Seeing Ren Qianxue's lifeless eyes, Ai Le felt very uncomfortable, he hoped that the girl in front of him could smile like a flower and enjoy her youth carefree, but everything changed because of a scumbag named Zhao Jun, and she actually thought of dying at the same age as a flower.

Death is actually not terrible, what is terrible is that there is no love in life, a person can choose to die, which means that he has no nostalgia for this world, his heart is dead, so is Ren Qianxue, her heart dies with the destruction of feelings, this is what Ai Le does not want to see, but what can he do?

He is the director of the Gods and Demons Hospital, he can have many ways to make Ren Qianxue immortal, but he can't make her heart rejuvenated, at this time he has a deep sense of powerlessness in the face of Ren Qianxue's empty eyes.

Ren Qianxue looked at the opposite wall and whispered, "Sit down." Her voice was as hollow and cold as her eyes, and she had no attachment to the world.

Ai Le looked at Ren Qianxue and exhaled softly and sat on the chair.

Ren Qianxue said to herself: "Thank you, you shouldn't have saved me, and I also know that you just wanted me to live when you said those words." Speaking of this, Ren Qianxue laughed at herself, the smile was indescribably sad, and she said slowly: "What is love at first sight in this world, what is the vow, it is all a lie, Ai Le, you are also lying to me." ”

Ai Le raised his head to see what Ren Qianxue opened his mouth to explain, but he couldn't say a word, he liked Ren Qianxue, he liked it when he saw him for the first time, but it was far from the point of dying for her, the words he just said were just as Ren Qianxue said just to persuade her to come down, don't commit suicide, and now in the face of Ren Qianxue's questioning, Ai Le has nothing to say.

Ren Qianxue continued to say in an empty tone: "Why did you stop me from letting me die?" I feel really tired and tired of living, and when I die, I will be completely quiet, don't talk about my parents, I know I'm sorry for them, but you and they don't know how tired I am, my heart hurts, it hurts, it hurts so much that I can't sleep all night, you will never experience this feeling.

I'm so tired, I really want to be free, I won't be in pain when I die, and I won't feel so tired anymore.

Zhao Jun is all I have, my sky, my earth, he left me, the sky fell, the earth fell, my world was destroyed! ”

Ren Qianxue's words were full of sadness and helplessness that could not be dissolved, as well as unwillingness and grievance, but she did not shed a single tear, her somewhat gray eyes were very dry, and her tears had dried up for the person named Zhao Jun.

Ai Le didn't know how to persuade Ren Qianxue, after a long time, he slowly stood up and walked to the window to open the curtains, and the sunlight dreamed in, so that Ren Qianxue covered her eyes with her hands.

Looking at the bright sun, Ai Le said softly: "I don't know how to persuade you, I know that you like Zhao Jun very much, he is all you have, your whole world, but your world has been ruined, that guy will not return to your side, he has become someone else's world, or someone else has become his world, you will not be together in this life, from now on you are two parallel lines, you may be able to see each other, but you can never intersect."

Isn't it cruel? But that's the truth, your world is collapsing, you want to die, you won't be so miserable and tired when you die, I understand your mood at this time, but have you thought about it, you are your parents' world, if you die, their world will collapse.

They will be tormented by pain day and night like you, they will blame themselves, blame themselves for not protecting you, and this pain will accompany them for the rest of their lives.

They're not old, you're all they have, and how many days do you think they'll survive in this world when they lose everything? To put it mildly, I think the first thing you can't bear is your mother, she will die depressed, after your father sent him away, he is the one who has lost all his relatives, does he still have the courage to continue to live?

