Chapter 264: The Past
The sudden sentence made Bai Xia a little overwhelmed, and before he could fully understand the emotions contained in this sentence, the first shock was not stunned but just pure joy. No matter what, at least, she is already willing to speak, to a certain extent, it can be regarded as a big step towards success, no matter what difficulties will be encountered next, how much resentment Sikong Yao has to bear, at least there must be communication between the two people, if they don't speak, how can others know what the other party is thinking? All in all, Sikong Yao was finally willing to speak, no matter what the content was, even if it was a rolling word, Bai Xia would gladly accept it.
But sometimes, the words are indeed very hurtful, when they met again after three years, Bai Xia didn't expect Sikong Yao to hate him to this extent, such an indifferent attitude made Bai Xia's heart feel cold. But fortunately, Bai Xia seems to have been prepared for a long time, maybe in his heart, he has already imagined a more brilliant and pitiful outcome than this kind of end, right? So he can also face it very calmly, and in fact, he must face it, after all, he was ruthless and left Sikong Yao at the beginning, how can he blame others for his anger, this is Bai Xia's own fault.
sighed in his heart, relieved, no matter what, it is a good thing that Sikong Yaoken spoke, even if it is disgust, it is also a feeling, which shows that her attitude towards herself is not so unbearable, thinking about it like this, Bai Xia is a lot relieved, meeting and apologizing, this is a matter of Chi Wan-Shu $NSB.COM early, although now is not the best moment. But it can't be an excuse to run away. Anyway, the most difficult step has already been taken. The rest of the matter will not be anywhere. Each other needs it. I'm afraid it's just time.
With a wry smile, Bai Xia's mood was no longer as embarrassed as before, but became a little more comfortable, and then said, "Yao? β
"Don't talk to me."
Sikong Yao felt an inexplicable irritability even when she was talking to Bai Xia now, if it weren't for the fact that she still had a trace of reason, she didn't know what she would do.
Bai Xia smiled bitterly: "Yao, are you still angry with me?" β
It's impossible not to be angry. Is that a scar that is so easy to heal?
Sikong Yao reprimanded disdainfully: "Just leave, what are you doing when you come back now?" β
Sikong Yao's words were full of resentment and disdain, and he might have been heartbroken for the young man in front of him.
Bai Xia's eyes flashed with some helplessness, and he sighed: "Yao, I also had my own hardships at that time. β
"Hmph, that's just your unilateral excuse, but I understand it."
Sikong Yao didn't pay attention to Bai Xia's explanation, and the matter was up to now. Will there be a prayer that she will forgive something? That's impossible.
But Bai Xia didn't give up, no matter what. Things are going in a fairly good direction, and although the content of the conversation is somewhat unpleasant, no matter what, even a quarrel is a way of communication, and at the very least, all the dissatisfaction in the heart can be released. But obviously, there is only one person who can be so willful, and sinners have no rights, the only thing Bai Xia can do is to try to release Sikong Yao's emotions, so no matter what, you still have to admit the reproach that may happen next.
Bai Xia didn't want to hide his mistakes, after all, he ruthlessly abandoned Sikong Yao three years ago and violated the agreement between the two, so he had to face these mistakes calmly, as a man, there was no reason for his beloved woman to bear this, but anyone who still had a trace of blood would not allow such a thing to happen. β¦
Bai Xia puffed up a lot of strength in his heart, and continued to say to Sikong Yao: "Yao, I admit that I was too naΓ―ve at the time, and I couldn't see many things, but it's been three years, and everyone is not an ignorant child anymore, can't some things be allowed to pass slowly?" β
Sikong Yao glanced at Bai Xia, his eyes were full of undisguised disgust, and he reprimanded: "Three years ago, you said you would leave, and you left me behind in order to learn more superb cooking skills, but now you come back to tell me to let all this pass, don't you feel ashamed?" β
In the end, it is still unacceptable, the breakup was so resolute, but it was back to apologize, what is this about? Sympathize? Or pity? Neither. Bai Xia can only blame himself for being too stubborn at the beginning, even if he only lost one game, he denied his own value, and made such a hasty decision, which is simply irresponsible.
