"I remember when I first started working, I was young and energetic, and I was full of hope for my work. However, one day, a girl suddenly arrived in the hospital. The girl, who was only 9 years old, suffered a brain injury due to a car accident, so her speech function was impaired and she could not speak normally. It is said that this child was a cheerful and lively child before the car accident, and he loved to sing. At the time of the accident, she was preparing to participate in a singing competition. After the car accident, not only could she not sing, but she could not even speak normally.

Because she was still a child, she suddenly couldn't speak normally, which made her unable to bear the blow and became a little melancholy. And I, as a doctor, would love to heal her. So, I would go to see her every day, cheering her on and comforting her all the time. And because she couldn't speak normally, she could only look at me, and she could only look at me helplessly. However, I could not read her mind or understand her thoughts from the look in her eyes. So, I could only repeat these comforting words over and over again.

Originally, I thought that as long as I kept encouraging and comforting her, she would definitely be strong. But I was wrong, I was completely wrong.

The last time I saw her was on a late autumn afternoon. It was a nice day, with clear skies outside and fresh air. I spoke to her and noticed that she was staring blankly outside. I didn't understand why she kept looking outside, so I asked her. But she didn't answer me. I thought she wanted to see the view and breathe in the fresh air, so I opened the window. She looked at me confusedly, then closed her eyes and lay down. I thought she was tired, so I told her to get some rest, and then I left.

The next day, when I arrived at the hospital, I found out that the girl ...... She committed suicide......"

Although decades have passed since the incident, Guan Shanyue has always been haunted by this matter in his heart, so much so that when he said this, he actually choked up. He walked a few steps to his desk, his hands on the top of the desk, and he couldn't calm down for a long time.

Gong Xiping looked at Guan Shanyue, and he suddenly found that Guan Shanyue at this time was completely different from the usual giggling and laughing Professor Guan. Now he is like an old man, an old man immersed in painful memories.

Later, the hospital found her notebook while sorting through her belongings. I read her notes, and in her last few days, she repeated the same sentence: Why doesn't Uncle Doctor understand me? Why doesn't Uncle Doctor understand me? In the end, she wrote in the diary that even the doctors couldn't understand me, no one could understand me, and I was superfluous in this world, so I'd better leave.

You know, she is only 9 years old, and she still has a very good life waiting for her. But she chose to leave this world without attachment and chose to commit suicide. Why is that?

It's because of me.

I want to give her hope, I want to give her encouragement. However, because I couldn't understand her thoughts, I couldn't communicate with her. I thought that through my efforts, she would be able to have the courage to face life. But I was wrong, it was just wishful thinking on my part.

I can't know what she thinks, I can't understand her. As she wrote in her diary, the doctor uncle did not understand her, did not understand her. It was because I, as a doctor, couldn't understand her and couldn't communicate with her, that she completely despaired and lost the courage to live.

If, if I can understand her thoughts, I can know what she is thinking, I can communicate well with her, and I can let her know that life is so beautiful and there is still a long way to go. I will give her courage, give her hope, and let her actively heal. Even if you can't be completely cured, you can live strongly.

Her death is my responsibility, but also the responsibility of medicine and science. If I had the means to know her thoughts, or her memories, then I could communicate with her very well, and make her feel that Uncle Doctor could understand her, that he could understand her, and then the end result would be completely different.

So, I gave up my medical studies and devoted myself to the study of the brain. Even if I do research that can't be exposed in my life, and I'm an unknown nobody all my life, I don't hesitate to do it. I want to make a little contribution to science and medicine through my research, so that this girl's tragedy will not be repeated.

And my life's research is only for one purpose, and that is the Skylight Project! That's right, if the Skylight Project can be successfully studied, it will benefit more people, and even those with autism. So, I came up with the sunroof plan.

However, I made a fatal mistake. I underestimated the power of science. Science can improve the lives of human beings and make human society continue to develop and progress. However, the power of science may also destroy the world and bring humanity to a complete extinction. As an expert in brain research, I only consider the positive effects of science, but ignore the negative effects of science. After the Skylight Project was proposed, I thought I could contribute something to humanity, but when I found out that the Skylight Project was divided into three phases, I realized that I was wrong.

The research of the skylight project may indeed bring a lot of convenience to medicine. However, the negative effects are also very scary. Once the research results fall into the wrong hands, the consequences are unimaginable. Moreover, I can't guarantee that none of the people involved in the research of the Skylight Project have other ideas in mind. Originally, I thought about giving up on this project, but it was too late, and our own country, other countries, and UDA all showed interest in the Skylight Project, and UDA came forward and asked us to start the research as soon as possible and exhibit the results of the research as soon as possible.

