye Lin, but told Situ Yan about the situation.
There was such a thing, Situ Yan was slightly surprised when she heard this sentence for the first time.
Aqiu nodded and said, "Miss, as far as I can see, this slave is only afraid that he has been stimulated before, and his whole person looks crazy. ”
At night, he didn't sleep, he only knew to sleep with a shirt in his arms, and during the day, he seemed to be a different person, and he became full of fear of everything around him, and his spirit was only afraid......
After that, Aqiu didn't say anything more.
Situ Yan thought slightly and said, "I'm afraid he has experienced a terrible nightmare." ”
The moonlit night was approaching, and Ye Lin's originally curled up body actually shifted a little at this time, and the original empty eyes had a hint of color at this moment.
He was in deep pain, his face distorted somewhat.
Pick up the wine from the wine gourd and drink it without hesitation.
Why wake up, everything is just a dream, Ye Lin laughed at himself.
He took a few more sips of wine until his expression was a little confused, and it seemed that only in this situation could he forget all the pain, all the past.
At this time, he was just a drunk who was anesthetized by alcohol.
Situ Yan stood from a distance and watched this scene, and when she saw the playful eyes of this young man, her brows couldn't help but wrinkle even more.
She could feel that the young man's will was extremely depressed, that he was unwilling to wake up, that he was unwilling to face reality.
It was the first time she had seen such a person, some slaves were only willing to die and not live, and some slaves could live for their lives.
But the slave in front of him seems to have a very indifferent view of life and death, whether it is life or death, it seems that it is not difficult for him to be important.
For such a person, Situ Yan is obviously also a little interested.
Miss, look at this...... Aqiu, who was standing beside Situ Yan, couldn't help but say helplessly.
It's okay, I'll go over and take a look at him, Situ Yan smiled faintly.
Miss, be careful, this man is crazy......
Situ Yan walked to Ye Lin's side and glanced at Ye Lin, who was already drunk.
In Ye Lin's confused eyes, he saw Dongfang Ningxue's smiling face, and saw Dongfang Ningxue approaching him,
Snow ...... Snow ......
Ye Lin kept shouting, he looked at Situ Yan in green as if he had seen the snow in the east.
At this time, the originally somewhat dull gaze was full of tenderness at this moment.
His gaze was suddenly bright and agile at this moment.
Inch by inch lovesickness, a trace of tenderness, it seems that at this moment, he saw the shadow that haunts his dreams.
Ye Lin stood up and shook Situ Yan's hand abruptly and excitedly.
This scene frightened Situ Yan.
I knew you didn't leave me. Ye Lin said as if he was crazy.
Bold, hurry up and put it down, you madman, Aqiu scolded Ye Lin.
But Ye Lin's hands just didn't let go, and he looked at Situ Yan with some affection.
There was a light smile at the corner of Situ Yan's mouth, although she was a little panicked at first, and even wanted to slap Ye Lin twice, but after thinking about it, she was only facing a person who was a little mentally disturbed, and she had some understanding.
She slowly let go of Ye Lin's hand and looked at the young man in front of her with some curiosity.
You recognized the wrong person, Situ Yan smiled sweetly at Ye Lin.
Ye Lin's heart couldn't help but be shocked, and since he heard that exceptionally clear voice, his pupils couldn't help but shrink suddenly.
He stepped back and looked at the two of them with some horror.
Aqiu, you go down first, Situ Yan said softly.
But, Miss...... In case he ...... Aqiu hesitated.
Don't worry, he is a smart person and will not do anything to me, Situ Yan's eyes fell on Ye Lin's body.
Aqiu glanced at Ye Lin, then at Situ Yan and nodded, and immediately slowly retreated.
Although he retreated, he stood not far away and hid, in case this young man had any undesirable intentions towards the young lady, he would definitely stand up at the first time and teach this young man a lesson.
Now that there is no one, can I talk to you?" Situ Yan said.
Ye Lin still didn't speak, he chose to remain silent.
You can speak, but you choose to pretend to be deaf and dumb, you are like this, it is difficult for me to help you.
I am a slave and don't need help from others, Ye Lin opened the wine gourd and took a sip of wine, this was the first sober word he said in the past half a month, but his words were a little cold.
Actually, if you keep going like this, won't it make the girl who haunts your soul feel cold.
I don't know who that girl is, but being able to make you do that is a testament to the importance of that girl in your heart.
So you have all the more reason to regain your faith and find your yearning for life.
Is it, I can't find the yearning for life, what does it have to do with you, Ye Lin sneered.
Situ Yan's eyes flickered, and she said, "You really have some differences from other slaves, it's not in vain that I spent two hundred times to grade bone crystals." ”
What do you want to say? Ye Lin looked directly at Situ Yan.
You owe me 200 Pinjing now, you owe me money, if you want to be free, you must pay back the money, as for your current state, I can't care, pay back the money you owe me.
Ye Lin snorted coldly and continued to drink without speaking.