He may choose to leave this world in order to escape the pain like you, they gave birth to you, raised you, and in the end you want them to end so tragically? ”

Ai Le's voice was very flat, as if she was telling a very ordinary thing, but when Ren Qianxue heard these words, she felt that there were thousands of knives cutting her heart, and her heart hurt even more when she thought of her mother leaving this world because of her endless pain and self-blame, and when she thought of her father's gray hair ending her life, she covered her ears with her hands and shouted hysterically: "Don't say it, don't say it!" ”

Ai Le let go of his body as if he hadn't heard this, letting more sunlight shine on Ren Qianxue, he raised his head and muttered: "You are much luckier than me, at least you still have a mother, she will feel sorry for you when she sees you like this, she will be anxious for you, but what about me?" I didn't even know what my mother looked like, but when I was a kid I saw that everyone else had a mother but I didn't, so I asked my dad, 'Where did my mom go?' ’

My dad answered me with a slap and a fist and everything around him, and when I was beaten to cry, he would roar and say, 'Your mom is dead, dead'

My dad would drink every day, and when he drank too much, he would scold me, scold my mother, and sometimes beat me, and I really hated him at that time, and I hoped that he would grow up soon, leave this house, and go to my mother.

When I was in junior high school, I was very rebellious, fighting, making trouble, in short, I was going to do what he didn't want me to do, and I was happy to see him thunderous, which he deserved, I thought he beat my mom away, yes, that's what I thought.

But one time I slipped out in the middle of the night to play and found out that I was wrong, I saw him hiding alone in the bedroom sitting on the floor crying, I remember the scene that day very clearly, he didn't drink, he was crying there with a picture in his hand.

Do you know? That was the first time I saw him cry, and I had the impression that he was a cold-blooded creature without tears, that he would only scold me and beat me, but that day I found out that he would cry just like me.

His tears fell quickly, but he didn't make a sound, he bit his lip and his lips were broken, I was quite happy at the time, I was happy to see him sad and shed tears, I hated him.

Then I went out to play, and the next morning at four o'clock, I was afraid that he would know that I slipped out in the middle of the night to play and beat me, so I went back, and when I went back, he drank too much, and the room was full of wine bottles, and the house was full of wine, and the smell was really bad.

I wanted to go back to the room, but suddenly I thought of that picture, and I went into his room while he was asleep, and I saw that picture, and there were three people in it, me, and he had a woman, and that woman was very young, very beautiful, and she smiled very warmly, and that was the first time I saw my mother, but I didn't look at the picture later, so that her appearance was blurred, and there were only a few words left in the blur - young, beautiful, warm, and I couldn't think of what she looked like.

Any idea why I'm not looking at that photo? Because I still found a letter on the ground, a very short one, only a few words - I'm sorry, forgive me for not saying goodbye, you can't give me the life I want, take care of my son, I will make amends to your father and son later, don't look for me. ”

Speaking of this, Elle suddenly laughed, he opened the window to let the hot wind blow in, and the chance that the black hair in front of his forehead was a little messy by the wind, he laughed and said: "What a fuck thing, that day I finally knew why when I asked my parents where I went, he beat me, scolded me, and said that she was dead, if it were me, I would probably do the same." ”

Ren Qianxue suddenly whispered: "Do you still hate your mother and your father now?" ”

Ai Le turned his head and smiled lightly: "I don't hate it, there's nothing to hate." He said it very easily, as if he was talking about something that was not normal, but the look in his eyes was very complicated.

Ren Qianxue lowered her head and said, "I'm sorry for reminding you of these things." ”

Ai Le said lightly: "It's okay, it's all over, I really envy you, how good it would be if my mother could be like your mother, Ren Qianxue wake up, it's really a stupid thing to leave your parents and leave this world for the sake of a man, don't do this stupid thing if you're so beautiful and smart, right?" ”

Ren Qianxue's expression darkened again, she lowered her head and pinched the quilt without saying a word.

Ai Le walked up to her and suddenly stretched out his hand to hold her cool hand and said, "If you want to be my girlfriend!" ”

Ren Qianxue raised her head violently and looked at Ai Le in a daze.

