Chapter 147: Is This a Break?
Xu Junsheng shuddered, but the next moment he rushed over almost frantically, pushed Lin Le away, pressed Bai Suhe tightly into his arms, and scolded Lin Le incoherently: "What nonsense are you talking about? What do you want to bewitch Xiaohe? You don't talk nonsense! ”
"Xiaohe, don't listen to Lin Le's nonsense, don't listen!" Xu Jun hugged Bai Suhe tightly, using all his strength, and didn't even notice that Bai Suho was strangled by his rough movements, and just stubbornly repeated his words, his lips were trembling: "Don't listen, he's all nonsense!" Xiaohe, don't listen! ”
Bai Suhe was pressed tightly by Xu Jun's powerful hands, and the bones in her upper body felt pain, but she didn't struggle, after the initial shock, she just stared at Xu Jun with wide eyes, her eyes were empty and desperate!
If she still had a little hope in the past, hoping that Xu Jun didn't know anything about those things, hoping that those deceptions were just things made by his family, and he was completely unaware, then now, Bai Suhe is completely dead!
If he didn't know anything, what was the reason for such panic and fear? There is no surprise, no denial, there is only such a desire to cover up!
Such a cruel reality was in front of her, and she couldn't escape if she wanted to!
Bai Suho grabbed Xu Jun's shirt tightly, and big tears fell on Xu Jun's chest.
"Xu Jun, in fact, you know everything, what you know is ......?"
She leaned weakly on Xu Jun's chest, feeling that her world had not only been subverted, but collapsed.
Xu Jun was also softly remarked. Freeze all your mind.
Only then did he know what the fear just now was, this was the real catastrophe!
He had worked hard to hide it for four years, and he couldn't hide it anymore, and the fire finally burned through the tissue paper he used to deceive himself!
Bai Suhe closed his eyes, tightened his arms and hugged Xu Jun, and the next moment, he resolutely pushed Xu Jun away!
Xu Jun was defenseless, and was smoothly pushed away by Bai Suho, who had already gotten rid of his confinement. Stand in front of him. The eyes staring at him coldly, as if the gentle eyes that were always full of smiles were just phantoms in dreams.
Xu Jun felt his scalp tingle, and the sudden emptiness in his arms made him stretch out his hand to Bai Suhe again without thinking, trying to catch her back. But Bai Soho suddenly screamed: "Don't touch me!" ”
"Little Lotus ......" Xu Jun's eyes turned even redder. He held back the sour sour feeling that rose to the tip of his nose. Desperately stopped his hand.
"You know, Xu Jun, you know everything. But you, with them, lied to me like this, and took me for a fool like this! Hehe, Xu Jun, how stupid I am, I thought they were all your relatives, and I could endure their prejudice against me for you, but I forgot that they were all your relatives, and they were your relatives! What am I, I'm just a fool with no parents, no relatives, no memories, you can cheat as much as you want! Ha, how could I be so stupid, so I deserve to be deceived by you all my life, and I don't know how my parents died, and I don't know where we came from! ”
Bai Soho pointed to the graves of her parents and complained angrily, but this was far from expressing the despair and anger in her heart!
The people of the Xu family deceived her, and Xu Jun also deceived her, so what about Xu Jun in the previous life, did Xu Jun in the previous life also know all this?
She was disheartened because of Xu Jun's death, and she was so guilty that she wanted to pay for her life, she thought that her rebirth was just for Xu Jun, she was full of eyes only Xu Jun, but what was Xu Jun's reward for her? It's the same hurt as his family!
In their previous lives, did they also work together like this, teamed up to deceive her, and watched her live like that for a lifetime with cold eyes!
The people of the Xu family have never liked her, so she is not surprised to be angry with her, but what about Xu Jun? What about Xu Jun, who has been more important than herself in her two lives? His deception is what makes her even more heartbroken!
"Xiaohe, I didn't mean to hide it from you, I'm really scared, I don't want to lose you!" Xu Jun knew that he had nothing to defend, but he still said it with red eyes, hoping to reduce Bai Suho's anger a little.
