I looked at Qiu Jieqin, who was full of joy, and said, "It doesn't matter if she loves me or not." The important thing is that I can't lie to you anymore. Xie Qin, I can't be in a relationship with you, but I like other women in my heart, it's so unfair to you. I can't give you happiness, how can I still have the face to be with you? ”

Qiu Xie Qin blinked his eyes and said, "Why isn't it important?" Important! I ask you, according to you, you will only give her happiness if you love the woman, and if you can't give it, you'd rather not be with her, right? ”

"Of course! Don't you long for happiness? Don't you want your man to be in love with you? ”

"Of course I hope! But now it seems that I can't get it, so I have to retreat, and I just hope that my man will not abandon me! ”

"Why? What's good about being with a man who doesn't love you? ”

"Tang Qian! Don't you understand? Because I love you! I can't live without you! I know you've never loved me, so I tried whatever it took to keep you. You don't see that I have been so active, seducing you regardless of shame, just to make you inseparable from me. I'm willing to do anything for you. If you can get true love and find a woman who you love and she loves you, then I have nothing to say, who called me not attractive enough? But now the question is, the woman you like doesn't like you, you can't be with her, are you going to live alone for the rest of your life? You're hurting not only me, but you're hurting yourself! ”

I was stunned for a moment before I thought about this question, yes! If I can't forget Xu Shu and can't get her, will I be a single person for the rest of my life and not get married?

I thought for a moment and said: "Time, it will dilute all feelings, maybe many years later, I will slowly forget her and fall in love with someone again, but I don't know what year and month it will be." So I can't mistake you, you're not too young anymore, you should hurry up and find happiness that truly belongs to you, and you don't have to waste time on me. ”

"You! It's my happiness! I've wasted a lot of time and don't care about more waste. Tang Qian, do you know how I have been here for the past eight years? After you didn't want me back then, I used to give up on myself for a while, and I even thought about playing with all the men in the world to take revenge on you for hurting me. But even though I keep having boyfriends and getting drunk every day, I never stop thinking about you in my heart. In the past eight years, I have been miserable! I don't want to live this kind of bitter life anymore, even if you don't love me anymore, I want to be with you, being by your side is my greatest happiness! ”

I was so moved that I couldn't help but reach out and touch her cheek again, and sighed, "Xie Qin, you are really ...... Silly! What good am I to make you love me so much? ”

Qiu Jieqin tilted his head slightly, accepted my caress, and said: "I am like this, I seem to be amorous, but in my life, you are the only one I have really loved." ”

I suddenly remembered a question, and said, "That...... Why haven't you ever looked for me in eight years? It wasn't until I found you that you thought you wanted to be with me? ”

Qiu Jieqin smiled faintly and said, "I knew that you were going to ask me this question, and it had been stuffy in your heart for a long time?" ”

I didn't answer, I just looked at her. There are many things about Qiu Jieqin that I can't understand, such as why she never talked to me when she loved me so much? What has she been doing for the past eight years? How many boyfriends she has had, etc., she needs to make it clear.

Qiu Jieqin was silent for a while, and said, "Do you remember a few days ago, I had something to say to you?" I see that you seem to be disgusted with me being so windy, so I want to confess to you what I have done in the past few years, I don't ask you to forgive me, I just want you to understand my feelings. ”

My heart tightened, and I understood that what Qiu Jieqin said next would make me have a major change in my opinion of her. I sat up straight, ready to listen.

Qiu Jieqin sighed first, and then said, "Yes!" I've had so many boyfriends that I can't count them myself. In my most painful days, I changed to a new person almost every three or four days. Because I hated you then! I hate your ruthlessness and unrighteousness, and I hate all the men in the world. I seduced them and then immediately discarded them, and I felt an indescribable pleasure at the sight of their pain when they lost me. But every night, I hate myself and you so much that I can't sleep. I...... I had a bad problem, which I developed at that time, and when I hated it to the extreme, I tortured myself desperately to seek relief. During this time, I lived like a walking corpse, except to seduce men every day to abandon the search for pleasure. It's to hate you endlessly! It's ridiculous that I still fantasize that one day you will be able to come to me with a change of heart, and I don't care about hugging and kissing when I seduce a man, but just for this little fantasy, I actually kept the last chastity and didn't let any man succeed! ”

When I heard this, I was shocked again, I didn't expect that my rejection of her eight years ago would cause her so much harm, and indirectly hurt countless innocent men. I couldn't speak, only sighed.

Speaking of this, Qiu Jieqin's eyes changed, becoming sad and sad. "But I'm not a virgin anymore," she said, "and I gave it to another man, though ...... I've never loved him! ”

My heart ached, although I knew she wouldn't be a virgin, but hearing her say it herself, my chest was still uncomfortably blocked. I forced a smile and said, "There are some things that you don't have to say!" ”

Qiu Jieqin said stubbornly: "No! I must tell you that I am not actually a silver, and there is a reason why I did not keep your chastity for you. ”

I didn't want to hear it at all, and said, "You have no obligation to keep your virginity for me, I don't want you first, no matter what you have done in the past eight years, you don't need to be responsible to me!" ”

Qiu Jieqin said: "But I'm your girlfriend now!" I haven't agreed to break up with you yet! I am not responsible to you, but you are responsible for knowing my past! ”

I smiled wryly and said nothing, and suddenly I wanted to smoke, but when I felt all over my pocket, I remembered that the pack of cigarettes had already been thrown away, and I came back tired and sleepy, and I hadn't smoked one until now!

