Chapter 53: Concerns about change
Ye Luoyan watched the smoke in the distance finally stop churning, and her heart calmed down as the smoke dissipated.
The people who were parasitized on the Mursis Star were all strong bands and pirates, and they all had more or less human lives on their hands, but Ye Luoyan couldn't use this as an excuse to think that they deserved to die. However, when she saw these people die, she didn't feel any emotion.
Ye Luoyan looked at her right hand, and after so much time, she seemed to be able to feel the temperature of the pirate's blood remaining on it. This is the first time she has killed someone, it should be said that the human personality has killed for the first time.
If she were the same as before, she would never have been able to do such a thing. But the fusion of the two personalities made her more and more indifferent. Killing someone is as easy as chopping vegetables for her.
Ye Luoyan's heart is very heavy, after the personality fusion, she is more resolute and calm than before, but it also makes her cruel and bloodthirsty. My emotional ups and downs are getting less and less! This is not a good sign. If she continues like this, will she become a Zerg with a human body in the future?
Qin Xiuyan walked out of the spaceship and came to Ye Luoyan's side. Ye Luoyan knew that someone was coming, but she didn't turn her head to look. Qin Xiuyan spoke first, "What are you thinking?" ”
"I don't know." Ye Luoyan's mind was so chaotic that she didn't even know what she was thinking.
"You've got something on your mind." Qin Xiuyan followed Ye Luo's gaze and looked into the distance, there was nothing but barren land and sparse plants.
"Sort of! Is there something wrong? Ye Luoyan didn't want to continue to hang out with Qin Xiuyan here, so he was finally able to be quiet by himself, and this person chose this kind of time to talk to him.
"Just wanted to talk to you." Qin Xiuyan could hear the impatience in Ye Luoyan's tone, but he still wanted to know what Ye Luoyan was thinking! What could make her change so much in just a few months.
What can make a woman go from being powerless to being murderous without blinking? This made him very curious! He knew about her and Boiling learning. But even if a person's body becomes stronger, it does not mean that a person's heart can become strong at the same time. Especially a woman who is annoyed when a man touches her breasts, it is impossible to kill someone and indifferently pull the worm out of the human body.
"Say it." Ye Luoyan knew that all this he did would always attract the attention of others. In the past month, she has seen everyone's eyes change when they see her, they don't say anything, but she knows it.
"What was it like to kill someone for the first time?" Qin Xiuyan turned his head to look at Ye Luoyan, wanting to observe her expression.
"I don't know." Ye Luoyan looked at Qin Xiuyan expressionlessly. What does it feel like? No fear, no fear, no anger, no excitement, no sorrow, no pity. What the... None of them!
Qin Xiuyan only felt a chill all over his body when he saw Ye Luoyan at this time. If it weren't for the ruthlessness of being trained to be such a cold-blooded killer since childhood, then only the Zerg would be able to be so inhumane.
"Don't look so surprised, it's not for you." Ye Luoyan's hand touched Qin Xiuyan's face, wanting to soothe his emotions.
Qin Xiuyan dodged Ye Luoyan's hand, "What has happened to you in the past few months?" ”
"Does it matter? I'm not the same person anymore, it's so simple! There's no point in getting to the bottom of it. Ye Luoyan looked at her hands, it turned out that she had already made this man who was not afraid of heaven and earth afraid? Hehe...
"You... It's getting more and more incomprehensible? Qin Xiuyan was silent for a while, he actually felt scared! He hadn't felt this emotion in a long time. But he knew that what he was afraid of was not Ye Luoyan's cold-bloodedness! It's her change, the kind of thing that isn't under his control.
"I don't understand it myself! What are you... Afraid of what? "Ye Luoyan approached Qin Xiuyan.
"I'm afraid I've revived a 'monster'!" Qin Xiuyan did not retreat this time, but instead faced Ye Luoyan. The faces of the two men almost collided with each other.
"'Monster'? I love that word! Ye Luoyan smiled. It turns out that she has evolved from a parasitic manifestation of the Zerg to the height of a 'monster'.
"If my 'monster' gets out of control, I think I'll take care of 'it' with my own hands!" Qin Xiuyan pinched Ye Luoyan's chin. Ridiculous, so a little change to want to beat yourself?
And then the wild horse that has escaped, he also has the ability to train and obey! Qin Xiuyan decided that Ye Luoyan would never want to escape from his palm!
"I'll wait." Ye Luoyan slapped Qin Xiuyan's hand away and turned to leave! Qin Xiuyan looked at Ye Luoyan's departing back with complicated eyes.
Ye Luoyan returned to the Guardian, ignoring the gazes that stared at her. She can't control what others think of her. Monsters or cold-blooded! Even if these labels are fixed on her for the rest of her life, she doesn't care.
