Yun Zheng...... The mirror broke open in front of my eyes, cracking into pieces, and Yun Zheng's figure also faded in the white mist, I panicked and wanted to grab his hand, but my hand couldn't catch his figure, so I could only watch in vain as his figure gradually turned into nothingness. Don't go, don't go, Yun Zheng, you can't leave me again and again...... The darkness strangled me, I was sweating all over, my hands and feet were cold, my hands were struggling in vain, and I was ...... Yun Zheng...... The hand that was waving wildly was held by a pair of hands, and I clung to those hands, slender, warm, powerful...... Yun Zheng...... I cried with joy, and I knew you were reluctant to leave me, don't go...... Don't go...... "I won't go......" he assured in a low voice, like a panicked reassurance.

It's true? I won't let go, really? It's true? Don't lie to me, Yun Zheng, you've lied to me many times...... "Really." I'm not leaving, you can sleep well......" He gently squeezed my hand and whispered.

I smile, I hold your hand, you can't walk if you want to...... The mood inexplicably became calm...... Yun Zheng, do you remember the first time I met Cangdu, I knew then that we were the same kind of people. I can appreciate your loneliness, just as you can appreciate my loneliness. None of us are people who can easily give our hearts, and I, a lonely soul who does not belong to this earthly world, always have a ridiculous mentality, sarcastic about the world, and pity myself; And you drag your tormented body, alienating yourself from the world, and burning yourself out. People like us shouldn't be entangled, because once you give your heart, you are equal to giving your all. But why does God let us be together, and doesn't give us the opportunity to join hands for a lifetime? I finally found you in this sea of evil, but God wants to take you away from me, why? Why...... Yun Zheng, I caught you now, don't you want to leave me again, I won't let go, I'll never let go again...... Yun Zheng, why don't you speak? Yun Zheng? Yun Zheng ......, "I'm here." I'm here......" His voice was a little erratic, as if far away from me, but also as if it was very close. I smiled reassuringly, as long as I was still there...... Holding his hand tightly, I felt that the darkness was no longer so unbearable, my chest was no longer so stuffy, and the cold hand gradually had a trace of warmth in his palm. You are the medicine that makes me sleep, Yun Zheng............ Little by little, consciousness revived, I don't know how long I slept, and as I tossed and turned in the dark, those big warm and powerful hands were my only salvation. When I opened my eyes slowly, I was greeted by the large carved mahogany bed in my room, and I was still alone on the bed. Yun Zheng...... My hands were a little heavy, I turned my head slightly, and saw that my hands were held in a pair of big hands with distinct bones, Yun Zheng ......? With some hesitation, his eyes slowly moved up along the hands, and he saw An Yuanxi sitting under the bed with his eyes closed, leaning on the big bed, as if he was asleep.

It turned out to be still a dream, it turned out that the hands that brought me peace of mind and warmth in my dream were not Yun Zheng's, it turned out that no matter how sad and desperate I was, God forced me to recognize the reality, Yun Zheng really won't come back. My eyes were slightly hot, and I closed them, my throat choking. When the heartache dissipated, I opened my eyes again and stared at An Yuanxi's sleeping face. His face was a little pale, his hair was disheveled, there was a shadow of tiredness under his eyes, and his face was a little haggard. How long has he been here? The memories of before the coma came to mind, and the only bronze mirror that allowed me to see Yun Zheng again shattered into pieces and disappeared under his palm, and I slapped him hard...... I gasped, my hand moved slightly, wanting to pull out of his palm, this subtle action immediately woke up An Yuanxi, he quickly opened his eyes, his gaze was fixed on my face, seeing me looking at him with my eyes open, with a hint of joy in my eyes, but immediately disappeared into the dark eyes, there was a complex and obscure look in his eyes, his lips moved slightly, and his voice was hoarse: "Are you awake?" ”

I looked at him in a daze, silent. When I think back to the scene before I fell unconscious, I feel a frenzied resentment in my heart, I want to hate him, I want to beat him, bite him and tear him to pieces. Yet my sanity returned, and it told me that I couldn't blame him, that he did all this for my good. An Yuanxi, he has always been like this, he would rather suffer himself than make me sad, even if what he does inevitably hurts me, he must suffer more than me, I can't bear to criticize him again. I looked into his eyes quietly, tears like beads of broken threads, sliding from the corners of his eyes and wetting his temples. An Yuan looked at me stupidly, his left hand still holding my hand tightly, and his right hand on the back of my hand was slightly released, reaching out to my cheek, gently wiping away the tears from the corners of my eyes, with repentance and careful forgiveness. My heart is sour, Ye Haihua, look at how embarrassed and humble you are to a proud man, because you understand his feelings for you, so you have always asked for him, no one should give everything for you wholeheartedly, how can you be so selfish?

"I'm sorry!" The corners of my lips moved, and a soothing smile surfaced, and I said softly.

"I'm sorry!" He also spoke at the same time, stunned for a moment when he heard my words, and there was a hint of disbelief in his eyes. All the while, he was apologizing, saying sorry, even if he didn't do anything wrong. I know what he means when he says sorry at this moment, even if he smashes the mirror for my own good, as long as I am angry with him and annoyed him, he will humbly say sorry. Tears welled up and I sobbed in a low voice: "It's me who is too paranoid, I'm sorry...... I shouldn't have hit you...... I'm sorry...... Let you worry...... Sorry ......"

"No, it's me who is not good, I can't understand your feelings......" An Yuanxi was anxious and panicked, hurriedly wiping the tears that kept pouring out of my eyes, and said softly, "Don't cry, don't cry, it's me who is not good, Ye'er, don't cry, I don't know what to do if you cry so much......"

I don't know what to do, An Yuanxi, fate plays tricks on us like this, my love for Yun Zheng, your love for me, are so bitter and deep, I can't be redeemed, and I can't redeem you, what should we do?

"Is my sister awake?" Xiaohong, who was sleeping at the end of the bed, was awakened by the sound of us talking. An Yuanxi's hand stiffened slightly, slowly retracted, and his right hand slowly loosened. I felt his despair and pain, and closed my teary eyes. An Yuanxi, I'm sorry, I can't respond to your feelings, I'm sorry...... "woke up." Xiaohong, you take good care of your sister-in-law. An Yuanxi's voice was hoarse and heavy, "Sister-in-law...... I...... Out ......"

(To be continued)