Qiu Jieqin saw that I didn't find anything after touching it for a long time, so she immediately stood up and ran to the bed, came over with a big paper bag and handed it to me.

I said, "What's that?" ”

Qiu Jieqin snorted and said, "I bought it for you, I originally wanted to give it to you later, but I didn't expect that as soon as you came in, you would break up with me." ”

I took it and opened it, and found a cardigan and a cigarette inside. A cardigan is enough, but cigarettes are what I need most now.

I tore open the cigarette case, took out a pack, and said, "Why did you suddenly remember to buy me cigarettes?" ”

"Humph! I don't remember you smoker! You've been your girlfriend for so long, have you ever bought me even a needle? ”

I sweated a sweat, thinking that you won't be my girlfriend for a few days? I took one out and put it in my mouth, but I couldn't find the fire, so I ran to the kitchen and lit a cigarette with the gas stove.

Qiu Jieqin saw that I finally smoked, so he said, "Now, can you listen to me?"

I said helplessly: "Say it! I'm listening! ”

Qiu Jieqin took a deep breath, and then said, "You called me that day, and I said that my mother was sick." Actually, it was a lie, I'm sorry. The sick person is not my mother, it is the man's mother. The man died, leaving his mother alone, and I had been taking care of her. ”

Qiu Jieqin paused for a moment, and then said: "That man's name is Zhou Yimin, he is a criminal policeman, and he died because of an arrest operation in April this year. He is the person who loves me in the world, he loves me even more than himself, Tang Qian, if you have one-tenth of him for me, then even if I die immediately, I will smile Jiuquan. ”

I smoked a cigarette and asked myself, I was really ashamed, Qiu Jieqin was nominally my girlfriend, but it seemed that I had never taken her to heart, let alone been nice to her. Even the time with her is not as long as with Hua Jingjing and Xu Xin. My boyfriend is really incompetent.

Qiu Jieqin slowly squatted in front of me, leaned her upper body on my lap, and said faintly: "Qian, don't be angry when I say this, in fact, I have always wanted to find an opportunity to tell you." I'm afraid you think I'm the kind of silver woman who rides thousands of people and straddles ten thousands. But in fact, I have only given one man, and I have only loved you. You ask me why I haven't thought about looking for you for eight years? Who says it hasn't been thought of? I thought about it to death. After I got tired of that part of the walking dead, I stopped seducing men and looking for excitement. At that time, I no longer hated you, but my thoughts about you grew deeper and deeper. I know that if I can't get you again, I'll end up depressed one day. But at that time, a man who had been seduced and abandoned by me kidnapped me and wanted to force me to avenge my ruthlessness, and at this time Zhou Yimin appeared, and he saved me at the most critical moment, making me very grateful to him. Later, he launched a crazy pursuit of me, and I refused because he was kind to me and I couldn't play with him. At that time, I was so preoccupied with you, so I ......"

Qiu Jieqin lay on my lap and slowly told a story of the past, to the effect that the criminal policeman named Zhou Yimin was infatuated and cared for her. finally took meticulous care of Qiu Jieqin in a hospitalization with stomach bleeding, and moved Qiu Jieqin. She thinks that since she can't get my love, then find a man who loves her deeply. Not long after, the two lived together, and after a while, when they were about to register their marriage, Zhou Yimin unfortunately died in a criminal police team arresting a suspect in a homicide case.

When Qiu Jieqin said this, he shed sad tears and said: "Tang Qian, even if he loves me so much, I always love you in my heart, and even Zhou Yiren knows this." But he tolerated me, saying that no matter who I was thinking about, he just wanted to take care of me for the rest of his life, and it was enough to love me, and he didn't expect me to give him the same feelings, so I would follow him. After he died, I was sad for a long time and never came into contact with any man again until you called me that day. ”

When Qiu Jieqin finished speaking, I had finished smoking the fourth cigarette, and after I snuffed out the cigarette butt, I sighed and said to her: "Xie Qin, it's really a pity, it's really not easy for a man who loves you so much, it's a pity that he died early, you can live happily." ”

Qiu Jieqin propped up his body, looked at me and said affectionately: "But he also made me understand that as long as you persevere, there is nothing impossible in this world." I love you so deeply, won't I be moved by him in the end? So as long as I treat you the same way Zhou Yimin treats me, one day I believe you will be moved by me. It doesn't matter if you love me or not, the important thing is that I love you, I can't live without you, being with you is my greatest happiness! ”

(To be continued)