Twenty-one years ago, he was thirty-two years old and she was twenty-two.

He is an older young man who has worked for eight years and struggled from a technician to a pre-engineer in battery technology. She is the daughter of Chief Engineer Zhang, an electronic technology master seconded by the Chinese Academy of Sciences, and is also a top student of Qinghua University, who followed her father to Jiuquan for an internship.

At that time, he was in the same project team as her, tackling an aerospace electronic intelligent control system, a member of his battery technology group, and she was a member of the computer technology group. He is ordinary or even mediocre, his background is mediocre, his appearance is mediocre, and his ability is also mediocre in this kind of place where the world's elites gather. She is as bright as the stars, she was born in a family of science and technology, she looks like a fairy, and her intelligence impresses everyone, saying that her future achievements are not inferior to her father.

He is taciturn and not good at communicating, she is smiling like a flower and is good at communicating, no matter in terms of background, age, ability or personality, he and her should not and cannot have intersected.

He always sneaked a peek at her through the crowd, and when she did, he quickly looked away. She was kind to everyone, but she never said a word to him. He doesn't complain, but he has some low self-esteem and some loss, and he feels that she hates him. So, he began to slowly try to forget about her, not caring about her, but unfortunately, he couldn't do it, so he could only involuntarily watch her shuttle through the crowd again and again. Occasionally, when she caught his gaze, he was ashamed of himself, for fear that he would be even more disgusted by her, and from then on, he forced himself to see her less.

Once, she encountered a problem, stayed up late and worked overtime, she was a stubborn woman, beautiful but strong. It's heart-wrenching. He threw his finished design in the trash and started from scratch, where he was with her. It's just that. The two were far apart and did not say a word for several hours.

It was late, she took out an iron lunch box, walked over, and she said, you didn't bring food? Let's eat together. He wanted to refuse, but he didn't want to refuse. He tried to accept it, but he didn't dare to accept it, and he buried his head in the manuscript paper and couldn't lift it. She broke a pair of bamboo chopsticks into two pairs. Then, she used the lid of the lunch box to hold a little of the food and ate it herself, and handed him the rest. He felt himself stiffen as a stone, and he ate it with his head down and trembling hands. I never dared to look up.

At last. She took the lunch box with not a grain of rice left, and said, You owe me a pair of chopsticks. He blushed, stood up and stammered and said I'll pay you back, thank you. She was stunned, the expression on her face was very unhappy, and she said that you are a heartless eye.

After that, he paid her chopsticks. She didn't ask for it, she said you can keep it for yourself. Save yourself from having to break a pair of chopsticks every time you work overtime. Since then, she has started to work overtime often, and he has suddenly become like a newcomer, always unable to finish his work. She always cooks her own food and brings the two of them to eat, he always finishes it silently, says thank you, and occasionally praises her for cooking deliciously. She was upset and said, "If I don't make it tasty, you won't eat it?" He shook his head in embarrassment and said, "I will eat it if it's unpalatable." She said, then I will make it a little more unpalatable in the future, so that you can eat it every day, eat it every day, eat it every day. He shook his head and said, "Your cooking is delicious." She scolded him again for lacking heart, but this time she scolded with a smile.

It didn't take long for him to finally muster up the courage to invite her to the movies, saying that he was thanking her for bringing him so many meals. They watched a foreign film that was shown internally, with footage that was not suitable for children. Out of the movie theater, she said that he was very bad, she cooked for him, and he actually took her to watch this kind of movie. He swore that he didn't know the movie was like this, and that the ticket was given to him by someone else. She didn't mind, but he thought he had blasphemed the other party, thinking she was angry. Since then, he has become more restrained in front of her, even deliberately staying away from her.

Until one day, she and he worked overtime until late at night, she didn't bring food, and came over to him and said that she was getting married. He froze, as if five thunderbolts had hit the top. She said that the other party was a student of her father, a very good boy. He said oh, congratulations. She said, do you have someone you like? He shook his head. She said that I have someone I like, but he doesn't like me, should I marry my brother? He said how do I know? She said, "I just want to hear from you." He said that you should marry someone who likes you, and he will be good to you and pour out his heart and lungs. Then she wept, he was silent, and she left.

The next day, she left Jiuquan, and a few months later he was saddened to hear that she was married, but blessed in his heart. Soon he received a package containing a diary, which was hers. He opened the diary and read it page by page, tears soaked the not thick diary, he felt that he was the stupidest person in the world.

The person she likes is him, so, she says she wants to cook for him to eat every day, every day, every day. Therefore, she was kind and pleasant to everyone, but she didn't dare to talk to him more. Therefore, when she saw his introverted introvert, she couldn't help but laugh and scold him for lacking heart. So, after watching that movie, she said he was bad, but she didn't mind his badness in her heart. However, her family was engaged to her marriage, and she went to confess to him, but he seemed to have no special feelings for her, and in discouragement, she left here and went to marriage. Even so, she couldn't let him go, and even if he didn't like her, she insisted on letting him know about her friendship, so she sent a diary.

