At present, Xingcen is really emaciated physically and mentally and is in a dilemma. Should I write a novel or not?

Now that I have officially entered my junior year, I am very busy with many major courses, and I unfortunately hung up one last semester and am preparing for the make-up exam. There is also the need to prepare to participate in internships and even work and study for certification

Graduate school entrance examinations or civil servants and the like should be considered.

Writing a novel is a good thing, but it doesn't seem like a good way to support a family, and the lack of money is unstable. I don't even know how to say it, but I wrote 4,000 words today and it took me nearly three hours.

How many TOEFL words did others memorize or read in those three hours? Three hours is not a small time, it takes me a whole day to update 6,000 words, and sometimes I have to think about the plot in class, and I don't listen to what the teacher is saying.

At such a great cost, I was shaken at the critical time of the end of the star, did I write or not? Can anyone tell me!!

My heart is really tired, I want to cry even more when I look at the comments, no one understands what kind of college life I live, no one understands all my spare time spent on it, and no one understands how I feel in my heart.

I needed to vent, and I thought about suicide at one point during this time, but I felt that suicide was too painful and put it on hold for the time being. (To be continued......)