Chapter 40 This heart drags mud and water, and life is the most bitter

When Su Hetu returned home, Su Fenghuang and Liu Jinlan had not returned from work. Su Hetu cleaned up his things in the room, but in fact, he didn't have anything to clean up, and he usually didn't care much about food and clothing. A few clothes were fine, but the biggest headache for him was the books he was reading.

"While Su Fenghuang hasn't gotten off work yet, I'll go to his study first to see if there are any new books. Hey. Su Hetu muttered to himself and crept into Su Fenghuang's study.

He carefully searched for the books he was interested in, because every week the threesome would send Su Fenghuang some books, all kinds of books, and some novels. But Su Hetu was not interested in the professional books that Su Fenghuang read, including "The Yellow Emperor's Neijing", "Licensed Pharmacist" and some professional economic books. I picked a few collections of essays I liked, as well as a few magazine-type books on analyzing the economic situation.

The books were packed in a box, and a copy of the "Hidden Sutra" left by the old monk was tightly wrapped in his clothes.

I made a lot of money by rummaging through the cabinets, and a black hardcover book fell from the bookcase. Su Hetu picked it up curiously, slowly opened it and read it.

This is a book of narratives, which was written by Liu Jinlan after Su Hetu was born.

That's how the first page reads.

Today is the first day of Xiaohetu's birth. Although he experienced a lot of hardships and caused a lot of criticism, he was born safely.

River map, river map, phoenix bird to, river map out. This is the name given to him by Phoenix, a phoenix, a river map is also very in line with their father and son.

In fact, I knew that the bird cry coming from outside the house was a crow, not a magpie. Phoenix has done enough for me, for this family, and I don't want him to worry.

Xiaohetu was born and actually smiled at me, which startled me. But I was happy in my heart, at least he was happy that I had given him a little life. I don't know why he cried when he saw the phoenix, was he afraid of him.

Xiaohetu, Mom hopes that you will grow up and become a man like your father.

Your father is the greatest man Mom has ever known in the world, a junior high school student who has not yet graduated from junior high school, and who is self-taught, finishing his studies earlier than the average high school student in school. It has not been easy to go from a temporary worker to this point.

I slept less than four hours a day, and sometimes I fell asleep on my stomach. He was under a lot of pressure to be able to give you birth. Originally, he and I decided that I would not let you be born, but he was filial and couldn't resist the ancestors of the family.

I vividly remember that when you were born, he was as happy as a child, happier than the ancestors who most wanted you to be born.

Mom is sorry for you, she gave birth to you but had to send you out.

You are still so young, you are about to separate after just seeing your parents, if it weren't for this family, for the sake of forbearance Su Fenghuang, who is still straightening her spine, my mother really wants to keep you by her side so selfishly.

Now that Phoenix has decided to send you to your second aunt's house, I can't say anything. Maybe he made the right decision, you may be happier and more innocent in the countryside than in the city.

If you were on your grandfather's side, you might have to endure countless white eyes, countless ridicules, and those insidious and urban governments. Originally, your grandfather didn't approve of my marriage with your father, but think about it, which scholarly family would like a temporary worker from the countryside with no education.

But I believe that one day your father will take me and your two children, straighten his spine and give them a big slap in the face.

Flip back and forth.

Xiaohetu left on the first day.

Xiaohetu was still sent away, looking at the empty little quilt beside him, he felt very uncomfortable.

In the blink of an eye, it was autumn, and the sycamore leaves outside the house had already begun to fall. Listening to the laughter of other children outside the window, I really want to go and see the small river map.

Jingwei was sent to the provincial capital after going to school, and he couldn't go back home a few times a year. Now that you've been sent out again, I don't know if I will be born happy or evil.

I blame the phoenix in this matter, but every day I see him dragging his tired body back. When studying late at night, I always wander and sigh with my face in tow. I know that he is also distressed, how can he not feel distressed when the two children are not around.

How can there be a father who does not love his son, he must think again, in the countryside, whether you are thirsty, whether you are hungry, whether you are crying again.

I only wait for my body to recover before I go to see you, I don't know if you still remember me as a mother at that time, and whether you will still grin at me.

Before Su Hetu could continue reading, the sound of the door opening came from outside, he quickly wiped the tears on his face, and stuffed the book into his suitcase.

When Su Hetu first came to this new home, when he first met his legendary biological parents. It's just a faint feeling that I feel close to my aunt every week, no matter the wind or rain, and I don't calmly accept that she suddenly became my mother. has a little bit of a good impression of Su Fenghuang, otherwise he would have reluctantly called out his father for more than a year.

But now when I see this woman whose temples have begun to turn faintly white, I don't feel good in my heart. Before Su Hetu could brew his emotions, he walked in with Su Fenghuang behind him.

"You kid, did you study today?" Su Fenghuang still ran over and stroked Su Hetu's head as always. In the past, Su Hetu would always dodge at this time, but today he obediently didn't move.

"Hey, what's going on today, like a little girl." Seeing such a picture of Su He, Su Fenghuang felt uncomfortable.

"It's okay, Mom, I'm hungry. I want to eat the vegetable tofu you made. Su Hetu ran to be coquettish in Liu Jinlan.

"Okay, okay, I'll do it for you." Seeing her son, Liu Jinlan's tired body was suddenly full of strength.

In a short time, the meal was ready, and the table was full of delicious food.

"As soon as Hetu is coquettish, you make so many delicious foods, why have I never seen you do it with me before." Su Fenghuang looked at the dishes on the table and complained for a while, they are also people, why is there such a big gap.

"you, eat well." After speaking, he specially gave Su He Tot an empty plate and put all his favorite foods on the plate.

Looking at the happy two, Su Hetu couldn't eat anything.

I thought that I could leave very easily, but a book of books made it no longer a matter of course. When it comes to his lips, he can't say anything.

This heart drags mud and water, which is the most bitter place in life.

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