【2nd Update】

At noon in the summer, the sun was very hot, but Jiang Wei felt very cold. Overhead, the sunlight projected from the lush foliage did not have any warmth, the coldness in the heart spread, the lips were purple, trembling, and I didn't dare to look at the girl next to me. This person, who should have existed in the ideal and missed at night, is now walking by his side, but he is not moved at all, and some are just faintly sad.

It is not the pain that comes from the depths of the heart, but the love that comes from the love. Although Jiang Wei is fat, his mind is quite sensitive. From the time he saw Su Xiaohan, he knew that it was difficult to conquer. Su Xiaohan has desire-hope in her eyes, and in the materialistic world, money, power, and more fill her soul. Although the occasional side of the surname is revealed, it is also fleeting. There is no time to watch, like a meteor in the night sky.

The meteor is beautiful, but it is short-lived, just like his love. If falling in love with Su Xiaohan was a mistake, Jiang Wei would rather be wrong all the time. A relationship that ended before it began, but it was even more unforgettable.

He is a student of a third-rate university, he is a boy from the countryside of Heilongjiang, carrying the expectations of the whole village, and looking forward to the future with passion. But the reality is always quite cruel. He thought that he could withstand no matter how hard and tired he was, and there were many good times for college students, but when he met Su Xiaohan, he sank.

Since he is sinking, he will not get up. So he ignored his rational admonition and beat Xu Pengfei. The ending that awaits him can be seen that with Xu Pengfei's family background, it is too simple to get a college student without any power to support him. It's as simple as trampling grass on the side of the road. It's just that Jiang Wei was a little unbearable in his heart, and his own affairs affected Wu Ming and them.

He didn't complain about the girls around him at all, really, some just pity. Even if Su Xiaohan returns to the arms of others tomorrow. He just wants her to live well, but Xu Pengfei will never give Su Xiaohan happiness.

Su Xiaohan followed silently, the high heels under his feet ticked, and the tree-lined path was cut into green bricks, and if he didn't pay attention to the gaps, the heels would get stuck. It's like her life, she falls down if she is not careful. Although Su Xiaohan didn't want to admit it, she fell, and she fell very hard.

Although the boys around him are not good-looking and even a little ugly, he cares about her. is different from Xu Pengfei, but he is just curious and only likes her appearance. There is no shortage of women around Xu Pengfei, especially beautiful women. She will always be just one of them, never the only one. But he is Jiang Wei's only one. Even if we haven't known each other for a long time.

The surname of Gan and the surname of Li, they are always twin brothers, constantly circling in their minds, Su Xiaohan has vowed to find a rich man since he was sensible, but there is always no chance. Now the only opportunity has slipped away.

Su Xiaohan stopped, Jiang Wei followed, and turned his head puzzled.

"Let's have a good talk." Su Xiaohan sighed, "Find a place where you can talk." ”

Jiang Wei nodded, so the two went to the rooftop of the library. Here, he used to shout at the sunset that his love was dead. But today he came to the same place with a love that was about to be destroyed, as if to verify the words of the day. Ironically, Jiang Wei no longer has the arrogance he had at that time, and some have a faint regret, unbearable and painful.

A simple shed was propped up with a few sticks, and the two sat opposite each other, silent for a while.

Su Xiaohan finally spoke and said with a smile: "Do you look down on me?" "The smile is very natural, there is some helplessness and indifference in nature, and there is laziness and depravity flowing on the body. Fall, yes, this is what Jiang Wei can clearly feel.

Jiang Wei was stunned, shook his head and said, "How come, everyone has the right to choose their own life." There's nothing wrong with your way being different from people. ”

"But I see disappointment in your eyes." Su Xiaohan sighed.

Jiang Wei turned his head. He really didn't like it, and even disgusted Su Xiaohan's chosen lifestyle, and said: "I respect your choice and outweigh other people's hypocrisy." ”

Su Xiaohan smiled helplessly, shook his head and said: "Worship money, material, the world always comments on others very easily, in a vain attempt to restrain others with conclusions that do not go through the brain." But everything happens for a reason. From the perspective of the deep causes, the emergence of phenomena is accompanied by beauty. Because our starting point is always good. At least, personally, the starting point is good. ”

Jiang Wei was about to speak, and Su Xiaohan shook his head and said, "Don't refute, listen to me." ”

Jiang Wei lowered his head and listened carefully.

Su Xiaohan looked at the sky and sighed: "When I was seven years old, my parents divorced. I lived with my mother. Can you guess why they divorced? ”

With a wry smile, Su Xiaohan said: "For a schoolbag, my schoolbag for school." My mother loved me very much. Ever since my brother died, oh, by the way, my brother was two years younger than me, had a congenital heart condition, spent all the money in the family, and was not cured, and he still left us. When my brother left, I was six years old and already knew how to grieve. I was seven years old and in the first grade of elementary school, but I didn't have a nice school bag. My mother wanted my father to ask for it, and she was beaten. The reason is very simple, the schoolbag costs twenty yuan, and my father thinks it is very expensive. Later, I found out that it was not the twenty dollars, but that my father didn't want to spend money on me. Because I have a younger brother, but he was not born to my mother. You should know. My father was having an affair. ”

