Cui Shijun, who left home, didn't know where he should go? Going to Big Brother's house? The sister-in-law discouraged him. Second brother? He might have been able to go before, but they moved away and had a bad relationship with his own family, so he didn't have the face to go to his second brother's house. Someone else's house? Every household is lively during the Chinese New Year, what are you doing as an outsider?

In the end, he walked aimlessly, thinking about where he went. When he realized he had stopped. Finding himself standing in front of his father's grave, looking at the snow-covered grave, he felt the desolation in his heart.

How long has it been since I've been to see my father? During the Chinese New Year, the eldest brother asked himself if he wanted to go to the mountains to send some paper money to his father? Because Li Zhen's face was not good-looking, he hesitated to refuse. And the eldest brother came to his father's grave with his three sons. Looking at the hay that had been pulled up on the side, and a few traces of burning paper that had not yet been covered, he knew that the eldest brother was very attentive.

He knelt down silently and stood in front of his father's grave, remembering when his father was still alive. At that time, he had just married a wife, and Li Zhen did not show his true face. Although I can't say how kind I am in front of my parents, I am also polite and thoughtful. And with the separation of the family, her father became seriously ill, and she began to have a nose that was not a nose and a face that was not a face. And her mother also comes several times a year, and each time she stays for half a month before leaving. And with the departure of his mother-in-law, his family will also have a difficult life for a while. When she had recovered a little, the old lady came again.

Every time I want to ask Li Zhen, why did her mother give her everything at home when she came? Why can't my parents eat a bite of their own food, even if they celebrate the New Year's holidays and birthdays, they can't see a dime for themselves?

I plucked up my courage again and again, but the words came to my mouth and swallowed again. Remembering how much money did my parents spend to marry this daughter-in-law for themselves? Thinking of how much effort his parents put into making him have a home, he felt distressed for a while, and in the end he could only treat it as if he couldn't see it and deceived himself.

With the departure of my father, my mother took a turn for a year in each family, and she was good at the eldest brother's house, but at the second brother's house, my mother would be fatter and fatter, and when she came to her own house...... He smiled wryly, not to mention the housework that his mother helped his family do, but his mother-in-law came, and his mother had to give her a place to live at her second brother's house. In addition, when she was not busy, my sister took me to live for a few days, and my mother's days at her own house were only counted.

So he always knew that he was unfilial, and in the face of the condemning eyes of the second brother and the eldest brother, he could only avoid or pretend not to know. And this year, the second brother's family sent it, although he didn't deliberately inquire, but the eldest brother and nephews will still inadvertently talk about the changes in the second brother's family. Not only did he buy a house in the city, but he also bought two sets, and the business was also booming, looking at the live sheep that the eldest brother sent to the city every day, he knew how the business of the second brother's family was.

And the second brother's niece kindly gave her the idea, but the wife disliked the hard work, and the mother and the second brother had a nose that was not a nose or a face, and even left lunch. Compared to their relatives, their relatives are worthless. But when something really happens, who is helping? Why didn't you see her mother and nephew at that time?

Hmph, he didn't say it, but it doesn't mean that he doesn't have grievances, he saves money every day, and the money is spent on her mother, and in the end she can't get a good one. He is really stupid, this is his own home, his own money, why should he spend it on that old woman, but his own mother has not spent a penny? The most hateful thing is that Li Zhen actually cheated money from her mother at the instigation of her mother. Every time, I said that I didn't eat well every day, I didn't have the strength to work, and my health was not good. Mother felt sorry for herself, every time she knew that the money was not used on herself, she still gave Li Zhen the money she had saved by frugality.

But he and his son rarely spend this money, and his son is better than himself, at least he can see a few pocket money and buy some favorite snacks or something. What about yourself? I like to smoke, and I grow dry tobacco in front of and behind my house. I like to drink, and only when my mother-in-law comes, I can drink a few sips as a wine companion. My life is really aggrieved!