"Master, I want to talk to you about something." Ye Luoyan found a boil in the restaurant. She had to find all the ways she could stop her from changing.
"Let's go, let's go outside!" Boiling looked at Ye Luoyan's expression, got up and walked out. The Guardian is no longer a good place to talk about intimate matters, especially if the voyeur Muxuan is still around.
The two walked to the open space not far from the Guardian, and Ye Luoyan spoke first, "Master, I want to know what the inner demon you are talking about?" ”
"I can't explain this to you! I don't have the experience of experiencing it firsthand. Boiling shook his head, he had only heard his master mention it slightly.
"Then how can Master be sure that I have demons in my heart?" Ye Luoyan was puzzled.
"These are all said by your master's master, in fact, I'm not too sure." Boiling was asked by Ye Luo, and felt a little embarrassed. When he was studying art at that time, he only learned combat, and he didn't know much about theory.
"Master, you have also seen my recent changes! Do you have a way to get me back to where I used to be? Ye Luoyan was a little frustrated, she didn't want to kill anyone, but it was like nothing had happened. She'd rather have fear, fear, than feel nothing. It made her feel farther and farther away from the definition of 'human'.
"There's nothing I can do about it." Boiling regrets that when he was with his master, he only knew how to learn combat skills. Otherwise, I can help my apprentice come up with ideas now.
Ye Luoyan was silent for a while, and then said to Boiling Boil, "Master, what do you say is the difference between the Zerg and us?" ”
"We have all kinds of emotions, and the Zerg don't have feelings." Thinking of everything that happened at the beginning, I suppressed the anger in my heart.
"Master, what will you do if I become a Zerg?" Ye Luoyan looked at the boiling eyes seriously.
"If you turn into a zerg, I might kill you." Boiling said with a smile. He felt that this apprentice had been abnormal recently, and today he was not only abnormal but also extremely stupid.
Ye Luoyan smiled and told all the states of mind that happened to him in Odopo, the process of being occupied by the Zerg personality and all the states of mind after killing people. "Master, I don't want to be like a walking dead in the future! …”
Ye Luoyan still has feelings for the important people around him, but he continues like this. Will she never feel any emotions again? She wasn't sure.
As long as the consciousness of the Worm in the body still exists, maybe there will be no more 'Leaf Falling' in this world one day. At that time, 'she' was no longer her.
"The story you make up is not fascinating at all." Boiling didn't want to believe what Ye Luoyan said.
Ye Luoyan didn't answer Boiling Boiling's words, just smiled at Boiling Boiling.
The boiling face kept twitching as if it was cramping, and Ye Luoyan saw that the boiling face was about to twist into twist, and his head was stunned by him. "Master, I'm here to discuss a solution with you! Can you fix the expression on your face? ”
"I...", he really didn't know what to do! How could he accept what Ye Luoyan said at this time and a half? He couldn't even digest what Ye Luoyan said!
However, Ye Luoyan's expression was not a joke at all. He knew in his heart that his apprentice hadn't lied to him, but he didn't want to face such a reality. What expression should he use to face such an incredible thing?
"Master, do you think your master has a way?" Ye Luoyan didn't know if she would feel hopeless after Boiling said a negative answer. If she could, she should remember that feeling now, otherwise she would not feel anything in the future, and how sad it would be!
"If it's a demon, Master must have a way! But it's a completely different situation, and I don't know. Moreover, he does not stay on the same planet for a long time all year round. It's hard to find him! Boiling shook his head.
"Master, since there is no way. Then you promise me one thing! Ye Luoyan smiled bitterly.
"Say it!" Boiling could probably guess what his apprentice was going to say.
"Just like Master said at the beginning, if one day, I will no longer be me! Just give me a good time. Ye Luoyan looked at the boiling firmly.
"What nonsense! Are you, master, and me like the kind of people who casually kill their apprentices? "How can this stupid apprentice be stupid when his personality changes! If this really happens, can he do it! Who does this take him for?
"I'm talking about the worst! Master, this is reality! None of us know what the future holds. Good? Bad? It's always better to prepare for the worst than to be stupid and naïve to live! Ye Luoyan's indifferent expression made Boiling feel as bad as the destruction of the universe.
Is this what hopelessness feels like? Is the despair you feel before you fuse your personality so cold and empty? Can't go back to the past? Ye Luoyan looked into the distance, not knowing what he was thinking.
Looking at Ye Luoyan's cold gaze looking into the distance, he felt extremely sadistic. If it is really like what Ye Luoyan said, she will never feel any emotions in the future, then what is the difference between a living corpse and a walking corpse?
Boiling decided to find his master, he had no way to help his apprentice here, but he believed that his well-informed master should have a way!
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