It's late at night, and I can't sleep at night, and I'm afraid you'll appear in my dreams again.

I looked at the already empty menu in QQ, which was reserved for you. The word wife stung me deeply, and the former prosperity was still lonely after all.

You've never loved me, I can feel it. It's just that I'm in love with you, how can I be willing to leave you like this.

Actually, I admit that I was quite tired when I fell in love with you, because I felt as if I was not in a relationship with you alone, but with thousands of you. Because in front of me, you always say, my classmates say how you are. I thought you were joking, but when I inadvertently caught you calling me ugly in space, I finally knew you meant it.

I know I'm not handsome, but I'm not as ugly as you describe me.

You may feel like you're old enough to get married. Maybe it's because both of our parents are classmates, and you reluctantly agree to the engagement. In fact, when we got engaged, I already had a hunch that we wouldn't end up together.

I have been careful to maintain our relationship, you know that I am the first love, how can the first love know how to manage love.

I have never disobeyed you. When I watched "The Age of Naked Marriage" at that time, the conversation between Liu Yiyang and Tong Jiaqian's parents deeply moved me. But at the time, I thought how could a man go hungry for a girl to buy gifts and eat. Although I was moved, I still couldn't help but say that this kind of behavior was very **.

But it wasn't long before I became this kind of **.

I'm not that great, I can save money to buy you things without eating or drinking. But I really didn't spend a penny more than the most basic life, and I saved a little money to buy you a few beautiful clothes.

You know, I haven't bought a dress in five years. When I didn't know you at the time, I saved up so that my parents could have a little easier. In the past few years of college, I have only saved a few thousand dollars, but not long after I met you, I spent all my money.

You helped me buy a dress without my consent, and I was very touched at the time, but I wore it once when I was engaged, and I am still reluctant to wear it.

But I bought you an expensive wedding dress without your consent, and I really don't have much money after I buy it. I hope the day you marry me is the most beautiful, even though you are already beautiful. But you say, "I am self-righteous." I thought you were complaining that I was spending money again, but then I realized that what you said was true.

You always mention to me how nice you were to your former boyfriend and how much you gave away. You don't know how distressed I was at the time, I felt sorry for that stupid kid who only knew how to give.

I always comfort you and want you to come out of the shadows of the past. I thought to myself, since it is no longer possible for you to ask for anything in return from him, then I will give you back double your efforts.

As it turned out, I was still too idealistic. You just care about what you have paid before, but you never notice that there is also a stupid child who is silently paying for you.

I don't blame you, because I know that first love is very important, and it is also very painful for you to fall out of love.

I thought that as long as I put in, there would always be a reward, and it turned out that it did. It's just that the reward you gave me was to block my QQ without any warning.

I still don't blame you, because I know you don't really love me, it's just that I'm holding on to it.

I told you before that you can bring it up when you want to leave me. I've been comforting myself that you give and then are abandoned by others, and I pay to be abandoned by you, which can be regarded as making you angry.

I thought it wouldn't happen that day, but I didn't expect it to come so suddenly.

When I asked you why, you said to me, my classmate said that the two of us are not suitable.

It's your classmate again, I really don't know how you describe me in front of your classmates. It seems that they all have a very bad impression of me.

I remember one time one of your classmates came to you from somewhere else and you asked me if I had time. I subconsciously replied yes. Actually, I have already bought a ticket to Jinan. But I still gave up the car and went to see you.

The first time your classmates saw me, they said, "It's not as ugly as you say." Actually, I was very sad at the time, just to make you happy, and I kept teasing my looks. At that time, I was like a monkey being watched.

And then you say, my classmates say you're a sissy. This sentence completely hurt my self-esteem. I've been giving in to you, and that's because I love you. I don't know how I got to you and became a.

I want to ask you now, you didn't think about my feelings when you said that.

Finally, two months after getting engaged, I lost my first love.

I still haven't told my parents that I've broken up with you. Because I'm afraid that the two old men who like you so much won't be able to bear such a blow. But seeing that the wedding day is coming soon, I really don't know how to deal with my family.

Even so, I don't hate you, I still think you're good.

It's just that you don't belong to me anymore and disappear from my side forever.

I'm a proud man, and I haven't contacted you since the day you left.

It's just that I can't let go of you, you disappeared from me, but you are deeply imprinted in my heart.

I've told myself countless times that if you're gone, you're gone. But that's just lying to yourself.

The home in my heart is gone.

You locked my heart in it

I was so determined to get away from you

And you go your separate ways

Finally, after a few years

I'm so far away from you

The place is big and big

High-rise buildings rise

I'm standing very high, very high

I can't see you anymore

There is no trail to see you

I can't see the lights waiting for me to light in the middle of the night

Under the window eaves of the stairway

Squat down and hug your knees

I feel so aggrieved

midnight

Darkness buries your city

Turn off the lights I've been longing for for a long time

The snow is white, and the only bluestone slab you can step on is there

Running alone into the snow

Helped you melt a wedding dress

Married you so far

I miss you very much

I want to say a word to you

Baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

How much courage should be required

Crying so hysterically

talent years later

Take you back again

Look at the fish in the pond next to you

I had tears in my eyes

Take your hand in hand

Choked

Let's go

Come back with me, go back with me

In two months, I was going to my wedding alone.

If you leave me, you may have found your happiness early.

I once said that you are love, warmth, and the April day in the world. I still think so, but it's not you now, but the stupid kid who used to make me feel so distressed.

Your name has grown up in time, it's just that it has nothing to do with me later.

A one-man war, there is no opponent, so I can never win.

I won't wish you happiness, because it's not just you who don't need it, but even I feel hypocritical.