"Grandpa Shen, later, how happened to Grandma Shen's cousin?" Zhou Wanwan finally couldn't hold back, and asked this question while Shen Guodong went out.

"He," Grandpa Shen touched Zhou Wanwan's head lovingly, his eyes clear and tolerant of the world, "He later married the daughter of a wealthy local businessman, and he had both children, and your grandmother and I also went to drink his youngest son's full moon wine." ”

"My cousin is also a talent, full of poetry and books, with a superior family background and a successful career, let go of his obsession with your grandmother, and found that there are actually many choices in life. Moreover, it may be easier, "after all, not everyone can always maintain that enthusiasm to chase a person for a lifetime."

"This kind of thing, it looked serious at the time, and it really passed that hurdle, how to live and how to live. It is human instinct to live your own life, and in this world, the kind of infatuation seed that can remember a person for a lifetime is rare. ”

Grandpa Shen shook his head and smiled, "Look at your grandmother's cousin, he didn't want his life at that time, and later he didn't marry a wife and have children to live a prosperous life." ”

Grandpa Shen said this to Zhou Wanwan, and when Shen Guodong settled Zhou Wanwan and then came down to find him, he said something else to him.

"The fate between people is deep and shallow, not anyone who wants to desperately grasp it will definitely be able to grasp it, no matter how much strength is used, it will not be able to earn his life. Fate comes and goes, and sometimes it's really not up to people. ”

Shen Guodong didn't like to listen to it very much, "When you were with your grandmother, if someone told you that, could you believe it?" Can you listen? ”

"Of course not!" Grandpa Shen's eyes were wider than Shen Guodong's, "If I accept my fate." How can there be you in this world? ”

"Then why are you telling me all this uselessness?!" Shen Guodong almost suspected that his grandfather was confused.

"I'm just reminding you, hurry up and grasp it while fate is still on your side! Don't be like your cousin! If he had married your grandmother earlier, what would have happened to me?! "Grandpa Shen hates iron and doesn't make steel." Where's your brain?! Can your grandfather still hurt you? It's all experience! Valuable practical experience! ”

Shen Guodong was still not convinced, "Do you still need to say this?!" You don't have to mess with me! ”

Compared with Grandpa Shen's grandfather's and grandson's gunpowder-smelling conversation, Zhou Chen's attitude towards his sister was much milder.

"People's hearts are flesh and blood, and Shen Guodong is no exception, don't take his kindness to you for granted, you also have to learn to be nice to him, otherwise whether the two of you can be together in the future or not. You'll feel like you owe him, and you'll be even more confused when the time comes. ”

Zhou Wanwan was very surprised, "Second brother." You're not beating him anymore? You even help him speak?! ”

Zhou Chen was really angry with this little fool, "Who am I doing this for?!" Do you think it's not uncomfortable for me to hold back and not beat him?! "If he wasn't afraid that his sister would be sad, and that she would have a burden in his heart, would he need to think about this?

"It's like two people doing something together. He did his best. If you also do your best, and you can't succeed in the end, you have the confidence and don't feel guilty about him, if you don't, then you will never find your place, and you will have to be led by the nose for the rest of your life. ”

Zhou Chen patiently reasoned with his sister, "You are different from others. Emotionally do not owe each other, this is the most basic bottom line. Otherwise you'll be stuck in a passive position forever later. No matter what decision you make, you will be swayed by guilt, and you really can't get out. ”

"Second brother, you're still not optimistic about us, are you?"

"It's not that I'm not optimistic about you, I have to think of the worst possibility for you." Zhou Chen looked at Zhou Wanwan with a touch of regret, "Second brother originally hoped that you could get in touch with feelings later, so that you could enjoy a few more years of pure happiness." ”

"Love is such a thing, it's too dangerous. Dangerous things are always attractive, but they are also the most cruel, and almost all the truth in the world can be found in them. Zhou Chen touched Zhou Wanwan's head and sighed, "This is something you must experience in your life, if you have to experience it earlier, then the second brother can only think more about you." ”

After this conversation, Zhou Wanwan has been thinking, how did Zhou Chen see the cruelty of love? Has he been through it?

But she didn't ask after all, what Zhou Chen didn't want to say, she didn't want to force him to say.

On the first Friday after the start of school, Zhou Wan left two classes early, and took a half-day off on Saturday, preparing to secretly run back to Suilin to surprise Shen Guodong.

Zhou Chen is right, they get along with each other, they can't rely on Shen Guodong alone, she also has to do her best.

When queuing at the bus station, Zhou Wanwan unexpectedly met Guo Kejian, who was also on the same bus.

"I went to see my dad, he's not been in good health lately." I haven't seen him for a summer vacation, Guo Kejian is much darker and thinner than when Zhou Yang got married, and his spirit looks okay, but there is a strong tiredness and sadness in the depths of his eyes.

Zhou Wanwan immediately realized that something was wrong, if it were someone else, she might not think so, and she would not be so shocked.

But this person is Guo Kejian. That Guo Kejian, who was once pulled down from the clouds and stepped into the mire, could still smile gently, confidently and good-looking, what kind of thing could make him unable to hide his tiredness and sadness?

"Deputy County Magistrate Guo......" Zhou Wanwan regretted saying these words, Guo Kejian's father had been beaten as a counter-revolutionary ten years ago, and he was no longer a deputy county magistrate.