After that, things were much simpler, he regretted it, and became more introverted, he hated himself for not hearing her affection? Why didn't she know that the person she liked was him. It wasn't that he didn't want to confess to her, but she was already married, and at that time, people like him insisted that destroying someone else's marriage was a crime and a despicable act. The main thing is that he feels that he is not as good as her husband and that he cannot give her a better life. So, he chose to hide in a dark corner by himself, tearing open bloody wounds again and again, and licking himself again and again.

Soon after, her husband came to Jiuquan, a very good engineer who had already made a name for himself at a young age. The other party is like a noble nobleman, and he is like a lowly beggar, and he thinks that she should marry someone like the other party, not him. He was even more ashamed and inferior, and he couldn't afford to rob him, she didn't have much time to come to Jiuquan, but occasionally bumped into her, she would always blush-face and avoid it.

Then, something happened.

He was suspected of reselling secret information to foreign organizations, and he was placed under quarantine review. He was not afraid, because he was not afraid of shadows, and he did not do anything to be sorry for the country and the people.

Ultimately. He was released, but was told that he was not fit to continue with classified work. At that moment, he was disheartened, and at the door of his house he met her who was crying and red-eyed. It turned out that she used her father's relationship to protect him, but. When her husband finds out that she suspects that she and he have an unclear relationship, they quarrel, but she is still determined to help him. Even. She said she wanted him to stay here, she believed him, and she didn't care if she divorced her husband.

That night, her husband found him. And said she was pregnant. Please stop destroying their family. Even, her husband took out 10,000 yuan and helped him find a company in the United States to hire him as an engineer, just begging him to stay away from her.

He left Jiuquan alone, he resigned, did not take money, did not have a job to ask for alms, and did not say goodbye to her. He returned to the small county where he came from and started working as an engineer in a small battery factory. Spend the days in chaos, and always be anxious with wine.

Twenty years have passed.

He was tricked into a café by an unscrupulous profiteer owner. Then I saw her who was still as beautiful as a fairy, and even the unscrupulous profiteer and his friend Zhang Fei locked the door outside the door.

None of this was the most important thing, what really suffocated him was that she was holding the diary she had given him back then, and that diary was no longer hers, it was theirs. In the past 20 years, Lu Yuan has read her diary every night, and then wrote her regrets and love below, and when there was not enough space, he wrote it with post-it notes and pasted it.

He, looking at her diary every night, felt like he was still alive twenty years ago.

Zhang Wanru looked at Lu Yuan, and then smiled, and the smile bloomed through tears. She didn't talk to Lu Yuan, she looked down at the diary, and read it very slowly, very slowly, very slowly......

Lu Yuan leaned his back against the door, as if he was ready to flee at any moment.

I don't know how long it took, Zhang Wanru closed the diary, wiped away her tears, and said, "Are you okay?" ”

Lu Yuan nodded hurriedly: "I'm fine, very good!" ”

Zhang Wanru said: "But I'm not having a good time. ”

Lu Yuan suddenly became angry and shouted, "Why? Why? Is he bad for you? Why? Why didn't he treat you well? Why? ”

Zhang Wanru chuckled: "Because I don't love him, he naturally doesn't need to be nice to me." “

Lu Yuan was speechless.

Zhang Anru said: "After you left, I found out that your censorship was a trick he played, and even if you left, it was because of him." I separated from him, and we didn't have any children, and he lied to you when he said I was pregnant. Ten years ago, he was sentenced to prison for selling state secrets, then fell ill, and he died not long after. I stayed by him and watched him leave, and he hated me, and he said that I didn't like him, why should I marry him, and I didn't know how to answer. You know what? For the past twenty years, I've also been asking myself, why didn't I marry the person I liked? Brother Lu, do you know why? ”

Lu Yuan squatted on the ground with his head covered.

Zhang Wanru came over and knocked on the door, calling Zhao Qi and Zhang Fei in.

Lu Yuan was sat on the sofa by Zhang Fei, Zhang Fei had worked with Lu Yuan in Jiuquan, and later Zhang Fei left Jiuquan to go to the sea to make money, he was different from Lu Yuan.

Zhang Wanru promised to provide equipment and technical support to Zhao Qi and Zhang Fei, which was a gesture for her and did not violate the rules.

It can be seen that Zhang Wanru is very sad, although she knows Lu Yuan's feelings for her, but looking at Lu Yuan's current state, he doesn't seem to want to continue his relationship.

Zhao Qi was originally going to withdraw and leave after taking the equipment and technology, unwilling to meddle in other people's private affairs. However, seeing that the two people who obviously love each other have an estrangement again, Zhao Qi couldn't help but pity Zhang Wanru, is it really jealous? No! No! All this is caused by Lu Yuan's weakness and inferiority, it has been like this from the beginning, and it is still so!

So, Zhao Qi was ready to intervene, he had insight into people's hearts, and he knew the thoughts of people like Lu Yuan best. He didn't want to curry favor with Lu Yuan, on the contrary, he just wanted to help Zhang Wanru.

Zhang Fei was angrily scolding Lu Yuan, trying to inspire his confidence, but to no avail.

Zhao Qi called the really disheartened Zhang Wanru into the corner, ready to find another way to solve their problem. (To be continued......)