Bai Suho didn't accept such a statement at all: "Then if you treat me like a fool and deceive me like this, won't you lose me?" ”
"Xiaohe, you can't do this...... You can't leave me! As soon as Xu Jun thought of the word "loss", the tears of the man who didn't flick were gushing out along with the heart-eating pain!
Bai Suhe felt that her head was buzzing, she gritted her teeth and said the words that made her heart feel like a knife: "Xu Jun, I am no longer your Bai Suho!" I don't want to do that white Soho again! I'll never see you again, I don't want to see you again! ”
She turned in a hurry and ran towards the way she had come, her steps so weak that she almost fell to the ground.
There was a strong and powerful hand next to her who stretched out to support her and led her forward, her teary-eyed blurred vision did not turn to the owner of that hand, at this moment, as long as it was not Xu Jun, she wanted to leave him, she just wanted to leave!
"Xiaohe, listen to me, I want to give you everything back, I thought about taking everything that belongs to you back to you, you believe me! Don't do this to me, don't leave me, please, don't gouge out my heart like this! ”
Xu Jun chased after him, grabbed Bai Suho, and begged bitterly, his tearful appearance deeply stabbed Bai Suho's eyes.
But Bai Soho has decided that she has hardened her weakness, and she doesn't want to see him!
"What belongs to me can't come back, never come back, Xu Jun, I'll never come back in my last life!"
Bai Suho glanced back at the desolate lonely tomb and said softly.
Xu Jun, everything that happened in her previous life, Bai Suho has tasted it for a lifetime, and she has no way to forget it! Those resentments, those pains, are all engraved in the soul, even if they return to this world. It will never be erased!
"Last life?" Xu Jun was in a trance for a while, what was Xiaohe talking about? What can't come back?
Bai Suhe pushed Xu Jun's hand away and walked forward step by step, not daring to look back.
I will pay you back what I once owed you, and I will get back what you owe me!
Lin Le looked at the bag he was carrying in his left hand, which contained offerings such as incense and candles prepared by the aunt of the Liu family, and finally sighed. Place the bag gently on the ground. With his free hands, he hugged Bai Soho with both hands, and strode away with her along the crooked mountain road when she came.
After Xu Jun came to his senses, he strode forward and chased a few steps. But I remembered the cone-hearted words that Bai Soho said. I couldn't help but shout at the distant back: "White Soho." As you said, even if my little lotus is angry again, no matter how sad it is. will never give up Xu Jun. You said that you will never give up Xu Jun in your life, Bai Suho, what you said, does it still count? ”
Bai Suhe trembled in Lin Le's arms, her eyes were misty, yes, she said something like that.
However, where did Xu Jun, who made her love and trust with all her heart, go?
The man who questioned these words behind her, her love may still be there, her trust, but it has been dispersed with the wind.
She closed her eyes for a moment, as if closing a door in her heart, and when she opened them again, her eyes had become clear and bright.
She can't be that single-minded, she can't be that kind of white soho who only has love and doesn't care about the others.
That's it, Xu Jun, you are no longer the only one in my world.
Bai Soho continued her steps wordlessly, and her answer was already clear.
Xu Jun wiped the tears from his face and fell to his knees, but he couldn't help but cry bitterly!
How desperately he wanted to catch up, begging her not to go, how much he wanted to stop her from leaving, but how much he knew in his heart that everything had been known by Xiaohe, and it was difficult to recover it, how could Xiaohe stay now!
The place in his heart was so empty, so painful, he couldn't help but let out a low roar, echoing in the uninhabited mountains and forests.
After a long time, Xu Jun got up from the ground and walked on that road, he couldn't just give up, absolutely not!
Xiaohe can leave him temporarily, but it won't be long, he will definitely find a way to return everything to her, in that way, she will come back, she will come back to him! He's going to go back and figure out a way, he's going to fight against his loved ones!
Xu Jun seemed to understand in an instant, he quickened his pace, but stepped on something.