"My dad raised pigs in the suburbs and worked as a swineherd for six or seven years. I used to dig toilets in the county for three or four years. Guo Kejian didn't hide these things at all, "Recently, he has a very serious liver disease, and I plan to take him home to recuperate, and I am running this matter." ”

Zhou Wanwan looked at Guo Kejian's thin and bulging hands, and didn't know what to say. Words of comfort are often just a means used by the speaker to fulfill his obligations, and they are really of little use to the listener.

At least, when she was the most sad and sad in her previous life, no one's words comforted her.

"When Uncle Guo comes home, I will go with my second brother to see him." Zhou Wanwan took out a few chocolate candies and a bottle of orange soda from her shoulder bag, "Brother Guo, this is my snack on the road, and I will give you half of it." ”

Guo Kejian didn't shirk at all, and accepted it happily, "It's an honor, I haven't had this kind of treatment yet." ”

"Then you should hurry up and eat! In the future, I will give you more snacks. Zhou Wanwan can't help Guo Kejian with anything, so he can only help him recuperate, at least, he can have the energy to shoulder the burden of the family and work energetically for his seriously ill father.

As soon as he got in the car, Guo Kejian really ate sugar and drank all the soda.

Zhou Wanwan changed seats with him and asked him to sit by the window, "You can sleep by the window for a while." ”

Guo Kejian didn't refuse, he really leaned against the car window and fell asleep quickly.

Zhou Wanwan looked at his emaciated face and the obvious dark circles around his eye sockets and sighed softly, if he stayed up for another two months, the Gang of Four would be defeated, and then many people like Guo Kejian's father would be able to see the light of day again, and many innocent counterrevolutionary children like Guo Kejian would not have to live so hard.

The car walked out of Ling'an City, and the shadows and light spots of the big trees on the highway swept past the car window one by one, and also swept Guo Kejian's face, and he suddenly called Zhou Wanwan very lightly, "Nannan." ”

Zhou Wanwan raised her head, and the rapid flashing light and shadow made her almost unable to see Guo Kejian's expression, in fact, he didn't have any expression, he was still leaning against the car window like just now, with his eyes closed, no different from falling asleep, as if the very soft murmur was Zhou Wanwan's illusion.

But that's not an illusion, Zhou Wanwan is sure. She kept looking at Guo Kejian, and intuitively didn't want to miss his next words, which must be very important to him, and it was difficult to say it.

Zhou Wanwan doesn't know Guo Kejian, but I'm sure that he is not a person who can complain. No matter how difficult and bitter it has been over the years, what Zhou Wanwan sees is the proud young man back then, he will not allow himself to be weak in front of others, which makes him unacceptable more than suffering.

"My mom passed away last month. committed suicide, in order to let Guo Kezhen return to the city to take over. ”

Guo Kejian maintained the sleeping position, and said these two short words almost silently, but it was so difficult that it was difficult for him and Zhou Wanwan to breathe.

"Brother Guo......" Zhou Wanwan's tears instantly filled her eyes, she didn't know what to say to comfort him at this time.

In fact, nothing can be comforted.

These helplessness and pain can only be carried by themselves.

This is what Guo Kejian has been best at over the years, right? I take everything in my heart and bear it alone, I don't want to say it, I can't say it, and I don't know who to talk to.

But he is human after all, and there will be a moment when he is so vulnerable that he wants to talk to someone.

"She has always been in poor health, a few years ago, she was injured in the fight, I, looking for a lot of connections, only this year let her come out of the cleaning team, put a name in the vegetable company, and recuperate at home." The first sentence was said, and the rest of the words were much easier, Guo Kejian slowly talked to Zhou Wanwan about his deceased mother.

"She has been at home and has not been at ease, my father is even worse health, he is still raising pigs in the suburbs, Guo Kezhen has no education, and the ingredients are not good, so she has to take root in the countryside and settle down, and she will never have the opportunity to return to the city. These two things weigh on her heart every day......"

Guo Kejian's hand clenched tightly, trembling slightly, "It's useless, if Guo Kezhen's work can be arranged quickly, my mother won't let her go back to ......the city to take over."

"Brother Guo......" Zhou Wanwan's tears fell big and smashed into Guo Kejian's clenched hands.

She didn't know what to say, saying that it wasn't your fault, that in this era everyone is not immune, and no one can do anything.

said that you have done a good job, your mother's suicide is not just that she can't wait for your sister to return to the city to take over, it is the persecution over the years that has made her overwhelmed and disheartened......

How could these Guo Kejian not know? He must know that it is only because of the severe pain and confusion of losing his loved ones that he doesn't know how to resist it, so he will punish himself with self-blame.

He doesn't know what else to do for his mother except to blame himself.

Zhou Wanwan knows Guo Kejian's feelings too well, Zhou Yang died in her previous life, she was almost numb to pain, and she was bored, and the only thing she could do was to blame herself......

Guo Kejian seemed to be burned by Zhou Wanwan's tears, his clenched fists trembled violently a few times, and he maintained the posture of leaning against the car window with his eyes closed, but the corners of his mouth trembled slightly, and sadness spread like a tide on his face.

"Nan, I never thought that my mother would leave like this." Guo Kejian's trembling hand tightly grasped Zhou Wanwan's hand. (To be continued.) )