When I think that when I was not married, I was young at home, and my older brothers, sisters and parents loved me very much, and I thought about myself when I had a bite of delicious food. But now? The delicious food in my own house has entered the mouth of my mother-in-law, and if I don't have it, I have to buy it for her with the money, otherwise I will cry that my adopted daughter is not filial and my son-in-law is not filial. In order to keep his ears clean, he and his wife could only compromise. Originally, his family should be the richest among the three brothers, at least he has fewer children, a light burden, and an only child subsidy, but now? I'm afraid it's the poorest, right? The children of the eldest brother's family are all older and have begun to make money, the second brother's business is profitable, and the children are good at studying, all of which are full of hope.

Looking at your own home? Cui Shijun shook his head helplessly, he couldn't see hope, as long as the old woman was still alive, as long as Li Zhen still only had her mother's family in her heart, there was no hope for her life. Shameless to face his mother, shameless to face his brothers and sisters, and now that his conscience has found it, he has no shame to face himself.

Looking at the barren grave in front of me, the words that my father said to me when he left rang in my ears.

"Junzi, you are more clever than your second brother, more thoughtful than your eldest brother, it is said that your life father does not have to worry, but you lack the backbone and hardness they have. Dad is dead and can't help you anymore, and your mom is old and can't help you anymore. You have to live your life by yourself, and you have to live it yourself. My brother helps you only temporarily, but helping yourself is long-lasting. So you have to be tough and stand up on your own in order to make life better. I don't know if my father is successful, and I don't know if I'm a successful person, but at least I don't feel guilty, what about you? When you close your eyes, you look back and see if you will be ashamed of someone in your life? ”

"A man is going to take the lead, I've been educating you three brothers so much since I was a child, I don't know how you learned? At least I think your two brothers are doing a good job. Maybe your eldest brother is living a little tighter, and your sister-in-law is also a little mixed, but he can at least be called a man. What about you? Look at my illness, your own little family at this stage. At the beginning, I didn't agree with you marrying the girl of the old Li family, and I knew that she was no better than her mother. But what about you? If you want to die or live, you have to marry her, saying that she won't be the same as her mother. How about now? I don't know if you regret it, at least I regret it, I regret that I was soft-hearted and fulfilled you. Hopefully your regrets don't show up. ”

Regret it? Now his regret is there. If he didn't feel very much when his father said those words at that time, now he deeply agrees with his father's words. I'm really the most failed man.

Cui Shijun's tears flowed silently because of regret, and his legs on the ground were numb from the cold. He stood up with numbness, feeling that his legs no longer belonged to him. From time to time, he rubbed his knees, moved his legs, and glanced at the smoke in the distance through his father's grave. The house he lived in was found with the help of his second brother, and Li Zhen had a quarrel with his second brother about this. Now that I think about it, thanks to the help of my second brother, I can have a place to shelter from the wind and rain. If you follow Li Zhen's meaning, I am afraid that all the money in her hand was given to her mother's family, and she still lives in that low earthen house.

I remembered that after this house was bought, the eldest brother and the second brother helped build the fence and build the pigsty, and the two elder brothers could be seen everywhere in the house. But what have you done in the past few years? thinks that they deserve their help, takes their smiling faces for granted, and even complains about the second brother who helped the eldest brother. thinks that the second brother is eccentric, why did he help the eldest brother and not help himself?

Now thinking of the scene when the second brother and his mother came, he smiled bitterly. The second brother has already helped himself, and he still said that he would lend money to himself, but what did he do under the drive of Li Zhen? He was ashamed to think about it now. Are you still a man? Or the younger brother of the mother's son and the brothers?

Let's just say that this year's Chinese New Year, although I have never given money to my mother, but because my mother lives close, I can often see it, and I have never realized it. And this year, the mother followed the second brother to the city, and as a son, she didn't say that she would go to the first year of junior high school, but also go to the second year of junior high school, right? But it's the eighth year of junior high school, and I haven't taken anything to see my mother yet. It's not that there are no things in my house, but those things have entered my mother-in-law's mouth.