He looked down and saw that it was a bag containing incense and candle offerings.
He stopped, bent down and picked up the bag. What the two of them did together in the past was disturbed like this.
Xu Jun looked back at the lonely tomb, took a deep breath, suppressed the throbbing pain that was about to rise to his heart, and turned around and walked back.
In front of the mottled and dilapidated tombstones, green smoke curls and paper money flies.
The scorching sun was scattered on the man kneeling in front of the tomb. He incinerated the paper money as he chanted the words.
"Uncle and aunt, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... Forgive me, let Xiaohe not be angry with me, I will give you justice, it will definitely be ......"
Xu Jun, who has never respected ghosts and gods, began to sincerely hope for the first time that there is really such a thing as a soul in this world.
Lin Le drove the car, driving on the winding mountain road, the speed was very slow, and from time to time he turned his head to look at Bai Suho in the passenger seat, whose eyes were red like rabbits but still sobbing and wiping tears.
"Bai Soho, I only have this box of tissues in the car, and when I run out, it's gone. Don't cry, save it! Lin Le said something teasingly, trying to change her sad appearance.
Bai Soho's hand holding the tissue paused, wiped away the tears and snot on his face, and turned his head to look out the car window.
She didn't want to cry so humiliatingly anymore, but the great pain kept hitting her heart, and she wouldn't stop for a moment. The world outside the window is verdant and sunny. But her heart is gray and cloudy, and she can't be clear.
Lin Le was a little discouraged, and it seemed that he still had to divert her attention.
"Bai Soho, after you go back, do you want to go with me to see a psychiatrist?"
Bai Suho's sobbing sound was really quieted down instantly.
Lin Le continued while the iron was hot: "If you are really determined to find out what happened fourteen years ago, then it is important that your memories are retrieved as much as possible. When you were eight years old, you were a child, what kind of stimulus can make you lose all your memory? Perhaps, everything you want to know has a lot to do with the things that stimulate you. ”
Bai Suho finally had a clear reaction and nodded.
In the past, she was still hesitating, but it was her own evasive psychology that was making trouble, but now, without even thinking about it, this step must be taken. What others are unwilling to tell her the truth, she will figure it out herself, and that lost memory is crucial.
What kind of memories would it be? Is it a warm childhood, or a cruel experience? She took a deep breath and stopped her thoughts.
The excitement just now supported her and left Xu Jun with a hard heart, but now that she is calm, she can't help but think about what happened to Xu Jun. Xu Jun must have come late at night, staying on that deserted hillside with her parents' graves until dawn. He had waited so long, but only this was the result.
She doesn't regret her determination, she just can't change such a deep-rooted habit.
"Well, after you go back, I will help you contact a psychiatrist, and figure out these things as soon as possible, so that you can decide the rest of your life as soon as possible. Hey, I guess, your parents must have been very rich and rich when they were alive, five million, think about it, this was more than ten years ago, how rich they were! White Soho, you must have been a princess before, as that little stone said! ”
Lin Le tried his best to imagine her future with Bai Suho, and tried to guide her in a good direction.
Bai Soho smiled tiredly, princess? She felt like a Cinderella.
No, not even Cinderella, at least Cinderella has a father who isn't.
The money, it sounded so far away from her, and she didn't feel the slightest excitement about the amount of five million, and if she really said that there was, she was frightened and sad.
Lin Le talked all the way, until he entered the city and found that Bai Suhe's mood was not too abnormal, so he asked tentatively: "Bai Suhe, you and Xu Jun, today, is this a break?" ”
Bai Suho was silent for a while, shaking his head, not knowing whether he was saying no or not knowing.
Lin Le touched his nose playfully and didn't ask any more.
It's just that Bai Suhe suddenly said a word sullenly: "Lin Le, today, I haven't worshiped them yet......"
Lin Le remembered the bag he had left behind, thought about it, and laughed: "Bai Suho, let's go back in a few days, in the past, you went together, in the future, I'll accompany you, okay?" (To be continued......)