Section 4: Past and Present Lives

Waving goodbye to his classmates, walking slowly on the way home alone, Feng Chaochen's mind was a little messy, and he was in a mess.

From last night to now, Feng Chaochen's whole person has been immersed in this state of confusion, and he has not shown the vigor and vitality of a newborn calf that a young man of his age should have, and the whole person always looks like he is wandering and not concentrating, and he doesn't know what he is thinking.

Walking in a trance like this, without paying attention, Feng Chaochen almost tripped over the crooked rotten branches on the side.

Rotten twigs that twist and turn?

Wait a minute!

Feng Chaochen was startled, woke up from his state of confusion, and looked around blankly, a small cement clearing, a tree trunk that had been hollowed out by decay and most of it lay on the ground, and on the other side were two dilapidated old houses squeezed between several tall new houses.

A place that he had thought had faded into the depths of his memory with the passage of time suddenly became clearer than ever in this moment.

It turned out that in a daze, I came to this place by chance.

This was once one of the most beautiful places in Feng Chaochen's memory, bringing him a lot of laughter, whether it was joy or joy, sadness or loss, Feng Chaochen liked to come here. Even if he didn't do anything, just sitting on the trunk of the tree with his friends and looking up at the distance and the sky, it seemed that he could bring him endless happiness. Not to mention that on weekdays, I play happily with those friends who also live nearby in this open space, jumping grids, four big characters and other games. Then tired of running around and playing, a group of children squatted on the trunk of the tree and looked into the distance, pointing to the sky and talking about each other's future life ideals, although with the retirement of time, they were gradually carried away by the years, and none of them were realized.

This place carries too many good memories of Feng Chaochen, and many years later, even the memories are as yellow and moldy as old photos, and even decayed, becoming incomplete and blurred. Whenever Feng Chaochen was exhausted and remembered in the dead of night, a smile of self-relief still appeared on his face.

Reaching out and pressing the trunk of the tree, he felt the rough graininess of the unevenness and pitting in his palm, and knocked hard, and the strained trunk eaten by the moths immediately replied with a dull echo. Gently brushing away the particles and dust on it, Feng Chaochen showed a smile, closed his eyes and took a deep breath of the sober air from more than ten years ago, and gently bent down and sat down.

Since the online article began to be concerned by the public, for more than ten years, countless people have published their works on the Internet, and all kinds of subject types have been discovered and created by people, such as the other world, rebirth, crossing, etc., etc., which have illuminated countless online literature gods.

Feng Chaochen likes to read online novels very much on weekdays, and even wrote some by himself, but in the end he didn't stick to it and failed to write famous, and he felt envious of the protagonists in the novels, especially the protagonists of the urban rebirth genre, when he read it, he couldn't help but bring himself into it, and often couldn't help but fantasize about what to do if he was reborn.

In the past, because of the torment of life, I always felt exhausted, even in the face of the love in my heart, I didn't dare to take action, just because of the huge difference in the identities between the two and hesitated. Suddenly encountered a great change, the love fell, I felt guilty, I had no love, all the dissatisfaction and anger broke out on that night when the moon never appeared. As the so-called moon and dark wind high murderous night, when the ancient temple jackdaw weeps, it was the first and last time Feng Chaochen had been cowardly in his life to mention the two-foot Qingfeng, ignoring the dissuasion of reason, and from the explosive heart, he killed those beasts and miscellaneous pieces, and killed them one by one. After completing everything, he came to the roof of the building surrounded by countless sirens, threw away the butcher knife, closed his eyes and opened his arms, and jumped out lightly.

But what Feng Chaochen didn't expect was that he who had jumped out of the roof of the building and stopped in mid-air, suddenly flew back to the roof of the building with his back on his back, and then flew down the stairs with his back on his back, and the buildings on both sides of him seemed to turn into a strange multicolored streamer at this moment, rushing forward violently, colorful and gorgeous......

I thought that my life would be summed up in this nest for a lifetime, but I didn't expect to encounter such a strange thing.

What he has seen and heard in the past half a day, his youthful appearance at this time, his school uniform and school bag, and everything around him, all of them are clearly telling him that the fantasy of rebirth in the past may have been realized.

The brilliant multicolored streamers and the rapidly regressing buildings around are the legendary time and space tunnels, and he has really returned from the "advanced age" of twenty-five to the carefree twelve-year-old boyhood? The more Feng Chaochen thought about it, the more excited he felt, and before he knew it, his eyes were moist and he was almost about to burst into tears on the spot.

When he was a teenager, Feng Chaochen has always grown up under the pressure of poor grades, teacher scolding and parental scolding. The disdain of the teacher, the cold eyes of his classmates, the scolding of his parents and the self-responsibility in his heart, made his originally optimistic and positive personality gradually become silent and introverted and autistic.

Then he naively thought that he could easily ease the pressure of competition in his studies by giving up his studies and crossing the single-plank bridge from thousands of troops, but after leaving the campus early, Feng Chaochen sadly found that this terrible pressure did not decrease and weaken in the slightest, but became more and more powerful over time. The harsh criticism of the boss, the secret exclusion of colleagues, the cold eyes of relatives, the indifference and alienation of former classmates and friends, and a series of social pressures such as housing, prices, and consumption made Feng Chaochen feel more and more miserable, and he almost suffocated to death.

In this material society where interests and ** are paramount, Feng Chaochen's situation has undoubtedly foreshadowed his bleak fate in the future. I was supposed to achieve nothing, and even my ordinary life was difficult, but under this accidental opportunity, I returned to the past, the past that I knew, experienced, and felt deeply. All the humiliation, unwillingness and grievances will be swept away in that gorgeous and radiant night!

In this materialistic world, under the eyes of everyone's contempt and suspicion, Feng Chaochen's future, from this moment on, has been qualitatively adapted, deviating from the original predetermined historical track, and developing in a direction that no one can predict. With the ability to defy the sky of an unpredictable prophet like the memory of the next ten years, even Feng Chaochen himself did not know how high he could climb in the future of this life.

Once......

Miss......

Regretful......

A person's life is always made up of countless pasts, misses, and regrets, and Feng Chaochen is no exception, he also has countless pasts that make him sigh and heartache every time he thinks about it. The clear courage flowing in the simple years made him as reckless as a newborn calf, often inadvertently, missing many people and many things. Those life-changing chances, just when he stumbled and rushed forward, he inadvertently passed by regretfully.

In the dead of night, when he leaned on the head of the bed in his pajamas, looking up at the bright moon through the small window; The moment he casually looked up; When you look at the lights of thousands of homes in the distance in a rented simple hut; Every quiet night when he looks up at the starry sky, he will unconsciously burst into tears.

Since God has been kind to himself, he has given such a dream opportunity that many people dream of but can't get, just like a game, and can go back and start again. So...... Feng Chaochen clenched his fists and secretly decided that although he did not have the artifact or skill of defying the sky like the protagonists in many novels, he must also stay away from the tragedy of the past, be good, serious, and live a different and new life.

And those regrets that were lost and missed because of their recklessness and cowardice, this time they must all be firmly grasped in their hands. After so many ups and downs, whether he wants to or not, Feng Chaochen has grown up and matured, in this life, he does not want to be rich and noble, nor does he want to be able to dominate the world, and what he wants to do the most is to live without regrets in this life, and smooth sailing to old age.

Thinking of those misses that make me feel heartache and regret every time I think about it, now I can find them one by one, firmly in my own hands, Feng Chaochen's originally tightly locked brows gradually stretched, his gloomy and confused face relaxed, and the smile that had not been shown for a long time finally bloomed again.