My mother must be not bad for this stutter now, is my mother-in-law just bad for this bite? Li Zhen didn't mention or miss her mother, let alone let her take her child to visit the New Year. There is still a walk around after the New Year, her mother and brother, she doesn't exist.

You can see how much of a bastard you used to be, following this woman around. For fear that she would divorce herself, she disregarded her conscience and filial piety so much. At this moment, Cui Shijun deeply felt the guilt in his heart.

As he watched the sun sink in the distance, his heart sank. He remembered the eyes of those clan brothers in the same tunzi, and also remembered the expressions of those friends who had a good relationship with him, and Cui Shijun realized that everyone had long been dissatisfied with his performance. It's just that because of his own unconsciousness and his own enjoyment, no one has told him, and no one thinks that he has no brother or friend of himself. No wonder, I have something to do, and everyone is saying that they are busy with something, and it is difficult to come over to help. No wonder, who I want to talk to, other people's wives and children always find excuses to pull people away.

So I've gotten mixed up like this? Heh-heh-, the wry smile on Cui Shijun's face was so bitter that it seemed to be dripping water, but he didn't know it, and he wasn't in the mood to pay attention to it.

It turns out that his life has come to such a point, and he still doesn't feel the scene? What a failure in his life! Turning around, he bowed neatly to his father and answered his father's question loudly: "Dad, I regret it!" I really regret it! ”

Old Man Cui's grave is located not far from the mountain next to Cui Shigao's house, and Cui Shijun's house is not far from Cui Shigao's house, so the loud shouting on the mountain can be heard by people not far away. The silent Tunzi suddenly woke up because of this voice.

"Who is this, it's not good to eat at home during the New Year, what are you shouting nonsense on the mountain?"

"Why does it sound familiar to me? Who is this? Feeling unhappy? ”

"What is he shouting? It's not clear, but it makes people's hearts scratch their livers. ”

"Where did the psychosis come from? You don't come down to steal chickens and dogs at night, do you? ”

And Cui Shijun's house, Li Zhen's mother and daughter, who were eating, also heard this sound, but because the distance was already a little far, and everyone was in the house, they couldn't hear anything at all.

While eating, Mrs. Li scolded: "Which one is this who lacks morality, what is the howl of the New Year?" ”

Li Jiabao didn't care about it at all, he ate the meat and vegetables made by his aunt, and there was still unfinished food in his mouth, so he said: "Who does it matter, let's eat quickly, otherwise we won't have enough to eat when my uncle comes back." ”

Cui Wei, who was also eating on the side, quit, "What do you mean that my dad won't be enough to eat when he comes back?" You are eating our family's food, why are you afraid of my father's food? How old are you? ”

Cui Wei has long seen that this cousin is not pleasing to the eye, don't look at him is quite tall and old, but he has grown flesh. Usually I don't look like a brother, I always grab snacks with myself, and now I'm still afraid of my father's meals? It's shameless. Thinking about it, Cui Wei also glared at Li Jiabao. It's a pity that the other party didn't receive his eyes at all, but continued to eat the food cooked by his aunt regardless of it. His stomach was almost full, but he was still reluctant to put his chopsticks and continued to fill his mouth, naturally he didn't have the time and energy to care what Cui Wei said.

But Mrs. Li threw her chopsticks unhappily, "What? Do you hate us for eating at your house? Or are you trying to get us away? ”

Seeing that her already old wrinkled face was tense because of anger, Cui Wei shrunk his neck in fear, and glanced at his mother as if asking for help. Li Zhen touched her son's face distressedly, turned her head and glared at her mother.

"Mom, did you talk to your grandson like that? Don't say he's telling the truth, you can't say that about him even if he's so young? Besides, what your grandson said is right? Why don't you teach him a lesson? Those who eat our family are still afraid that the men of our family will come back to eat, is there a nephew like him? Mom, I can tell you, don't take him with you next time, he's so old, every day in addition to eating is eating, look at this fat body. Seeing that he is about to marry a daughter-in-law, are you still used to him not working? Whose daughter wants to marry such a lazy product? (To be continued.) )