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Chapter 974: Drinking (Continue to ask for a monthly pass!) ）

On the sofa, Tang Yushan sat there a little cramped, sitting precariously, like a primary school student about to take the exam. The pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info quickly enter the "" advertisement of this site

Although she had mustered up enough courage, she was still very nervous when she was really alone with Lu Rui.

"Would you like to have something?" Lu Rui said to Tang Yushan with a smile.

Tang Yushan was stunned for a moment, and then nodded: "I ............"

Shaking his head, Lu Rui showed a smile, got up and walked towards his wine cabinet.

Tang Yushan stretched her neck, full of curiosity, looking at the man's back, a little puzzled.

"I only have wine here, and if it's a drink, Xiuyan forgot to buy it a few days ago." When Lu Rui returned to Tang Yushan's side, he carried half a bottle of champagne and two glasses in his hand, and said with a smile: "I'm sorry for today's matter, I let you see the faces of some people." ”

As he spoke, he opened the champagne, sat opposite Tang Yushan, poured her a glass, and poured himself another glass, ignoring Tang Yushan's unbelievable expression.

To be honest, Lu Rui was first full of surprise at Tang Yushan's sudden arrival, and then a kind of emotion arose, it takes a lot of courage for a woman to make such a move. With the growth of age and experience, Lu Rui gradually became a little pessimistic about emotional matters, just let it be, and there is no need to deliberately avoid anything in his position. As long as he doesn't fall, no one will make irresponsible remarks about women and themselves, this is the rule in the circle.

Tang Yushan looked at Lu Rui in surprise, wondering what kind of madness this man was doing, or could he not have drunk too much today? actually took the initiative to invite himself into his house, drank with him, and even smiled at himself very kindly, you must know that since the last time he confessed to him and was rejected by Lu Rui, Lu Rui has always avoided himself intentionally or unintentionally. And now, he is drinking with himself with a wine glass.

Time passed little by little, Lu Rui and Tang Yushan had already drunk a lot, most of the time it was Lu Rui who was talking, and Tang Yushan was listening.

"You, nothing, right?" Tentatively raising doubts about Lu Rui, Tang Yushan asked in a low voice with a surprised face.

Lu Rui smiled: "I am tired enough after a whole day's work, and when I return to the office, I have to intrigue with others, read documents, receive subordinates to listen to work reports, encourage them to continue to work hard, and give them confidence and support to move forward." To be honest, I'm tired of panicking, and in the words of my hometown, I keep spinning like a spinning top every day. ”

"Actually, I don't know what's wrong with me, I really hate to be false and wronged with others recently, and many things are known to be wrong, but there is no way to deal with them. Even if I know that some people have made any mistakes, I still have to think about this and that, and I can't deal with it according to my ideas. I suddenly hated myself now, I thought I could guarantee my original heart in any situation, but now in such a situation, I suddenly feel that being an official is a very nasty profession. ”

Most of the bottle of champagne was almost drunk by Lu Rui alone, maybe because of his mood, maybe because of his relaxation, he gradually got a little drunk.

Looking at Tang Yushan, Lu Rui said with a smile: "People say that officials are a group of carefree people who are high above the top, but who can know that we are actually not as carefree as they think?" Living in this world, people have to face all kinds of things, and these things sometimes make your intellect and moral cognition have to make choices again and again. ”

Sighing softly, Tang Yushan picked up the wine glass in front of her and took a sip, a touch of blush flashed on her pretty face, her eyes looked at Lu Rui, but she didn't speak.

"When I first entered this officialdom, I just wanted to give my parents a good life and make my life a little better. Later, I gradually realized that I could change the fate of many people and do something for more people, so I began to work hard and began to hope that I could sit in a higher position, because only then can I help more people. But as my status got higher and higher, I found that there were more things that made me helpless. A lot of things aren't just black and white as I thought at first, and you can't tell if it's right or wrong in a lot of things. I don't know how long I can last, and I don't know if it's right or wrong for me to do so. In fact, I have been lying to myself for so long, trying to make myself believe that I am right. But in fact, I can't fool myself, I did a lot of wrong things. ”

"There are people in this world who are watching me and my every move, and some people hope that I can become a bureaucrat after being tempered by reality, a bureaucrat like everyone else. There are also people who expect me to be able to stay true to my own self and stay true to myself. ”

"If I keep going, I don't know what I'm going to become, am I still me? Is it still that Lu Rui? ”

Tang Yushan was silent, there was not much contact between her and Lu Rui, after she confessed, Lu Rui's later series of alienating behaviors even seemed a little unkind, but for Tang Yushan, the name Lu Rui didn't know why it had been engraved in her heart, and it seemed difficult to forget.

