(34) Obsessiveness and unrepentance
Bent her body into a boiled shrimp, and the quilt was firmly covered on her, and the little orange still stuck to her, and she also got into the quilt together.
Huang Zhen'er kept thinking back and forth about Su Zhihao's completely indifferent attitude just now, was that person's status so important in his heart? The important thing can make him ignore his image and shout at himself, without even a word of comfort.
All of a sudden, she suddenly felt very humble, even now, she is still just a little assistant who can make Su Zhihao breathe around, she is not like Jin Suyuan, putting aside love, at least she can stand at the same height as Su Zhihao, she is not like the mysterious woman in Su Zhihao's mind who will not speak, occupying his heart.
"Little orange, am I asking for too much, or do I just deserve to live like this?" Holding Xiao Tang, she wouldn't answer, just meowed softly, "I think it's supposed to be that I'm asking too much, at first I just prayed to see him and tell him in person how much I like him, and now this wish has been half fulfilled, and it doesn't matter if I like him or not, doesn't it?" ”
I couldn't understand what Huang Zhen'er was saying, Xiao Tang's healing eyes squinted at her with two curved moons.
But it's all self-inflicted.,It's your own problem to fall in love with someone you shouldn't love.,Maybe when she doesn't have a chance.,There's no such distress.,At most, it's just some girlish dreams in her heart.,But she has a chance.,But it seems to be even more sad than before.,Because the pain is real.,It's like being stabbed in the heart by a sharp knife.。
But if you want to say that she is humble, the most humble person in this relationship is not her, she thought of every word Jin Suyuan said today, she is the person who has been left by her side and tortured by Su Zhihao all these years, under her seemingly strong and arrogant appearance, that soft heart may have been full of holes.
Why didn't she give up?
Suddenly, she remembered a pop song that Faye Wong had been very early on.
Don't say I should give up, I should open my eyes.
I use my heart to see and feel.
How can I understand that you are not obsessed, even if you are obsessed, you make me obsessed without regrets......
Following the melody in her memory, her tears burst out again, and the lyrics wrote about everyone's state of mind in love, no one can understand another person's attitude towards feelings, even if they are obsessed in the eyes of others, they are willing.
Since you are willing, you can't blame anyone else.
She summed up her mood in the past few days from the beginning to the present, in fact, she was also at fault, she originally planned to obediently guard Su Zhihao's side, maybe because she accidentally fell asleep holding her hand, which made her look forward to it a little more, so she began to think that she could intervene in the other party's life, and she forgot to ask herself if she was qualified.
She was even thinking that she would hope that Su Zhihao would fall in love with her like this because the fairy sister said that if she didn't succeed, then she would return to her original body and face the body that was about to die?
Huang Zhener doesn't want to fall into the former's self-aggrandizement, and she doesn't want to be the latter, because this means that she is just selfish, she really wants to live a good life, but this way of living shouldn't cause trouble to others, compared to so many Su Zhihao's fans, she is so lucky that she has nothing to say, there will be a lot of people in this world who are willing to give everything in exchange for this opportunity.
Huang Zhen'er thought a lot this night, when the lights on the third floor had gone out, she still hadn't fallen asleep, she decided to keep her original intention, protect Su Zhihao well, be a competent guardian, and also be able to give full play to the skills accumulated in the past, choose the script for him, and play her due role.
As for expecting him to fall in love with him, don't even think about it, what should be hers is hers, so happily guard him for a year, and it's not a big deal to go back and face death.
Finally wanted to open it, Xiao Tangerine was already asleep, with a snoring sound in her throat, gently touching her gradually growing orange hairs, and Huang Zhen'er also fell asleep.
In that dream, Faye Wong's singing echoed, she stood under a bright moon, looked at Su Zhihao's back in the distance, and sang quietly, hoping that the wind could bring the song to his ears, but in the dream he always turned his back to himself and didn't even look back.
*
The finale party was more lively than expected.
Gorgeously dressed actors, many directors and celebrities who could only be seen on TV screens were in attendance, and reporters came more than expected.
All this is because of the effect of Jin Suyuan's press conference, although the ratings of this drama are terrible, and there is a lot of scolding on the Internet, but the accidents that have appeared again and again have indeed attracted widespread attention, many netizens originally heard that they were very reluctant to watch it, and they also began to make up for the previous episodes, of course, the evaluation is still poor, but there are still fans who jump out to rehabilitate and expand the effect even more.
Sure enough, it is a rapidly changing entertainment industry.
Because she just went to the beauty salon, her skin and everything were well taken care of, so she simply combed her hair, picked out a dress that looked decent from the wardrobe, and painted some light makeup, and she attended with Su Zhihao.
For last night's quarrel, they didn't discuss it, as if nothing had happened, Su Zhihao wanted to apologize to Huang Zhener a few times, but he couldn't pull it off, and Huang Zhener didn't mention it, and with the same attitude as before, he talked to himself with a smile.
But eyes can't deceive people, this is not referring to Huang Zhen'er's eyes, but her swollen eye bubbles because of crying all night, although she used dark eye shadow, she still couldn't cover it.
When he arrived at the venue, Su Zhihao first went to meet with Yang Guangming and other producers and manufacturers, and there was also a process of finishing the wine for a long time, for the next drama and for more investment.
Huang Zhen'er is not the protagonist of this banquet, it is natural that she was left aside not long after she entered the venue, she was sitting in the corner eating the cake on the plate, and suddenly a figure squatted in front of her, she raised her head and found that it was Xiao Ai, and Jin Suyuan was standing next to her, and the two of them seemed to be more surprised than themselves when they saw her face.
"What's the matter with your eyes?" Xiao Ai didn't dare to ask, but Jin Suyuan didn't have this concern.
"I ......" Huang Zhen'er didn't know whether to say it or not, and bit her lip. I was scolded by Brother Zhihao yesterday. ”
"It's not because you let me in, is it? It's also too ...... There's no need to be angry with you! Jin Suyuan immediately felt guilty on her face, and her intuitive speculation was that she said that she wanted Huang Zhener to match, so she pulled Jin Suyuan into the house, and she may have met Su Zhihao who was in a bad mood and was scolded together.
"I've got to talk to him!" Jin Suyuan was angry, looking like he was going to find Su Zhihao's theory.
"No...... Hey, I asked some questions yesterday that shouldn't have been asked, and now it's fine. ”
Are you kidding? This is a finale banquet, so she can kill it now.
"Okay, I'll settle accounts with him later." Kim So-won said. "You have to remember, although I like him, but you are my savior, I don't allow anyone to bully you, do you hear?"
"I hear you." Huang Zhen'er said in a grateful tone.
"Okay, let's get started."
"Start what?" Huang Zhen'er asked suspiciously.
Jin Suyuan's eyes glanced at Xiao Ai, what he was holding in his hand was the clothes that he had changed in a hurry yesterday, and he looked at Huang Zhen'er with a smile.