Sick of it.

Walking on the bustling streets, the lively crowd filled Zhang Longqian's vision, and the noisy sound passed through her eardrums, but it couldn't arouse a little wave in her heart.

Sick of it.

With no focus in his eyes, Zhang Long walked aimlessly, repeating this thought in his heart.

Really, annoyed, these people.

She stopped, watched the endless flow of people, and a dark thought came to her mind.

Why are you alive? Obviously he is no longer here, why are you still living so happily?

Why...... Only he's gone?

Zhang Longqian turned around and walked towards the secluded street.

It's a street full of old buildings, some old houses stand quietly on both sides of the street, and the shops here are also some shops that are not popular with young people and don't have any fashion atmosphere, even the bars look like they were in the 10s, so even during the day, the place is quite deserted.

Zhang Longqian stopped in front of an old bar called "Shangwu", and without looking at the "temporarily closed" hanging on the door, she walked straight into a somewhat dim alley next to the bar.

The alleys are slightly wider than usual, dark but surprisingly tidy, with a few benches against the walls. Zhang Longqian sat down on the bench in the innermost part, looking at the small shop directly opposite with blank eyes, but he seemed to look at the shadow of something that did not exist in the world.

A white, never-tainted shadow.

"Huh? Dragon diving? ”

The sweet and lovely Bai Lu suddenly appeared in Zhang Longqian's field of vision, she looked at Zhang Longqian with a look of surprise, and there was an indifferent Zhou Miao standing beside her.

"Long Qian, do you like this shop too?" Bai Lu sat down next to Zhang Longqian without hesitation, and looked at her with a smile, "Although this bookstore is very old, the books in it are surprisingly complete!" Do you like books too? ”

Hearing the excited voice, Zhang Longqian immediately stood up expressionlessly and turned to leave.

"Dragon Dive!" Bai Lu ran to Zhang Long's sneak with a cheerful smile, "We will definitely become friends!" ”

Zhang Long didn't look at her, and left around her.

"Hmm......" Bai Lu looked at Zhang Longqian's back with a devastated expression, "Why does she ignore me?" ”

Zhou Miao flipped through the book in his hand casually, ignoring Bai Lu.

Bai Lu looked at Zhou Miao, and then resolutely looked at the sky and said, "I will definitely make her my friend!" ”

Zhou Miao closed the book and finally spoke lightly.

"Don't always use your persistence in strange places."

When I walked out of the alley, there were a few thugs who got together, and this city is like that, you can see such people everywhere. Without the slightest fear or hesitation, Zhang Longqian walked past those little gangsters, as if she didn't see their existence at all, she silently walked to a bus across the street, sat down, and quietly looked at the changing scenery outside the window, but her eyes did not have any light. After a few stops, she got off the bus and walked into the cemetery.

Stopping in front of a tombstone that was still very new, Zhang Longqian quietly looked at the name on the tombstone, wanting to cry, but he couldn't shed tears.

Quietly staring at the name, for a long time, Zhang Longqian slowly raised her hand, gently touched her hair that looked very messy, as if it was cut indiscriminately, she held her hair hard, so hard that her knuckles turned white, and her hands couldn't help trembling slightly, and then she trembled like that and slowly squatted down and buried her head.

“…… Why is this happening? ”

The slight murmur also trembled slightly, hoarse, low, as if weeping.

When he got home at noon, his father looked at Zhang Longqian with a worried face, and before he could speak, Zhang Longqian looked at his father, showed a smile, and said softly: "It's okay, Dad, it's just that I'm not used to it now, and it will get better slowly." ”

Knowing that it was useless to say more, his father sighed and showed a kind smile: "Go wash your hands and eat, do you have to go to class in the afternoon?" ”

Zhang Longqian nodded, changed his shoes and entered the house.

Facing her gentle father, Zhang Longqian, who had always been gloomy, finally got a little angry on her face, and after eating and helping to clean up the table, she said to her father and walked slowly to school.

"Long Qian, you're here!"

As soon as he entered the classroom, a cheerful voice sounded, Zhang Longqian ignored the owner of the voice, and went straight to his seat and sat down. It's a pity that the owner of the voice has a unique geographical advantage, she looked at her table mate and smiled: "Let's be friends, okay?" ”

Zhang Long lay on the table, ignoring Bai Lu.

But she soon realized that it was still very difficult for her to learn to ignore Bai Lu all the time.

Because it is the same table, Bai Lu will always talk to Zhang Longqian quietly during class, and I don't know how she did it, the teacher has never found out, and every day she can talk about different topics and be happy there alone, God knows how she has so many topics. After class, Zhang Longqian was more willing to stay in her seat in a daze all the time, but because Bai Lu kept chattering, she learned to wander around and come back when she went to class, but no matter where she went, Bai Lu would appear, even when she walked to the toilet. When Bai Lu was out of school, she would pull Zhou Miao to walk with Zhang Longqian, although at first it was just a part of walking with Zhang Longqian, but then she didn't know when it started, she would always drag Zhang Longqian and Zhou Miao to go shopping together, but, of course, the result was that every time she touched Zhang Longqian, she was thrown away, and then Zhang Longqian would leave alone.

For Zhang Longqian, she didn't care much about the presence of a very noisy person around her, after all, she had already learned to filter out the voices that she was not interested in, but if she was approached, she would still leave a long distance without hesitation.