Picking up the champagne that Lu Rui had poured, she took a sip, still with the attitude of a listener.

From a bystander's point of view, she really didn't understand Lu Rui's current thoughts.

Looking at Lu Rui, Tang Yushan asked puzzledly, "Then do you like this?" Do you like where you are? ”

"Like? I don't like it anymore, my current position makes me understand that sometimes I have to learn to say things wrong, I don't want to compromise with something, but I can't help it. But compromise is such a thing, with the first time, there will be a second, and the third and fourth times will follow. ”

Tang Yushan was stunned, she looked at Lu Rui, as if she knew this man for the first time, and it was only at this time that she remembered that this man was not one of those old fritters who had been rolling in officialdom for half his life, he was the same as herself, he was still a young man less than thirty years old, but it took eight years to complete the road that many people can't finish in a lifetime.

The thing in officialdom is like this, people are selfish, or there is no one who stands completely on the position of justice, everyone has to take some means in order to achieve their own goals, and here bread implies persistence, which naturally includes compromise.

The wine glass in his hand gradually drooped, Tang Yushan watched Lu Rui drink the last bit of wine left in the bottle of champagne little by little, and asked softly, "Then what do you want to do next?" ”

"What's next?" Lu Rui frowned, seemed to think seriously for a moment, and finally looked at Tang Yushan with a smile, and said in a tone that was definitely not a joke.

"Next, I want to kiss you."

Lu Rui is not an abusive person, in his position, if he doesn't control his **, I'm afraid there are already countless women, but it is obvious that he only has two women in total. When he received Xiao Zihan's call, Lu Rui was still slightly surprised, but when he saw Tang Yushan's figure, he didn't need to ask, Lu Rui naturally knew what Tang Yushan's actions meant.

Men are always easily touched animals.

Raising his head and looking at the girl in front of him who was so frightened that he couldn't help but widen his eyes because of his words, Lu Rui's smile was so peaceful, at this sensitive time when Lu Rui was a little upset, Tang Yushan's arrival had a different feeling for Lu Rui.

Inexplicable feelings grew wantonly in his heart, and Lu Rui just felt that he should do something not to live up to the woman in front of him.

It's just his words, which made Tang Yushan stunned as if she had been slashed by a burst of electricity, and her whole body was stiff like a stone, and the moment she met Lu Rui's eyes, she found that she couldn't say a word, and then she looked at Lu Rui in a daze, as if she was waiting for something.

Time seemed to stand still at that moment, and a few seconds later, Tang Yushan staggered her gaze from Lu Rui, and instead looked at the dark night sky outside the window. I don't know why, she actually hoped in her heart that Lu Rui was just making a big joke with herself.

He picked up the little wine he had left in front of him and drank it, and the atmosphere between the two of them suddenly reached an impasse.

"Do you really regret it?" After drinking a lot of wine, Tang Yushan's face turned with a touching flush, turned his head, looked at Lu Rui and asked softly.

"You're just a little confused now, you're just afraid that you don't have the power to change the fate of many people, because every decision you make will affect the lives of thousands or more people in the next ten years or even a lifetime. You can always make a choice for yourself, but you don't want to influence them, no matter what path they choose, the future is up to them. You don't want to be the object of blame because you don't know if you're taking the right path or the wrong path.

From filling out the application to asking for advice on love skills, every decision in life comes with a variety of suggestions. Success brings joy and gratitude, but failure brings depression and resentment.

For ordinary people, officials are the ones who provide advice and guidance, and Lu Rui's current situation is not that he refuses to take responsibility, but because he knows how heavy it will be to carry the responsibility on his shoulders. He has his own principles, he knows what he should do and what he can't do, this is his principle, and this principle is like an invisible shackle that keeps him forever out of the crowd and never really joins it.

In an era when it is easy to indulge oneself, principled people have a hard life.