Ai Le's eyes are very sincere, his smile is very bright, he exudes this invisible light, this light is very dazzling, so that Ren Qianxue does not dare to look at it, she lowered her head once and shook off Ai Le's hand and said sadly: "I won't die, thank you for your comfort." ”

Speaking of this, Ren Qianxue lifted the quilt and walked to the bed barefoot without shoes, looking at the bright sun in the sky and the blue sky, and murmured: "I will live strongly, thank you Ai Le." ”

Ai Le's first confession was rejected, his expression was very embarrassed, he walked up to Ren Qianxue without giving up and said, "I was serious just now, you really don't think about it?" ”

Ren Qianxue turned around and finally had a smile on her face, and she said softly: "Don't worry, I really won't die, I don't live for myself, I also have to live for my parents, so don't say it, thank you for your kindness." ”

Ai Le slowly lowered his head and looked at his toes and said, "You're welcome, then you can rest, Cory still has something to do, I'll go back." ”

What Ai Le just said was indeed not comforting Ren Qianxue, he was sincere, at that moment he suddenly wanted to hug Ren Qianxue and use his shoulders to shield her from the wind and rain, this may be love, although it came suddenly, although it came at a very bad time, but it just came, uncontrollably came, but unfortunately it was nipped in the bud by Ren Qianxue as soon as it appeared.

Ai Le has finally experienced the pain of love in his life, it is not very painful, but it ripples in his heart a little, little by little, bit by drop, this taste is really uncomfortable, very uncomfortable.

Ai Le didn't say anything and walked out of the ward with his head down, and Sun Liping, Ren Qianxue's mother, who had just arrived outside, stepped forward and grabbed him and said, "Qianxue is okay, right?" ”

Ai Le smiled and said, "Auntie, she's fine, she won't do stupid things, don't worry, you go in and see her." ”

Sun Liping knew that it was Ai Le who saved her daughter today, she gratefully watched Ai Le walk in, and Ren Qianxue's father, Ren Junfeng, also gratefully watched him follow.

Elle exhaled and shook his head helplessly and went to Corey.

Corey's gaze at Elle was very complicated, but Elle didn't bother to analyze what these gazes meant, he sat in his chair as if he had lost his soul, and said nothing.

Liu Yan could see that his apprentice was preoccupied, and he was really not suitable for work, and if he was still in this state, he would be in trouble if he made a mistake, so Liu Yan directly gave him a holiday, and asked him to go home to rest, rest, and adjust his emotions to come to work tomorrow.

Ai Le changed his clothes and went out of the hospital, he didn't go home, he ran to the river alone, wandering aimlessly, no one knew what he was thinking, even he didn't know what he was thinking, his heart was very messy, his brain was all kinds of fragments, these fragments of you sang and I appeared, so that his brain was a mess of paste.

Ai Le walked and walked until more than nine o'clock in the evening, he sat in the river and listened to the sound of the water and couldn't help but think of Ren Qianxue, thinking about what she would be doing, thinking about whether she really wouldn't do stupid things, thinking about whether she would think about herself, thinking if she would suddenly find herself tomorrow and promise herself.

He thought a lot, a lot, and his head ached, and his thoughts became more and more chaotic.

A piece of clothing suddenly draped on Ai Le's body, and when he looked up and found Ren Qianxue here by the moonlight, he exclaimed, "You, why are you here?" ”

Ren Qianxue sat in front of Ai Le with her arms in her hands, looked at Jiang Mian and said, "Zhao Jun and I used to come here often, but today I slept all afternoon, and I couldn't sleep, so let's take a look." ”

Ai Le saw that her body was trembling a little by the night wind, and quickly took off the clothes on her body and put them on her, Ren Qianxue didn't refuse, she looked at the crescent moon on the river and said, "Why are you here?" ”

Ai Le lowered his head and raised his head again and said, "Just like you, I can't sleep, come out for a walk." ”

Ren Qianxue didn't answer, and the two of them just sat there quietly enjoying the rare calm.

It was 12 o'clock, and Ai Le broke the silence and said, "I'll send you home, it's too late, your parents will be worried." ”

Ren Qianxue shook her head slightly and said, "My dad is there." With that, she stretched out her hand and pointed not far away, and Ai Le looked over there and saw that there was indeed a figure.

Ai Le smiled bitterly: "I'll just say how dare your parents let you out, it turns out that someone is following, okay, it's not too early, you can go back early." ”

Ren Qianxue slowly stood up, nodded, and turned to walk in the direction where her father was, Ai Le didn't move, standing in place and watching her leave.

Ren Qianxue walked out a few steps, suddenly stopped, turned to look at Ai Le, and said, "Is what you said today true?" ”

Ai Le was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously said stupidly: "Yes, what's wrong?" (To be continued.) )