It is difficult for Qing officials to cut off family affairs, let alone Limu who is trapped in the bureau. Questions that I didn't understand until I was thirty years old, or questions that I haven't looked into seriously, still can't get an answer under this question.

Before Li Xiuli and Li Jiahui got married, Ah Qing had already married other men, but she was still disconnected from Li Jiahui. It's only a few days since I was pregnant, whose child was I pregnant......

- "I don't know. ”

This is the answer that Riki got from Ah Qing's mouth.

It's hard to imagine a mother who doesn't know who the father of her child is, but unfortunately Riki can't see the clue from Gillian's face, after all, this daughter looks more like her mother than a certain father.

――Unless you go for a DNA test.

Ah Qing's sentence of "I don't know" is too cunning, and he casually restrains a man with such ambiguous words. From childhood to adulthood, from graduation to marriage and childbirth, Riki's father would always disappear for one or two nights every month. Maybe it's because you win and take some of it there, or maybe it's because you lose money and find a comfort......

- Maybe it's not her cunning......

It's also possible that that sister is a real sister, even if she wasn't born to her father, Li Jiahui, her father will still run over there from time to time.

If she wins the bet, her mother will not be happy for her father, but she will go with him to drink with his fox friends and dogs; When he lost money in gambling, his mother would not comfort his father, but instead sneered at him and tried to keep him away from gambling. In short, the two have no common language, and even their values are at odds.

However, my father's actions today are indeed biased.

If you have anything to say, just say it, and the honesty of the husband and wife is the most important thing.

It's hard to imagine how my mother would have felt when she saw this scene today. Did she only see a momentary image when she was picking up a customer at the door? Or put down the taxi business and trailed for a while? Or ...... Watching after you all day?

――Did I make my mother sad at that time? Are you too intimate with Aunt Qing?

I can't remember......

It is precisely because I can't recall the details that I am so distressed.

Although I want to prevaricate myself with the excuse that "the past life is the past life, and the present is the present" and ignore the history that has passed, the distress that lingers in my mind still lingers.

What should I do now? He held his forehead with one hand and drew on the manuscript paper with the other.

On the night of the National Day, Limu locked himself in a small room. After he went home, he was no longer in the mood to grind with Lu Hui and Lu Wei like he had done two days ago.

[No child wants to help their parents divorce, watch their father find a woman other than their mother, or watch their mother find a man other than their father-]

[But the father and mother are obviously not compatible, and it will still be painful to match them in the future-]

[I can even boldly say that I will change the world, but I can't change people's surnames-]

What should I do......

Riki's mood is getting more and more complicated. After all, this matter is fundamentally related to the lives of his parents, and he can only live a vulgar life full of coaxing. Now Riki's heart is like a plastic roasted by fire, constantly changing its twisted shape, writing thoughts that gradually become anxious.

Can you see it? 】

What should I do...... Tell me. 】

So, Limu, who was in extreme confusion, picked up the manuscript paper and slapped it at the window. I actually wanted to get a response from the culprit who looked at him, and from the bottom of his heart, he didn't want to think about it anymore.

Although Riki is not an uncertain person, he doesn't want to make rash decisions for his parents, who are too embarrassed by their affairs.

- Sight-kun, are you there...... However, you shouldn't be able to see the small words.

He didn't notice a flash of light from a nearby resident's building.

On the wooden comic table, there are two comic models, four or five bottles of drawing ink, and a jar of chocolate milk beans to replenish your stamina at any time. All sorts of character prototype drafts are scattered on the table. The cup of black tea that my mother brought in was completely dry, and the withered yellow tea leaves were piled up at the bottom.

Riki held the window with her hands and looked down at the ground, like the third wooden model that Furu placed outside the manga table.

――Am I going to be a kid left behind on the streets......

It was a terrifying conjecture that his parents hid from each other when he was a child. Now it brings loneliness and emptiness to Riki, like a canoe in an uninhabited swamp.

It's not the uneasiness of being abandoned by the world. Rather, it is a melancholy, powerlessness and an illusion of loneliness that swept over like a tsunami in Indonesia.

How long did this last? It wasn't until the phone rang outside and Li Xiuli shouted "Limu, your phone" outside the door that he regained consciousness.

- It's the phone call from the peeping person!

Riki is different from the past, and even feels a slight excitement when he picks up the phone, why is this happening?

He was silent for a while holding the phone, not hysterical as usual.

The other end of the phone was also silent, and the two stood on both ends of the line and felt each other, their feelings may be very different, but their hearts were equally soothed.

Bell - the beautiful jingle bell rings at the front of the bicycle.

“…… Go with the flow and do what you should do. An equally clear voice came from the microphone.

The voice is a little familiar, and a little unfamiliar, probably deliberately raised the key.

"- Go with the flow, do what you should do? Masama Morita's psychotherapy? I'm not mentally ill......

"No—I know!" Riki just complained to him, and suddenly thought of the deep meaning.

“……”

"Thank you."

Seeing that the phone fell silent again, Riki smiled and took the initiative to thank him.

"Go with the flow and do what you should do" is the eight-character mantra of Morita therapy. When Riki obtained her almost useless and cheap counselor certificate, she spent a week at a hospital that specializes in Morita therapy.

Professor Morita Masama founded Morita Therapy in 1920. Subject: Is there any disease? What psychosis? Obsessive-compulsive disorder? Like grinding your teeth while thinking? Let's just ignore it, just do our own thing, what do you do?

He pays attention to: go with the flow and do what you should do.

【Go with the flow】

Morita Masama believes that in order to achieve the goal of treatment, the rationale of cognitive therapy is ineffective. Most people don't believe in ghosts, and they deny ghosts both coitively and intellectually, but they can still feel fear when they walk through the cemetery at night.

Therefore, it is not enough to rely on intellectual understanding alone, but only to actually experience it emotionally can make a difference. The first four words of Morita therapy pay attention to the need not to force change the result, as long as you go with the flow, understand the law of emotional activity, do not suppress and reject it, let it fend for itself, fear ghosts, fear ghosts, and walk on the night road for ten years.

Just go with the flow......

Of course, it's not enough to just go with the flow, Morita Masama believes that things are divided into two types: controllable and uncontrollable. People should conform to nature and not control uncontrollable things, such as human emotions. But it is still necessary to pay attention to "do what you should do".

In Limu's view, the peeper's eight words are reminding himself: Your parents' affairs are their own business, and you can't manage it as a junior, and you don't need to take care of it, just let it be. At the same time, you should tell your mother that you don't need to hide it, and the two of you have something to say, and gradually help them find out everything.

After all the information is made public.

The last to make a decision, the one who can make a decision for them - in fact, they are the only ones who can make a decision!

……

"No thanks."

The peep on the other end of the phone said 11 words today, and Riki hung up before she could hear her voice clearly.

[October 3rd, 9:30pm, today I heard the voice of Rimu-kun again, and he asked me for help...... He knows that I love him every day, that he needs me, and that we have a heart......

【…… Riki-kun is really very knowledgeable...... Morita Masama...... The science of mind is also involved...... No, I can't be pulled away by him, I need to read some more books......

【…… For the time being, this is enough, and when I change my appearance, I will become the woman you really like また会いするでしょう (meet again)~】