October 31

It's late autumn, and the howling north wind brings a chill. Towards dusk, a large number of dark clouds gathered together, and the whole sky was so low that it seemed to merge with the ground.

Deep in the garden stands a pentagonal maple tree in the corner. The remaining leaves of the branches of the trees were dyed red, and many of them were swept away in the cold wind, and the floating whirls spread layer after layer of gloom on the ground. The remaining leaves of the branches, because of the bifurcation posture in the center of the trunk, are like a heart that has been cut into two petals. The dark gray sky is set against the backdrop, giving people a lonely and desperate depression for no reason.

"Hasn't he been here yet?" The man standing under the tree was elegant and handsome, the white coat showed his identity, the slender and white palm of his right hand, resting on the metal back bar of the wheelchair, the woman in the wheelchair was so thin that only a handful of bones remained, the wide patient gown was obviously empty on her body, and the once beautiful face could be vaguely seen in the gray outline of death, the eyes were blue and black, and the eyes were as desolate as death.

She looked at the leaves blown down by the wind in a daze, perhaps thinking of her own situation, tears slid down her cheeks without warning, and muttered, "He won't come." The empty hospital gown, blown by the cold wind, and her yellow hair was as messy as straw, blocking her vision, but she couldn't move, just like an ice sculpture, as if everything in the outside world could no longer touch her broken heart.

The man brushed her hair and sighed, "I'll push you back!" ”

"No need, Dr. Hua." The woman smiled sadly. Said softly: "Thank you, you go and get busy, I'll stay alone for a while." "His eyes were on the distance.

Dr. Hua did not leave in the end, he took pity on this poor, gentle and kind woman, and said, "In the future...... Do you have any plans? ”

"Do I have a future?" The woman was completely desperate for life and muttered to herself.

"Absolutely." The patient has no will to survive and may commit suicide, and as a doctor with professional ethics, he cannot turn a blind eye to this situation. What's more, since learning about the specific experience of this woman. He was full of pity for her, and immediately said: "There is no obstacle in life that cannot be overcome, no matter what happens, it can be filled with time." It can't be because I met a certain scumbag. Lose faith in life, right? It won't hit him hard. Nothing good for you either! ”

"Thank you for your relief!" The woman suddenly smiled: "Doctor Hua, you are a good person, but I am so tired, I no longer have confidence or courage." Maybe somebody. When encountering this kind of thing, I will choose to stand up, but it is not me, I am not so strong, and I can't bear it, the double betrayal from love and affection. ”

"Life is so good." Dr. Hua said, "You can't abandon the good just because you see it's not good. ”

"But my world has lost its beauty." Saying this sentence lightly, it seemed that he had exhausted all the strength of his life, and his body trembled and leaned powerlessly on the wheelchair, as if he could not bear it. Her snow-white teeth bit her pale lower lip, and after a moment she slowly let go, tears slid down her eyes again, and she thought of the unbearable past.

She looked at the nothingness through tears: "I have nothing, I have lost everything, my parents, family, husband, children, ......" She trembled and choked: "Why do you want to live so hard? What exactly am I doing wrong? Why this betrayal? Her fingertips trembled lightly and stroked her lower abdomen, where a little life once broke, she loved him so much, and looked forward to his arrival, but she did not protect him well, so that he was not even born and had a chance to see the world, but was stifled.

"Why??" Her tears flowed more and more fiercely, painful and desperate hysteria: "Why are the people who ruined all this the two most important to me?" What am I not doing well? The family's property was also handed over to him, and he took care of the family wholeheartedly and never said anything. Thinking of the hardships she suffered when she was a child, she was obedient to her, I will give her whatever she wants, why? Why would she do this to me? What am I doing wrong? ”

"Are you sure it's them?" Dr. Hua, who was much calmer than an emotional woman, asked, "Are you really sure?" Maybe he's just busy, after all, he didn't say no, he just couldn't get through on the phone......"

The woman's tears stopped, and she was stunned for a moment. "Originally, I was just suspicious, but now it seems that it is really them." The woman's voice trembled in pain: "I have mentioned that matter to him many times, but he always disagrees, saying that I have hallucinations in my mind when I think too much, maybe the first time, maybe the second time, but whose hallucinations will appear for more than half a month in a row or the same?" The bloody footprints on the ground, the heart that was pulled out, and the skin that was torn off alive, and the blood in the head of the water pipe...... All this, normal people who see it will not be mentally weak? Why does he never pay attention? Why is he so cold to me? Why is this the only one I can see? Is it because of hallucinations? ”

"Obviously not!" The woman's eyes, which were originally blinded by love, saw that everything in the past was unreasonable. "Because, every time he's not there, he's either outside, or he's on a business trip, why is it so coincidental? He just avoided these things when I encountered them? Now that I think about it, they betrayed me a long time ago, and those things are fake only for me to see, and those things are obviously caused by the two of them, in order to scare me, to provoke me! ”

"But why?" Tiger poison doesn't eat children, why can he even do it to his own children? This is also the most unacceptable part for her. "He knew I had a child, why did he let her go? Is this child so unworthy of mention to him? Or did he hate me to such an extent? If he hates me like this, why did he marry me in the first place? Is it just for the sake of the family property left by the parents? The woman thought of the eight years of hard work, in exchange for a scam, the whole person trembled uncontrollably, even the teeth were no exception, tears slid silently the corners of her lips, and she smiled self-deprecatingly: "My life, sure enough, is a big joke." ”

Dr. Hua's heart was blocked in his throat: "Don't you want to know why all this is?" ”

"Even if you know, what can you do? My child, never coming back! The woman's eyes were stunned, and her lifeless appearance made Dr. Hua's heart tighten, and he hurriedly said: "For the sake of the child who has no chance, in order to give him an explanation!" ”

"Child—" The woman's eyes lit up slightly, and she obediently asked Dr. Hua to push her back to the ward. (To be continued......)