Bai Xia continued to explain: "Yao, I know you're sad, and I also know that I did something wrong about this matter, but it's been so long, we can't say a few words properly, at least give me a chance to apologize." β
Sikong Yao snorted coldly and said, "There's no need, you didn't do anything wrong, it's just me who is wrong." β
Bai Xia was stunned for a while, and said with a wry smile: "What's wrong with you?" β
Sikong Yao's eyes showed a look of contempt, and he said, "It's my fault that I shouldn't have won that game, which stimulated your fragile glass slag heart that shattered at the slightest touch." β
Everything is indeed because of that game, many things have been divided into some different truths, and even made the two people go farther and farther away, far away to the place where the two hearts no longer intersect.
Sighing, Bai Xia said helplessly: "Yao, it wasn't entirely because of that game at the beginning, you listen to me." β
"No, I don't want to hear any explanation from you now, it's just some unreasonable excuse anyway, do you have to break up if you leave? Can I accompany you to France? Is it necessary to travel so far in order to pursue higher cooking skills? That's weird! Obviously there are more options, but why should you break up! β
Angrily scolded, Sikong Yao's head-on scolding made Bai Xia feel better, but it was just above the mood, as for the mood in his heart, he became even more depressed.
Do you want to tell her? There's no need, she's only going to be more sad, don't say it, it's good like this, and if you say it, it won't help, so what are you going to do? There was a struggle in his heart, but Bai Xia still couldn't bear to say the reason why he left at that time, but blamed all this on his own naivety.
"Yao, I was just because I couldn't wipe my face, you should be able to know that no man can accept that he is inferior to his other half, and you should know it too."
Sikong Lu glared at Bai Xia and scolded, "What? Are you still blaming me? β
The facts tell Bai Xia, it's better not to explain too much, at this moment, judging from the girl's state of mind, no matter what she says, it will only be regarded as a false statement, rather than this, it is better to be more peaceful, at most it is just a few words of scolding. But why can't you resist trying to explain something? I don't know why my heart keeps beating and I just want to do it. Misunderstanding is not something unacceptable to Bai Xia, but why is he so uneasy, he always feels that he doesn't want to lose something? That's right, I don't want to lose the girl in front of me, I really can't let go of her in my heart, maybe from beginning to end, the teenager has loved her, always, three years ago, and now, that feeling is the same. That feeling is so inseparable.
Bai Xia still cares about her so much, and she has never changed, but the decision he made in ignorance made him unable to get peace all his life, and he did not bravely bear the common responsibility between the two people, which is the most regrettable thing in Bai Xia's life. β¦
Sighing, Bai Xia regretted: "It's my fault, I won't shirk it, can you tell me, what should I do, will you feel better?" β
At this time, I can only do this, since everything I say is nonsense, what does Sikong Yao want? I don't have the luxury of being forgiven, at least I can talk about it now, which is very satisfying to Bai Xia, I originally felt the most unbearable situation in my heart, that is, it would be completely ignored, but fortunately, such a tragic thing did not happen.
"Disappear from my presence."
Sikong Yao gave Bai Xia the answer he wanted, although it was so heart-wrenching, he had to face it calmly.
Bai Xia's mood was a little low, and he said, "That's it, okay, as long as I don't block you." β
At this point, everything that should be said has been said, and it can only be like this, at least the words of apology have been said, and the guilt in my heart has been eased a little, right?
In the end, Bai Xia said: "If you still hate me, please don't be angry with me, people like me are not worth it."
Sikong Yao's heart was suddenly touched, but he didn't say anything more, it's time to let go, right? It's been so long, but why does my heart still hurt? It's because I really still think about it in my heart, how can I give up a relationship so easily, after all, it is an unforgettable first love. β
The moment he turned around, Bai Xia's heart was still tingling, the pressure on both body and mind made him almost unable to stand up, the injury to his lungs was so severe that his breathing would set off a burst of concreteness, and he had to keep his mind to think, it was really a painful thing, leave as soon as possible, I didn't want to show weakness in front of her, those things that should not be known to her, just bear it silently by myself, maybe this is the best for everyone.
"I'm leaving, may you be well."
After turning around, Bai Xia's eyes were clearly beating with a trace of crystal, but in the end, it still hurt the weakest part of his heart, and the pain was deserved. (To be continued......)