So, in desperation, I started researching the skylight project. ”

After Guan Shanyue finished speaking, he exhaled a long breath. What he said was a secret in his heart for many years. This secret pressed him for many years, and he has always kept it in his heart. Even his son Guan Haitian didn't know about his experience. However, in front of Gong Xiping today, he told this secret without reservation.

Not to mention, once he told the secret in his heart, Guan Shanyue felt a lot more relaxed. This secret was like a heavy stone pressing on his heart, and now that he said it, there was a sense of relief and indescribable relief.

However, he also felt a little strange in his heart. Because this is the most secret in his heart, this secret is known only to him, and he has never told anyone else. But I don't know why, but I said it all in front of Gong Xiping, an outsider, and he didn't understand what the reason was. Maybe it's because this secret has been pressing him down for too many years, and he also hopes that he can find a listener to tell the secret. And Gong Xiping is undoubtedly the best listener, because he is not the kind of person who likes to chew the root of his tongue, and he will never tell his secrets.

After listening to Guan Shanyue's narration, Gong Xiping couldn't help but sigh in his heart. Even a cheerful person like Professor Guan will have such a bitter past, which shows that everyone will always encounter some people or things that will affect their lives on the road of growth.

However, all the things that Professor Guan said today made Gong Xiping more certain of one thing: scientists are terrible, because they can do anything for research. This is true of Guan Shanyue, and the same is true of Xuanwu.

Gong Xiping looked at his watch and said, "It's almost 3 o'clock, and the exam is about to end." I think I'd better leave before the exam is over, so as not to have a lot of people after the exam is over. ”

Guan Shanyue nodded and said, "Then you can go first." I'm really sorry to ask you to submit your papers 1 hour early to come to me for an experiment. ”

Gongxi said flatly: "Actually, I have already done it in half an hour." ”

"Hehe, you are a top student, and the test questions at the high school level should not be difficult for you." Guan Shanyue said with a smile.

"I try to control the score to about 65~70 points, which is relatively ordinary and should not be too conspicuous."

Guan Shanyue replied to the previous grin. He rolled his eyes and said with a smile: "65~70 points? Not bad, really good. Well, you keep it up. ”

Gong Xiping saw Guan Shanyue's expression, but he didn't understand what he meant. He looked at his watch again, and it was already 2:57. So he hurriedly said goodbye to Guan Shanyue, and then hurriedly walked out of the school.

Back at the residence, Gong Xiping walked into his room, put his schoolbag on the computer desk, and coldly saw the mobile phone on the computer desk. He suddenly remembered that he should call the restaurant proprietress and make a new appointment with her. So he took the note out of his pocket and picked up his Nokia E66, only to find that it was turned off. Because he was not allowed to bring a mobile phone during the exam, and he had a communicator, the surname Suo turned off his mobile phone and threw it on the computer desk. When he turned his phone back on, he dialed the number on the sticky note. The phone didn't ring a few times before it was connected.

"Hey, Aunt Lu? I'm Gong Xiping. I'm sorry, I was originally scheduled to come over next week, but I have something to do next week, so I can't come. Let's make an appointment at another time. ”

I thought that the other end of the phone would answer quickly, but after waiting for a while, there was no movement. Gong Xiping took the mobile phone off his ear and looked at it, the signal was full, and he still kept talking. But why is there no sound?

"Aunt Lu, are you there?" Gong Xiping asked again.

This time, someone finally replied. I heard a young and beautiful voice stammering and replying, "No...... I'm sorry, I'm ...... I am...... It's her daughter. ...... for a while I'll let her give it to you...... Call you back! ”

Gong Xiping didn't expect that it was Lu Wanying's daughter who answered the phone, and after being stunned for 1 second, he hurriedly said, "Oh, okay, please help me tell Aunt Lu, thank you." ”

After hearing the other party's oh, Gong Xiping hung up the phone.

After hanging up the phone, Gong Xiping glanced at the phone screen with his surname, but was surprised to find that there were more than a dozen unread text messages. When he opened the text message, he couldn't help but show a wry smile on his face.

There are a total of 16 unread text messages, including 2 from Duanmujiao, 5 from Ai Tingting, 1 from Xi Yuling, 7 from Jing Rumeng, and 1 from Shen Daixian. Judging by the time of acceptance, these text messages were all sent last night. Starting at 6 p.m., Ai Tingting and Jing Rumeng sent one almost every half an hour. Xi Yuling only sent 1 post at 7 o'clock in the evening. And Shen Daixian's text message was sent at more than 2 o'clock in the morning today. Duanmu Jiao posted 1 at about 8 o'clock, and then 10 minutes later.

In fact, you don't need to look at the text message, Gong Xiping probably already knows the content. He knew that he hadn't heard from them all day yesterday and hadn't met them, and they would definitely call. But his mobile phone was turned off and he couldn't be contacted, so he could only send him a text message. This is a natural and normal thing.