Chapter 50: The Unattainable Ideal

Zhao Qiansun Li Ma Liulei ......

Pingnan Village is not a village with one surname, otherwise it would not be called Pingnan, but should be called "Lijia Village". Pingnan Village is a village that is likely to develop into a township, with the surname "big family" of pears - in fact, there are only forty or fifty people, as well as several major surnames such as Lei, Liu, and Yang.

Although some have the same surname, they are not related to each other, such as Limu's grandfather Li Zhiyou and Lu Wei's grandfather Li Shang are in this relationship; Some not only have different surnames, but also do not have any relatives, such as Dashengnan's family is alone.

Perhaps the family is naturally lonely and stubborn, and the "big" surname is quite rare, and they have not made any close friends in the village.

Once, when my mother was seriously ill and quit her job in a textile factory, my father lent money to see a doctor in the village but could not borrow money, and in the end it was the workers who helped him. Since then, the family has become more and more hostile to the village, and they are reluctant to even talk to ordinary conversations. After two years, seeing that the family was becoming more and more difficult, he wanted to borrow money to build a two-story house for rent, but he couldn't borrow money at all. So the eldest father could only work outside until he was overtired and died suddenly.

Why do husbands get tired to death? It's not because you can't borrow money from the village!

The eldest mother held a "backbone" in her stomach, and after learning that her daughter asked for alms from the villagers, she urged her daughter several times to take 20 yuan and return it to others, how could she ask her daughter to help the people in the village work?

The eldest mother thought silently.

Riki paused for a long time, and seeing that Katsuo's mother had no intention of talking, he finally sighed and said:

"Alas~ Well, in the face of such superior conditions, you can hesitate for so long. I can already guess very well that you are not denied me a good reward for some noble affection. ”

Riki doesn't know where the gap that prevents her mother from making a decision is, and the biggest fear of psychological counseling is not rejection, but the fear that the counselor will not say anything like Kuaimu.

He felt that the family was very wary of the outside world, and what made him think this way was the dress on the second daughter. Normally, it is enough to sew a cloth of the same color, and if it is to satisfy the child's vanity, it is not uncommon to cover it with a flower. But the eldest mother found several flowers of the same kind and sewed them on the corners of the skirt according to certain rules, so that the flowers and the dress looked integrated.

Could it be that the eldest mother also has a strong sense of vanity? Riki didn't know.

But it is clear that Katsuo's mother should be a person who hardly communicates with the village, after all, she has never even heard of the name "prodigy Riki". If the conjecture of the eldest mother's "diligence and honesty" is overturned, then she is a foolish woman who refuses to accept even 20 yuan of favor, and wants to completely dissociate herself from the outside world.

gave birth to a gigantism daughter, and she still looks sick and rejects people......

Limu suddenly remembered faintly - when he was a child, his family often warned him not to go to the back village to play, in addition to the danger of the fish pond, there was also a terrible "crazy woman". I heard that several daughters had died, and they often took the children back to the dark cellar and kept them, especially the little boys...... It sounded like a terrible rumor at the time.

"I don't say so much, every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, if you want your eldest daughter to grow up stupidly and be deceived by others, she will become a naked person walking on the street with mental disorders. Woman; If you want your two young daughters to be uneducated, sell 'meat' in this house for money, and if you follow this line of thought......

“…… If Katsuo hadn't come to call me before school this afternoon.

"Then you can do it."

After speaking, I saw him walk out of the door, and waved to Katsuo by the door, asking his eldest daughter to give him a ride.

The eldest daughter stretched out her head to ask, and the eldest mother nodded inwardly.

The dark black curtains hanging in front of the walls were slightly blown by the wind that walked through the alleys. She suddenly felt a chill like the depths of winter, and shivered alone under the covers.

She knew very well what would happen if her family continued like this.

She had woken up from her dreams countless times, and she had seen countless futures, but none of them were the results she wanted. No!

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On the night she made her decision, she had a rare dream.

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Many years later, the Da Shengnan who was interviewed by the "record" has risen by 30 centimeters, and his skin is still dark, more and more like a black tower mountain.

