PS: A lot of times I think I can see everything, but from time to time I will come out and torture my soul.

Writing things is actually writing about my true thoughts, writing happy things when I'm happy, comforting myself when I'm unhappy, and telling myself some great truths about life.

The reason why I don't save the manuscript is that I think every sentence and word I write can fully reflect my personal emotions. Or love or very, happy and hateful. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm writing about, and I add a character when I think of it, so much so that I forget that I used to write about it.

In short, I want to give each character in my work a part of my soul, a part of my values. These characters have more or less my shadow.

really responded to the sentence that it is difficult to write about yourself, and it is difficult to write other people's words.

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"Old sword ghost, do you really want to bury the old man in the cemetery?"

Qi Banjin was just a joke just now, he just wanted to get angry with Ding Liuyun, he didn't think that Murong Tiankui would really bury the old man in the cemetery.

"Yes, he's been frugal all his life, and I'm sure he won't agree to be buried in that expensive land. Let's not let him live down there. ”

Murong Tiankui knows Murong Xingtian's temper the most, and the cemetery is the best choice for him.

"Hey, okay then."

In fact, Qi Banjin wanted to choose the best cemetery, he not only achieved great success in Taoist thought, but also had a deep study of feng shui. He knew that the vicinity of Jiming Temple was the best place, and both lighting and feng shui were the best choices. Since Murong Tiankui insisted so much, it was not good for him to say anything as an outsider.

"What do people live for?"

When Murong Xingtian's coffin was about to be carried away, Su Hetu suddenly became sad. Although the contact with Murong Xingtian was still very short, he didn't understand that he was living in pain and repentance, so he couldn't help but ask.

After listening to Su Hetu's question, the two old men quieted down. They have lived for so many years and have different feelings about life and life, but how to explain and preach to this child is not so simple.

"Then Xiaohetu, why are you alive?"

Murong Tiankui didn't want to impose his thoughts on Su Hetu, if a child carried too much, it would be very difficult to walk. If you continue to complain about the meaning of life, it is not impossible to give up on yourself.

"I wasn't supposed to live in this world, I was sent to my aunt's house in the countryside by my parents when I was a child. I met a group of friends there and lived happily. I can catch a lot of small animals, I can play in the snow, and I can set off firecrackers during the Chinese New Year. I also met my sister of Late Autumn, who I may never forget in my life. ”

"When I was four years old, I met the old monk, Master, and him."

Su Hetu pointed to Qi Banjin, who was listening carefully to what he was saying.

"At that time, you rushed to take me as an apprentice, and you said things that I didn't understand at all. I don't think I'm going to have anything to do with you weird old men in my life, and I certainly don't want to. At that time, I wanted to study hard, and when I grew up, I would marry my sister in the late autumn as my wife, and then have a few children, and finally die quietly like my aunt and them. But just when I thought you had disappeared from my world, I met the old monk Master. ”

"Ever since I was a child, my aunt taught me to be kind and compassionate. Although I didn't understand the true meaning, I still kept these words in my heart, and it was this annoying compassion that made me finally worship the old monk who was dying at that time. ”

"To be honest, I think the old monk at that time was really a stupid bald donkey. Really, that's what I thought at the time. ”

In order to prove the truth of his words, Su Hetu emphasized it again.

"But such a stupid old monk who can't do it, before he died, he was still teaching me to be merciful all my life. What else do you say to pretend to be a pig and eat a tiger before you become an adult, I don't understand, I really don't understand. He asked me to guard him, so I did it, and left me the "Hidden Sutra" and left me this string of Buddhist beads, I don't know why it was combined with a peachwood sword to become what it is now. ”

Su Hetu pointed to the tattoo-like thing on his chest, the so-called Peach Blossom Sword, because the Buddha beads had turned into ruby-like red dots inlaid on the hilt of the Peach Blossom Sword.

Qi Banjin looked at the tattoo on Su Hetu's chest, he always felt a little familiar, and he didn't know if it was because of the old monk Buddha beads. The peach blossom sword that had shrunk from the Nine Heavens Xuantie Sword suddenly became shining. Murong Tiankui knew that the sword was entrusted by himself to Su Fenghuang to Su Hetu, which was somewhat imposed.

Su Hetu continued to tell about the thoughts he had precipitated for a long time.

"For so long, I have been reciting the Sutra every day, which I still don't fully understand. I was reading when my sister was robbed by someone else in late autumn, I was reading when I killed six ordinary people by mistake, I was reading when my beautiful sister-in-arms died, and I was still reading when my grandfather left. But after reading it so many times, I don't know what we're here for. Grandpa, who had lived in pain all his life, left, and perhaps this was the best ending for him. The old monk who had been compassionate all his life passed away, leaving behind his wife who thought about it at night, which may be the worst ending for him. The end of a person's life may be good or bad, but there is always something worth asking us with our hearts. ”

Murong Tiankui and Murong Ge had seen such a deep Su Hetu, but Qi Banjin was different, and when they heard that Su Hetu could say something that made people feel sad, they were speechless for a while.

"Master, you have lived for so many years, you can tell me about life, but do you know what you live for? Is it for the rivers and lakes and life you said at that time? ”

"Xiaohetu, I told you at the time, if life can start anew, the so-called rivers and lakes don't care. In the first half of my life, I thought that a man should realize the rivers and lakes in his heart when he lived, and happiness and hatred were what men should pursue in their lives. But since the death of my little pigeon's mother, I know that the rivers and lakes are not the most important thing. In fact, people can't escape a love word in the end, whether it is family affection, friendship, or love. Everyone will have this or that feeling when they are alive, and without this feeling, life is just a walking dead. ”

"The reason why your parents sent you to the countryside to foster care is actually my advice. You are different from others, your birth is already going through ups and downs, and poverty may be the best choice for you. You are still young, and there are many things that you can't understand now, and maybe when you grow up to our age, there are some things that you still can't understand. But that doesn't affect your life, and when you really live to the age of the old man, you will find out that life is actually like this. This is how the so-called coffin closure conclusion came about. ”

Su Hetu had communicated with Murong Tiankui a few times, and each time he seemed to have received something new, but every time he seemed to have lost something he had brought in his bones. He didn't know if this was a good thing or a bad thing, he was afraid that one day he would lose himself, wander helplessly in the ocean of the world, and finally lie in a coffin like Murong Xingtian and fall into the ground, but his heart may not be at peace.

Murong Ge also asked himself countless questions about these things when he was in the military academy, but he couldn't figure it out many times, and finally he couldn't do it. Now that she was brought up by Su Hetu again, she was also deeply tortured.