However, there is only one place where she does not hesitate to leave.

In the alley next to the old bar called "Shangwu", there was an unnamed second-hand bookstore, and it was also the place where Zhang Longqian first met Bai Lu and Zhou Miao outside the school, and she would always sit on the bench opposite the bookstore, staring at the bookstore in a daze, not knowing where to look. At this time, if Bai Lu or Zhou Miao sat next to her, she would not leave immediately. Maybe it was because she noticed that there was a subtle difference in the atmosphere, Bai Lu was always quiet at this time, of course, it was more likely that she only cared about going to the bookstore to read books, so at this time, there was usually only the quiet Zhou Miao sitting next to Zhang Longqian.

In this way, day by day, the three of them would come to this bookstore almost every day, and then Zhang Longqian sat quietly on the bench outside the bookstore, and Bai Lu ran into the bookstore happily.

Zhou Miao, who almost didn't speak, sat down next to Zhang Longqian, looked at the pages in his hand, and suddenly said lightly: "Xiaolu, she makes you very annoying, right?" ”

Zhang Longqian just looked at the bookstore full of bookshelves and didn't answer. Zhou Miao just looked at the book in his hand and stopped talking.

After a while, Zhang Longqian suddenly spoke.

"You'd better stay away from me."

The voice was faint, but full of death.

Zhou Miao glanced at her lifeless face, and said lightly: "There is no point in separating yourself all the time like this, not only is it irretrievable for the past, but even you will miss it now." ”

As if she had been poked in an untouchable place, Zhang Long stood up suddenly, she squinted her eyes and looked down at Zhou Miao, who lowered her head and continued to read, and a faint anger appeared in her voice: "What do you know?" Why? ”

"I don't know anything, but," Zhou Miao closed the book and looked up at Zhang Longqian, "For those who have passed away, it is the best thing to see loved ones cherish the present." ”

"Cherish the present?" Zhang Longqian looked away and looked up at the sky divided into a long strip by the alley, "There is nothing in my life that needs to be cherished, it is just something that annoys people. ”

"Where's my friend?"

"I have no friends and never will be." After Zhang Longqian finished speaking, he turned around and was about to leave.

"Because you're afraid of losing again?"

Zhou Miao's emotionless voice came from behind him, but Zhang Longqian seemed to hear a sigh inside. She stopped and didn't answer.

But in her heart, it couldn't be clearer.

Yes, it's the fear of losing again, the fear that you won't be able to protect what you want to protect, and then fall into endless regret.

Therefore, it is better not to touch it again.

"Huh? Long Qian, are you already leaving? Wait, I'll treat you to ice cream. Bai Lu saw Zhang Longqian about to leave from the bookstore window, so he put down the book in his hand and walked to the freezer at the door, while rummaging money everywhere on himself.

Zhou Miao walked over, took out the money and said, "Your money has been used to buy books, I will invite you today." ”

Hearing this, Bai Lu looked at Zhou Miao with a shocked face: "Huh, hey!?" Xiao Miao will actually have a treat? Xiao Miao, who usually doesn't even want to pay for the bus himself, will actually treat her? Could it be that the sun rises today from east, west, north and south? ”

"If you say anything superfluous, I won't teach you homework." As he spoke, a smile seemed to bloom on Zhou Miao's lips, "After all, it's not bad to invite a friend to eat once in a while." ”

Looking at the ice cream stretched out, Zhang Longqian looked at Zhou Miao who was holding the ice cream, and there seemed to be a smile on the face of the short-haired girl who was originally expressionless: "Don't you?" It's rare for me to have a treat. ”

Zhang Longqian looked at the chocolate-flavored ice cream again, but seemed to see a fair-skinned slender hand handing her the same packaged thing, which made her eyes shake for a moment, and then when Bai Lu thought she didn't like this flavor, she finally reached out and took the ice cream in Zhou Miao's hand, then pinched the bag and turned around and slowly left.

Bai Lu held the ice cream in one hand and waved vigorously in the other: "Long Qian, bye!" ”

Holding the ice cream bag and walking towards the alley, Zhang Longqian's eyes involuntarily fell on the ordinary packaging bag in his hand, and a gentle and clear voice seemed to sound in his ears.

"If you're just scared and you don't do anything, nothing will change! …… To you...... To me...... Both. ”

Change? Me?

Lost my hero, so weak me?

How is it possible?

Moreover......

What's the point of changing your world without you?

“…… Brother Fox ......"

Calling softly to the person who no longer existed, Zhang Longqian couldn't suppress the pain that erupted in his heart, and couldn't help but close his eyes.

At this moment, a few whispered conversations were captured by her extraordinary hearing and transmitted clearly.

"That bookstore always closes on time, huh...... Two minutes to go. Hehe, the boss should be leaving right away, right? ”

"Well, then those two little loli will read a book on the bench there for about half an hour, you can't be wrong."

"Let's go! Let's have fun with two little sisters! Besides, that long-haired little sister comes to buy books every day, and she looks very rich, maybe she has a lot of them! Hey, hey, hey! ”

Zhang Longqian stopped and looked back at the four thugs walking towards the long alley, then she withdrew her gaze, but instead of turning back, she still walked towards the street outside the alley.