“…… That decision was the beginning and a turning point for our family. After my mother's long period of self-isolation, our family began to receive communication with the village for the first time. It was a turning point in my fate, and I learned a lot by serving the Lord...... The benefactor has been a student who has been in the spotlight since the fifth grade. He studied very well and had a very high talent for drawing...... And it's not the kind of obnoxious honor student, who is very gentle to everyone and approachable...... Although sometimes he has a knife mouth and a tofu heart, all the students and teachers like him very much. ”

Katsuo stared at a point in the void and said quietly.

The photographer listened in silence.

"My parents were obviously wrong about what happened back then, because the benefactor's family was richer than ours, but they only had one child. And my parents, who were poorer than them, actually gave birth to three of our children. My mother's illness was not a disease in the first place, but it only began to appear after giving birth to me, and after discovering that she was weak, she gave birth to my two younger sisters in succession. Of course, it's not that their birth was a mistake, but the overbirth caused my mother's condition to deteriorate further, and with the double pressure of raising children, it was only natural that our family would fall into that field. ”

Katsuo glanced at the camera, because the "documentary" program was a combination of declarative and explanatory documentaries, and the host and videographer remained silent.

"My parents resented the villagers for refusing to borrow money, which obviously made no sense, and the villagers had no obligation to lend to us. In addition, my father wanted to lend money to my mother for treatment and upbringing, and the money was not used for investment, and it was difficult for the borrower to recover the debt. When my father became estranged from the neighbors and saw that they had money to build a house, he also thought about building a second or three storey building. At this time, it was the second period of great construction in the village, and some people built high-rise buildings, yes, but they either owed money to others, or lent money to relatives to build houses, and it was not my father's turn to say anything. ”

The big man Katsuo continued quietly.

"When I realized this and told the benefactor, he smiled and said to me, 'It's not your fault,' and I asked him whose fault was it? He told me, 'Maybe it's [Shichen] or [World]......

"The benefactor said that the situation in our family is not a special case, so we don't need to pay too much attention to it. He told me that there are two kinds of people in this world who can have many children.

"One of them is the wealthy, who have enough money to pay fines, who can change their nationality, who want to pass on as many of their good genes as possible......

"The other is the poor, because they are afraid that the survival rate of their children is not high, and they will have no one to send them to their deaths when they are old, and they are not afraid to wear shoes when they are barefoot......

"Caught in the middle, the most painful, and the most crowded, is the working class. They are reluctant to take off their brightly colored coats and leather shoes, and they are determined to climb upwards, and must abide by the rules set by the 'first extreme'. They had only one child in their lives, or no children, and named themselves single aristocrats......

"In the long run, there will be fewer and fewer children of the people who are willing to be oppressed, the second extreme 'slave' genes will be suppressed, and the first and third extreme genes will be proliferated. Eventually, if you think 'don't have children, it's a pain for them to be born in this world', you will die, and the third extreme, which is full of adventurous superbirth, will become more and more extreme, and one day it will challenge the first extreme......

"The world or country will start to 'shuffle' after four or five generations, so the lifespan of each country is only a hundred years, some people say that there are many factors that determine the collapse of the country, but in fact, the root cause is the flood of 'adventure genes'......

"The Lord thinks the world is twisted, I say - probably no one wants to believe it, and no one can accept it. The benefactor's mood is not incomprehensible - just look at the cartoon under the pseudonym 'Wendao', you can see some signs of it. ”

"- Signs?" A voice suddenly inserted outside the frame, and realizing that he had made a mistake, he immediately gaged his mouth.

"The benefactor learns very well, his brain is like a delicate instrument, and his hand is like a robotic arm when he paints. The pen is written quickly and without errors. He has drawn many comics, half of the world's comics are drawn by him, and among the many comics he has created, it is also his least popular comic collection...... in fact, he likes the cold pen name the most, and he thinks that the things drawn by that pen name can best express his ideals"

What Da Shengnan said next, the photographer decided that it should be NG, but considering that it is a real documentary about that person, even if it is suppressed, it will not be much of a problem.

Cinematographers have an instinct for years to shoot documentaries.

Anyway, why did that person ask her to be a bodyguard at that time? In addition to reporting the grace of heat stroke, there must be some other reason.