"After that, my mother divorced my father and took me to live. When I was a child, I didn't know much about dressing up. Think about how happy I was then. There is no father's love, there is no materiality, and between ignorance, although I understand something, at least I am happy. Su Xiaohan said quietly, "Until I was in the fifth grade, I was the most beautiful girl in the class at that time, and almost all the boys in the class liked me. At that time, isn't it ridiculous that a simple eleven-year-old child actually understands feelings? The girls in the class didn't like me, hit me, showed off beautiful pencils in front of me, and had photos of their travels around the country. At that time, I went home and asked my mother to give me good things. I'm really ignorant, my mother didn't remarry, she pulled me to grow up alone, and everything she could give me was already the best. I cry, I make trouble. The mother cried too. ”

"I remember vividly what my mother said, that I would marry a rich man in the future, so that I would not suffer. Even if there is no emotion, divorce is guaranteed. In the world, whether you have money or not, you can't rely on it. ”

Jiang Wei listened to Su Xiaohan's story, silent, he didn't know what to say to comfort him, and squinted his little eyes in the somewhat dazzling sunlight. He was also born into a poor family, and he also suffered the damage caused by poverty. But he is lucky, at least his parents love him very much, and they cherish him very much, and they try to satisfy everything they want.

"I'm sorry." Jiang Wei said softly, "Actually, you ......."

"Pity me now?" Su Xiaohan said lightly, "Is it possible that after I finish telling my story, you can understand some of the things in my heart?" ”

Su Xiaohan's tone was very hot and aggressive: "You stand at the top of the tall surname, overlooking me, I am ridiculous and pitiful?" Is there a difference with the person you imagined? ”

Jiang Wei wanted to shake his head, but finally nodded. Because rightly or wrongly, he found himself in no position to comment at all.

"You're tired of living." Jiang Wei said, "Me too." Everyone is tired from being alive. Because you can't get what you want, and people's desires and desires are endless, extending to every vein of society. ”

Su Xiaohan had no interest in continuing to entangle the truth of life, and his mood was a little low.

"Actually, I admire you, really." Jiang Wei said suddenly.

Su Xiaohan raised his head, looked at the person in front of him suspiciously, and asked if he had heard it wrong.

"Anyway, you still dare to admit yourself, and I don't have the courage. I'm fat and I'm not handsome. The family has no money, and I don't have much ability. I have a strong sense of self-esteem, and when I see rich people, I am also very envious. But I always pretended to be high, and Li Haoran laughed at the rich people in the world, laughed at the social system, and even cursed everything. I was obsessed with the dreams I had wove myself. It's like the main character in The Great Gatsby, living in innocence. I feel that the person who knows me best is Wu Ming, he understands what I need, gives me courage, and gives me encouragement. I was grateful to him, but I couldn't say it. Because there is a feeling that suppresses me, more than gratitude to Wu Ming. Jiang Wei laughed at himself, "He is the most quiet person I have ever seen, and he is also the most impenetrable person." He has ideals, pursuits, and is always in action. As you know, in addition to being happy, there is also some inferiority and self-suffering. Do you understand that feeling? ”

Su Xiaohan nodded and said, "He and Lu Xiaoman are very compatible. ”

"You're wrong, he's not a good match for anyone." Jiang Wei seemed to know Wu Ming very well, shook his head and said, "But he is as compatible with anyone." ”

"What do you mean?" Su Xiaohan forgot his story and asked curiously.

Jiang Wei organized his words and said, "It's just a feeling, I've always been sensitive to the things around me. Although he doesn't want to admit it, Wu Ming is indeed very mysterious. When dating, his eyes are really fixed on you, very warm, very kind, but there is always something missing. I didn't understand until today. ”

"He's very good at fighting." Su Xiaohan pondered.

"Not true. He is like a dragon hidden in the world," Jiang Wei described, "and nothing changes in front of him." Even if he offends Xu Pengfei, he will not hesitate to do so. Hey, it's just a pity that I'm involved. ”

Su Xiaohan's eyes were gloomy, and he said in a low voice: "It's my fault." ”

"It's God's fault." Jiang Wei said with a smile. Su Xiaohan also laughed.

"Let's leave Xu Pengfei." Jiang Wei hesitated for a moment, and finally mustered up the courage to say tentatively.

Su Xiaohan, who was still laughing just now, changed his face drastically, frowned and pondered, and then shook his head for a long time and sighed, "I don't know." ”

Jiang Wei was furious, grabbed Su Xiaohan's hand, and asked, "Didn't you see today's incident?" You're nothing to him! Money really matters. How much can he give you, so can I. Even if I can't now, I can in the future! ”

The words of the oath not only did not move Su Xiaohan, but stimulated her. Su Xiaohan suddenly hugged Jiang Wei and cried, crying heartbreakingly, with indescribable regret and helplessness in his voice: "I'm sorry, it's really not for money now!" ”

"Why?" Jiang Wei said angrily.

"Xu Pengfei has a photo of me at home." Su Xiaohan's words, like thunder in Jiang Wei's ears, completely shocked him.

"What photo?" Jiang Wei said in a hoarse voice, and a very bad premonition surged in his heart.

Su Xiaohan cried loudly: "It's my nude-photo." ”